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An update! So since I didn't prolong the wait for a month this time, I think you should give me something that'll make me happy *wink wink nudge nudge*.
Please don't hate me for what I'm going to do.
Collide – Chapter Fourteen
Should've Said No
BOCD
Hallway
Friday, November 6
7:45 AM
Massie sighed as she walked back towards the café. She turned a corner and she felt her heart stop beating and fall to the ground.
Massie Block was sure about two things.
She didn't just like Derrick Harrington. She loved him. All those times she rolled her eyes at Claire for saying she loved Cam came back to her and she wanted to take the eye-rolls back. She was now very certain that she was in love. And the sad part was, she never wanted to realize when she was in love if she had to find out this way.
Second, love hurts. A lot. Especially when the one who had your heart was the one who threw it on the ground, shattering it into a million pieces, a million glittery pieces that mocked you.
She was sure about another thing too.
Derrick Harrington was standing in front of her, his warm lips on Abby Boyd's.
She felt warm tears fill her eyes, but she wouldn't let them fall. No she won't. Especially since her friends, her group, the ones who looked up to her just came out of the café doors and stood there with shocked and horrified expressions on their faces.
Of course, they fell. They fell right when the cheating boy finally broke away and looked at her with a repentant and shocked expression on his face.
She broke away from his gaze. She couldn't take it. She looked to her friends, the people who had shocked faces. She could see that the girls—except one—were unnerved by what they were seeing. Massie Block? Crying? Impossible!
"Massie," Derrick said, but when she heard her name (not her last name), anger spread through her. How dare he say my name like that? Like he doesn't know what's going on. Like he thinks I could let this go. Like he thinks I would forgive him if he says it like that.
The anger spread all through out, causing her to walk towards him and slap him hard across his pretty boy face. The sharp sound rang through the halls and their friends crowded around them, trying to block them from the crowd that just started to go out. She wiped her tears away before anyone could see as he clutched his right cheek.
She turned away from him, walking away and heading towards the bathroom, with her friends following her and his friends crowding around him. She kept quiet as she got in and realized that she didn't have her bag with her. She turned around but Claire Lyons's hand shot up, and there she found her Balenciaga. She got in and rummaged through it, taking out what was necessary to fix the little redness and puffiness and moisture around her amber eyes.
"Mass…are you…okay?" Alicia Rivera asked.
"Why wouldn't I be?" she responded, her voice a little bit shaky.
"Well..." Dylan Marvil started, but didn't finish. Nevertheless, Massie got what she was supposed to say.
"Oh, that? I already have a plan," she said, switching back to full alpha mode. Into the cold, heartless bitch who didn't feel anything. The one who doesn't get hurt. The one who has no heart to break.
"Are you sure that's what you want to do?" Kristen Gregory asked.
"Yes, I'm sure," she said curtly, giving the dirty blonde a hard glare. Kristen looked away and the girls shared a look. A look that says "she's crazy, but let's just go with it." They tried to hide it from Massie, but she saw it anyway.
:~:~:~:
Derrick Harrington waited in Table 19 for the girls of Table 18 while he looked at the previous conversation in his phone.
Derrick: Look, Mass, I'm sorry.
Massie: …
Derrick: I swear, I'd take it back if I could. It was a mistake, a moment of weakness. I don't know why I said yes, please, give me another chance.
Massie: you think we could ever be the same?
Derrick: …
Massie: was it worth it?
Derrick: no! nothing is worth losing you.
Massie: you just did.
He whipped his head around when he heard the café doors open, but his heart sank when only three of them came in. Two blondes and a redhead. No brunette. No amber eyes. No Massie.
He knew that Alicia had lunch announcements, but where was Massie?
He felt his heart sink even lower when the three girls started whispering and shooting him glances. He bowed his head down in shame as his own friends looked at him warily.
When lunch announcements started, his heart didn't just sink, it drowned. In shame. In anger. In hurt. In regret. In longing.
"Hola, BOCD, this is Alicia Rivera for your lunch announcements. Today, we have a very special announcement from one of my best friends, Massie Block. But before that, I have some school related announcements I have to share. First of all, trailer students, this is your first day of being allowed inside the Main Building for lunch and I welcome you to better food! Second, please don't forget to sign up for the soccer team and third, someone left their bag inside the gym. Principal Burns has it now. And now, Massie Block has a special announcement. This has been Alicia Rivera, saying I heart you."
Derrick felt everyone inside the café look at him and whisper. He didn't care. All he cared about was the fact that Massie Block was seconds away from ripping up his heart.
"This song is dedicated to my boyfriend, Derrick Harrington," he heard her say, and for a minute, his hopes went up, but they were diminished when she started singing.
Strange to think the songs we used to sing,
The smiles, the flowers, everything, is gone.
Yesterday I found out about you,
Even now just looking at you, feels wrong.
You say, that you'd take it all back,
Given one chance,
It was a moment of weakness,
And you said yes.
You should've said no,
You should've gone home,
You should've thought twice
Before you let it all go
You should've known that word,
That what you did with her,
Would get back to me.
And I should've been there
In the back of your mind,
Shouldn't be asking myself why,
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet
You should've said no, baby, and you might still have me
You can see that I've been crying,
Baby you know all the right things, to say,
But do you honestly expect me to believe,
We could ever be the same?
You say that the past is the past,
You need one chance,
It was a moment of weakness,
And you said yes
You should've said no,
You should've gone home,
You should've thought twice
Before you let it all go
You should've known that word,
That what you did with her,
Would get back to me.
And I should've been there
In the back of your mind,
Shouldn't be asking myself why,
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet
You should've said no, baby, and you might still have me
Ooohwoohoh,
I can't resist, before you go tell me this,
Was it worth it?
Was she worth this?
Nooowoohohno, no, no, nooowohno,
You should've said no,
You should've gone home,
You should've thought twice
Before you let it all go
You should've known that word,
That what you did with her,
Would get back to me.
And I should've been there
In the back of your mind,
Shouldn't be asking myself why,
You shouldn't be begging for forgiveness at my feet
You should've said no, baby, and you might still have me
Every word she sang made a rip in his heart. In the end, those words turned his heart into a million pieces.
:~:~:~:
Alicia Rivera walked beside a silent Massie. She hasn't said one word after she sang. Not one word. Not even a sigh.
They made their way into the café and she noticed how Massie purposely avoided passing by Table 19, which was now moved away from Table 18. They sat down in silence while everyone else buzzed about with silent whispers.
"Are you sure that was a good thing to do, Massie?" Claire asked warily.
"Look, Claire, stop questioning me! I do what I want with my relationships and I don't need people like you to ask annoying questions!" she snapped. Claire looked hurt and Massie noticed. "Hey," she said in a softer tone, "I'm sorry. That was too much."
"It's fine. I understand."
"That was a beautiful song, Massie," Abby said, coming over.
"You do know that we can ruin your life in a snap, right?" Alicia asked.
"Ha. That video was good, but it can't ruin my life. Sure, in this small school, but there are more people around the world that love me."
"My mother is Merri-Lee Marvil. I can broadcast that video and every bad thing we can dig up about you on her show and you would be done," Dylan said.
"I'll sue."
"I can make sure that you are unable to get any great lawyer," Alicia retorted.
"And who are you to say that?"
"My dad is Len Rivera, the lawyer of the biggest names in Hollywood and some of the biggest businessmen of the country."
"Face it, Abby, you're nothing compared to us," Kristen said.
"Whatever," she scoffed before going away.
Claire and everybody else at their table noticed that Massie was abnormally quiet during the whole spat; that was very unlike her. Usually she was the one to diss, not the one who keeps quiet.
Claire shared a look with the PC and they silently agreed on one thing.
The Massie Block in front of them, the one picking at her food, was not the same Massie Block they knew.
This chapter was sad. Yeah, especially the first part. I felt sad just writing it. But I was really inspired too. I don't know why. I just finished my update for Waking Up In Vegas and I was, like, I wanna write Collide…so I did and I came up with this. It has a little bit of angst in it. Could you feel it?
This is a sad chapter, but I think it's my favorite. It shows a part of Massie that we've never seen before.