Chapter 14 Pansy Parkinson

"Draco?" I asked softly, he was almost asleep, but I couldn't stop my mind from forming some horrifying events about him and Pansy. Was he unfaithful and slept with her because I wouldn't go that far? Was she just prettier than me?

"How the hell could Pansy be prettier than you?" He grumbled and turned to face me. I blushed in frustration. I always forgot that he could hear my mind randomly.

"I don't know. It's driving me crazy Draco, I want to know why you went to see her. I'll know if you lie." I said, desperately. I didn't want to be the jealous girlfriend who ruined the relationship by not trusting the guy, but I had to know why he wanted see her instead of me.

"I didn't want to see her instead of you, but did have to see her. I just don't know if I should tell you why, but I swear it's not for sex." He said, still half asleep.

"Then why?" I persisted.

"Damn it Hermione, I can't tell you!" He said, finally becoming angry. I hated him angry, but it was his natural reaction to my prying about his life that he didn't want to share with me. I wanted him to know every part of me, but he didn't want the same. Did that mean he didn't love me as much as I loved him?

"That is ludicrous." He said, in a furious voice. A small voice in my head said I should have known he couldn't love me that much, but another said that he loved me more than anyone.

"Hermione!" he exclaimed, and I burst into tears. Why wouldn't he tell me? Unless it's something so horrible that I….that I…I don't know what I'd do.

"I'm just ashamed of it alright? I am so ashamed of what I did to her!" He collapsed onto the bed and into my lap.

"What happened? Tell me!" I pleaded, pulling my fingers through his soft blond hair. He sighed deeply and kept his face down.

"I can't tell you, but I'll show you tomorrow alright. Just sleep and tomorrow I'll show you." He murmured, beseeching with me.

"Alright, but I won't forget." He'd better not back out of this. It was too important.

"I won't, promise, let's just go to sleep." He said and pulled me closer so he was spooning me. I sighed contently as his arm rest on my waist. He hadn't lied to me yet….mostly.

"I love you, no matter what you do." I whispered before falling to sleep.

"Love, come on. Time to wake up." I heard Draco's insistent voice at my ear. I groaned and covered my head with the pillow.

"Oh no you don't." he said and pulled it away.

"Just five more hours please." I said pulling the covers over my head instead. He crawled under them and lay on top of me, crushing me.

"Get off you fat troll." I said, probably acting like a baby. It was my fault I did sleep well last night.

"I won't take that personally because I know that I am much sexier than a troll." He said, and kissed his way up my neck to my lips. That was cheating!

"It's not cheating! It's strategy…" he said suggestively. I groaned against his lips and surrendered to him. That conniving bastard, doesn't he know I need beauty sleep? He chuckled and I really hated how he could hear my thoughts more often than I could hear his.

"Get up, now I thought you weren't going to forget!" he said, teasingly. I was instantly wide awake. I couldn't help but be a curious soul!

"Alright I'm up. I'm showering first though." I said and hopped out of bed, very aware that he was following me.

"I could use a shower to…" he trailed off letting me think about that.

"Sure." I said and pulled him into the bathroom with me. He looked shocked. Disagreement or not he was still the only guy I would have in my shower.

He burst into laughter, reminding me once again that he could hear me.

I'd better be the only guy in her shower…

I smiled widely. He was about to be the first and only…so far anyway. I stripped down and he did too, but I made it clear that we were just showering. It still made me nervous to be around him undressed, but he assured me fervently that he loved my body. I felt him start rubbing my back with soap then he put shampoo in my hair.

"You'd better not get that in my eyes, it stings like hell." I muttered and he chuckled. I let him rinse me off and then I started washing his and was half tempted to get in his eyes just to tick him off, but I decided against it. He would just be prissy all day.

"You look good enough to eat." He whispered suddenly against my ear, biting down on it.

"Excuse me!" I said in high voice, thrown off by the desperation in his voice.

"I've never seen you wet…." He trailed off, but I knew there was more to it than that.

Last time I'll see her this way…

I gaped at him and he didn't even blink.

"This is not the last time you'll see me like this." I said firmly.

She says that now, but after she sees….she won't even want to look at me.

I swallowed loudly and pressed myself against him. He was scaring me. I accepted him for what he was a long time ago, but if he was so sure that I would refuse him after this, than it must be something so horrible.

"I love you." I said, hoping that would be enough.

We stepped out of the shower and dressed in silence. What was there to say? I love you but you're about to leave me because I've done something horrible? No, we had nothing to say until I found out what he was hiding.

We flooed to the Parkinson Manor, a feeling of dread in the pits of our stomachs. It wasn't really a manor, more like a nice house, but for pureblood purposes I guess that's why it was referred to as that.

"Draco? What about her parents?" I asked, sure they wouldn't want someone like me in their home.

"They're dead. She's here alone." He said coldly. I could tell he hated being here and he hated me being here even more. We came to a door and he pushed it open with out knocking. When I walked in I saw Pansy lying in her bed, though she looked different from the way I remembered. I waited for her to say hello or demand that I leave, but she said nothing.

"What's wrong?" I asked him, curiously. He looked at my innocent expression.

"She's in a come. That's what's wrong." I was even more confused by that. What did her being in a coma have to do with him?

"How?" I asked.

"We were married, for 3 months." He whispered. I jumped, recalling the dream I'd had of them. He had taken her offer?

"She got pregnant after two months, but she didn't tell me. We weren't really getting along well. One day she disappeared and when she came home she collapsed. I found a card in her pocket. It said Dr. Haven's abortion clinic. I of course had no idea what that meant, but when I showed it to my mother she started crying, saying that Pansy was a horrible bitch." I felt so horrified. Who would do that to their child?

"I finally understood what Pansy had done, but I felt numb and it hadn't sunk in yet. I called the doctor and he said to take her to an emergency room. I didn't know what that was, but then my mother said to take her to St. Mungo's. I did and she woke up there after they healed her." She looked at me and then vomited all over herself.

"'I killed our baby.' She said." Draco rubbed his eyes before continuing.

"I got so angry, that, just like when I was little, my magic just exploded out of me. I hadn't meant to hurt her, but my own child was dead because of her. I was knocked unconscious and was banned to see her for the rest of her stay, but she hasn't woken. I come to see her every few weeks. Her house elf cares for her constantly and reports to me if there is any sign of her waking. There hasn't been."

I felt upset. He thought this was enough to scare me off?

"How long has she been like this?" I asked.

"7 months. She's lost 7 months of her life because of me, and she might even lose them all." He said and sat down on the bed next to her.

"I don't know why she did it. Why she went to some muggle healer and killed her child. Our child." He said, making me jealous of the way he said our child. I tried to imagine what I would do if I had been in her shoes. Being the person I am, I wouldn't have killed it, but I would have been so terrified. She was a tough girl maybe she could handle taking a innocent life.

"Is that it?" I asked finally. He spun to look at me.

"Is that it?" he repeated. I nodded.

"Yes that's it but it's enough!" he said furiously.

"Enough for what?" I asked casually.

"For you to be terrified of me! To fear for your life if I get to angry!" He said. I was angry and hurt. He though I cared that much? That one mistake in his life would make me terrified of him?

"It's horrible, Draco, what happened to her. It's horrible what she went through, it's absolutely unfair and tragic, but it's not your fault. You're magic did this to her, have you tried to wake her up?" I asked, and he just stared at me for a long time.

"No I haven't tried." He said, but then turned and took Pansy's hand. I stepped back watching him silently. He whispered word to her and then kissed her forehead lightly before coming to join me.

"You aren't going to run away screaming as you go?" He asked uncertainly. I shook my head and kissed him silly. If he had a million secrets, I didn't care. He could have all the secrets in the world as long as we didn't go through that again. I thought I was going to lose him!

"Mmmmhh." We froze. Neither of us made that sound.

"What the hell?" Draco and I ran into her room.

"Where am I?" she called out just as we entered the room.

"Draco?" she said when she saw him. He ran to her side and I stayed at the doorway.

"Pansy, how do you feel?"

"Pissed off because…holy shit what is she doing here?" Pansy said when she saw me. I flushed but stayed where I was.

"..That's a long story Pansy, you've been in a coma for 7 months, I need to call your healer." He told her, but she stopped him.

"I don't need a healer. I know what happened. You made me this way, I was still able to think and dream and everything but move and open my eyes. It wasn't until you forgave me just now that I could move. Thanks for taking up several months of my time." She said in a huff.

"Thanks?" he repeated furiously.

"Draco." I said firmly. Did he really want a repeat of what happened before?

"Draco?" Pansy said suggestively. She looked at me closely before turning back to Draco.

"Are you together…you know really together?" he hesitated and looked at me.

"Yes we are." I answered for him. If I had to put him under the imperious curse we would still be together.

He cracked a smile and Pansy noticed.

"What's so funny?" she asked.

"He can hear my thoughts….though I wasn't joking, Draco." I mumbled. He smiled widely, and motioned for me to come over.

"Pansy this is Hermione Granger. Hermione this is Pansy Parkinson, my ex- wife." He announced in a host like voice. What were we on? A game show?

She extended her hand, and I warily took it.

"Nice to meet you." We said at the exact same time, and then I smiled.

A/N: My plans fell through so I had time to update again before leaving! Review! I really liked writing this chapter!