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Whoo! 14 one shots so far. More to come so don't worry. This is a short one-shot. It's really fluffy and OOC. Well R&R thanks!

14.) I Don't Care: Sam's POV.

I sat on the couch. The TV was on, specifically the cooking channel, but I didn't care. I wasn't watching anyway. I was to lost in thought. On the outside I looked like I was totally bored, watching TV but on the inside I was freaking out and trying to calm myself down. I sat in silence, fighting with myself. Fighting with my side who saw nothing wrong with what had happened.

Come on Sam, it wasn't that bad of a fight. Ah who am I kidding it was horrible. Who cares about that nub, I mean it's just Freddie. He's a stupid boy and worst of all he's Freddie for god sakes. I know it's Freddie but he's my boyfriend and I like him. You shouldn't be fretting over a boy period. Especially Freddie. Exactly I wouldn't be fretting over any other boy but the reason I am fretting is because it is Freddie. I'm sure he's over it anyway, you guys fight all the time. It's not like this one is any different. He'll be walking through Carly's door in no time to apologize. Then you two can kiss and make up.

Yeah but we said things that we have never said before, it was a different fight. I wasn't hitting, I just kept bringing him down. I said things that I didn't even mean, I just said it cause I was so mad. I don't think he'll forgive me after this. Plus he said he had things to "think" about when he left suddenly. What does that mean! Probably nothing, don't worry. That's just Freddie being Freddie. He'll come around, he loves you. I'm not so sure about that after yesterday. I haven't spoken to him at all today or received any usual text messages. You saw the look on his face when he stormed out of the iCarly studio yesterday. He was really hurt. I feel so bad. I don't want to lose him over a stupid fight that I don't even know how it started. Come on Sam! You're a Puckett, quit being such a baby and shape up. Ugh…

"Sam are you okay?" I heard suddenly. Carly came downstairs only to see me sitting there. I put on my masked, bored face to hide that fact that I was so lost.

"Yeah why wouldn't I be?" I said rather harshly to her. She sat down next to me. I was slouched into their couch, my feet up on the coffee table and a ice tea in my hand. Freddie loves iced tea…ah! Get out of my head! You don't care! Carly was still staring at me, watching my facial expression. I made sure to make it clearly unreadable and unchanging.

"Well I heard about yesterday." She said trying hard not to bring up a sensitive situation.

"What about yesterday?" I took a sip of my iced tea, playing dumb.

"Freddie told me about your big fight yesterday."

"Oh. It was nothing."

"He didn't make it sound like nothing." she said. My stomach turned uneasily, wondering what he said.

"Yeah, well it was nothing to me."

"Sam…he seemed really concerned about it. You don't care at all."

"Why should I care about that nub. He's just being a baby about everything. He needs to man up and stop being such a girl about everything." I retorted. There I go with the same banter that even started this whole fight. Carly stared at me intently and finally rolled her eyes.

"Sam, he's your boyfriend, don't you even care a little."

"Nah." I kept my gaze forward at the TV, so I didn't have to see her concerned looks.

"You know, if you want to talk about it, you can. You don't have to hide your feelings."

"Thanks but no thanks." I sneered looking at her now. "I don't want to be like every other girl, crying on her best friends shoulder over some stupid nub boy who isn't even worth it. I'll pass."

She looked shocked a moment. "Sam…" she started. I looked away again, hiding my emotions inside. It was getting harder and harder. She wasn't making it any easier. "if you really don't care about him, then why do you date him? Are you pulling him along? Leading him on? Humoring him? That's cold and heartless and you know it. I don't know if your being serious or not but please tell me what your feeling, it's killing me."

Part of me wanted to roll my eyes, sneer at her, tell her to butt out of my life, give her the I-don't-really-care look and leave. The other part of me wanted to break down, let the tears out and cry on her shoulder. To let her know that I'm freaking out and for once I don't know what to do and this means a lot more to me then she knows. I wanted to yell at her for even saying those things about Freddie and how I would never ever do that to him.

So that's exactly what I did.

Suddenly a tear fell down my cheek and I let out a small sob. Then I felt Carly hugging me. I laid down crying more and more. She patted my back in a friendly way, silence coming from her. All that you could hear in the empty apartment was my occasional sobs.

"It was so bad Carly." I let out another cry. "We were yelling at each other, it was so much worse then our usual banter. I said things I didn't mean at all. He was so hurt. The worst part is that he said he had to go home and think about things."

She patted me again. "It's gunna be okay."

"No it's not! I don't know what he meant and now I'm freaking out. I know I don't show it ever but I am truly freaking out." I sniffled. "I don't want to lose him because I love him!" I yelled finally admitting it to myself and to her for the first time.

"Sam I think you should go across the hall and talk to him." she whispered in a soothing voice. I shook my head and sat up. More tears fell, making my eyes all puffy.

"I can't. He hates me, he wont talk to me. I don't know what to say."

"He doesn't hate you. Believe me. I know he'll appreciate it."

"I don't want to have him see me cry." I tried to come up with an excuse.

"I don't think he'll care, it's about time you showed him some feelings. He is your boyfriend of almost a year for god sakes. Have you even told him you love him?" she asked.

I shook my head. "No." I said weakly. He'd said it numerous times before. Only to have me hit him and tell him to stop being so mushy. I never meant it, I just didn't have the nerve to say it back. So afraid of rejection. Secretly I love it when he told me he loved me. It was silent between us as I sat there trying to calm down. Carly got up then, going to the kitchen and getting me a water.

It was a few minutes later of us just sitting there that I heard a knock. I jumped slightly and had a feeling I knew exactly who it was. I tried to hid my face and wipe my face as Carly got up and answered the door. I glanced up to see him standing there. I blinked and let out a sigh. He stepped in when Carly moved aside. I stood up and he stared at me.

I tried to read his facial expression to see if it showed any sign that he was planning to break up with me, but there was none. He was emotionless. Then a small grin tugged at the side of him mouth. He slightly held his arms up, as if to ask for a hug. I took a big stroll toward him, landing in his arms. I gripped his t-shirt, my wet eyes soaking it slightly.

"I-I'm so sorry." I tried to say in a low voice, so only he could hear it.

"Me too." was all he said, holding me against him. "I feel horrible."

"You feel horrible? I feel worse. Here I am crying over you…of all people. You." I said stifling a small laugh before sniffling again. I felt him let out a small laugh. "I thought I would never cry over a boy…well here I am."

"Does that mean I'm special or something?" He asked as I looked up at him. A smiled tugged at my mouth.

"Yes." I answered simply. A smug smile crossed his lips. "But don't get too cocky."

"Oh Sam…" he said hugging me again.

"I thought you said you had to go home and think…what did you mean by that." I said, having to ask. "I thought you were going to break up with me."

"No, it didn't even cross my mind." relief flooded my mind. "I just left so I could cool down, before the fight got worse. I didn't want it to result in anything to drastic."

I smiled. "Well that's a good thing."

"So your not mad at me anymore?" he asked.

"I never really was. I don't even know what we were fighting about."

"Neither do I…"

"Your not mad at me either?"

"Nah." he said grinning.

"I love you." I blurted out. He looked down at me a little surprised but his smiled grew wider. He finally leaned down and kissed me fully on the lips. Total bliss.

"Love you too." He mumbled in my hair as he hugged me close to him.