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Chapter 14

Time had continued moving as I sat there on the branch. I knew that some hours had gone by, when Draco had left me here; the sun had only just risen about an hour ago, now I could tell that it was late noon. This didn't matter to me, now that Draco was gone, life had ceased to hold any importance to me, not that I was suicidal or anything. Draco had insisted that I escape today with my life, and I had never been able to resist doing what he said, but I had no wish to move anywhere or do anything.

My sobs had quietened to miserable whimpers. I knew I should I return to my family who would all be going crazy with worry by now at my disappearance, but I didn't want to face them, not because I was mad at them or anything. I could feel nothing now; I had cried so much that I was now numb. The whole no one-ever-told-me-I-had-been-imprinted-on thing had ceased to anger me. No, I didn't want to face my family because I couldn't bear to do that. The shock and hurt on their faces when they saw the condition I was in would be enough to push me off the edge of my sanity, that's what I was doing now; clinging onto the last solid scarps of reason I had left.

I didn't want to face my family, the combination of all the faces of the people I loved and cared about would just send me into hysterical cries of pain because I didn't want to see all the faces of the people I love stare at me, with the exception of one person. I loved Draco so much, and the thought that I would never again meet the gaze of that angelic face caused a huge lump to rise in the centre of my throat, a lump so huge that it felt like I couldn't breathe.

Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air


If I should die before I wake
its cause you took my breath away
losing you is like living in a world with no air, oh


I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
my heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I could make you understand

I could no longer help it, a fresh torrent of tears poured over my face. How could Draco think that I could ever live with the guilt of the fact that I was the reason of his death? It made it all so much worse because I had loved him so much, I had finally understood him, and I felt that he understood me in a way that no one else could. I had fallen so deeply in love with him that my world now revolved around him.

But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
it's so hard for me to breathe

{CHORUS}
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
That's how I feel whenever you ain't there
There's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here I just can't breathe
There's no air, no air

I shot up into a straight sitting- up position whereas before I had been leaning into the tree bark in the most pathetic looking position ever, but now as I heard sounds from below me, I sat up, completely alert as I heard the sounds of someone blundering about below me. I could feel my heart beat erratically; not out of fear, out of false and stupid hope that Draco was coming back for me.

I gasped as I saw Sam Uley's face appear amongst the leaves in front of me. I knew that the tears on my face must've dried up, leaving streaks across my face; my hair was in tangled knots as I hadn't brushed it out since yesterday morning, my clothes were tattered and dirty, and I was certain with all the thinking and crying I'd done and the pain I had suffered, along with my disheveled appearance, I must've looked a state.

"Renesmee, are you hurt? The Cullens and Jacob have been going mad with worry about you, what happened? You look terrible" Sam scolded me, his words coming out in a jumble. I could feel my heart deflate as I realized how stupid I had been to think…

I opened my mouth to speak, but all that came out was a small whimper, the only thing that was in my head was Draco, how he had gone to protect me, and thus, I couldn't speak, the pain making it damn near impossible. I saw Sam's worry as he heard that wretched sound escape me; I hung my head in despair. He said nothing as he lifted me out of the branch, I made no sound as he climbed down the tree, I was numb, and all I could think was that "He's gone, he's left me forever".

I barely noticed when we reached the white house where my family was residing. I was only thinking of how I had lost Draco.

"Nessie" I heard several voices cry as Sam carried me through the front door.

"I'm really sorry, Bella, she's… not physically hurt as far as I can tell, but back in the woods, it was just like seeing your face all over again all those years ago when I found you" I heard Sam say as I looked up to see mom and dad's face blanch as they shared a look full of meaning, what was that about? But I was too numb to care about it too much.

Sam put me down on the ground upon my request, as Sam let, I saw everyone in my family and I saw exactly what I had been afraid of, what I had been certain that would cause me to break out into fresh sobs. Everyone was wearing the worried expressions I hated to see. I swallowed, but I knew that I couldn't hold the tears in any longer so I ran past everyone and up into my room, only to collapse onto my bed and sob.

"Nessie, please tell us what's wrong? Wasn't Draco with you?" I looked up to see anger cross mom's voice at the mention of Draco, what was up with that?

"Nessie, we'll leave if you would prefer to be alone" I heard dad say quietly, but I didn't want to be alone, the person who I had loved the most had already left me to protect me, I didn't want anyone else to do the same, which was why I cried desperately:

"No, please don't leave me"

Mom and dad walked over to sit on either side of me on the bed, mom put her arms around me as I sobbed into her shoulder as dad stroked my hair comfortingly. But it wasn't enough, I craved another set of arms to console me just like they did last night when I was consumed in pain and anger, but those arms would never comfort me and I cried harder into mom's arms.

"Nessie, please tell us what's happened?" dad begged softly. I cried a little more until I was sure I could speak more coherently.

"Draco's gone, he's left me forever and gone" I cried.

"You mean he just left you? Just like that?" dad growled quietly, it was then that I realized that they had misinterpreted my words into something much more cowardly and disgusting of Draco, I immediately felt furious that they could ever believe Draco would just dump me for no good reason.

"NO, SOME VAMPIRE ENEMIES OF HIS CAME HERE TO KILL ME, AND THEY WOULD'VE KILLED ME TOO IF DRACO HADN'T MADE ME HIDE AND LEFT TO FACE THEM SO THAT THEY COULD KILL HIM!" I roared furiously at them tears flooding over my face.

Mom gasped and held me tighter, dad's hands on my hair stilled for a moment before moving again, but more soothingly and gently than before. I sobbed harder into mom.

"Oh, mom what do I do? I can't live without him, and I'm hurting Jake so much because of that, I hate myself for doing this to him, but I can't help it, I love both of them so much, and I've already lost one of them" I cried.

Mom sighed before saying: "I know you probably won't believe me when I say I understand what you're going through, but I do because I had to make the same decision as you myself between Edward and Jacob, back when Jacob was still in love with me"

I stared at mom through the curtain of tears in my eyes, I believed her and I was shocked by what she just said and appalled at what she had informed me of.

"Decision?" I asked.

"Yes, you'll have to decide between the two of them, you know that, you always knew that it was coming up sooner or later, you alone know which one you can't live without" mom explained.

"Mom, how am I supposed to decide when Draco is already gone?" I asked, a low whimper coming from me.

"Nessie, only you can make that decision, I know that you have the courage to get through this. Whoever you choose, if they truly love you, they'll let you go without a fight, Jacob only ever wants you to be happy, whether you want him around as a brother or a friend or whatever, he'll be there for you, imprinting doesn't necessarily mean that you'll have to get married or anything, it just means that you guys have an unbreakable bond that will always make sure you two are there for each other" mom consoled me soothingly.

"Thanks, mom, you guys are great, but I think that I need some time alone to think" I replied, feeling more solid now, an idea of action was beginning to occur to me. Mom and dad left without a word, each of them giving me a comforting squeeze on the way out. Mom was right; I had to find that courage in me to get through this. I sat on the bed for a long time contemplating for hours. I finally nodded to myself, and got up to get dressed, so that I could set things straight.

However, it was not courage that convinced me to get dressed to leave the house again, it was that small voice in my heart that kept whispering to me that Draco was still alive somewhere. I had been sobbing all afternoon, thinking that he was dead because of that memory of our farewell, my mind had been convinced that he was gone, but all the while it was my heart been whispering that he was alive. It was that that had caused me to hope that Draco was coming for me when I had heard Sam in the forest.

Now that I had let my heart rule over and voice out its knowledge, I was following my heart (A/N, I know that sounds corny and cliché), love was telling me that Draco was alive, and I was listening and going out to find him.