A/N: This is not a happy chapter, but I wanted them to attempt to talk before moving forward, so I set some things up going forward. It's going to be angsty for a while. "Mature" at the end.

CHAPTER 14

Emily was fuming in the restroom while she was getting ready for bed. She could not believe JJ right now, and knew something else had to be going on with her. This just didn't seem like her. Pushing Emily away, flirting with Captain Cajun, thinking she and Morgan would actually sleep together; none of it was making sense to her. She decided it was time they talked whether JJ wanted to or not.

When she came out of the bathroom, JJ had already turned the lights off and was in bed with her back to Emily.

"Oh, no, JJ. This stops. YOU'RE the one who doesn't get to keep doing this now!"

JJ never moved or rolled over to look at Emily.

Emily got into the bed and reached for JJ.

"Dammit, Jennifer Jareau! I don't deserve this!" She grabbed JJ's arm and pulled her toward her. Emily was leaning over JJ, holding her down by the arms down before she realized it and let go. She was still on her knees beside JJ looking down.

"Do you really think that I could sleep with Morgan?" She was speaking slowly, but her tone was still angry.

"I don't know, Emily. I mean, how well do any of us even know you?"

"What? And you still didn't answer my question. Do you really think Derek and I slept together?"

"No."

"Then why are you acting like such a bitch?! You started this JJ. Things were fine until you all of a sudden decided they weren't. And then you spent the whole trip to New Orleans flirting with Captain Cajun. I mean, so what if I slept with someone else? I didn't, but why would I think you would care!"

JJ was tired of being underneath Emily and pushed her back, this time, it was her who was on top, her body straddling Emily's and her hands propping her up beside Emily's head.

"Yes, I'm a bitch. Fine. But I didn't start this. You're the one that came on to me at the bar the first time we me, remember?"

"Yes, and you came on to me after the Hankel case. What's your point, JJ?"

"My point is, this has never been a 'relationship'." Those words stang Emily when she heard JJ say them. "People in relationships don't keep secrets, Emily!"

"What exactly do you think I'm keeping from you?"

"I don't know! That's the problem. I mean, do you really expect us to believe you've been working a desk job in the midwest? You speak seven languages, Emily. You're one of the most skilled agents I know, and yet, none of us had ever heard of you before you just showed up."

"That's not true. I knew Hotch before."

"Oh right, because your mom is an Ambassador."

"JJ..." Emily warned.

"Do you think I'm stupid, Emily? You rarely talk about your past. We have to drag it out of you. Then there are the phone calls you get from time to time when we're home, and you leave the room to talk quietly. You don't even give an explanation when you come back. Or, maybe you care to explain who the hell Lauren is? You have an awful lot of dreams about her."

Emily froze at the name and then swallowed. There was one advantage to sleeping alone...you never had to worry about spilling your secrets in bed.

The two were staring each other in the eyes. JJ was extremely close and Emily was beginning to feel the effects of JJ sitting on her.

Emily tried to deflect the question, and JJ knew it. "What do you want, JJ? You're telling me you think this means nothing to me?" She put her hands on JJ's back and pulled her closer. "You think I didn't mean it when I saw I wanted to try us? From what I can remember, you were more than on board with that idea."

JJ was beginning to get nervous, too. It had been a long time since the two of them had touched, and JJ could barely control herself when Emily pulled her closer. She was pissed at Emily because she knew Emily was keeping secrets. And as much as she wanted to walk away from her, she couldn't.

JJ stayed silent.

"Or maybe, you're right," Emily continued. "Maybe this is nothing more than a good fuck for us. Who are we kidding, JJ?" She tried to move JJ off her, but JJ pushed back.

JJ slammed her mouth into Emily's. She was still angry with Emily, but her body couldn't take it anymore. Emily kissed her back, despite knowing they had not solved one damn problem.

JJ moved her hands down to Emily's center and pushed her fingers inside her. There was no foreplay tonight. JJ didn't even check to see if Emily was wet, but it didn't matter, they both were anyway.

"God, JJ!" Emily said when she suddenly felt JJ inside her. She bit down on JJ's shoulder causing JJ to moan and increase the pressure of her thrusts. Emily shuffled her body so that her hands could also reach JJ's core, pushing her fingers inside JJ quickly.

This was not their normal MO. Both JJ and Emily liked to take their time with each other, even when they could barely wait to get in the door. This was different. It was purely physical for them and something they both needed. They both kept pushing hard into the other, both trying to gain the control over the other, and they both knew it was wrong.

Finally, Emily gave in. She didn't like this and knew it needed to end. She let JJ have the control and be the first to push her over the edge before she did the same for JJ.

It was a hard, quick, fuck, and both of them felt dirty afterward not knowing what the hell they were supposed to do next.