Chapter 14 – I Have Poured My Whole Soul into You.

PLL SEASON 3 IS STARTING NEXT WEEK! I CAN'T BREATHE, IT'S SO CLOSE! AHHHHH!

Aria had been too scared to show up at Ezra's apartment. She had run off before she even knocked on his door. She knew she was stupid but if he was going to break up with her she wanted at least this day to feel that she belonged to him. She came home and walked straight to bed; not bothering to check her texts, she knew about 99% of them would be from Ezra. Soon Aria fell asleep crying to the sound of her phone vibrating against her nightstand.

Aria walked into English to find Jackie and Ezra there, at first Aria was confused but then she remembered something her English teacher had sad last week, when Aria had been too distracted to listen in her favorite class. She was away on a conference and they would have a substitute teacher. Aria smiled weakly at the both of them but. Aria could feel Ezra's burning gaze at her as she looked around the classroom for an empty seat.

"Since Mrs. Joy is away on a conference I and Mr. Fitz are the substitute teachers for today." Jackie said and smiled wide when she mentioned Mr. Fitz name. Aria rolled her eyes at her, If Jackie only knew. It was unusual that it was two substitute teachers, but since Jackie didn't have an English major, it made sense for Ezra to be there. What Aria didn't understand though, was why Jackie was there if they had called in Ezra. Aria didn't come up with a reason and shook the thought of her. Aria guessed one of the reasons Ezra had accepted to step in was to see if Aria was still alive since she had let all his calls go to voicemail. Ezra didn't look to please to have Jackie by his side, every time she said something to him Aria saw how uncomfortable he felt and now and then he glanced over at Aria to see her reaction, however her face was blank, no expression at all showing.

"I want you all to pick a poem or quote and then read it out loud in class." Ezra said. "You have ten minutes to prepare and you can use the computers in the library." Aria hurried out of the classroom and down the halls to the library to print out her poem, she knew exactly which one she would use.

As her classmates on by one read their poems to the others Aria felt how her hands started to sweat, how every part of her body tensed up, as it got closer to her turn. Aria was never nervous of speaking in front of people, but as she read her poem silently for herself once more, she started to doubt her choice. Maybe it was because she would open herself up to everybody in the classroom, her classmates, her best friends, Ezra, and Ezra's ex, about her feelings towards Ezra. It was scary and just the thought of it made her knees weak. One more before her and then it was Aria.

"Aria, your turn." Jackie said and smiled encouraging.

"By a fleeting touch of your hand,
you light up my skin and my heart
And I know that you are the man
with whom I just can't bear to part.

I feel love and passion so deep
that I'd rather spend every night
Watching you quietly as you sleep,
Shining softly with love so bright.

Not a crush, nor habit, nor lust...
No, I know now I've found in you
The love of my present and past,
The star that shall never go out.
There's no other power so strong,
No emotion, no bond of trust,
Life without you is just all wrong,

So remember when your eyes meet mine,
I love you with all my heart,
And I have poured my entire soul into you,
Right from the very start."

Aria looked Ezra straight in the eyes as the words escaped her lips. She had never been more determined to show anyone her feelings more than now, she was afraid of losing him. To Aria's disappointment Ezra didn't react, his face was expressionless and when Aria was done she looked down and took her seat, not looking at Ezra again. She couldn't believe he didn't even give the slightest sign that he had understood the meaning and what she had done in front of the whole class, just four seconds ago. She felt more rejected than she had ever felt in her whole life, and he, the love of her life, her soul mate, was making her feel that way.

The bell rang and Aria hurried out of class so she could avoid Ezra, which was all she wanted now. She didn't want to feel more rejected than she already was feeling, and she wouldn't let him see that she was hurt by his reaction.

The girls sat in the cafeteria and ate their lunch, as they always would. Emily, Hanna and Spencer was happier than Aria and they all noticed something was wrong. None of them had been in the English class today. Spencer had the morning of to fix some things for something from the school. Aria hadn't really been paying too much attention. Hanna ditched as she usually would and Emily had an extra swim practice today.

"What's wrong?" Emily asked and followed Aria gaze. "I thought you two worked it out as soon as he got home from wherever he was." Emily said as she saw Aria looking at Ezra who sat three tables away.

"I haven't seen nor spoken to him since he left until this morning when he had our English class." Aria said.

"You two really need to make up and loosen up the tension." Hanna said and Spencer gave her a glare.

"It's not that easy." Aria said. "He's keeping something from me and when I poured out my feelings out for him in front of the whole class, he did nothing." Aria wiped away a tear that fell down. "It feels like I'm going to lose him."

"Ar." Spencer said and hugged Aria. "it's going to be alright, just talk to him."

Aria sighed before she knocked on Ezra's door. She didn't knew what would happen once they were face to face and she was scared of not knowing, she was used to be in control but lately, she hadn't control. She hadn't had any control since she knew she had feelings for him, he messed her up, big time. She was scared that, because of him, she had no control. What would happen with her if he decided to end it, right here and now?

Ezra opened the door and Aria looked up slowly to meet his eyes. She was no longer angry with him, now all she wanted was for him to wrap his arms around her and tell her everything was fine, but he didn't, he only stepped aside so she could come in. Aria looked away from his eyes and a pain in her chest, her heart prepared itself from the heartbreak it thought it would feel anytime soon.

Aria sat down on his couch like many times before and looked around in the apartment like it would be the last time she would be there, her eyes traveled to Ezra, he was sitting in the armchair in front of her, and she looked at him, took him all in. He was just as handsome as one week ago; the last time Aria had seen him. Just the thought of losing Ezra made Aria's eyes tear up but she quickly blinked them away so he wouldn't see them. She was not going to cry, not now, not because of him. Why was the person who makes you the happiest also the one who can hurt you the most? Aria sighed and looked at Ezra again.

"I'm sorry." Aria said. "I was so upset that you wouldn't tell me what you were doing, or where you were."

"I'm sorry I didn't tell you and I'm sorry for rejecting you in class." Ezra said and moved out from the armchair so he could take Aria's hands in his over the table that was between them, Aria looked away, not wanting him to read her like an open book as he always did. "I saw how hurt you were, you don't have to deny it Aria. I'm sorry." Aria looked up at him and he wiped away a tear that escaped.

"Aria, believe me when I tell you that I don't know how to tell you where I was or what I did, truth is I don't even know how to deal with it." Ezra looked her straight in the eyes and let her see the tears that started to build. Aria lifted her hand and placed it on his cheek.

"I can help you," Aria said and looked him back in the eyes. "But only if you let me in. I'm sorry I yelled at you for not telling me, I'm truly sorry I did. I out of everybody should know that there's things you only want to bury and never think of again. I want you to know that whatever's bothering you, I'll be here when you're ready to talk about it."

"Do you have any idea of how much I love you?" Ezra asked and continued to look her straight in the eyes.

"Not as much as I love you anyway." Aria said and smiled lightly, placed her other hand on his other cheek and leaned in for a kiss.

"The poem you picked was beautiful, Aria." Ezra mumbled against her lips. "I would never be as brave and do that in front of a whole class."

"Well, I was scared of losing you." Aria admitted.

"You're not going to." Ezra said and kissed her once more. "I love you to much to let you go."

I have a writer's block; I have no ideas what so ever so, if you don't give me some ideas, I don't know when the next episode will be up. So please help me, I'm desperate for inspiration and ideas!

Soon all the homework and essays are over and I can focus on writing this story a lot more, hopefully. If the sun doesn't show up, because then I have to focus on my tan, I feel like an albino at the moment.

Hope you liked this chapter and let me know if you have any ideas.

~Isabell