Lily ran into the house looking forward to spending the evening with Otis, she had had such a fun time with Rufus even though she had driven him close to insanity but now was looking forward to some Otis snuggle time. Lily walked into the living room and saw Otis fast asleep on the sofa with the T.V on snoring gently. Lily smiled softly looking at him peacefully asleep she walked over to him and gently kissed him on the cheek, slowly Otis opened his eyes and looked up at her.

"Mmm hay mama" Otis slurred, Lily wrinkled her nose at the strong scent of whiskey that buried its way into her nose.

"Guess you had fun while I was out huh baby" Lily chuckled and Otis shook his head.

"Not really mama was bored"

"Well you're pissed out your face so you must have enjoyed yourself"
"I'm not pissed" Otis slurred as he went to stand up and fell forward, he would have landed face first on the ground if Lily hadn't reacted quickly enough, Lily suppressed a laugh.

"Not pissed huh babe?" She smiled smugly.

"Mmm maybe a little bit mama" He slurred he stood wobbly and unstable, Lily stood with a hand on each of his hips keeping him steady.

"Think we should get you to bed don't you?" Lily smiled and Otis nodded his head, Lily wrapped his arm round the back of her neck as they walked to the stairs. Lily took a deep sigh and looked at Otis and wondered how she was going to get him up the stairs.

"Come on Otis on the count of three, one, two and three" Lily wondered how they managed to get up the stairs as he wobbled from side to side getting to the top step he tripped and fell flat on his face.

"Fuckin' mother fucker!" Otis groaned on the ground "Leave me here mama" He sighed Lily laughed although she was really tempted to leave him sprawled out on the floor.

"Come on Otis you're almost there" Groaning he heaved himself up and staggered forwards into the bedroom and flopped onto the bed, Lily gave a sigh of relief that they had made it.

Lily was awoken in the morning by the sound of retching she groaned and sat up rubbing her eyes wondering what that sound was. Once she saw Otis's empty side of the bed she realised he must have the hangover from hell. She heard Otis being painfully sick, coughing, retching and groaning she stifled a laugh at his own self caused suffering. Otis staggered back into the bedroom he looked pale and his forehead was covered with a light sweat.

"Whiskey getting its own back?" Lily chuckled.

"Yeah with a vengeance" Otis groaned limping back to the bed and flopping on it laying an arm over his eyes.

"You're limping babe" She commented.

"Well done you noticed" He said deadpanned, Otis was always more of a grumpy grouch than usual when he suffered a hangover.

"Let me have a look" Otis sighed heavily all he wanted to do was go back to sleep and sleep off this hangover.

"It's alright mama leave it"

"It won't take a second" She offered.

"I said leave it I'm dying here alright mama just leaves me" Lily chuckled at his over exaggeration "wait no not again gotta run" Bile rose to his throat he leapt out of bed and cried out in pain as his ankle gave way, quickly he scrambled across the floor on his hands and knees to the toilet, the sound of loud vomiting and groaning filled the room. Lily bit her lip to stifle a giggle she didn't dare to say I told you so.

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Afterwards Otis hopped on one foot back to bed and groaned; his throat burned and was sore.

"I'd hate to say I told you so" Lily smugly, Otis scowled and gave her the look of death.

"Let me have a look ok" Otis gave and irritated sigh and nodded, Lily looked at the swollen ankle.

"Well your ankles sprained genius must be from went you went arse over tit last night"

"Brilliant" Otis growled.

"So it looks like total rest for you Mr grump no walking on that foot I'll get some peas for and you're going to have to keep that foot elevated" Otis scowled.

"Brilliant fanfuckingtastic" He growled as Lily went to get some peas.

Lily elevated his ankle by putting it on a cushion.

"Ow, ow, ow" He whinged, Lily giggled he had suffered and gone through so much pain in his life and right now he was moaning about a sprained ankle she found it quite laughable.

"Oh shush moaning Myrtle I'm hardly touching you" She laughed.

"Fuck you not your ankle no opinion" Lily bit her bottom lip as she put the pack of peas on his ankle "Shh...fuckin' cold" Otis hissed.

"You're fault babe"

"Fuck off, I feel like I'm dying here and all you can say is 'your fault' He said imitating her voice.

"Sorry babe no sympathy, one day off work just one and you get absolutely shit faced then you turn into a whinging bear with a sore head when you have a hangover"

"Fuck off somewhere Lily leave me alone to die my heads about to explode"

"Alright baby love you" She said kissing him on the cheek.

"Mmm love you too mama" Otis said closing his eyes to go sleep. Lily laughed all the way to the garage to see Rufus he was such a grizzly moaning grumpy grouch when he was hung-over.

Otis was sat alone with his thoughts while Lily was learning from Rufus in the garage; Otis was wondering what she was doing all day when she went out. Otis stared at his swollen ankle that seemed to be taunting him from the foot of the bed.

Look at you, you're fucking pathetic Otis thought to himself you can't even fucking work to pay Lily back for everything she's done for you, your useless. Otis scowled at his ankle hating himself for being so stupid that he'd now made himself temporarily lame. See get fucking drunk and you make yourself more fucking lame than you were already with your fucked up arm that was your fault too because you're so messed up. Otis hobbled along the floor and grabbed a bottle of whiskey out from the cabinet because the more his mind whirled freely the more he wanted to silence it with drink. You're worthless you know where Lily is now? She's probably off being fucked by some real man who can work to support her and buy her nice things. The more he thought about that the drunker he wanted to become.

Lily came back early in the evening to hear really loud music filling the house, she frowned wondering what was going on. She climbed up the stairs and opened the bedroom door to find Otis drunkenly dancing around the bedroom to country and western music. Lily would have burst out laughing at the terribly awful dad dance moves Otis was pulling out if it wasn't for Otis's ankle being so badly sprained.

"Otis what the hell?" Lily exclaimed, her loud voice almost made him topple over startled.

"Hay mama wanna dance?" He grinned staggering over to her and pulling her into his arms, one hand at the base of her spine the other hand in hers and moved her round in a drunken stumbling waltz.

"No Otis I don't wanna dance what the hell you're supposed to be resting that ankle"

"Why? It don't hurt" Otis said frowning.

"Well no shit you're that pissed I doubt you can feel anything" She snapped disapprovingly, Otis flinched at the sharpness of her voice.

"I, I was just having some fun mama" He slurred.
"You're supposed to be resting!" She exclaimed annoyed.

"Look mama stop lecturing me I can do whatever I want and I don't need you to tell me what to do!" Otis's temper flared with a flip of a coin he had spent too long fighting for his freedom he wasn't going to let someone tell him what to do.
"I don't say things for the goodness of my health Otis, I do it because it's for your own fucking good and when I say you need to rest your foot I mean you need to fucking rest it" Lily yelled irritated, having someone yelling back at him made him feel an inch small, like the small little boy he used to be being told off by his mum. He scrambled up onto the bed with his back against the wall and hugged his knees.

"I, I'm sorry mama" He said looking at her tears brimmed eyes, Lily sighed she knew she had upset him by shouting at him making the memories come back again so clear. Slowly she sat beside him and put her arm around him, he flinched at her touch.

"Shhhh Otis I'm sorry I shouldn't have shouted but you needed to look after that ankle you worry me sometimes one day you're not going to listen to me and you're going to really hurt yourself"

"I'm sorry mama I didn't mean to make you mad" He mumbled.

"Baby you didn't make me mad you scare me how much you don't listen but you don't make me mad" She soothed kissing him on the cheek. "What's wrong baby? It's not like you to drink so much" Lily asked concerned Otis shook his head he didn't want to tell her what he was thinking.

"Come one baby you know you can talk to me about anything" Lily prompted holding him close.

"I, I feel so worthless" He chocked it felt horrible to say what he was thinking.

"What why?" Lily asked shocked.

"I, You do so much for me and I feel so indebted to you, all I wanted to do was work so I could pay you back and I can't even do that because I'm so pathetic" Otis sobbed.

"Otis you don't owe my anything everything I do is because I love you" Lily soothed stroking his hair.

"I'm never going to be able to pay you back and I know eventually I'm going to lose you to a real man someone who can work and buy you nice things, if I haven't lost you already" Tears ran down Otis's cheeks.

"Otis you look at me" Lily ordered roughly taking Otis's face in her hands "You don't owe me anything, I love you so, so much and I will still love you no matter what" Lily said seriously looking straight into his eyes without blinking.

"I don't deserve you mama, you deserve someone better than me" He slurred.
"Otis listen to me you are the best man anyone could ever wish to have, there is no better than you, you deserve to be loved and I love you so, so much" She said kissing him on the lips wishing with all her heart that the kiss would make him believe it.

"I love you to mama, I just, I just sometimes think I should have been left with the Uncles at least there I would have been useful, have some kind of fucking purpose" Lily's eyes spilled over with tears that comment made her heart explode into a million pieces.

"Otis you have a purpose you look after us all, you help Rufus, you protect and love me , you help everyone, what happened with the uncles should never have happened you didn't deserve that don't ever think you did" Lily sobbed.
"You still love me? Even though I've been so used up by the uncles they fucked me beyond belief and you still love me?" Otis asked stunned by her constantly saying she did.

"Of course I still love you you silly man I'll never stop loving you" Lily said kissing him on the cheek and pulling him close into a hug.

"I feel so useless, pathetic and worthless mama" He sobbed into her ear.
"Baby you're not working for a couple of weeks that's it, it's no big deal babe think of it as a holiday" She said trying to make him feel better.

"I love you Otis I love you so much" She whispered in his ear gently rocking him back and forth as he snivelled pulling himself together. When he had stopped crying Lily gently got him into bed with her and pulled him close, his head on her chest soothed by the slow rhythmic beating of her heart.

"Mmm, there she is my babygirl...always...always there for me" Otis slurred as he slipped into sleep.
"Love you baby" She whispered kissing his head after he was asleep.