there is some hope in this chapter! thanks for bearing with me, im sorry for any mistakes. please review!
3 weeks later...
Santana's pov
I have come to terms with the fact that Dani isn't going to wake up anytime soon. Of course I still see her every single day but I sleep there less and I work a few days a week. I started playing her music for her in attempt to get her to wake up but it hasn't worked. I have not given up but I have accepted that it could be a while. I read her books and watch movie with her, but it only make me feel more lonely. That's what it is. I'm alone, without the woman I love. I sleep but its not like it once was. I still wake up exhausted, dreading the days ahead of me. Rachel suggested that I should see someone, in hopes that it might help, but truthfully nothing will help. The only thing I want is my Dani back. Everyone knows now what has happened and the wedding had been put off indefinitely. Another excruciating thing I had to do. Some days I wouldn't eat, not just because I wasn't hungry but most of the time I would throw it back up. I would spend some nights alone, in the dark listening to Dani's music and polishing off a bottle of whiskey or rum.
Tonight was one of those nights. I was in the bedroom sitting on the floor with my back against the bed looking through a picture album Dani had put together for me last valentines day. when Rachel came in.
"What the hell is going on here!" She didn't look shocked but worried and scared.
"Calm the fuck down Hobbit, I'm coming" She marched over to where I was sitting and took the two bottles that were beside me and dumped the down the bathroom drain. "What the hell Rach, I was drinking those!" I stood up but fell back down. She walked back to my side and helped me up.
"Come on drunkie, you are going to have a bath then we will order some pizza and have a movie night. Just the two of us." I let out a sigh, knowing that the movies would consist of musicals and her singing along.
"Fine." Was all I said as I stripped down to get into the bath she had started.
"Jesus San! Wait till I leave the room." Her hands were covering her face now and all I could do was laugh.
"Oh grow up Rach, you have these parts to." I yelled out to her.
I climbed in the bath and the warm water felt nice. My muscles relaxed and I submerged myself in the warm water. I came back to the surfaced and spent the rest of the time humming Dani's songs. After thirty minutes or so I pulled myself up and got out of the tub. I threw on some underwear and robe and made my way downstairs to the living room. As I walked down the hallways to the stairs I could smell coffee and pizza. I could also hear Rachel talking quietly.
"She's gone off the deep end Q, like drinking herself stupid and listening to her music. I'm actually afraid to leave her alone now." Why the fuck would she call Quinn. It's been years since I've seen her. Why would she care. "Okay, but it's not our place... I understand but... she's got a lot on her plate and... can you just try...she won't pick up... okay, thanks Quinn." I heard her put the phone on the counter and I made my way down the stairs to the living room.
"Feeling better?" She asked with yet another worried look.
"Considering everything that's going on, yeah I kinda am thanks Rach." I lied "It's just been hard you know. It means a lot that you're here." She gave me a comforting smile and walked over and gave me a hug. "Now time for pizza and coffee." I grabbed a mug from the cupboard and filled it with coffee, grabbed some napkins and the pizza box and took it over to the couch where Rachel had put in The Wizard Of Oz. At least it was a movie I could tolerate.
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As the weeks passed I became accustomed to the empty feeling. I worked more just to exhaust myself before retuning to Dani's bedside at night where I would tell her about my day and read the news papers.
Today was a hard day and it wasn't even over yet. Gossip sites were talking about Dani like she was dead and I had a slight hangover. I had been walking out of my office building and stopped to grab the paper from the stand out front. I have never been one to look at tabloids because it was always a load of bullshit. But this one caught my eye. It had a picture of Dani on it and said "Is she still alive?" as my anger built I grabbed a paper and left work for the day. My boss always understood.
As I drove to the hospital I called Dani's manager.
"Have you seen this bullshit? How heartless are they. Of course shes alive." I ended my rant knowing it wasn't going to help calm me down.
"Yes we have and the crew have already started a press release to inform them. Remember, she's been of the radar for 2 months. That's how those people work. They don't care about anything but a story that will sell. So calm down, go see Dani and relax. We've got this covered." Before I could thank him he hung up. Just breathe San, everything will be okay.
I got to the hospital and as I pulled up swarms of paparazzi were out front. I saw one of the officers controlling the scene and she pointed around the back of the hospital. I knew it would be only a matter of time before these pigs stuck their noses in our business.
Thankful of the officer I sent them all some coffee. Even though spring was on the way it was still chilly out. I said my hellos to the nurses who always have "good news" which is always the same. Shes still stable and fighting. I walked into Dani's room and placed my purse on the window sill.
"Hey sweetheart. I love you." I placed a kiss on her forehead and sat down in the chair beside her bed. I laced my fingers and began to tell her about my day. After about an hour of me talking I stared to sing to her. I decided to sing her one of her songs. Nightingale was always one of her favourites. After I finished the song I told her that I loved her with all my heart and as I went to kiss her a felt something squeeze my hand. A feeling very familiar but one I hadn't felt in a long time. Dani. Dani was squeezing my hand.