"Back together huh?" smirked Jay, working on a car with Sean at the shop.
Sean smirked too by the engine, using his wrench to work inside it. "Yup."
Being with Emma was like stepping into the sun again. It felt good, warm. Right.
"Thankgod." Jay sighed, leaning back on the car in fake exhaustion, "I was getting tired of all the broading and self torture you were causing yourself."
Sean chuckled and his phone buzzed in his pocket. He took it out and opened it with a grin hoping it was Emma texting him back about tonight. He wanted to take her for dinner. Instead, it was Ellie.
Sean frowned as his phone received pictures from her. Pictures he didn't ask from her. Nudes. Ellie stood infront of the mirror with just her panties on.
"What is it?" Sean quickly shut the phone as Jay asked.
"Nothing." Sean lied and cleared his throat. Why the hell was Ellie sending him pictures of herself like that? He wanted to forget what happened. It meant nothing- Ellie said so too. Just fun. "I'll be right back."
Jay nodded but eyed him strangely as Sean walked off quickly.
(((**)))
The next day at school, Sean brushed past everyone and quickly walked to his locker. Stopping dead in his tracks, he saw Ellie standing there, waiting for him. He looked around before heading over and grabbed her arm, "What do you think you're doing?"
"Sean, that hurts!" she whipped her arm out and rubbed it with a pout before smiling at him again, "Did you get my texts?"
"You mean your pictures?" he whispered harshly, looking around and made sure nobody was listening. "Ellie, I'm sorry but I'm not interested. Alright?"
"But we had sex.." Ellie reminded him bleakly, staring him the eyes. "You made love to me in the pool-"
"That wasn't-!" Sean stopped himself from shouting, and tried to remain calm, "That wasn't what that was, Ellie and you know it."
Hurt filled her eyes, "You told me you loved me."
"You asked me to say it!" Sean couldn't believe this and stared at her in denial. This couldn't be real.
"Is this about her? Emma?" she spat her name.
Sean closed his eyes and rubbed his forehead, "I'm with Emma, yes. That has nothing to do with this though. We had fun, if that's what you want to call it but it's over. Ellie, I love her. Please stop whatever it is you're doing."
"Does she know about me?"
Sean snapped and nearly punched the locker next to Ellie. She didn't even flinch and they stared furiously back at another.
"Does she know you came inside me just the other night?"
"Stay the hell away from Emma." Sean warned with a threatening tone in his voice.
Ellie raised an eyebrow and just walked around him, and he cornered his eyes, watching her leave until out of site before he inhaled a deep shakey breath and looked around with disbelief.
What the hell was happening? When had Ellie totally lost it?
"Sean?"
Sean jumped and spun around. Emma had just gotten there and walked over from coming out of Mrs Suaves office. She must not of saw anything as she came over and cupped his face. Still a bit jumpy, Sean softened at her touch, trying to get over what just happened and kissed her softly, but mind still elsewhere.
"You okay?" Emma sensed something wrong.
He sighed and pulled her into his arms. He already felt better. "Yea."
"You've been weird since lastnight.." She drifted and honestly felt maybe he regretted this. Them getting back together.
"I'm.." he paused and looked down, shaking his head. He couldn't tell her. How could he tell her he had sex with Ellie one day before telling her he still loved her? She'd probably dump him and never believe a word from him again. And they'd be done forever.
"I don't know." He lied.
"Ok." Emma sensed the lie but smiled sadly and went to turn to leave until he grabbed her hand back.
"Hey." He pulled her in closer and promised, "It's not you, or even anything about us. Ok? I'm just out of it."
She was looking down but he lifted her chin up to look honestly into her eyes, "Yea." She nodded, believing that now. She smiled a bit and so did he.
"I love you." He said.
"Mhm."
"Oh, just mhm?" he grabbed her sides more tightly and leaned down as she laughed a bit. He grinned and pushed her hair back, leaning down to kiss her and she happily did so back until Manny came over.
"Break it up love birds, we've got English." She said and they pulled away with Emma blushing and Sean smirking.
"After you," Sean told Manny tauntingly and she led, pulling Emma's hand along and he then followed after. Emma sent him a playful look over her shoulder and he chuckled.
In class, Sean sat behind Emma, not really paying attention. He was in a zone until snapping out of it when he felt his phone buzz. He clenched his jaw, his gut knotting, and hoped it wasn't what he thought it was.
When he pulled it out, he saw his messages. 50 missed messages from Ellie. Sean looked around with alarm in his eyes and just shoved it back in his pocket.
This needed to stop.
((**))
Sean used basketball practice to blow off some steam after school. The cheerleaders were practing on one side with the basketball players on the other. As he nailed in the next shot, he went to the bench to sit and catch his breath.
Jimmy came over and slapped his hand into his, "Good work out there, man."
"You too." Sean said, but his mind was somewhere else. He still couldn't help but wonder what would happen if Emma found out about everything. He couldn't lose her. Just thinking about it made him panic.
"I heard you were told about the scouts."
"Um." Sean finally looked over at Jimmy and winced, "Yea."
Jimmy shrugged. "It's cool dude. You'll deserve it if you get it. My parents can pay for my intuition. Yours kinda..can't, right? So a scholarship would be great for you."
"Right." Sean agreed, even though Jimmy said it in a dick kind of way but Sean knew he didn't mean anything by it this time. It was just the way Jimmy was.
The doors by the front of the gym caught Sean and Jimmy's attention as Ashley Kerwin came storming in.
"Come on, Paige." Ashley said over a few feet away, having to pick up Paige from her cheerleading class on the other side of the gym.
Sean watched Ashley and Paige scurry out of the gym, not even glancing Jimmy's way but all the other cheerleaders were, glaring at Jimmy.
"What was that about?" Sean asked, turning towards Jimmy.
Jimmy shrugged, "Me and Ash sort of broke up." "
"Oh. Sorry."
Jimmy stood back up, grabbing his bag. "I'm not. We aren't right for another."
"Really?" Sean couldn't believe that. He's known Jimmy to be with Ashley almost as long as Sean's been with Emma.
"See you round." Was all Jimmy said and left with that. Sean went to the locker room, grabbed his bag, and exited out the back. When he stepped out the door though, he hid a little more behind it when he saw Jimmy standing with someone out by his car. Jimmy was with Ellie.
Ellie had her hands all over Jimmy, giggling and leaning against his car as the two flirted. Sean squinted his eyes, confused. If Ellie was with Jimmy now, she was sure to leave him alone right? But how could Ellie be with him when she was suppose to be Ashleys best friend?
Sean decided to take the other exit and leave the two be. He hoped this meant he wouldn't get another text from Ellie again at least. Maybe this was a good thing.
(((**))
"Hey." Emma greeted and smiled, letting Sean inside her house that night.
"Hey."
He grinned to her blushing, amazed she could still feel a bit shy around him after all they've been through. She led him through the door to the tv room where it was dark and dim and some candles were lit all around. He blinked and stared a bit in awe.
She looked great too, wearing just black leggings and a loose off-the-shoulder white thin sweater. She looked comfy, yet still beautiful, and showing off enough to skin to make a guy wonder.
"The powers out, and my parents aren't home, but we can still manage I think." Emma explained and sat down on the couch.
Sean nodded, "Yea." He sat down next to her, and he looked around again, watching the candles light flicker and then glanced at Emma, getting lost in how beautiful she looked.
"Sean."
"What?" he smirked.
"You're staring." She teased and raised an eyebrow. He smirked wider and just leaned in, kissing her until she fell back onto the couch and kissed him back. That is, until she finally pulled away and snapped, "Focus!"
He laid on top and teased back, "I can't help it." He ran his fingers through her hair.
"Well I'm hungry, and I wanted to order pizza." She pouted.
He groaned. That sounded great. "You're perfect."
"And you're heavy." She swatted him playfully again to get off of her and he sat up.
"Fine." He pulled her up and she yelped but giggled as he picked her up. He picked her up so easily, like she was a twig and then placed her onto his lap and she held onto his strong biceps. He placed his hands on her hips now and asked while leaning his head back, "Better?"
After he asked the question, his grin slid off his face, now seeing the position he put them in and then swallowed when she too straddled his lap a bit when she shifted. She looked between them and then brushed a piece of her hair nervously behind her ear before locking eyes with him again.
"Yea." She admitted softly and eyed him for a reaction to that. He stiffened, in more places than one. Slowly, and surely, she leaned down, softly kissing him. She could sense he didn't mean to do that, but it was alright with her. It really was. She was kinda even into it. It shocked her too.
Sean tenderly kissed her back, but kept his hands firmly in place where they were. He didn't want to move too fast, but then she took his hands in hers and let them slid up her body.
"Em.." he drifted, while still kissing her and groaned when again she moved her body into his, and his hand on reflex began to feel up her body, up her shirt. It rested right on her breast.
Emma felt tingles over her body. She heard him groan a little bit into the kiss and knew why. Her body was making his body lose it. She felt it. He was hard as a rock. Emma pulled away a little to bite her lip, noticing the power she had over him. For once, she felt in control. It was amazing. It was empowering.
When his hands went back to her waist and her mouth found his way to his neck, he winced and nearly pulled away, "Em, maybe we shouldn't."
"I want to." She pulled away to again look at him and he looked up into her eyes.
"But we don't need to.."
Offended, she backed up a bit. "You don't want to?"
He sighed and rolled his eyes, "Ofcourse I fucking want to." He sat up and she climbed off of him. He cursed when he noticed her look hurt. "You know I do, Emma." He said seriously, "But we shouldn't… I think. I don't know. I don't know how long you should wait before you-"
"Have sex after being raped?" Emma guessed and he flinched a bit. She said sarcastically, "Gee Sean, I don't know, maybe when you think you're with the right guy and you think he wants it too but I guess he doesn't and this was just a mistake and maybe you weren't the right guy-"
"Hey." He snapped. She shut up, not seeing that coming. He almost looked angry at her. "I am the right guy for you."
Her heart skipped a beat and her hazel eyes burned into his.
"But this can wait." Sean confirmed, looking around. "This isn't how I want it to be with us our first time together. Ok?"
Emma looked down but nodded. She understood, and somewhat was now thankful. Maybe on the couch their first time wasn't what she wanted either. "Ok."
Sean stood up to just bend down infront of Emma who sat still on the couch. He tangled his hands in hers and stared up into her eyes soulfully. "Don't ever second guess us again. Alright?"
Emma's eyes teared up and she tried to hide it but she snuffled. "I'm sorry."
He shook his head, "We're not a mistake."
"I know."
"Then don't ever say that again." He needed to know they were in this together. That they were going to stay together. Always.
"Ok."
Emma looked at him finally and they locked eyes before she leaned down and tenderly kissed him. He softly kissed her back, sliding his hand up to cup the side of her face. They pulled apart, leaning forehead to forehead with their eyes closed and enjoying the feel of closeness.
"When the time comes, it'll be good. It'll be better than good? Ok? In time."
Emma shrugged her shoulders with a nod and blush. He smiled softly and nodded back. He knew it was weird to talk about because they never did that stuff together before, but he was excited for their new relationship now. It'd come, soon, in time. When ready. And he meant what he said.. it'd be good; amazing.
Cause anything with Emma was amazing.
They ended up back on the couch, and ordered that pizza. Double cheese ofcourse. They put on a movie, and then cuddled up together to watch. As Emma dozed off, Sean caressed her hair, staring down at her and hoping that it was all going to be okay.
He needed it to be.