14 - No regrets

Hi! I'm sorry for not update, lack of inspiration and such struggle to find the right way to write it held me until a few days ago. I hope you like it. Maybe you will find some mistakes, sorry for that. And please write a review.

Two moths ago

Two knocks at the door and Severide entered into Matt's office. "Hey, how was everything there?" Matt was sat in the chair with his head down, covering his face with his hands. He didn't answer Severide. Then he presumed that what Casey said to him earlier was true. Harry was not Matt's son. Hallie lied to him the whole time. Made Matt believe the finally he got the family that he had dreamt about and now he was left with nothing, but heartbreaking again, devastated. Severide put a hand on Matt's shoulder.

"He's not my son... Sev..." Matt told him still covering his face, hiding the tears that were rolling down. Hallie broke up their relationship without a reason in the past, leaving him with millions questions about his own actions toward her, if he had done something wrong to her left him and the truth was that Hallie cheated him while they were together in the past for a selfish reason. He was a good guy, he thought, he didn't deserve this. Because he was a good guy, he accepted Hallie before he knew what were her plans. They even started to date again after Harry was born. Harry... he loves the kid deeply, just these few days without him were painful, now he's gone forever. He felt weak and angry at the same time.

"I'm sorry, Matt... And I feel bad because I said to you give another chance to Hallie..." Matt looked at Severide this time. His eyes were red and puffy. Before he got in the firehouse, Matt cried inside of his car for a few minutes.

"It was my fault, don't take this on you... I had to know better before she suddenly got in my life again..."

"Look, I'm here for everything you need..."

"I know, thanks..." Matt stood up and sat at the edge of his table. "I... lost Gabby because of Hallie's lies, you know... If never of this had happened we could still be together. Every morning I got myself thinking about her..."

"You know the truth now, so we guys can have a new chance..." Severide said trying to cheer up Matt.

"I don't think so, she was pretty clear about her feelings toward me... Besides, I feel lost and empty... broken... My days of good guy is getting a end..." he was really upset.

"Don't say that... Good things will come to your way, believe!" Severide gave him a half smile.

"There is just one thing that I believe right now and I hope you help me with that..."

"What?" Severide asked quickly.

"A couple of beers tomorrow night and invite anyone who you want, I'll pay..."

"Matt, I don't think it is the best way..." Matt cut him off.

"Severide, I need this... I need to forget for one night that my life is a shit and everything sucks..." he said angrily. Severide noticed that there wasn't turning back for Matt. Then he would assure that his friend wouldn't get himlself in trouble.

"Okay, okay... I'll be there with you, you can count on me..." Matt nodded. Severide left him alone. He grabbed his phone on the table. He searched for the pictures section on it. There were several pics of Harry, he wasn't prepared to let it go, not yet. One picture after another he found one of Gabby and him. She was sitting on his lap, he was looking at the camera and she was kissing him on the cheek. His smile was wide, they both were really happy. He never had met a girl like her. She had this thing before they made love, she liked to traced his face with the tip of her fingers, capturing his features, then he would say that he loved her... The sounds that slipped from her mouth as they were making love, put on him on fire. She knew the words that would increase his movements on her...

"Knock, knock..."

"What?" he said turning around as he saw Herrmann looking at him intensely.

"I'm sorry, Chief Boden wants to see you..."

"Ah, all right, thanks."

"Are you okay?" Herrmann asked worriedly.

"Yeah of course... I was just thinking about my plans tomorrow night..."

"I got it..." but Herrmann didn't buy his words.

"Thanks again..." Matt tapped Herrmann's shouder and walked out.

Three days later Matt was found by Severide at the house of a random girl that he had met at Molly's when they went out together. "What are you doing here?" Matt said as he opened the door for him. Matt was wearing only on underwear and a t-shirt of the previously night.

"I came to rescue you..." he spoke looking at the empty beers at the center table in the living room, what it didn't go unnoticed for Matt who laughed at him.

"I'm a big boy, Sev... I'm good, believe in me..." Although Severide knew that was a lie. Matt crossed his arms over his chest. That was when Patricia came in wearing only her underwear.

"Everything okay, baby?" she asked hugging Matt from behind and started kissing his shoulder as she stared at Severide. That made Severide asked himself if she was flirting with him.

"Yes, it's just my friend Severide... Do you remember him of the other night?"

"Of course... he was our driver, right?" She smiled at Severide. Matt nodded at her. "Do you want coming? There is enough room for you too..."

"No, I passed that... I am bringing my friend to work and thank you for take care of him..." Severide was being sarcastic in the last part. "Matt, I'm waiting for you downstairs..."

"Sev... look... serious?" Matt was annoyed.

"Serious... don't make me drag you out of here" Severide pointed his finger at him.

"Wow..." Patricia exclaimed. "You are an idiot... jerk..." she yelled at him as she stepped forward.

"And you think you are better than me?" Severide raised his voice.

"Hey, hey, you two stop... I'm going... I see you downstairs, Sev..." Severide stared at Patricia briefly and walked out. Matt closed the door.

"You don't need to leave..." Patricia told him. Matt walked into the bedroom.

"Actually, I have to... work... you know..." he wore his pants.

"I get it..." She approached him and kissed him. "But serious your friend is an jerk..."

"Please, don't say that if you want to see me again..."

"Oh... okay then..." she hadn't liked Severide, but she wouldn't let him stay between her and Matt. "Call me later?"

"Look, I'm not looking for anything serious... let's keep things cool, okay?" She nodded against her will.

"I'm good with that..." she kissed him again and he left.

Current days (at the hospital)

"Doctor, how is my daughter?" asked Maria as she saw Sandy coming close to them. Juarez was holding his wife's hand tightly.

"The surgery was successful and she is stable... we're sending her to a room, as soon as possible a nurse will get you there..." Maria and Juarez looked to each other letting out a sound of relief.

"And about our grandson... he is okay, right?" Juarez asked anxious.

"He is a baby of 37th weeks, he was born with respiratory distress..."

"Oh no..." exclaimed Maria putting a hand over her mouth.

"...because that we are sending him to UCI, he will need oxygen for now... We're gonna observe him during his first hours of the life... any change we'll inform you..."

"I... you..." Maria couldn't say what she was thinking, her heart was broken, her grandson suffering and that was too much, she couldn't handle it.

"Doctor... I need to know he is in at risk?" Juarez was straight.

"As I said he is a premature baby, then the risks are several, so my advice for you is hold on hope... he seems to be a strong boy..."

"I bet he is, like her mother..." Maria gave a half smile.

"Now I have to go, from one hour I'll be visiting Gabby and we can talk more..." Dr. Sandy told them.

"Thanks Doc..." Juarez squeezed her hand. They sat for a while, minutes later Antonio called them asking for information about his sister and nephew. Their parents told him were they have known until that moment. Antonio tried to give them some hope and said he, Laura and kids were going to pray for both. Maria cried a lot for a few minutes on Juarez's shoulder. He consoled her, though he even wanted to cry for grandson and for his daughter.

A moment later a nurse took them to Gabby's room. They got close to her...

"Mom..." Gabby spoke slowly.

"Hey... don't talk... you have to rest..." Maria begged.

"Were you crying? What happened?" Gabby shifted on the bed.

"Gabby, please calm down..." her dad insisted holding her arm.

"Just please..." she eyes were watering, "... my son... no..." she thought the worst.

"He's in the ICU... he is with respiratory distress, he needs oxygen..." her mother told her quickly.

"I want see him, mom... I want see him now..." Gabby grabbed her mother's hand.

"Gabby, you had a c-section, you can't move and even talk too much, please the doctor will be here soon... let's wait, okay?" Maria informed her. Gabby nodded as the tears insisted to fall. As the doctor promised, she visited Gabby and answered some of her questions. After she heard the situation of her son, she thought may she being punish for not tell about the baby to Matt, she was blaming herself for what was happening with her Sandy didn't allow her to get up, he recommended she should stay a couple of hours still on bed, however Maria and Juarez were allowed to visit him.

A nurse indicated them where was their grandson. At first they got a bit shocked because their grandson didn't resemble Gabby, his skin was white and his hair blond, took a few seconds to Maria to point out that she thought he had Gabby's nose at least and chin also. He opened his eyes a few time, and Juarez could assure that his eyes were blue. At the afternoon, Gabby finally could visit her son, she still hadn't chosen a name for him, she said she needed to see him first, then she would be able to give him a name. Gabby walked into the alone, her parents had thought that she deserved a moment with her little bundle. Even before she has seen him, she had tears on the eyes, slowly she walked in... she didn't get shock as much as her parents, but for sure she was impressed how her son resembled Matt. She looked at him for long minutes and caressed him through the ports on the incubator, even being a premature baby, he wasn't tiny, he was beautiful. Seeing him melted her heart.

"So, what's his name?" her mother asked as she saw gabby walking out.

"It's Jacob..."

"It's the name of your grandfather..." her father said.

"Yeah... I know he just born but I think he gave me a little smile, one that remembered grandfather Jacob..."

"Giving his name to our grandson, it's a great gesture..." he father kissed her head.

"Thanks, dad..."

A few weeks later

Jacob stayed five days on the oxygen, Gabby wasn't able to breastfeed, he had a gastroesophageal reflux and they needed to adopt a formula to feed him. It was a painful situation for her. She was dreaming about having this kind of bond with him, however she was happy because he was being feed, he needed to gain weight.

He wasn't totally out of the woods. One time he was almost being released when of no where he got a infection and he had to stay longer. Gabby was released by the doctor after three days of Jacob's birth. Gabby really didn't have a schedule about being at the hospital with Jacob, sometimes she stayed there all day, 24 hours a day, ofter she was going home to sleep.

Today was a good day for Jacob, he wasn't anymore at the incubator, Maria and Juarez visited him the day after Gabby called them. Around 8 p.m. she was at their apartment, she was very tired... in the middle of the night her phone rang. In the end of the call she was sobbing, she ran to her parent's bedroom saying they needed to go to the hospital, Jacob had had a cardiac arrest. When they arrived there, only Gabby was allowed to seem him, her heart broke when she saw him with wires. The doctor said he was stable, but can't explain how suddenly that happened. They spent the rest of the night there, really afraid to let Jacob and something happens.

Juarez has thought since his grandson was born that baby's father should know about him. He should be by his side. Gabby was his daughter, but Juarez wasn't blind, hiding her pregnancy wasn't a good idea. In the last weeks Jacob showed them how his healthy could be fragile, and if something bad happened with Jacob, maybe Gabby would regret about not tell about him to the baby's father. So he made a decision, not a good on Gabby's eyes, however someone needed to do that.

In the next day he called to Melanie, Gabby and her were friends since kinds, she knew everything about Gabby. He believed that she had the necessary information that he was looking for.

While at the firehouse

The firehouse arrived three hours later after the first call of the day. It was an intense one and dragged out their strength and required a lot of their efforts. Matt was walking into the common room as his phone rang.

"Hello?" he spoke.

"Hello. Matthew Casey?" the other person asked.

"Yes, it's me..." Casey was walking to his office.

"You don't know, but probably know my daughter: Gabriela Dawson" Matt got confused.

"Yeah... I know..." he closed the office's door.

"Look, maybe it's crazy what I'm going to say to you... though I hope you make the best decision..."

"Sorry, but what are you talking about? Why did you mention Gabby's name? We haven't seen each other a long time..." Matt sat on the his bed.

"I know... I'm her father. My name is Juarez..." Matt's eyes wide.

"Oh I'm confused..." he got up from the bed. "Is Gabby okay?" he got worried for one moment.

"Yes, she is fine... I'm calling about other thing..." Juarez thought for one second if he should continue or not. Then he decided to move forward. "Just listen to me carefully..." Juarez told him about Jacob and how he was at the moment and more importantly: Jacob was his son. Matt stayed quiet for a few minutes, what was totally understandable before he express his thoughts.

"Sir... I never hadn't seen her pregnant... In fact, I had seen her one time on holidays Christmas and she didn't seem pregnant... Is this a kind of joke?"

"I never would do that... she was hiding her pregnancy for everyone... It's a long story... The important thing is your son needs you by his side... Please come to visit him before it's too late..."

"I'm sorry again... you can't believe that I will trust in you... I shouldn't tell this, but in the past someone made believe I was father of one baby and it was a lie, a big one... so don't expect..." Juarez cut him off.

"I'm just trying to give a chance to my grandson to know his father... And you are right I'm a unknown person for you, it's hard to believe in what I say..."

"In the other hand, Gabby never would hide this from me, she couldn't..."

"I don't know what to say... I had to give it a shot... I appreciate for listen to me and have a good day..."

"You too..." Matt was in shock. This couldn't be true. He didn't have a son.

"Hey... Otis is gonna cook again, do you believe?" Severide said. Matt was concentrated looking to the ground with crossed arms. "Matt...Matt" he said loud this time.

"A man called and told me that Gabby got pregnant and I'm the father..."

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