Chelsea: Um, yes. This chapter is going to be the last angst!gemini chapter I put out. After this its all smooooth sailing.

Gemini: Liar.

Chelsea: I can turn you back into a boy you know, then you'll have to deal with having a dick.

Gemini: [shuts up]

Chelsea: Damn straight.

Love is a Battlefield

[Chapter 13]

We were talking-about the space between us all
And the people-who hide themselves behind a wall of illusion
Never glimpse the truth-then it's far too late-when they pass away.
We were talking-about the love we all could share-when we find it
To try our best to hold it there-with our love
With our love-we could save the world-if they only knew.
Try to realize it's all within yourself
No-one else can make you change
And to see you're really only very small,
And life flows within you and without you.
We were talking-about the love that's gone so cold and the people,
Who gain the world and lose their soul-
They don't know-they can't see-are you one of them?
When you've seen beyond yourself-then you may find, peace of mind,
Is waiting there-
And the time will come when you see
we're all one, and life flows on within you and without you.

A song by the Beatles. I just forgot which one it was.

        Aradia's eyes shot open.

        "MOTHER!!!"

        Gemini trembled slightly as she looked over at the man who was currently digging in his pockets, looking for the fifty galleons that he had owed her.

        He owed her his life.

        Gemini coughed slightly, the liquid that has been residing in her lungs for the past few days trying to force its way out again.

        Her hair fell in to her face.

        That's when she froze.

        Her hair was brown.

        Her hair wasn't supposed to be brown. Unless...

        Gemini's eyes widened as she looked down at her hands only to find that every single callous, every single scar was there, laughing at her mistake.

        She had forgotten to take the potion before she fell into bed, like she always did. Now it had wore off.

        Sirius was going to kill her.

        "50 right, I mean... wait a minute... Who... who are you!"

        Looks like he just noticed that the short red hair was gone.

        It's either now of never.

        "I'm sorry Sirius," Gemini said softly before turning around, exposing her identity.

        That's when he snapped.

"What do you think you where doing?" Sirius yelled, pushing Gemini off the bed, where she tripped over her shoes and landed on the floor, "I can't believe you are a God damn prostitute!"

        "Let it be Sirius." Gemini whispered as she stood up, grabbing her clothes from their crumbled heap on the floor.

        "Gemini!" Sirius hollered, grabbing Gemini's arm and pulling her to her feet, "All I want to fucking know is why."

        "Let it BE Sirius," Gemini growled, ripping her arm from his grasp, pulling her bra over her head.

        'Gem Gem...'

        'Give us a few minutes Lucifer...'

        "So this is what you've been doing..." Sirius said, exasperated.

        "It paid the rent, didn't it?" Gemini asked, pulling an old tee-shirt over her head, glaring at Sirius as she defiantly pulled her blue vinyl shorts back on.

        "But why THIS!"

        "Because I am fucking good at it, no pun intended."

        "Where the fuck are you going?"

Gemini twirled around, staring Sirius in the eye, "I am going to take my medicine."

        She turned around, stalking out of her bedroom, past her brother and his lover who were looking at her worriedly and towards the bathroom and slamming the door behind her.

        Gemini sighed and looked at herself in the mirror. She looked horrible. Her eyes where huge and she was trembling slightly. This was not how it was supposed to be. She was never supposed to be in this job for more than a few weeks. She was never supposed to be back selling herself.

If it weren't for a potion that she brewed every night every person that had bought her would have died.

If it weren't for the potion then she would have completely mentally lost it.

The potion took away her pain.

It released endorphins in her body, giving her a natural high, making her happy. Making her content.

She sat down on the toilet, opening up her black bag to take out a hypodermic needle and a small vile of a purple potion. Her heeling potion.

        She took a large elastic band and expertly tied it around her arm with a twist of her wrist. She filled the needle with the purple liquid and pressed it to her skin and injected it half way when Sirius broke down the door to catch Gemini in the act.

        "You JUNKIE!" Sirius yelled as he stalked forward, pulling the needle from her hand and dragging her to her feet.

        "Let me GO!" Gemini yelled as she ripped her arms from his hand and reached for her needle, "I need that."

        "Why Gemini?" Sirius cried, backing out of the bathroom in to the bedroom that they shared. "So you can get your high again? So you can make believe that I didn't catch you selling yourself,"

        "IT MY OBLIGATION TO YOU SIRIUS!" Gemini screamed as she stumbled over her self and fell on the bed.

        "Obligation!" Sirius screamed, throwing the needle down on the floor, pulling a hand through his black hair, he stopped pacing as he walked towards the closet, pulling open the door and ripping his jacket off of it's hanger.

        "Where are you going?" Gemini demanded as she stood up on the bed, her hands balled into fists of rage.

        "Somewhere I can be with out looking at you and being reminded that you are a fucking whore."

        Gemini's eyes snapped up as they took over a completely different persona, burning the black that they once burned when she was back in Hogwarts.

        For the first time, in a good long while, Gemini was genuinely angry.

        And Sirius had not taken the time to notice.

        As he turned for the door he suddenly froze, unable to move, finding that his mouth was the only thing that was still able to freely move.

        "let me the fuck go Gemini."

        "No," Gemini growled as she tilted her head to the side, Sirius now facing her, a wild look in his frozen eyes, "I am the one with the telekinesis so you will listen to every damn word I have to say," she hissed, as she stood and began to walk to the closet.

        "what are you doing."

        Gemini turned and glared at him.

        "Sirius, this isn't the first time that I've ever been put in this situation. I was assigned this job our 7th year before graduation..."

        "But you weren't a spy! You were a-"

        "I know what I was, you don't need to remind me," Gemini snapped, "But I needed to get inside to make my missions successful. It would look highly suspicious if suddenly men began popping up dead on the streets of London, my cover would've been blown and any future successful missions would be out of question. So I was given job of a prostitute. It was you who persuaded me. With out knowing it you gave me the go ahead on it." She looked at the horrified look on his face and felt the need to explain further.

"You told me that I wasn't the heiress of Diana. That I was just a girl with a gift, and that I should use my gift to the best of my advantage. Moody used it to the best of his advantage. It was the perfect cover. I've killed seven death eaters this way, been picked up by eleven," her eyes narrowed immensely, "I wanted to tell you. I wanted to tell you so fucking badly but I couldn't bring myself to hurt you. I have hurt you enough times in my life; you have given me so much. You taught me how to love again, Sirius."

Sirius just look on with a slack jaw, "what did you say...?"

"you taught me how to feel again Sirius!" Gemini yelled, throwing open the closet and grabbing her already packed duffle bag, "but apparently you found that my love isn't enough for you, you needed sex, and you know that was something I couldn't give you because I was dirty and I didn't want my filth to get on you and—"

"you're not dirty..."

"not dirty?!" Gemini laughed bitterely, "do you know the kinds of people I've slept with?!" Gemini shouted, throwing her duffle bag at Sirius's suspended feet, "I've slept with people who would make dirt look clean! do you know how many sexually transmitted diseases I could have gotten if it weren't for my knowledge of potions? I was used Sirius. I was used hard, fast and brutally yet I said nothing because if I did then I wouldn't get the money I needed. I'd scream, I'd cry out in pain, I was their puppet Sirius. I gave them the fucking body of a Goddess, I threw away every belief I had and this was all for you... and you still had the audacity to cheat on me..."

"but you—"

"I didn't do it for pleasure Sirius! I did it to keep this apartments rent paid, to put food on our table..." Gemini shot her hand out, the duffle bag flying into her hand, "I'm going to Lily's, at least there I know I wont be looked down upon from trying to help out those I love," Gemini eyed the needle on the floor next to the bed. It was in her hand in an instant. "here's to love,'

Gemini left with an empty smile that night, even as the rain poured down relentlessly.

***

        Gemini stumbled as she left the apartments front steps, wrapping her coat around her as she took off down the street.

***

        "What is it!" Diana cried, running down the celestial steps her brother chasing after her.

***

It was raining harder now, with each step towards Lily was a step further from the love she once had.

***

        "it's happening," Aradia whispered, one hand to her heart, as she sat on the solidified clouds near the viewing glass, "I cant believe its happening..."

***

        She knocked once. Twice. Three times. She knew it was late. But she knew that Lily wouldn't care. She knew that Lily loved her.

***

        "I didn't know that it would hurt..." Aradia cried, clutching her stomach, "why didn't anyone tell me it would fucking hurt!"

***

        The door opened. "Gemini?!"

        "Lily who is it?"

        "Oh god... Gemini... what happened to you..."

***

        "Aradia, watch your mouth!"

***

        "Sirius and I got into a fight..."

        "Oh god, please, come inside. James! Get some blankets!"

***

        Aradia was encased in a bright white glow, it stretched out to her toes, to her finger tips, to the crown of her head. Then it stopped.

        And all was right.

***

        "oh god Gemini... oh god..."

        "Lily... something doesn't feel right..."

Sirius: I hate you

Chelsea: I know

Sirius: why does my dick hurt?

Chelsea: I don't know. Why do coconuts migrate?

Sirius: are you suggesting that coconuts migrate?

Chelsea: maybe I am...