Author's note: Hello loved ones! Ok, I made an oopsie in the last chapter. I called it chapter 11, but it was really chapter 12. And this is Chapter 13. So please forgive me! BTW: Does anyone know what toy Tamaki was talking about in the previous chapter? The first one to reply the right answer will get to influence my next chapter or story (haven't chosen which one yet) (sweat drop) Anyways! Please enjoy the next chapter from the bottom of my heart!

Chapter Thirteen

Tamaki watches with distaste

I hate it! I just absolutely hate it! I feel like throwing something, or hitting someone, or just plain screaming into the air! Of course, I don't let these emotions be physically expressed while Kaoru is around. While he stares into the window, looking at Hikaru limp on the bed. Why couldn't he have done me a favor and died? Well, actually he did, the way the doctors told us. That his heart stopped beating for awhile. But they brought him back. They must be so proud of themselves, I thought as I rolled my eyes. All they did was cause a nuisance to my perfect plan.

Everything was going so perfectly. I had actually been able to take Hikaru off Kaoru's mind easily and took him to that restaurant. Ending up in bed wasn't really in the plan; it was just a bonus. And when he opened that box, and when I saw how his eyes shinned with surprise, I knew we were finally going to be official. He was finally going to have my last name, and we'd be together through heart and soul. Til death do us part.

But he just had to receive that call. Right at that moment. The moment when I knew he would reply yes without hesitation. Because there had been nothing holding him back. But now; now Hikaru was around. And injured too. Just more pity and attention Kaoru will give to him. Why am I cursed like this?

I was sitting in the waiting room when Kaoru returned red eyed. He's been crying. He sits next to me and I hold him tightly. Just because I hate his brother, doesn't mean I'll rag on him when Kaoru's in pain. That would just make me lose brownie points. When we separate he rubs his eyes and looks longingly to the room where Hikaru stayed. We weren't allowed to enter the room because they were still running tests and taking blood.

"Do you want me to get you something to drink?"

He nods, "Just-Just water I guess."

I leave him to find the vending machine. I look around; I get lost easily, and end up asking someone for directions. So I put my change in and wonder if Kaoru really would've said yes. Or was it rejection hanging from his lips? Was our love just not deep enough for commitment? I shook my head. I can't think so negatively. I run my hands through my hair as the water drops to the bottom. I bend down to pick it up. I just have to block out the bad thoughts and try to be there for Kaoru. Because he's more important.

He's still sitting with his knees pressed to his chest. I hand him the water bottle. I notice how shaky his hands are and I'm overcome with worry. I don't want him to suffer like this, looking over his brother.

It was silent for a long time. He'd drink some water and put the cap back on. A few minutes later he'd repeat the process. I stood up, I couldn't take it anymore.

"What's wrong?" Kaoru stood up too.

I force him into a bone crushing hug. I hug him so tightly because, because he's scaring me so bad. The way he's acting. It's like how he used to act, right after Hikaru went MIA. I needed to get my control on him again. I need to reassure him that I'm here no matter what. That I won't disappear from his life unless he wanted me too. Unless I was the one causing him pain.

"He'll be alright." I hated saying the stinging words, "He'll pull through."

And Kaoru clinged onto my shoulders and sobbed so loudly it made my legs weak. I hated him like this. I hated him being in so much agony. He was like a fragile doll; he needed to be taken care of. I'll be the one doing so. My heart heaved as his tears soaked my shirt and his grip squeezed tighter. Again; why couldn't you have died?

"Look; he's waking up!"

They must be talking about Hikaru. I turn to look and see but Kaoru has already pushed himself off of me. He's already raced pass the nurses and doctors. He's already taken the hand of my rival into his own and cradled it with fresh tears in his eyes.

He's already left me far behind.