Hey guys thanks sooo much for your reviews i hope you wont be disappointed with this update. As promised it is here and Sawyer's reaction i hope it may surprise you an i hope its a good surprise lol and just wanted to say if this fic gets to the 100 review mark the 100 reviewer will get a lil reward lol anyways heres the fic hope you enjoy. :)


They both make their way out and head to Claire's car, and head towards Kate's and Sawyer's place. Well Sawyer's after tonight, actually it had pretty much been Sawyer's house for the past 2 months, as she has still been living with Claire, only seeing Sawyer 3 times a week, even that had dwindled down to only a night this past week.

"I'll wait for you out here okay, if you're not out after 2 hours I'm coming in."

Kate smiles at Claire's protectiveness.

"I doubt I'll be in there 10 minutes once I tell him."

With a hesitant smile shared between them, Kate undoes her seatbelt and makes her way towards the house, opening the door, and walking in.

"Sawyer, are you here?"

She asks looking around the bottom floor of the house. She turns around to see Sawyer smiling.

"Hey, what you doing here, you didn't tell me you we're coming over tonight, I would've prepared something."

He walks towards her to place a kiss on her cheek, she freezes, he realizes this and steps back puzzled.

"What's going on Kate?"

"I…you may wanna sit down."

A tear slides down her face, Sawyer reaches out to wipe it but she steps back.

"Don't…"

Sawyer looks confused and hurt, his eyes widen a little before asking Kate.

"What happened Kate, tell me. Please."

"I'm pregnant." She chokes out as another tear roles down her face; she closes her eyes tightly, unsure of how Sawyer was going to react.

"What…how…how far are you?" His voice trembles slightly.

She opens her eyes to see Sawyer's eyes filling up, but still holding a tiny amount of hope.

He continues.

"Cos I mean, the last time you and I…the last time we…that was at least 4 months ago…is that why you've been…Oh my god…"

He walks slowly towards the couch; he collapses down, his head in his hands. He slowly lifts his head to look at her.

"You weren't pregnant when…when I hit you?"

A tear manages to escape his eye, and make his way down his cheek. Kate quickly shakes her head and walks closer to him sitting on the couch beside him. She reaches for Sawyer's hand and squeezes it.

"No. No, I wasn't pregnant. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." More tears make there way down Kate's face, she's surprised when she feels Sawyer squeeze her hand back and say.

"Who's the lucky guy." He still can't help the emotion that escapes him as he tries to sound strong.

Kate looks at him surprised, and overwhelmed by his acceptance of it all, she couldn't speak and Sawyer smiles a little telling her that he was okay, that she could tell him.

"There is no one else…there was, but erm, it's really complicated."

She rubs her forehead, and she feels Sawyer squeeze her hand again, this causing her to say something, she needed to know.

"Why are you being so understanding, I thought, I thought you would…?"

"Hit you? Is that it…is that what you really think of me?"

He takes his hand back hurt, as Kate looks down embarrassed.

He looks at her, and hesitates a moment, before replying honestly.

"I knew it was over between us, it wasn't even the moment I…I hit you, I, I guess we've been trying to ignore it for so long, we didn't even realize the moment when it all had faded away."

Another sob escapes her.

"I do love you though Sawyer, and, that's, I guess that's why this is so hard."

He smiles a gentle knowing smile, then comes to sit back down next to her.

"Loving someone and being in love with someone is two totally different things."

"You, been reading my romance novels again." She asks, they both laugh through their tears.

"Anyone who's been in love before knows the difference between the two. I think we were both just afraid of being alone, that we we're just waiting around until we found that one person that we could grow old with."

"But I don't have anyone else…He doesn't…He won't speak to me."

"But he's the one you want to grow old with?"

She looks away uneasy, sure Sawyer was taking this really well, but talking to him about Jack was another thing all together.

Sawyer senses her uneasiness, hell he was uneasy himself, but he knew he had to be the bigger man, there have been times in this relationship that he couldn't even call himself a man, he at least wanted to end their marriage being the good guy, not some drunk who hit her.

"Sawyer, I, I never could've imagined you being this understanding about everything. God I cheated on you! I've got pregnant by another guy, and all you can say is, is he the one?"

Sawyer looks away, and refrains himself from saying what he was going to, and, looks at Kate.

"What do you want me to say! Do you want me to tell you how much this is killing me, being the bigger man! But it's the only way that I can find peace with the end of our marriage. If this is all I get out of us, let me have this, let me walk out of this marriage knowing that I did all I could to make this easy for you." He lets out a breath.

"We just couldn't stop, nothing else mattered, nothing else was on our minds except each other… but, we we're both, are both married. Nothing could've happened." Her mind seems some place else as she tells him.

"But it can. Kate, if you want it, want him, and if he wants you, don't let him slip away. I know that a real family is all you've ever dreamt of Kate, so don't be afraid to dream. Don't be afraid to go after him."

Wow. A silent, happy tear trails down her cheek, and she smiles at Sawyer.

"I hope you practice what you preach."

Sawyer looks at her with a slanted smile.

"If I'm doing this, you're doing it too. I'm not walking away knowing I've left you all alone, because whatever does or doesn't happen with Jack, I've got part of my dream already, I can live with that. But, I can't live with knowing you're alone, so promise me, promise me you'll find your person."

Sawyer nods gently and wipes his face.

"I promise."

Kate wipes her face as she stands; she holds Sawyer's gaze, both know that everything is going to be different now, Sawyer opens his arms slightly and Kate hesitates for about a second before walking forward and wrapping her arms around Sawyer's neck.

"You make good on that promise okay."

"I will, just let me know when you want me to phone the lawyers."

Kate stands back; she nods, and then walks past Sawyer, before pausing at the door. She fiddles with her hands, he wasn't sure what she was doing, but he knew then, when he saw her place her house key on the small rounded table bedside the door, and as the door shut behind her, he knew, he had to figure out how to move on.

The sound of the door closing echoed through her ears all the way to the car, where an anxious Claire was still sitting watching the house.

As she closed the door to the car, all other sounds vanished, she didn't hear Claire ask how it went, how Sawyer reacted, if she was okay, she was still trying to rack her own brain around it all.

She somehow answered Claire.

"He was great, is a good break up really possible, I don't know how to describe what happened just now. Just that we both know where we stand now, where we want to go next, and we know that isn't with each other."

"Wow, I told you he may surprise you, I never knew I'd be surprising myself though by saying that."

"Can we, can we just go home."

Home, that's what it was now to Kate, all she had. Claire nods and starts the car, and they set of back to their place, no other words spoken the entire journey home.

...

He felt terrible not calling her back, he was torn, a part of him wanted so much to know what she wanted, and just to hear her voice again, but the other part, the part that won out last night, the part that thought, would he end up back at square one? Could he take the risk, and end up some place new, or back where he started, where he's still trying to get out off.

He had to try and push those thoughts aside for the time being, his divorce was finalized today, and he was going to go see Sarah. He couldn't go looking like he did, or they might consider locking him up in there too. Maybe it would be better, why did he say that, being in a place like that wouldn't do him any good, and it's only helping Sarah because they make sure she can't harm herself.

He went to his bathroom and shaved before going to put on a pair of faded blue jeans and a white t-shirt. He grabbed his leather jacket and his cell and his keys, and headed to his car and towards the institute.

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Oooh so what has happened to Sarah? Why was Sawyer so great is it just because he's such a great guy??? ;p And will Jack phone her back, when will he find out?? All will be revealed soon don't worry and I may do the flashbacks i'm not sure yet but you will get your answers soon :D thanks for reading please let me know what you think :) x