Hello my lovelies!

Okay, so I am so happy with the feedback with the last chapter! Keep it coming!

Anyway, so if you go sort all of the GMW stories by favorites my story is number 3! Woot!

I apologize for the upcoming angst and my bad hospital diagnosements and stuff I'm not an expert.

Disclaimer: I do not own GMW or BMW

Riley's back was stiff when she woke up. Her hair was messed up and everything felt really clean. There were people walking by in uniforms and the bright white blankets and pillows that she resided in were almost blinding. Maya's head was resting on her shoulders and Farkle's head was resting in Maya's lap.

She was in a hospital.

Lucas. Lucas was in a hospital. Lucas was hit by a car.

Riley carefully shifted away from Maya's body so that she wouldn't wake her up. She stood up cautiously letting her body adjust to the newfound space. Her knees felt like Jell-O and she almost fell back down again. Suddenly, she was acutely aware of her surroundings.

Lucas's parents were cuddled together on the sofa across from them. Her mom was with Auggie, and wherever her dad was, it wasn't here. Everyone was still in their pajamas and the smell of terribly stale coffee and scrubs filled the air. Riley still had on her bunny slippers and Maya still had on her leopard patterned slippers and as cute as they looked, it was all tainted by the setting.

Out of the corner of her eyes she saw her dad coming towards the waiting room. He carried cups of coffee and takeout from the local breakfast place.

Cory sat down next to his daughter. She looked truly dead. There were dark circles under her eyes that were currently bloodshot from crying. Her skin looked paled and in all she looked like she might faint any second. He was worried about her now. She hadn't taken the news well last night and he knew how much she loved Lucas.

Riley leaned her head against her dad's shoulder and took a donut and a cup of coffee. To be truthful, coffee wasn't something Riley drank on a day-to-day basis, but it seemed like a good thing to drown herself in. She added packets upon packets of sugar after the initial shock of the bitterness. Her dad watched her as she quickly ripped open packets and chug the coffee down, soon reaching for the next cup.

"Honey," Cory interrupted while taking the cup of coffee out of her hands. "You don't even like coffee," he pointed out.

"So?" Riley said trying to reach for the cup.

"You can't keep your feelings bottled up"

"Who said I was?" Riley defended her voice getting louder and angrier.

"Riley I know this is hard for you"

"No," Riley mumbled sarcastically.

"But Lucas is hurt," Cory reminded her.

"Don't." Riley pleaded her eyes tearing again.

She stood up and slowly backed away from her dad. By this time her mom had woken up laid Auggie down on the chair and had walked over to them.

"Riley, this is reality. You can't be living in denial. The truth is that Lucas-"

"Stop!" Riley yelled waking up Maya and Farkle. Her voice was getting raspy and she could feel the desperation in her voice and she was so acutely aware of how much her throat was protesting her screams. "Stop telling me things, I already know. Don't you think I know that Lucas is in there possibly fighting for his life? I could've prevented this. I could've done something."

"Riles," Maya said quietly. "This wasn't in your control"

"No! Stop talking about this like this is some kind of Shakespeare tragedy play where Lucas ends up dying. Stop telling these things!"

Topanga tried to hug her daughter but Riley expertly backed away. Everyone exchanged looks. Riley broke down last night, but this time she was already broken, this time she couldn't be fixed by hugs and kind words.

Amy, Alan, Eric, Jack, Shawn, and Angela had all arrived by now. Cory had called them on his trip to the breakfast place. Their ears had picked up the last bits of the conversation.

Maya grabbed Riley's shoulders and made Riley look her in the eyes. Riley squirmed and kicked but Maya was stronger and eventually Riley gave in.

"Lucas is in a coma Riley."

Riley's whole body went limp. This wasn't a broken arm that could be healed in a month, this was a life or death situation. It occurred to Riley that he might never wake up. And Riley was furious. She was mad at the world and at that driver who got away with and she was about to explode.

Riley easily knocked off Maya's arms and let out an ear-shattering scream. The nurses looked at them but didn't do anything. They had seen this before.

"He promised me!" Riley sobbed. She was on the floor now. Her whole body curled into a ball. "He said that he would never leave me. He promised," her voice growing quiet.

Everyone watched on as Riley broke down even more, if she was shattered before now she was obliterated. Amy and Alan watched their granddaughter helplessly. Topanga grabbed onto Cory's arm, it hurt to see her daughter in pain but she didn't know what to do. Jack, Eric, and Angela did the same.

In all of Riley's short life, Eric had never seen Riley less than happy. She was always bouncing around lighting up the room with her bright smile. But now, she was tearing it down brick by brick. And he was frozen with confusion.

It was Shawn who acted first. He knew what it was like to be scared to death about losing someone close to him. Hell when this happened to him, he joined a cult. He rushed to Riley and hugged her tight, whispering words of comfort into her ear.

But it was Maya who noticed the signs. She couldn't hear Riley's crying anymore, she couldn't even hear her breathing. She heard small silent gasps for breaths.

"Call a nurse!" Maya yelled panicked.

Everyone looked around confused. Farkle ran off trusting Maya's instinct.

"Why?" Amy asked confused.

"Call a goddamn nurse!" Maya exclaimed desperation seeping into her voice.

"Maya calm down nothing's wrong," Cory tried to assure her.

"Move!" Maya yelled. She pushed Shawn out of the way and did the same thing that she did when Riley first had her panic attack.

"Maya! What's wrong?" Eric question. Unlike everyone else, he noticed the changes when Maya did. He thought nothing of it. It was a long time since the attack.

"The panic attack she had when we fought," Maya cryptically explained.

"What is she talking about?" Angela butted in.

Jack ran a hand through his hair. He started pacing back and forth, a bad habit he had accumulated in the peace court.

"A month or two ago Riley and Maya fought," Jack explained. "Riley ran off and Maya found her, she was having a panic attack."

Everyone was silent. No one could move. It wasn't until the nurse showed up that people started to talk again.

"Is she going to be okay?" Topanga questioned. Her voice cracked a bit, tears welling in her eyes.

"Miss, please move out of the way," the nurse politely ushered everyone to the side.

Maya didn't want to let go but eventually did as she watched the nurse carry Riley into a different section of the hospital.

Topanga cried as she watched her daughter leave. And the room once again fell silent.

Later on in the day, updates were bountiful. Riley was fine again. The doctors said that this would happen once in a while for the rest of her life but only to come back to the hospital if it happens more than once a week. Otherwise, whoever is with her just has to be there with her until she calms down.

Lucas was still in a coma. But people were allowed to see him.

"Riley you go next," Lucas's mom offered.

But Riley was frozen. She was tired and she wasn't ready to see Lucas's condition. She wasn't ready to talk to him, and not have him talk back.

"No, you guys should go next," she motioned to Farkle and Maya.

They shared a look at each other but agreed. No one was ready to see Lucas, but no one was ready to see Riley in that magnitude of distress again either.

After a little while Maya and Farkle came out. Their eyes were tinged slightly red and Maya's voice was pretty quiet.

"No I can't," Riley mumbled to herself. "You go dad. I'm sure he'd appreciate it."

"You know hon, he'd appreciate it if you went in too."

Topanga stopped him before he could carry on. They went inside and came back like Maya and Farkle did, teary eyed and quiet.

Riley sighed and got up. She had to do it at one point. No one else needed to talk to him so she sucked up her doubt and went in.

She froze at seeing Lucas's still body on a crisp white hospital bed. It looked so pristine. So untouched. But Riley knew better. She knew that right there on that hospital bed, Lucas was fighting so hard for his life. She knew that whatever he was going through, she couldn't help him. That killed her.

Cautiously, Riley sat down on the chair that resided next to his bed. She looked at him, and took a deep breath and began.

"Hey," she mumbled. Shocked a little when she didn't hear a 'hey' back, even though she didn't know why. "So I have been postponing this visit for a while. I don't- I don't know what to say. Because here you are fighting and here I am sitting and what I'm saying, is just words. It's not going to help you, but I can try right? Okay so, here we go," Riley took a deep breath and started over.

"I love you. You know I love you. I know that you know that I love you. And I know this is practically bullshit to say because here I am about to talk about pain when you're going through much more than I could ever imagine. But goddamnit it hurts so much to say I love you and not hear it back. But not because you don't love me, because you can't say it and-" the tears started to pour.

"You deserve the whole world, Lucas. If I could give you anything and you asked for the moon, I would find some way, somehow to get it because it's worth it. You're worth it. And you don't deserve this and I'm sorry that this happened to you and I couldn't prevent it and I just can't sit here and see you like this and not break down because that means that this is real. That this isn't just a dream and that you're actually here in this godforsaken hospital. And I hate that. I hate that you get this as a result of all the good things that you've done.

"You know you make me a better version of me. And I would like to believe that I make a better version of you. Because that's what love is. That's what we have right here, no matter where we are, no matter what time it is, this connection this bond we have. That's love. And I wish that you were here to feel it too.

"Please. Please don't leave me. I can't be here on this planet without knowing that somewhere you're on it too. Because even if we break up even if we part ways it's better knowing you're alive than knowing we're not together because you're not."

Riley took a long pause. How long had she been in here for anyway? She wasn't going to leave now. She couldn't leave Lucas like this, not now. Not ever. Not anymore.

Her voice was now hoarse. She could barely talk.

"Just. Please. Don't leave."

I hope you guys liked this chapter. I again apologize in case this wasn't realistic enough in terms of hospital stuffs.

I promise, Lucas and Riley interactions will be coming soon!

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