JuseaPeterson - Well, I knew the ending was out of character, for where it was in the book. That's why I mentioned in a note at the bottom, that it was just my take on what could have happened, in a different sitting. It's just my opinion, really. I like angsty Edward, but I wanted to go for more of a happy ending. Well, I don't think Edward was completely in character, because it was still set early in their relationship, and Edward is darker in his thoughts on himself. His happy, accepting attitude in the end was OOC, a little, as it came too soon, if you get what I mean?

But otherwise, I love keeping them in character.

LOL, now I'm bouncing between trying once again for the sequel to 'Dragon Figurines' (a PRNS fic), Supernatural fics (Team Cas! Yay!), and Twilight fics (Team Edward! Whooo!).

TriGemini - Exactly. When I first found myself reading Twilight and New Moon, I questioned if Edward had a soul, because he was a vampire and all that, but I was leaning strongly towards 'Yes'. As I read, I quickly believed he does, and nothing can ever change my mind. He's made mistakes in the past, but everyone does. He loves Bella, now, and loves and protects his family any way he can.

Well, I think the ending would have fit better, if there had been more of a story between the beginning and the end. I mean, it only just happened, and I found it was slightly out of character for Edward to believe it so fast, but I do believe that if Bella was to stay with him, he'd have to see the light eventually.

This one is a little....ramble-icious? LOL. I don't even know what to think of it. Three more chapters to go after this one (unless I can think up other topics to write about, but I need the muse)

Warning : Dark and slightly...uh...insane (?) content.

Book - Twlight

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(Edward's POV)

When I led Bella to the meadow, I wasn't sure what to expect. She'd told me she knew what I was and if I'd had a heart, that surely would have stopped it. Instead of being frightened like I'd expected, she was surprisingly calm.

I didn't like that.

She doesn't know what kind of danger she's in! I thought as I glared at her. I could kill her without a second thought! I want to! God, I want to! My eyes flashed to her throat, but she didn't even blink. The look was so quick, I doubted she even noticed. It would be so easy... My mind began running over so many ways to kill her. First, it was all ways to do it without spilling her blood, so I wouldn't have to face the surely impossible task of not feeding on her. I could have snapped her neck, strangled her, broke her back... No... I shook my head.

Racing forward, I grabbed her arm and began dragging her through the forest. There's too many ways. My mind then began to flash over so many ways to kill her, both fast and painless to slow and painful, all of which involved me feeding off her at some point, as my hunger began to stir. Stop it! I wouldn't give in. No, I would fight it. Both because I couldn't bear to hurt her, and because I couldn't bear to destroy everything Carlisle worked so hard to build for us.

"Where are we going?" Bella seemed uncertain, but not afraid.

I have to scare her. I have to make her afraid. She wasn't afraid of our eating habits, though. Maybe if I took her somewhere where we'd be alone and just let my nature out... If I told her how badly I wanted to kill her, to drain her dry... "Up the mountain, through the cloud cover. You need to see me in the sun, now!" That was surely to do it. She must have been able to ignore my nature because here, we looked like we fit in, even though we clearly didn't.

She'd never seen us feed, and if it was safe enough, I'd have shown her, but it wasn't. The sunlight seemed like a safe idea.

Why must she always be so close? Nothing frightens her! My breathing sped up as I quickly turned and tossed her onto my back. My throat burned from the thirst as her scent hit me. She was too close, but I pushed it all away as I began to run up the mountain, ignoring her gasp of fright at the speed. Oh, right. I'm a vampire and she's afraid of my running. I jumped over a log and ducked under several low branches. I kept thinking I had to make her understand.

I want to kill her!

But I can't!

Two sides of me warred about this. My vampiric nature begged for the taste of her blood; to feel the hot sweet liquid ooze down my throat and satiate the burning hunger. It screamed she was a threat to my coven, to my family. My long buried human side was coming back with a vengence, arguing that it was wrong and cold. Something about her drew me.

Was it the fact I couldn't read her mind, like I could everyone else? No, but it played a big part. She was fascinating. The more time I spent around her, the harder it was to leave her behind. Obviously, my hunger didn't scare her; my nature meant nothing more than a technicality to her. She wasn't afraid. So maybe, if she saw something she couldn't explain... If she saw something she couldn't pass off as human in any way... Maybe then she'd be afraid.

"Edward?" Her voice was so tiny and shaky.

Glancing over my shoulder, I saw her eyes were wide with terror and excitement. "What?" The tone wasn't as harsh as I was going for. Staring into her eyes, I couldn't help but feel myself thaw toward her.

"Watch where you're going!" She shrieked, ducking her head into my shoulder.

I spun and dodged easily around a tree, ducking under the branches. "Running is second nature to me, I won't crash!" I called slightly as I tried to bite back my grin. I saw beams of light beginning to penetrate the trees and every time I ran through one, my hands and my face lit up. Her face was still buried in my shoulder, her breath hot against my throat, so she wouldn't see it. Almost there. Part of me felt horrible. What if I did succeed in scaring her off? I didn't want to lose her, even if it was safer for everyone if she left.

We finally reached the point I was looking for and I carefully lowered Bella to the ground. I watched a moment, amused, as she stumbled and stood shakily. Then my amusement faded as I turned and walked towards the sunlight. "This is why we can never go out in the sun with people around." I stated as my hands made quick work of the buttons of my shirt.

For a split second, my human side's modesty overwhelmed me, even as I pulled the last button through the hole. I pushed it aside, however, as I stepped into the light and turned to face Bella. Do you see? I knew my expression was anxious, even as her eyes widened and raked over my naked chest. Do you see what I meant??

I expected fear and horror. I expected her to scream, or cry, or look utterly disgusted. I didn't expect the awed look that came into her eyes. I didn't expect the way her jaw dropped ever so slightly and her eyes filled with tears. I didn't know whether or not to expect the deep cherry blush that stained her cheeks, even as she took a step closer, clearly mesmerized.

"It's like thousands of diamonds are embedded under the surface." The words were a whisper. An unconscious vocalisation of her thoughts; not meant for me to hear.

But I did.

Her eyes slowly worked their way up from the waist of my pants, raking over every inch of exposed flesh. It was...unnerving. If I'd had the ability to blush, I probably would have. Her eyes looked so deep and brown, and they danced back and forth as if struggling to take in every possible millimeter. "You're beautiful."

I laughed harshly and spun. Stepping down and out of the light, I moved away from her, even as my fingers quickly ran over the buttons, redoing them. "It's the vampire. It's the skin of a killer, Bella. I'm a killer." I was mentally screaming at her to understand, even as I kept my back to her. Yet, I was aware of her following me, hearing her clumbsy steps as she struggled to keep up.

"It doesn't matter." I heard her slip and fall.

Turning, I watched as she got up. "I've killed before." I told her, watching as she took that in and shook her head.

"I don't care." And she really didn't, I could see that in her eyes.

For a moment, I felt a strange fluttering in my chest, and it hit me...she didn't care I was a monster. She didn't care I'd killed before, that I wanted to kill every day of my existence. I thought of something that I was so positive would change her mind. My throat tightened, even as I walked closer. "I want...to kill you." I hated myself in that instant, for saying those words aloud, but I had to make her understand!

Her face contorted a little for a moment as she processed that. Uncertainty flitted across her face, but it cleared in less than a second and she stepped up close to me, causing me to take a quick backstep to keep a little distance.

Her words were echoing through my mind, even as I tried to process what was going on. I tried to process that I just told her I wanted to kill her, and she was standing there, big as she pleased, as if I'd just told her it was a nice day out. Where's her fear?! "I've never wanted a human's blood so much." I tried to explain, letting my thoughts spill out over my tongue. Why isn't she terrified of me?? Why doesn't she hate me?!

She shook her head and took another step closer, making me take another step back. "I'm not afraid of you."

That did it. I felt myself snap. "You should be!" I yelled. I used my speed and disappeared from her sight to race around in the trees and land on a nearby boulder, watching as her eyes seemed to dart to me in an unusually slow manner, though I knew it would be quick to any other human. "As if you could run away!" I jumped down and flashed around in the trees, knowing her eyes wouldn't be able to keep up. I came to a stop less than five feet in front of her, glaring at her even as she gasped.

Her heart was pounding and her breathing was unsteady. Her face was ashen and she stared at me with wide innocent eyes.

"As if you could fight me off!" I continued, taking a sick thrill in being this free around her. I snapped a root off a nearby boulder with ease, using only one hand. Staring at her for a split second, I turned and tossed the root at another boulder and watched as it smashed part of the boulder to pieces, and how the dirt and bits of root went flying from the force. "As if you'd stand a chance." I whispered as I disappeared from her sight again, running around until I came up behind her. The vampire in me screamed now was my chance, but somehow, the human was still there, fighting for control; he was there, fighting to save Bella.

She spun to me, her steps clearly unsteady, and took a step back. She looked afraid, finally. No, she looked terrified. Good. I finally got my point across. I felt my body humming from tension and took a step closer. No! I stopped short and took a deep breath. Fight it! Don't drink... I watched her a moment and something hit me. She's not breathing. We didn't need to breathe, but humans did. She did.

I'd scared her so badly, she wasn't even aware she was holding her breath, but her face was turning whiter than was healthy and her heart was hammering faster and faster. I felt the tension draining and held my hands up a little in a sign of peace. "Bella." I kept my voice low and soft. "Please, breathe. I promise you're safe." I took a couple steps towards her, keeping them slow.

She stared at me with a look that was uncomprehending, and still didn't breath. Her eyes! They were so wide and innocent, I felt for a moment like I was staring into that of a deer. She was so beautiful, despite her terror of me. I could see her trembling, and fought the urge to walk over and envelope her in my arms.

My throat began to burn as her intoxicating scent began to wash over me, but I pushed it to the back of my mind. The first and foremost thing on my mind was keeping her safe. "Bella. Breathe." I very carefully reached out, placing my arms against the boulder at her back, and pinning her to the rock. "Breathe. I swear to you, I'm not thirsty right now." I tried for a chuckle, even as the burning in my throat told me otherwise.

That seemed to work. She let out a breathy laugh and leaned against the rock. Her face slowly regained it's slightly flushed look, even as her chest heaved with the air she was gasping into her lungs.

Her breath ghosted sweetly across my face and I closed my eyes for a quick moment. "I'm so very sorry." I told her softly, reopening my eyes and watching as the fear faded from her eyes. I wanted to make her afraid, but when it finally worked, I overdid it. Then I marvelled at something. I lost control. I blinked at her a moment and took in her confused but no longer afraid look. Sort of. I lost control, and she didn't run screaming. She almost passed out from not breathing, but she didn't run away. And I hadn't hurt her. "Tell me what you're thinking." I whispered, feeling my frustration flare up when her mind remained blank.

She winced, flushed and looked away. "Now I'm scared." She muttered.

Well, it seems I got what I wanted. I felt my chest tighten and the pain blossomed unexpectedly, but I moved away, taking a couple slow steps back. She's finally scared, so she'll be safe now. This is what I wanted.......isn't it? I didn't know what my face showed, but she looked at me and her eyes widened. She quickly took a step forward, keeping a safe distance.

"No, Edward, I'm not afraid of you." She spoke quickly, trying to get me to understand, no doubt. "I'm only afraid of losing you." There was nothing but raw sincerity in her eyes.

I blinked a moment and sighed. She took another step closer, bringing her within inches of my face, but I couldn't bring myself to take another step back. Ah, this is wrong. I'm not only making myself miserable, but her, too. What am I doing? I looked at her, and I couldn't really deny it anymore. Part of me didn't want to. This was so much more than me trying to protect her from my want to feed on her, the threat I posed. It suddenly hit me as I gazed into her brown eyes... "And so the lion fell in love with the lamb." I've been trying to protect her because I can't stand the thought of anything happening to her... Because...I love her.

"What a stupid lamb." She cracked a small smile.

I stepped up into her personal space and stared into her eyes. "What a sick, masochistic lion." I shot back with a raised eyebrow, my lips twitching into one of my half smirks.

It was funny, really. I had to control my hunger and strength around her, but having her know all this... Having her know my secret, it was so very releasing. I felt lighter, more carefree for the first time in a long time. There was still a little voice in the back of my head that screamed at me that I didn't deserve her, and how wrong all this was and I had no doubt about that, but at the same time, having her here, I actually felt normal.

Not human, no. I was all too aware of the lack of heartbeat from myself, and my heightened senses around her, but standing there with her, I felt a little less like a monster. It was quite...liberating.

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Ok, so totally random. This started out as going on about how he sparkles in the sun, but working from his POV changed it a lot, so I went for his control around her. Hm, I hope it turned out alright.

Hope you like it.

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Tenshi