Chapter Fourteen :: Forgiveness & Loss

Robin couldn't believe how weak she looked. She had gotten hurt and it was his fault. No matter how he tossed it around, he was to blame. He shouldn't have been so callous; he shouldn't have been such an ass. He should've told her she couldn't fight and made her stay home. If he had been the leader he should've been, instead of the moody boyfriend, she wouldn't be in such bad shape.

Raven's morphine was kicking in and the pain was leaving her body allowing her mind to focus clearly. She looked up to see Robin looking down at her, tears welling in his eyes. He looked like he had been crying for hours. For a brief moment her heart went out to him, she hated seeing him in pain, but then she remembered all that had took place the day before and her emotions quickly were taken over by anger and bitterness. She hadn't felt bitterness before... it was a new emotion for her, but she felt it now, and strongly.

He looked down at her, afraid to talk to her. He had screwed up, and he knew it. Could she ever forgive him? He hoped so, but he just couldn't be for certain.

"How are you feeling Rae?" He asked her.

"Fine. A bit sore, but fine" she replied coldly.

His heart dropped. She was still upset, and she had every right to be.

"Rae. I'm sorry. I was a complete ass. I'm so sorry."

"Why are you sorry Robin? It won't change the way you feel. You don't want this baby. Plain and simple. And you know what...? It doesn't want you." She moved her head to face the other way, away from him. Her voice was cold and full of pain and anger.

"Raven, I really am sorry. I shouldn't have acted like that. I was just scared. I mean I feel useless. I just don't feel like I should be a father just yet." He spoke slowly, trying not to cry.

"You made that clear enough when you said you didn't want to be part of this baby's life." She kept her gaze away from him.

"I was an idiot. I upset you, and then I let you fight crime even though you were walking around with my baby inside you. I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have said I wanted nothing to do with this baby. I'm not ready to be a father Raven, but I don't want to lose you either. And I don't think it would be good of me to let you raise this child alone."

"What are you saying then?" She asked him, daring to look over to see him smiling at her.

"Raven. Will you marry me?" he grabbed her hand as he said it. She looked shocked, stunned, scared, and was about to cry, all at once. A chair by her door melted into sludge.

Meanwhile, in the waiting room, the team was talking amongst themselves, wondering how things were going between Robin and Raven.

"I wonder what's going on in there." Beast Boy said, looking to the ground.

"He had to have told her everything by now... I mean it's been nearly a half hour!" Cyborg replied simply.

Starfire understood though, she knew this would take time. She knew that Raven probably wouldn't forgive him today, and probably not tomorrow either.

"Don't worry. Things will be fine. They just need time together." She said to the guys.

"Richard...I can't marry you." tears filled her eyes as she said those words. "Not right now anyway. I can't marry you just to keep you...I don't want that kind of life for my baby. I don't want her father to be forced to raise her just because he married me. I don't believe in that. You cannot be a part of this baby's life until you can love and accept it...and I don't want you as a part of my life either. You got me pregnant. You should have to accept this!" tears were now flowing freely, "I already have had to accept this. I've already had to see that I am eighteen years old and already my life is about to come to an end. I am about to be responsible for the life of another. In nine months I will have to grow up, and it's a lot faster than I wanted it to happen. My life has to be put on hold so I can care for the life of this child inside me."

"Rae, I.." He began but was cut off.

"No, Robin...No...Just please... go away." She looked away from him and let tears flow out of her eyes and down her cheeks.

He turned and walked out of her room, giving her one final glance before the door shut closed behind him.

He walked quietly down the hall to the waiting room.

"You guys can see Raven now if you want. I'm going back to the tower." He turned to leave, but Cyborg stopped him.

"Hey Rob...What happened?" He asked him, concern filling his voice.

"She...well...I was rejected. I don't think there is much of a Raven and Me anymore." He turned and left the hospital.

Robin hopped onto his motorcycle and drove off to the tower. Once there he went into the training room and began to beat the hell out of a punching bag until his emotions got the better of him and he dropped to his knees and began to cry until he fell asleep right there on the floor.

Meanwhile, back at the hospital, the rest of the team had gone in and talked with Raven one at a time, and now it was Cyborg's time to spend with her.

"Hey bright eyes." He poked his head into the room. She smiled back at him weakly.

"How ya feeling?" He asked her.

"Weak, sore...depressed...but otherwise great."

"Look Rae, I know...everything. I really think you should give Rob another chance. He seems confused right now, and he really does care about you. You shouldn't shut him out so quickly."

"You know everything Cy? Then you know he asked me to marry him? You know I turned him down?" Cyborg's eyes widened as he listened to her speak. "Cyborg, I can't marry him, not when he isn't even sure if he wants this baby or not. But it would hurt too badly to have him in my life."

Tears were flowing down her face. Cyborg came and put his arms around her.

"Rae, I love you. You know that right? You're like my little sister, and I care about you a lot. I look after you, even if you see it or not. I know you're still upset with Rob, and you have every reason to be. But just please, think about it. Consider giving him another chance." He leaned down and kissed her on the forehead. "I'll let you rest." He turned and left her room, leaving her to think.

Back in the waiting room, Star and BB were waiting for Cyborg to get back. He came back into the waiting room looking sad and slightly disappointed. Starfire opened her mouth to speak, but things in the hospital went loud and hectic before anything could come out. A nurse was rushing by with four doctors following. They rushed into Raven's room and her teammates felt their hearts drop.

"Rae!" Cyborg yelled trying to get to the room but was stopped by a nurse.

"No! Mr. Cyborg sir! Please, sit back in the waiting room, she is in good hands and we will tell you of her condition as soon as we can." She turned and walked away.

They sat there for an hour, waiting. They heard no word from anyone. Cyborg had called Robin's communicator countless times, but it was no use, Robin wouldn't answer.

Finally, after an hour and 15 minutes the doctor came in. Your friend is fine. Her body reacted badly with one of her medications and she began to go into shock. We managed to stabilize her. But unfortunately..." The team looked at him, tears welling up in all of their eyes. "She lost the baby. We couldn't save it. She knows...and isn't taking it well. We're going to keep her overnight for observation. If you wish, one of you may stay the night with her. You may take her home in the morning, but she needs to refrain from using her powers or from fighting crime for at least a week." The doctor turned and walked out, leaving them alone.

"You guys head back to the tower, tell Rob what's happened. I'm staying here with Rae." Cyborg told his teammates, then stood and went to Raven's room.

The other two titans flew back to the tower to find Robin sitting on the couch, looking more depressed than they had ever seen him.

"Robin?" Beast Boy dared to talk to him. On their way home, Beast Boy and Star had decided to tell him the news and then go to their rooms to leave him alone.

Robin looked over at him.

"Cyborg is staying the night at the hospital with Raven, they only allowed one of us to stay. She took a turn for the worse, but they were able to fix her... she lost the baby though. Cyborg will bring her home in the morning." Beast Boy turned and grabbing Starfire's hand went to her room with her.

Robin sat on the couch, tears flowing like rivers out of his eyes.

"My love is in pain, and my child is dead." He lay down on the couch, sobbing uncontrollably.