Kevin's POV
I stayed in my bunk, keeping quiet. I think I heard something.. But I'm not going to bother looking.
I always seem to catch something.. And if I'm correct.. I heard a moan..? It sounded like Nick..
I stuffed my face in my pillow, and held onto it tightly. I tried to keep from crying. I'm just going to start acting like I don't care about anything. A few minutes later, I heard the bathroom door open. I heard quick footsteps, and Joe laughing. I hate that.
"I'm going to go to bed, okay?" He said.
"Kay.." I heard Nick say. Then footsteps again. I could slightly see Joe climbing into his bunk. The curtain was open a tiny bit. Then I could hear him closing his curtain. I waited a minute before getting out of my bunk. I saw Nick sitting on the couch. I slowly walked over to him, and stood in front of him. He was staring at the floor.
"U-Uh.. Hi." I said quietly. He looked up at me, smiling a bit.
"Hey." He patted the spot next to him. I shyly sat down. This is so awkward..
"Look, I'm sorry about earlier.." I said, trying to keep from looking too upset.
"It's okay, I know it was an accident.." He smiled at me and I could see the light bruise on his nose.
"It was still careless of me.."
"Yeah, but we're all a little...careless." He looked down, fiddling with his hands. I think I got the messege. "I guess I diserved it. You know?"
"No, Nick. I don't know and you didn't. I'm truly sorry.."
"Listen, it's fine. Let's just put it behind us and forget about it." He looked back at me and smiled again. He always did know how to make things better.
Well, sugar coat them mostly.
"Okay.. Well, goodnight.." I leaned over to give him a hug but I saw him slightly back away. Was he scared of me?..
"g-goodnight.."
I slowly stood up and then walked to my bed. I couldn't believe he wouldn't even hug me? I tried to get my mind off of it and went back to my bunk. I layed there for a short time then dug my face into my pillow. To cry? no. To pretend it was Nick? Yeah. God, what a loser I am..
The next morning, I woke to the bus moving. I sighed, and stayed laying there. I had my hands under the pillow. I smiled slightly, and rolled over.
I'm not getting out of the bunk. I refuse to. I took the pillow from under my head and hugged it to my chest. I took a deep breath, and I heard Nick and Joe.
"Is Kevin up?" I heard Nick ask. Would he even care?
"I don't think so. I haven't seen him at all. He's most likely asleep." Joe said carelessly.
"Ahh, okay." I grabbed my phone and checked the time. It was noon. I've really been asleep that long..? I remember getting to bed around.. Eleven?
Oh well. I'll stay here for a while longer, or til anyone comes and gets me. I layed on my back and stared at the top of my bunk. It was basically just dark, since I had the curtain closed.
A few minutes later, my phone vibrated. I looked at it confused, and read the text I got.
'Are you up..?' It was Nick. I wonder why he wouldn't just check himself.
'Mhm.'
'Since when?'
'A few minutes? Why couldn't you just check? :I'
'I don't know. Lazy? Haha.'
'Oh.' I knew that wasn't true. I'm sure it's because Joe is hanging around him a lot. It's stupid. But honestly, I shouldn't say anything.. I would get upset if Nick was hanging around Joe a lot.
I actually am upset. Nevermind. Fuck.
I got out of the bunk, and stretched. I walked out to the front, and Joe was sitting on the couch. And Nick was at the other side. He was holding his phone, and he was holding his knees close to his chest. Joe just gave me this look. I didn't get it. I just stared at him for a second, then looked at Nick. He smiled a bit at me. I guess that was good enough. I sat down on the couch and slightly sighed. Then I realized I was still in my boxers. I got up again and grabbed some clothes to change into.
I walked into the bathroom and was just about to set my clothes on the counter until I saw something. Toothpaste maybe? Whatever. I began getting dressed and then walked back out.
They were still in the same spot. Sitting the same exact way.
"So, where are we heading?" I asked, not really sure.
"Well, we have to do a mini concert at some girls Sweet 16 party." Joe said, looking pissed.
"Oh."
I sat back down and felt my phone vibrate again. It was Nick again.
'Sorry I'm not talking to you. I don't want to start anything.'
'It's okay, I understand. Joe can get a little.. jealous?'
'Haha, yeah he can. :)'
I looked up at Nick and smiled. Joe had no clue we were texting eachother. I don't think he noticed. Every text he sent me I would smile. Even if it was something poinless like 'Oh.' Or 'Yeah.'
I felt like a kid with a crush again. But this is more than a crush. So much more.
Joe got up and went to the back. I'm surprised he didn't drag Nick with him. Suddenly I felt something stabbing my side. I looked down, and saw Nick's foot poking me. I looked up at him, and he was grinning.
'Heheheh. :P'
'What do you think you're doing? c:' I laughed quietly, and poked his foot. He stabbed my side again. I snickered, and scooted away. He scooted closer to me, with a goofy smile on his face.
He's just so cute. I could attack him right now..
'Annoying you. 8D'
'You're not annoying, Nick. :)'
'Then I'll try harder to be. D8'
I just looked over at him, and he was blushing. I don't know why. But it was really cute..
'Fuck, stop being so cute.' Then I just realized what I said. And I sent it. Shit. Shit.
I covered my face, and heard Nick make a sound. It sounded like a squeak. Really? Really? ... I sighed and moved one of my fingers, and peaked out at him. He was blushing, trying to cover his face with his phone. I just laughed a bit, and moved his hands. He blushed even worse. I really don't get it.. He just made a 'hmphh' sound and replied.
'I don't see how I'm being cute..' I looked at him, and saw him pouting.
'That. Right there. Just everything you do.' I suddenly wasn't as embarrassed.. Then he had that goofy smile again. He seemed like a little kid..
'Well, you're cute too. 8D'
'Not as cute as yoooou.'
I chuckled and looked at him again. He smiled and stood up, walking to me.
"Hah, yeah?" I said looking up at him. He leaned down and pulled me into a hug. I blushed and hugged him back. This was unexpected..
"What's this for?" I whispered, still hugging him.
"For last night.."
I smiled and burried my face into his neck. Much better than a pillow..
We let go just in time. Joe was walking down the small hallway and Nick quickly sat on the couch.
"Hey, guys."
"Hey." I said looking at him, pretending like nothing happened.
He just glared at me and looked out the window. "Shouldn't be long till' we're there."
"Yeah, I'm exicted." Nick said with a smile, looking at me.
"Why? It's just going to be a whole bunch of girls who get whatever they want." Joe sighed.
"Yeah, but Sweet 16's are fun."
"If you say so."
"Yours was fun. Remember?"
I laughed and remembered Joe's 16th birthday. We rented a giant bounce house and slept on it that night. It was actually pretty fun.
"Yeah." Joe laughed and looked out the window again.
I grabbed my phone and started texting Nick again. We texted for about 10 minutes and I began to write 'I love you.' but erased it. I didn't want to seem too intense..
We got there, and I was suddenly kind of nervous. A bunch of screaming girls. And of course, Joe will be doing shit on stage. Like last time. And again, I won't be able to do anything. But it's not like I could now. Basically, Joe won. Well.. I don't think it was considered a competition.
But either way, he has Nick. We all walked in the back, and saw everything. There was a few people there. Everything was still being set up. So far, there was probably eight or nine annoying teenage girls in there. The whole room was fucking pink. There were sparkles everywhere. Oh God, I was going to throw up. You could hear the annoying voices of the girl's from the other side of the room. I stood behind Nick, sighing. He looked behind at me, and smiled a bit. Joe looked very unamused. We got ready within a few minutes, and then some middle-aged lady walked up to the mic on stage.
"Hello, and welcome to Katy's 16th birthday. We hope you all have fun! We have a special performance for you!" She said excitedly. I heard Joe snicker. Why was he being such an ass today? I don't know if that's just how I see it. But really, I kind of think he's being a dick. Oh well.
A few girls screamed, and I looked out the curtains, and saw more people. Most of the room was filled.
"Okay, here are the Jonas Brothers!" More screams. And we went on stage. I kind of wanted to just get this over with already. The stage wasn't that big. But it wasn't small, either.
Joe went right up to the mic, and smiled. "Hello," He waved to everyone. "Are we excited? Are we having fun?"
A few people yelled "yeah!" and random crap. And Joe laughed, "Alright, here we go," He turned around and smiled at Nick. Who smiled back, and we started doing our thing. We just played a few songs. Not a lot. But enough. It wasn't like the other day. Joe left Nick alone. Kind of. He would just follow him around, and pull on him a bit. We finished, and everyone clapped, of course. "Thanks, everyone! Hope you had a great time! And a very happy birthday to Katy!" Nick said, waving.
"Happy birthday!" Joe and I yelled, walking off stage. He gave me a look. And I just shrugged. Nick followed behind us, almost tripping. I smiled at him. He never did have balance.
"HEY." Someone said. Sounded like someone annoying.. I turned around and it was Katy, the birthday girl or whatever. She looked shallow, annoying, and greedy.
"Hey.." We all said, awkwardly.
"Hey! you guys should stay for the after partay." She did this gross boob-shaking thing. Ugh.
"Uhm, we can't. Sorry, we have to go." Joe told her. She winked and said "Okaay." and walked off. I couldn't stand another minute here.
We walked back to our bus and I sat on the couch.
"I'm so glad we got out of there." I said, sighing. Nick sat next to me but not to close because Joe was helping put things away and could walk in at any moment.
"Me too." He smiled at me. Why does he always have to do that.
"Too much pink."
"Yeah."
Nick laughed out of nowhere and held his stomach. What was his problem?
"What?" I asked, looking at him strangly.
"I was just thinking of your face the whole time we were up there." He was looking at me? the whole time?
"Yeah? How did I look?"
He attempted my face but made it cute. I smiled and kissed his cheek. He pushed me away.. I guess I was caught up in the moment..
"Sorry, Kevin. I ju-"
"I know. Joe.."
"I'm sorry.. I just can't get caught up into this."
"I won't do it again.."
"It's.. Okay.." He looked down, frowning.
"Nick.. I miss-" I was cut off by Joe running in. He had an unamused expression on his face.
"Hey, guys." He coughed.
"Hey, Joe." I rolled my eyes. I glanced at Nick, and noticed him looking at me.. He had this look on his face. I couldn't exactly explain it.. I don't understand it..
"Hi." He stood up, smiling at Joe. Who's expression has now changed. He walked up him, and grabbed his hand, pulling Nick to the back with him. I noticed Nick looking back at me, frowning. Ughh..
I just got up and went to my bunk. I feel like all I do is stay there.. But it's not like I have anything to do, anyways. I crawled in there, and hugged my pillow. I'm now naming it Nick. That's all I have..
Fuck, I'm such a douche.
My phone vibrated, and I looked at it. It was Nick, of course.. Who else would it be, really?
'You were saying something..?' I smiled a bit. Whatever he says, I just smile.
'What?'
'You said.. You miss something.'
'Oh..'
'Tell me? Please..?'
'I was saying.. I miss you..'
After a few minutes, I was worried. He didn't reply. Then after a few more minutes, I got more worried. What if Joe saw that..? It's possible.
Then my phone vibrated.
'Oh.' That's all he said.
'I'm sorry..'
'Don't be.'
'Why? You don't even want to be involved in any of that. So really, I should be. It's my fault.'
I felt like an asshole after I sent that..
'Don't say that..' I wonder if he even cares.. He is too nice. But I don't know. He could just be acting nice, trying not to hurt me. It doesn't matter.
'Nick, it's the truth.'
Then the curtain to my bunk was pulled back. And my face heated up when I saw him. "Hello." He said, looking down. He looked nervous..
"What are you doing?" I whispered. He was supposed to be with Joe.
"Come here." He stepped back, and waved towards him a bit. I slipped out of the bunk, and looked at him. He was so tiny and cute. He pulled me with him to the bathroom. I was now kind of confused.
"Nick-"
"Shhh." Then he closed the door behind him, and locked it. What.
He went over to the sink, and hopped up on the counter. I looked at him confused.
"Nick..?"
"I just.. Wanted to talk in here.. Sorry." He swung his legs slowly, smiling at me a bit.
"A-Alright.."
Then I went across from the sink, and sat down on the floor. He watched me, and I kind of blushed a bit.
"Uh.. So.. What do you want to talk about..?" I asked quietly.
"Well.. You said.. It's your fault.."
"Everything is."
"No, it's not." His expression saddened. I looked up at him, and nodded.
"Yeah.. It is."
"No. It's my fault."
"How? Really, how?" I chuckled, "You didn't just.. Jump into shit and get in the way."
"Right.. I basically started shit with Joe.. Then.."
"Then you felt sorry for me." I said emotionlessly.
"Kevin.." He sighed.
"I just got in the way. I could've left you guys alone." Then I stood up, "I guess you should just forget everything."
"No!" He whisper shouted, and jumped off the counter. I leaned against the wall and took a deep breath. "I feel.. Like a whore.." He mumbled, and I could see tears building up in his eyes. I walked up to him, and wrapped my arms around him.
"You're not.." I said in a hushed tone.
"Yes. I fucking am." His voice was now breaking.
"Nick, don't say that.. It's just.. You're being pulled around.. And I'm sorry.. I'll leave you alone."
"B-But.."
"I know you want me to.. You don't have to be nice to me."
He pushed me away, and bit his lip. I could tell he was trying not to cry. "N-No! Stop saying that! That is not how I am! I-I just fucking let people pull me around. And- And you're the one who's too nice!"
"Wh-What do you mean..?"
"Yo-You're too nice.. I.. I just don't know what to do.."
"Well.. Joe already has you.." I looked down, and tried to avoid getting upset. I already am. But... I don't want to show it.
"What..? N-No he doesn't.." He wiped his eyes, and sniffled.
"Don't act like that.. I already know.."
"Know what.."
"Know that you two.. are together." I looked at my feet. I couldn't let him see my face.
"But-"
"But what?"
"I.."
I looked up at him and his face was covered in tears. It almost made me want to cry. Infact it just might. Suddenly he wrapped his arms around my neck. He stood on his toes then flat, pulling me down a bit. I hugged him closely and let his body weight fall in my arms.
"I love you Kevin.. I can't take this ignoring you and hiding with you and sneaking around with Joe.."
"Then why are you doing it?"
"Because I'm scared. I'm scared I'll lose the both of you if I can't make you happy.."
"Listen," I pulled him away, looking into his eyes. "you shouldn't have to do that. I'll love you whether you chose me or not. I'll never, and I mean never, leave you.."
He just nodded his head, tears pouring down his face. I gave him another hug and placed a light kiss on his cheek.
"Hey, how about we go get something to eat." I smiled and wiped his face.
"O-Okay.." He said, sniffling.
Alright, seriously, is Nick a whore? XD