Author's note:

This one's for Ashley and our fun times at the carnival! Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight but I own Aiden ;).

Renesmee's POV

To say that night was awkward would be an understatement. My dad said that I was banned from ever seeing 'that boy' again. My mom however was a bit more understanding. Her words were,

"Renesmee your father is just being over-protective, it is his right after all. Charlie was the exact same way when he first found out about your father and I."

"But mom you're not freaking out." I was suspicious. If anyone should have been freaking out it was her. She just smiled at me and answered,

"Sweetie I grew up in a different time than your father and I know that it's ok to like someone you're not supposed to be with."

So the next Monday(after a huge fight between my parents)I was allowed to go to back to Hudson High school.

"Hey Renesmee," Aiden greeted me Monday morning.

"Oh, hey Aiden!" I said back perhaps a little more enthusiastically than necessary.

"How was your weekend?" he asked, looking truly curious about what my answer would be.

"Hung out with my family. You know usual stuff." I answered casually because telling the truth was not a possibility. What I actually did was watch a six hour chess match between Jasper and my dad, which was evenly matched because my mom was taking Jasper's side.

"oh that's cool." he seemed like he was nervous about something.

"Aiden what's up?" I asked as casually as possible. He hesitated and then blurted out,

"Will you go to the carnival with me tomorrow night?" I tensed up as I remembered what I wished I could forget.

3 years earlier

It was just after my third birthday. I must have looked about 8 or nine. Jacob and I were sitting on the couch watching a movie I really liked. It was the only cartoon movie I ever really got into. The movie was Charlotte's Web and I was only watching it because Jake said I'd like it. It still surprises me how right he was.

It was just at the part when Templeton was going to the carnival for his smorgasbord when I asked,

"Jacob what exactly is a carnival?" he looked down at me and smiled,

"it's really fun Ness. I promise one day I'll take you…if it's ok with your mom of course." I looked up and saw her leaning against the wall in the back of the living room.

"Yes Jacob you can take her to the carnival. I'll even let you take her alone because I trust you."

Present Day

"Renesmee are you ok?" I half expected that voice to belong to someone else but I knew deep down that it couldn't. "Earth to Renesmee!" the voice called again. When I finally focused I knew I shouldn't have been, but I was severely disappointed when I saw a pair of deep blue eyes instead of the almost black eyes that I longed for them to be.

I tried to hide my disappointment but must have failed miserably because Aiden looked worried. "so is that a no?" he asked like he was hurt that I had in an unspoken way rejected him.

"no no I'd really like to go with you I've just never been to a carnival before." I stammered to get through the words. He smiled at me looking relieved.

"is that what's keeping you from saying yes?" he laughed a musical laugh that would have been irresistible to any human girl. It was just too wrong to be considered irresistible in my book. I'd heard a perfect laugh before and I would never hear it again. It took a lot out of me to say this,

"ok fine I'll go with you." he thought I was using' teenage girl sarcasm' but I really was hesitant to go with him. I just couldn't reject him because part of me(Granted a small part)really did like him. I was thankful when the bell rang signaling that we were both late to class so I could have an excuse to get away.

"hey do you want to have lunch?" he called after me as I was speed walking at a human pace to my first class. Everyone who was still lingering in the hall stopped and stared as they listened for my answer. It was completely silent. I couldn't exactly reject him after just accepting a date with him. I turned around and tried to sound as cheerful as possible.

"Sure I'll see you outside." as I walked away I caught Aiden tripping over his own feet from the corner of my eye. I wouldn't have taken him for the clumsy type but then again I wouldn't have thought he would be interested in me either.

My 'genius' class was very boring. The teacher could tell I was more absorbed in other things but after I answered all three of her 'difficult' questions right she left me to my own devices. The rest of the morning followed the same pattern I wasn't really paying attention to what I was doing or where I was. Jacob was on my mind and I couldn't get him out of it.

I was sitting at an outside table waiting for Aiden to show up. I decided I wasn't going to eat anything I wasn't hungry and even if I did I probably wouldn't have been able to hold it down. I put on my best face to make him think I was fine. "So have you ever had this many people staring at you?" he asked and gestured to Melanie and her group of friends who looked at us and then put their heads together. It didn't take a mind reader to know that they were all talking about us. I only listened to two kids. The first was Melanie.

"That slut!" ok that was more than enough. The next had the same preppy tone to her voice as Tiffany, most likely another cheerleader.

"I never thought I'd see the day when I felt bad for Tiffany!" When I was younger my aging would have been too obvious so I was barely allowed out of the house. So being stared at and talked about was totally new to me. It made me feel really uncomfortable.

"you aren't going to eat?" Aiden asked breaking my concentration.

"no I'm not really hungry." I answered. He reached into his paper lunch bag and pulled out two tubes of Go-gurt.

"here take this." he held one of them out to me. I laughed and took it.

"thanks…aren't you a little old to be eating stuff like this?" I asked playfully.

"you're never too old for Go-gurt!" he replied and bit the top off of the tube he hadn't given me. I know I might have been looking for it, but Aiden's childish attitude reminded me of Jacob. I couldn't take it.

"I'm sorry I need to leave." I probably ran faster than I ought to of when I went to my locker but I didn't care. I couldn't break down at school. If I would have slammed my locker any harder it would have broke. By the time I was finally in my car speeding towards the house I was in tears. None of my family commented on me skipping school when I went straight up to my room. They were probably all too afraid.

When my sobs finally subsided and my speech was clear I called Aiden and apologized for leaving him there, I said I wasn't feeling well. After that I realized just how long it had been since I'd hunted. I thought that maybe taking down a few deer would clear my mind of Jacob.

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