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Chapter Fourteen
When Blaine gets back to his room after shuffling back heavy hearted from the dinner he had with Kurt, he noticed a missed call on his mobile from Sam. He had left his mobile in his room on purpose as he hadn't wanted to be disturbed when with Kurt. Kurt had made this evening sound important when he asked Blaine and anything that was important to Kurt, was important to Blaine. Speculative about what Sam may have phoned him about, he dialled back. He always made a point to phone Sam back. He was his best friend after all. Sam had helped him through many events in Blaine's life now that he had needed a comforting shoulder to cry on. It was only fair that he return the favour. Sam had even been helping him with his song choice for Kurt tomorrow and Blaine wondered whether he had thought up something else for tomorrows serenade. That was the type of person Sam was, he was selfless to a fault when it came to friends and family.
Sam picked up on the second ring, which meant that this was an important phone call and he had been waiting for Blaine to call him back.
"What's up Sam?"
"I need your advice about something. Everyone in glee is saying that I'm being an idiot but I just don't know what to do or who to believe. I want to believe her so much." Sam implored Blaine for help on the matter.
"Is this about Quinn?"
"Yeah. How do you know? Oh yeah, you can actually tell me what happened. You've lived through it before right." Sam sounded vaguely hopeful on the phone that Blaine would deliver good news to him.
"Sam, I'm not sure I should tell you stuff about your life like that. What if me telling you something changes everything that happens in the future and causing chaos. What if by changing your future you make things worse?"
"Are you saying its like in that film we watched with that dude that was in 'Dude Where's My Car?'" Sam was trying to understand exactly where Blaine was coming from and examples helped him relate to complicated issues for Sam. Blaine knew this very well.
"'The Butterfly Effect.' Yes Sam, I am suggesting that something like that could happen."
"How is this any different to you and Kurt, bro?"
"You have a point, I suppose. What do you want to know?" Blaine knew that Sam had made an extremely valid point. He didn't know, but the Lima Bean man had suggested that if he didn't change the past then the future would be bad. That was good enough for Blaine. He decided that he would have to tell Sam the events of Blaine's past and hope that Sam could change the future for the better.
"Is Quinn telling me the truth? Did she perform CPR on Finn when he choked on a gum ball or did she cheat on me? Please Blaine, give it to me straight. At the moment you are the only person I know I can trust."
Blaine cringed. He did not want to be the one to tell Sam that his first girlfriend who, Sam had told him the other day, he thought he was in love with, was cheating on him, with Finn. "Sam, please don't make me do this."
"Blaine, come on dude. I'm begging you here. Please, I won't blame you at all. I just need to know. I just want the honest truth from someone." Sam's pleading broke Blaine's resolve to keep quiet once and for all.
Blaine took a deep breath. Sam wasn't going to let him out of this. He was going to have to tell him. "Quinn's lying to you Sam. I'm sorry. She's cheating on you with Finn. There was no gum ball. Santana kissed some guy at your school that had mono and passed it onto Finn at the kissing booth. Who, in turn passed it to Quinn. I wish I could have told you that it was otherwise Sam, I really do."
He heard Sam sigh loudly over the phone. "I guess deep down, I knew that it was true. I didn't want to believe it though. Thank you Blaine. I know you didn't want to give me bad news and hurt me. You're a good friend. The best. My awesome bro. On a different note, how did your thing with Kurt go tonight? You said you were doing something. I totally forgot earlier when I phoned. Sorry dude, I hope I didn't interrupt anything."
"To be honest, I don't really know what happened Sam. It was going great. He had set up one of the balcony's at school and made it super romantic with candles and lights and roses and cooked an amazing meal for us to eat. We were talking and joking around and everything was perfect, then he looked like he was starting to freak out so I asked him what was wrong, he gave some lame excuse before saying 'I can't' and then ran off."
"Whoa. That sound's kinda weird. What do you think happened to make Kurt freak like that? Have you managed to talk to him since?" Sam questioned Blaine about Kurt's strange behaviour.
"Not yet. Nick came in and suggested that he was finding it hard to tell me his feelings for me. So I'm gonna lay everything out on the line for him tomorrow and hope it all sorts itself out. I think Kurt needs some space tonight away from me to calm down."
"That sounds like it could be true Blaine. Kurt's probably scared because he's never felt this way about anyone before, and I know this may sound ludicrous to you, but he might be scared of what you would do to him when he told you his feelings. He might think that you would laugh at him, tease him because, lets face it, his track record in that area ain't that hot. Hardly anyone our age has accepted him for what he is, only us glee kids, and he might be scared that you won't accept him for who he is."
"But that's absurd. I would and could never think ill of Kurt ever. You really think that he thinks I'm capable of doing that to him?"
"Uh, yeah dude, I do. Kurt's not thinking with his head right now Blaine, he's thinking with his heart. One that has been bruised and battered around all his life."
"Then I better make sure I'm really clear with him tomorrow about how I feel. I don't want him to think that way about me. Ever."
"Well good luck, I'm gonna keep my fingers crossed for you man. You better tell me how it goes tomorrow, yeah?"
"Sure. You sure you're ok about this whole Quinn thing?"
"I will be, I'll have to be. Thanks B. Don't feel bad about telling me, I wanted to know. Anyway I better let you get back to it. See ya later."
"Bye Sam." Blaine ended the call and flopped down onto his bed contemplating what his next move would be. He couldn't bear the thought that Kurt was scared of how Blaine portrayed him. I must tell him once and for all that I love him.
Kurt was weeping on his bed when Jeff came in to see what the matter was. Jeff, distraught at seeing his friend so ill at ease, bounded over to Kurt's bed and lay down next to him, wrapping his arms around the sorrowful boy.
"Kurtie? What happened? Please tell Jeffykins everything. I doesn't like seeing my Kurtie upset." Jeff rubbed his hands up and down Kurt's arms to try and comfort his friend.
"Leave me alone." Kurt shouted into the pillow. Jeff's hands moved to Kurt's back and began rubbing it in circular motions whispering comforting words in his ear.
"Please tell me." Jeff asked in hardly more than a whisper.
Kurt turned his head to face Jeff. "I'm so stupid Jeff. Why couldn't I tell him. I'm so scared that he won't want me. I've let him fool around with me and now he won't want anything else. I'm the stupidest person in the world!" Kurt sobbed back into his pillow.
Jeff thought long and hard for a reply to what Kurt had said. He knew it was preposterous that Blaine would ever think that way about Kurt, but Kurt did not see that. "I don't think that Blaine would, or could, ever think that about you Kurt. Blaine isn't the type who likes to just fool around. He cares very deeply for you, anyone can see that. Blaine has only been with you in that way because he cares so much about you. And you aren't stupid, you've just never had to go through all this before. Trust me, being in love is terrifying and nothing can make you question your own or other peoples feelings more than love can." Jeff, serious for once, calmly explained to Kurt.
"Do you really believe that?" Kurt asked sincerely. "That Blaine cares deeply for me."
"I know that, Kurtie. Trust me, I have never seen Blaine the way he is with you with anyone else. He is definitely in love with you. I've never even seen him really look at another guy before you came along."
"So you think I should tell him how I feel?"
"Yes, I do. You two have been skirting around it for long enough." Jeff smiled warmly at Kurt. He had so much love in his heart but was so scared of showing it.
"But how can I do it without freaking out and running away?" Kurt whimpered into Jeff's shoulder, his hands clutching handfuls of Jeff's shirt.
"Maybe you should tell him how you feel in song. It helps me to do that."
"Yeah, you're right. I think I know which song to sing to him too. Thanks so much Jeff. You know, you are a lot deeper than a lot of people give you credit for."
"Awww, thanks Kurtie. I love you too." Jeff gave Kurt a bone crushing hug and bounced off the bed to find his own sweetheart. He'll be fine. He just needs courage is all. Jeff smiled. He knew everything would turn out right in the end.
After Jeff left, Kurt picked up his phone and dialled his best girls number. Cedes picked up soon after.
"Hey, boo. How are you?" Mercedes asked in a joyful tone. She always loved to hear from her bestie.
"Can you help me with something?" pleaded Kurt, gently.
"Sure honey. What can I do for you?"
"I need to sing something to Blaine about how I feel and I was wondering if you could help me make the final decision on what to sing. I have a couple that I think are really good contenders but I'd like your opinion on whether you think they are right or not."
"You know this is the glee assignment this week." Mercedes chuckled. Kurt had it bad if he wanted to sing to Blaine. Kurt didn't usually go in for singing to a specific person unless they meant a great deal to him. Like his dad.
"Really? Hows everything going? I heard from dad that Finn started a kissing booth. Please tell me that isn't true."
"Oh yeah, it's true. He got mono from it. Plus we think he's been playing tonsil tennis with Quinn and that he gave it to her too."
"Seriously? What about Sam? Oh god, and Rachel? I bet she's kicking up a stink about it." Kurt sounded excited about the gossip from New Directions. He still missed them all very much.
"Actually surprisingly she hasn't been that bad. Maybe she's growing as a person. I do feel for Sam though, they spun this outrageous lie to him about a gum ball and CPR and he's choosing to believe it."
"Bless Sam, he's such a nice guy. He doesn't deserve to be mucked about. Maybe I'll text him later about it. I'm surprised about Rachel though. Do you think she's given up on Finn?"
"No, I don't know what she's playing at right now. Guess we will have to wait and see. So, tell me your choices and I'll help you to decide." Mercedes had grown bored of talking about New Directions latest drama, she wanted to know how Kurt was. It sounded like he was doing well if he was singing to that gorgeous boy from the wedding.
"Thanks Cedes. You're the best." Kurt discussed his song choices with Mercedes until they had whittled it down to two.
"I think I'll practice both and decide nearer the time which one to pick. Thanks so much!"
"Don't mention it. Speak to you later baby."
"Bye, Cedes." Kurt knew his best girl would make it all feel much better and he thought his song choices were going to knock Blaine's socks off. Well, if he was wearing any, since he seemed to have an aversion to anything sock related.
Nick and Jeff had talked long into the night about a lot of things. Themselves and their relationship and also about Blaine and Kurt. They had decided that they needed to help Kurt out and that the best way to do that was to show him how to pluck the courage up to confess his feelings to Blaine. Since it was Valentines the Warblers were not going to have practice, but instead take Kurt out to the park that Blaine had picked out and serenade him so that Blaine could tell him that he loved him. This meant that they had to enact their own plan before the end of the school day. They had opted to do said plan at lunchtime.
Nick had always been a little reticent to be completely open and honest about his relationship with Jeff due to the abuse he had suffered both at home and in his middle school. Jeff, however, had never been touched as no one seemed aware of his sexuality. That and Jeff was a popular jock in middle school. It was hard to believe now that Jeff was at Dalton, but in their middle school he was one of the 'popular' crowd. Nick had been considered a geek because he was part of the school newspaper and choir. Not that Jeff didn't play sports at Dalton, but the cliques didn't really exist at Dalton. They were all individuals who were equally important.
Nick had always known he was gay, but was too scared to tell his parents till the age of thirteen. Being an only child they had pitted all their hopes and dreams squarely onto his shoulders. Being gay was not part of that equation. They had sent him to counselling at first and when the counsellor had told them that he was perfectly normal and that this was who his son was they went into denial. It got to the point that if he brought a boy home they would yell and scream at him. So he stopped bringing his friends home, then stopped being friends with any boys whatsoever. His father had started to physically abuse him and he would turn up to school with bruises all over his body from when his father tried to 'beat' the gay out of him. The school had even got to the stage where they informed social services, as Nick had regressed to not speaking to anyone at all, no matter how many of the teachers tried. Jeff had been the only person who seemingly would not give up on him. He started speaking to Nick and following him around at school . That was the only time when Nick did not get teased or abused. To Nick, Jeff was like a knight in shining armour come to save him from the very depths of despair. He wouldn't give up on Nick and so Nick would not give up on life. Eventually his grandparents, his mothers parents, who lived in Canada found out all about what was happening to their grandson and moved down to legally become Nicks guardians. It was a tough battle through court which emotionally drained Nick and without the help of Jeff, he did not think he would have gotten through it. He loved his grandparents and was grateful for everything that they did for him. Including paying for him to go to Dalton when he found out that Jeff had been offered a scholarship there. Coming from a wealthy family meant the tuition was not a problem, but he was still immensely grateful to his grandparents for using their hard earned money on him. His mother still came to visit him every so often, but his father never did. Nick was genuinely happy now that he was living in a loving home with his hero by his side, who, it turned out loved him as much as he loved Jeff. He going to a school where people accepted who he was and he had some very close friends. He considered himself very lucky.
Due to Nick's past he understood precisely the pain that both Blaine and Kurt had been through at school, and, in Blaine's case, partly at home. He remembered what it was like to be in pain both physically and emotionally, and that was why he had pushed Jeff to keep themselves quiet at Dalton. Jeff, being the most amazing person in the whole world, complied to Nicks wishes of keeping their relationship on the down low with great compassion and support from his love. However, Nick could see Blaine and Kurt were in pain, trying to figure out how to be with each other, Kurt scared of his feelings and Blaine sorrowful about the thought of being alone. This was why he had talked to Jeff last night about them helping the two boys.
Jeff, on the other hand, came from a completely different background. The eldest child of two, with a little sister who was three years younger, he came from a very loving family, who accepted every part of both their children. Jeff hadn't realised he was gay until he befriended Nick. Although they had gone to the same school for two years previously, being part of the popular crowd had meant they didn't follow the same crowd. But when he saw the boy looking so small and frail, so sad, as if the whole world was against him, Jeff's heart had immediately gone out to him in pity. The pity had very soon turned to love as he gradually got to know this quiet, sensitive, beautiful man and realised that he was gay. He had told his family who accepted him for who he was and when Nick confessed his feelings for him and he in return told Nick his own feelings, Jeff had never been so happy. He would have been perfectly happy telling everyone about their relationship, but Nick had always wanted it to be quiet and Jeff respected Nick. He knew what he had been through and as long as he was with Nick he didn't mind if everyone or no one knew. Jeff had been eager to talk to Nick about Blaine and Kurt and whether they could do something to help to two of them. When Nick suggested his plan he was a little surprised but also very happy. He couldn't wait till this lunchtime. He had a feeling it would be an unforgettable moment in his life.
Lunchtime seemed to come around very quickly for the two boys. They were standing outside the cafeteria psyching themselves up to do this. They could see the two boys they wanted to see this plan inside, sitting opposite each other and not really talking to each other, instead talking to the other warblers around them.
"You ready? You're sure you want to do this?" Jeff asked his love with concern on his face. "We don't have to if you don't want."
"No. I think it's time Jeff. I can't be scared of life and being myself. I need to do this." Nick was determined that he would go through with this.
"I love you." Jeff gave Nick a light kiss on his forehead. The boys took each others hands and walked confidently into the cafeteria. When they got up to the Warbler table they turned to each other. Kurt and Blaine both noticed the two of them standing in front of them and turned to see what they were up to.
"Nick Duval, I want to tell you that I love you very deeply. I love your sincerity, your sensitivity, your empathy, your beauty. I love every part of you. Will you do me the honour of being my boyfriend?"
"Jeff Sterling, I love you too. You saved me when no one else was looking, you never gave up on me. I love you more than words can say. I want to be with you for all eternity."
The two boys wrapped their arms around the other taking themselves into a close hug and then, Jeff, bending down, placed his lips onto Nicks and they kissed each other passionately in front of the entire school. Wes and David looked at each other, surprised that the two boys had come clean and yet very proud of them for doing so. They both started clapping the two boys for their bravery and congratulating them for their relationship. The rest of the student body slowly started joining in till a deafening roar appeared to envelop the two boys who were oblivious as they kissed one another, finally, at long last, out in the open.
