12 Sessions with Caterina
Digidestend Angel and Nathaniel
I do NOT own Victorious
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February 10th – Session 11
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"And if you have to leave…I wish that you would just leave…" –Evanescence
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"Hi, Beck!" Cat ran up to him in the hallways of Hollywood Arts. They were going to their first class of the day, which was Sikowitz. Beck gave her a small smile. "How is your morning?"
"It's morning." He said dully as he shut his locker and throwing his backpack over his shoulder. "You?"
"It's okay." She said in a different voice that Beck could not pinpoint, but she soon went back to her bubbly self. "Oh my gosh, I have a joke for you!"
Beck didn't want to hear a joke, but didn't really have a choice. "Okay, what?"
"Knock, knock." She started with a goofy grin.
He inwardly groaned. He hated these types of jokes. "Who's there?"
"Isn't?"
"Isn't who?"
"Isn't life amazing?" And she giggles.
Beck couldn't help, but give her a little credit. "Yeah, it is." He swung a friendly arm around her shoulders. "Let's get to class, sport. You have to draw that cupcake for Sikowitz."
"Yay!" She jumped up and down. "I love drawing! I love cupcakes! I love Sikowitz! I love-"
"I get it, Cat. You love the world." He playfully rolled his eyes.
"Hey, Beck?"
"Yeah?"
She gave him a true smile. "Thanks for always being there. You know you're a great friend to me."
Beck's heart had a ping of pain, like something wasn't right. Something was wrong with what she said. There was something behind the words.
Or it was indigestion.
Either way, it wasn't a comfortable feeling.
He shrugged that away and poked her stomach. "You were there for me first, Cat." He opened the classroom door for her. "After you."
She gave him a sad smile. "I'm going to miss these happy times."
His whole world froze. Was she going somewhere? Moving? What the heck? "Cat, what do-"
"CAT, my red-velvet student!" Sikowitz shouted. "Show me what our float is going to be!" He said as he handed her a box of washable markers. She squealed and jumped onto the stage, immediately drawing.
Beck's nauseating feeling didn't stop. He didn't know when it was going to either.
And that was the last perfect memory of Cat Valentine and Beck Oliver as friends before she lost herself in a world of depression and angst.
Beck dropped his head into his hands as he sat against his locker as everyone else was in class. It was silence in the hallways. He didn't want to go to class. He wanted to read the book. He knew Cat was pissed at him for not going to class, but he had to know. He had to. Session 10 freaked him out a bit, and now he knew Session 11 was about to scare him. Apparently he's going to want to avenge Cat for something.
He will.
If some guy hurt her, he sure as hell will go hunt the bastard down and beat the hell out of him. It seems rash, but it will be necessary.
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February 10th, 2012
Session 11 With Caterina
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It was just a normal day for me.
Things at home had not gotten better, at all, but work just came and gone this past week.
One more appointment and then I'm done for the week. Thank God.
But this one appointment, Cat Valentine, always keeps me in suspense of what's going to happen next. It's like a soap opera. And the ultimate question right now is: when the heck will Cat confess to Andre?
Sad, right?
That's how my world turns lately ever since Cat first stepped into my office.
It's session 11 for us.
Never would I have thought that this would be 2nd to the last session with her. And I never would've thought that it'd be mostly my fault that Cat committed such a gruesome suicide. It sickens me to know how clueless I was to Cat's horrid pain.
In these last 2 sessions, you will discover how terrifying Cat's last weeks were. Her reasons of why she did what she did will suddenly come undone and be revealed to you. By the end of this story, you'll finally see what I saw. You'll feel what I felt. You'll hate me like I hate myself.
I reach my receptionist and give her a small smile. "Hey. Has Caterina checked in?"
She nods. "Yes, but…she's off today. Very off."
"Oh dear." I'm truly concerned. I walk through the heavy door to the waiting room and I lay my eyes on Cat's fragile form. She reminded me of a porcelain doll. Her makeup seemed to be smeared and she was hiccupping like she had just finished crying. Next to her is Jade West, who is rubbing Cat's back. I walk up to the both of them. "What's happened?" I ask softly, putting my hand gently on Cat's head.
Jade sighed. "I don't know. She's been like this since a few nights ago. She won't tell me or anyone what happened. Maybe she'll tell you." Jade stood up and helped Cat to her feet. "I'll be out here, Cat."
"No, Jade, if you don't mind, I want you to come in this time." I tell her and she looks at me with shock. "Trust me on this."
She narrows her eyes at me, but gives me a nod. She puts an arm around Cat's waist and leads her behind me. We reach my office and I motion for Jade to sit on the couch with Cat, and she does. I don't bother with grabbing my notebook this time.
Cat huffs out a breath and the tears were still running down her face. She looked absolutely dreadful. I hand Jade the tissue box and she takes one out, handing it to Cat, who shook her head at it.
"No." She mumbles.
I pat Cat's knee. "Talk to us, Cat. We're here for you. What happened a few nights ago?"
Cat started breathing deeper. "No. I don't want to remember. Don't make me relive it!" She screams as she holds on to Jade's arm for dear life. "He'll come back."
Jade looked absolutely beside herself. "Trust me when I say this, no one is coming back for you. I'm here now. If you tell us, we can protect you."
Cat was shaking violently, but stared at both of us with trust. "Okay…but please don't tell my mom or dad. They'll hate me." She whimpers.
I nod. "As long as it doesn't involve you hurting yourself, I won't. What happened to you?"
She paled. "A few nights ago, Daniel…the one who cheated on me with Tori…he texted me an apology text, saying he was sorry for kissing her. It took him a while, but I guess he finally had the manly nerve to apologize. I said I didn't care. I said it didn't matter anymore. What's done is done, but…" She takes a sharp breath.
"Keep going, Cat. You're doing great." I tell her strongly.
She nods. "Okay…well…he texted me a message asking if we could meet somewhere. I told him to pick a place. He said for me to just go to his house. So I did. My mom dropped me off. And we talked for over an hour when I...I…started to…feel…bad."
"Bad?" Jade whispered, running her fingers through Cat's hair.
She nods. "I felt sick. The whole world was getting blurry. I told Daniel that, but…he…he said he'd have me take a nap up in his room to get rid of the headache. Once we went to his room, I said it was the drink he gave me. There was something in the drink. He just…laughed…at me." She hiccupped the tears back. "He threw me on the bed and…and…locked his bedroom door…and…" She sobs. "It was horrible and it hurt so bad!"
"He drugged your drink." I muttered under my breath. "Do your parents know?"
She shook her head. "No! And they never will!"
"Cat, you should see a doctor."
"I did…" She sighed. "I don't have anything, nor am I pregnant."
"That's good. Very responsible of you." I tried to encourage her. I peek over at Jade, who's almost in tears. "Jade, what's your opinion here?"
She shook her head, looking devastated. "She doesn't deserve this." She looked Cat in the eye. "You didn't deserve it."
Cat shrugged. "Maybe I did-"
"NO! You didn't!" Jade snapped. "Cat, no matter that you think, you're such a good person! I know we don't say that enough to you, but dammit, it's true!"
Cat gasped and looked to her. "Really? Do you mean that?"
Jade nodded. "Yes. I can't believe you've been feeling this way."
Cat sighed. "I didn't want to burden you guys with my stupid feelings."
"Don't think that way." Jade smiled. "You're my best friend. No matter how awful I treat you, you'll always be number 1 in my life."
"Pinky promise?" Cat said with a hopeful smile.
Jade semi-rolled her eyes, but held out her pinky. Cat immediately wrapped hers around it. "Pinky promise."
"Do you see what I mean, Cat?" I interrupt. "Your friends may not say it, but they really do love and care for you."
Cat let out a breath and nodded. "I guess I do now. Thanks, Patty."
I smile, but lose it. "Are you going to be okay?"
Cat bit her lip. "I don't know. I'm still terrified of everything that moves without me knowing it's even there. I'm scared of every male. Like today, Beck gave me a quick hug, but I jumped away from him, thinking he was Danny." She had tears again. "I apologized to him, but I still didn't want to give him a hug. I don't want to afraid of Beck, or Andre, or Robbie, but…it's out of instinct now."
"We should tell the others, Cat." Jade told her.
"How about next week, you bring all your friends in?" I suggested. "This is a safe environment. You all can talk together as a group."
Cat thought about it and nodded. "Okay…okay, I will."
I smile. "Good. Now I know it's a bit early, since we still have 20 minutes, but why don't you two take off? It looks like you both have lots to talk about."
Jade nodded. "A lot." She gave Cat a grin. "Come on. I'll buy us some frozen yogurt."
Cat's face lit up. "Ooh, Frozen Yogurt, yay!"
I chuckled. "I'll see you both next week."
And they left. Together.
I truly thought things would start getting better for Cat Valentine from that day forward.
But the next session would change everything for everyone.
If only I had been smarter and gentler with my words, she would still be here today.
Beck growled as he slammed the book shut. "Cat, did Danny really rape you?"
"I wish I could say no, but yes he did…please don't do anything stupid, Beck. He's not worth it."
"What'd he do to you?"
"Trust me, you don't want to hear this."
"The hell I don't!" Beck snapped. "Tell me!"
Cat sighed deeply, but went through every detail of what happened to her and what Danny did to her. He lost it.
The bell rang and students came out of their classrooms and Beck stood from his spot. He began heading towards the front doors, but Robbie and Tori came out of nowhere. "Tori!" He shouted.
Tori jumped, but gave Beck a sympathetic stare. "I'm guessing you read-"
"Where does Danny live?" Beck growled out. "Tell me now."
"What are you going to-"
"Tori!"
"Alright!" Tori growled back. "234 E. M. St!"
Without a word of thanks, Beck stomped out of the school doors, leaving Tori and Robbie at odds.
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Slamming his car door shut after skidding in front of his new rival's house, Beck found Danny washing his car outside his house and inwardly growled. Danny smiled innocently.
"Beck? My man, what's up?" Danny asked kindly.
Beck walked up to him and suddenly punched his face, making him fall to the ground.
Danny shakily stood back up and smirked. "I'm guessing you read Session 11 already? I finished the book-"
"I don't give a shit whether you finished the book or not!" Beck snarled. "You drugged her drink! You raped her!"
Danny gave him an evil grin. "I don't know what you're talking about. Cat was a liar."
"The hell you don't!" Beck continued on his rampage, pushing Danny against his car in a choking hold. "How dare you rape her? HOW DARE YOU! Give me one reason why I shouldn't kill you!" Danny stuttered over his words. "SPEAK UP! Come on, you weren't nervous when you forced yourself on her and tied her hands together!"
Danny's tried to push Beck off, but Beck wasn't moving. "How did you know I tied her up?"
"You…you sick bastard!" Beck saw red. "You ripped her clothes off her and you stole her virginity! YOU STOLE HER INNOCENCE! And after she recovered, you TAUNTED her and said you stole it from her! You laughed at her! It's YOUR fault!"
Danny tried to push him off. "GET OFF!"
"NO!" Beck had tears. "You're feeling what Cat was feeling that night you destroyed! My friends and I have been pacing and thinking her suicide was OUR fault, but dammit, YOU DID THIS! You made her feel disgusting and awful."
"But she tried telling us, Beck." A new voice came.
Beck turned around and saw Andre's distraught face walking up to them.
Beck glared. "Leave, Andre. LEAVE! You don't know what happened!"
"I heard everything, Beck." Andre's eyes brimmed with tears. "I want to kill him too. I really do. But I know Cat's crying right now, praying you'd leave him be."
"He raped her." Beck choked Danny harder. "He broke her."
"I know." Andre choked up. "And she tried telling us. That one day, at lunch. She had been quiet that whole day, fidgeting and nervous. She was off. Very off. And then at lunch…she…she snapped out of it and said she needed to talk. But we ignored her. We let her go." Andre shrugged. "It's our fault too. Not just his."
Beck punched Danny in the gut as he released his hold on him, and he fell to the ground in pain. Beck turned to Andre. "I thought you said you loved her!"
Andre looked taken aback. "I did! I do!"
"Then why the hell am I the one seeking revenge on this sick bastard that hurt the love of your life? Sure, Cat was practically my baby sister, but DAMMIT, Andre, YOU LOVED HER! WHY AREN'T YOU PROTECTING HER? STANDING UP FOR HER?"
"Revenge isn't the answer!" Andre snapped. "Cat's dead! She's not coming back! Killing Danny or even beating the living shit out of him will NOT bring her back! It will NOT bring her justice! It will NOT bring you, or her, peace! Accept it, Beck! Respect her wishes!"
Beck growled and clenched his fists. Danny was struggling to stand up with his broken nose and split lip, gasping for air. He turned to him. "I still hate you."
Andre walked up closer and put a hand on Beck's shoulder. "Let's go, man."
As he and Beck turned away, they heard Danny chuckle and they turned back to him.
Danny smirked. "It's too bad you didn't get a chance with her, Harris. She was a fun one." Danny grinned. "I took what you could've had. Her first time."
"STOP!" Cat's voice screamed. Danny jumped two feet in the air as Cat appeared before him in her angel outfit. "Stop this! Leave Andre and Beck alone! Don't be mean to them!"
Danny was frightened, but angered. "Don't tell me what to do, you evil witch!" He took the window cleaner stick and suddenly swung it at Cat's faded form. It went right through it. He continuously swung at her, but it kept passing through her. Danny looked possessed. "I'll strangle you!" He reached his hands for her throat, but he passed through her.
Andre lost on self-control. He clenched his fists and ran up to him. "Get the hell away from her!" He screamed as he slammed his fist right into Danny's face and it made him fall to the ground again, only this time he was unconscious. Andre was breathing heavily as he began sobbing against the car. Beck gulped. Andre turned to the transparent Cat. "I…I know he couldn't have hurt you, but…" Andre shrugged. "I just couldn't let him threaten you."
Cat walked up to him and hugged him, and he barely felt her energy around him, but he still embraced it. "No matter what you think, Andre. You were my protector." She stood back and smiled. "Think of it this way, guys, I'm dead now. He can't hurt me anymore. I'm not scared of him. I faced him too. Just now. I faced my old fear and confronted him. I think I really have found peace now."
Beck's eyes widened. "No! Don't crossover to the other side! Stay my guardian angel! Don't-"
"For the love of goodness, Beck, I'm your guardian angel, I can't leave you." Cat said raised an eyebrow. "Must you always be so dramatic?"
Beck glared at her as Andre burst out into laughter.
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"I can't save her…" –Lesley Roy
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