A/N: Just wanted to let you guys know, a big scene is coming up soon. After the big scene, Spashley might just officially start so keep on reading. :) I know that most of you guys are probably wondering what's going on in Spencer's head and you guys will find out soon.
Ashley's POV
Two weeks have passed and Spencer hasn't come over as she use to. She makes up excuses of being busy, sleepy, etc. Anything to avoid what happened. As for me, I mope like I usually do. I am so sick and tired of all this!!! I hate the fact that I can't do what I want, I can't tell her how I feel and make it mutual. On impulse, I grab my guitar and head on over to Spence's apartment. I'm going to sing her a song and try to reason with her after.
My driving is fast. I'm trying to get this done with before I chicken out. Parking my car, putting the guitar strap on my shoulder, my guitar pressed against my back, I ran. Hitting each step of the stairs, I whoosh on through. Taking the key that I own, I hastily unlock the door. Going in, I frantically jog around, searching for Spence. Checking each area, she wasn't there. Madison walks out of her room ad I ask, "Where's Spencer?" "Um she said that she went to the beach-why do you" I didn't let her finish, I didn't answer her question, and I was on my mission.
I go to the beach where Spencer and I went and my eyes were on a look out. I see her beautiful golden blond hair and her kissable tan skin, and I knew that she was there. You could hear my thumps as my shoes hit the sand, I was behind her. As I got closer, I stopped at a certain spot. The sight cuts through my heart and I just stop and stare.
It was Brittany and Spencer. So enthralled with each other, they didn't see me. I could hear the words that they proclaimed to one another. Leaning in for the kiss, their lips meet. It lasted for about a few minutes, even though it felt like I was looking into their forever. Pulling away, only centimeters from each other, Brittany whispers,"I really do love you." Her brown eyes are truthful and her heart is completely there for Spencer. You could tell that Brittany loves her.
"I love you too," Spence whispers back. She smiles and keeps their foreheads together. Spying, I look deep into Spencer's eyes. She doesn't mean it. Those eyes couldn't tell a lie, not with the way they're so expressive. I think that maybe Spencer loves Brittany, yes, but she's not in love with her. She's faking and lying, and sure I'm discouraged of this scene, of their relationship, but my hope is bigger than ever. I'm never going to give up, I'm never going to stop being in love with her.
Ashley's POV
I still drove home with so many emotions going through me, but my mind is set. Another few weeks have passed with Spencer's still ignoring me. Today is the day though! Chase and Kyla are going out on a night of romance. They've planned this for a while now and Spencer volunteered to help me babysit Alexis and Collin. I want to see her try to weasel her way out of this. Who could say no to my adorable niece and nephew?
The house phone rings with Alexis answering it quickly. "Hello?! Aunt Spenca!!! Me and Collin and Aunt Ashwy have missed you so much," she exclaims. It seemed like I was the roadrunner because I ran so fast so I was beside Alexis, just to listen to the conversation. Her chuckle is awkward, I can tell she's uncomfortable. "I've missed you guys too, but I can't make it Lexy," Spencer says sadly. "COLLWIN!!! Get over here," Alexis yells for her brother. Immediately, he comes, "What, what? You wuys okay," he asked worried. Aww, he's such a great boy.
"Aunt Spenca said that she can't come and see us towight, so we have to change her mind," Alexis orders. Putting the phone on speaker for them, I stay quiet as I let them do their thing. "Aunt Spenca? It's me Collwin, why can't you come and pway wit us," he asked. "I've been busy lately, maybe next time, okay" she tries to reason. Both of them screech out a, "Nnnnnooooooo!!!!" "We want to see you now pwease? Pweety pwease with the m&m's, the kit kats, the chocolate ice cream, the whip cream and rainbow sprinkles and the cherry on top," Alexis begs. "And don't foget your favwit doughnuts too," Collin adds.
She sighs and I could tell that she's losing will power, she's about to cave. "Fine, I'll be there tonight." "YAY! I lub you," they tell her. "I love you too babies," Spence tells them, I can feel her smiling on the other end of the phone. "See you later. "Bye," and that's how the twins ended the call. We all cheer, dancing around, jumping for joy. "Good job Twinnie Bears," I congrats them as I give them high-fives.
Ashley's POV
It's six o' clock at night, Kyla and Chase leaving early because I'm pretty sure they're going to be doing certain "stuff" later. Spencer comes in and the twins tackle her into a hug. She carries them in her arms, heading for the couch. She gives me a tiny, scared, and awkward smile. I return it and the mood in the room has taken a shift. Or maybe that's just between me and Spencer?
Collin and Alexis are cuddled with Spencer, she strokes their hair, taking turns to kiss them on the forehead. A smile forms on my face naturally, feeling my eyes on her, she smiles. Coming out in all fancy attire, Chase and Kyla held hands as they grace us with their presence. Giving their kids each a hug and a kiss, they left us, on their way to their date. Locking the door, I go back to the living room, "So what do you guys want to do," I ask. "Ooohhh let's make pizza," the twins suggest. ''Sure, whatever you guys want," Spence replies.
When we were in the kitchen, the kids grabbed their chef hat and coat. Making the dough into huge circles, shaping out the crust, it was fun. Smothering red sauce, cheese, and whatever topping we pleased, the pizzas were in those nice, professional ovens. Telling the twins to wash up as Spence and I cleaned the kitchen. It was quiet,the only sound of the rustling of organizing and washing the supplies we used. Out of nowhere, Spencer threw some left over flour in my face. My expression was saying "What the fuck?" She giggles so cutely and come on, I can never be mad at her.
Taking some cold cheese sprinkles, I pull her shirt open, and stuff it there. She gasps and says, "Oh it's on!!!" "Damn right it is, Spence." Snatching as much food as we can, we had a food fight. Squealing like little girls when they see a cockroach, the battle continued. Suddenly, I pulled her close to me, tickling her sides. Bursting into laughters, I stop after her many pleads, and we slowly breath. Our arms are around each other, my face on her neck, we realize our position and break apart. Clearing her throat, I scratch the back of my head, we stand there once again all awkward.
"What did you guys do? Ooooohhhh, you guys are gonna get in twuble," the twins warn. "No we won't as long as we clean," I tell them. "We'll help you out," Collin says. "Thank you, but that's okay Coll. You two eat and me and your Aunt Spencer have some chores to do," I say. Once everything was neat and tidy, with tummies fed, Alexis comes in to show me her new creation. She carries Roger, in her arms, dressed in a tutu. The baby Jack Russell Terrier covered in pink bows and jewelry. He's whimpering, oh he lost his doggy man pride. Taking pictures of the dog, we set him back down on the floor. Immediately, he trashes the outfit and accessories, and runs away, hiding in his bed. We then watched The Little Mermaid and Old Dogs, with Alexis and Collin falling asleep through the second movie.
Changing them into their pajamas and tucking them into bed with kisses, we head into my bedroom. It was weird, to have her in my room. I was just glad that I hid all of the pictures of Spencer in my drawers, note to self: make sure Spencer does not go through my stuff. The T.V. in my room is on with some stupid show playing, my ipod playing softly in the background, a song at random. Plopping down on the bed, "You can be on the bed too, ya know. I don't bite," I assure her. Okay, maybe I would bite her during our love making, but that's a good thing!
At least a feet or two of a distance is in between us and our eyes are glues to anything but each other. Minutes pass and I just start to talk to her. She responds happily and I think it was an hour or so before things became serious. "I...uh... broke up with Brittany," she informs me. "HUH? WHAT," I question. "Don't get me wrong, she was great...really great, but I just couldn't put myself to feel what she felt for me," she says while playing with my purple blanket. "Oh, I'm sorry Spence," I said. I really am, I mean she goes out with these perfect people, but they still never end up working out. Something's up ad I'm gonna find out what.
Hugging her, the space that was once there has disappeared. Chatting more, watching some Disney shows, and listening to my ipod, we fell asleep around one in the morning.
Ashley's POV
My eyes revives back to the world, waking up from my usual amazing dreams of me and Spencer together. Feeling something on my chest, a hand on my stomach, I couldn't get up from bed. Casting my downward, it's Spence. Snoring slightly with her mouth the tiniest bit open, I can't control my hand to stop weaving through her blond locks. Her right leg is over both of my legs, she is so snuggled up to me. The blankets keep us warm, but so does each other.
Now when I said her hand was on my stomach I didn't mean it as over my shirt, but inside. Her hand is against my bare skin, the abs that I kept in shape. Fluttering eyes like butterflies coming to greet me, we grin at each other, that is until Spence realized how we were laying. Shooting out of the bed, she mumbles a, "Sorry!" and heads to the bathroom with my clothes for this new day. Confused, I try to shrug it off, for now, and make everyone some breakfast.
Breakfast was made, waffles and pancakes, you can pick. Sausage, biscuits, eggs, and toast in large groups. Everything was set at the table when the twins and Spencer came down simultaneously. "Mmmm, this smells so good! You cooked this Ash," she asked me "Sure did." "Aww, I can't believe I missed you preparing this meal." "Come on Spence, it's no big deal," I say cooly. "Yes it is, cook for me another time so I can watch you," she pleads with the puppy dog pout. "Oh...okay," I say whipped by her. She squeals in her cheers and pulls me into a hug, my lips are by her left cheek, and not being able to resist, I kiss her there. Feeling the heat that is starting to ride in her cheek, I smile.
Digging into breakfast, the kids just laid down on the couch with Spencer and I, too full to do anything. Playing the funny cartoon marathons for them, soon enough it was time for their nap time. We're back in the living room, 'Spence don't you think there's something we should talk about," is how I started it off. She stiffens up, all tense, and she turns to me. "Nope, nothing," she says simply. "Come on Spencer! There's something going on between us and we should talk and discuss our next step," I explain. "What next step? We're just friends," she points out. Her blue eyes say denial, why can't she just admit it?
"Well if we're just friends, then why did you act that way with me at club, or anywhere we are, huh," I ask, putting her on the spot. "It was nothing, we're just that close of friends," is what Spencer told me. "Yeah, some are but most of the time they actually have secret feelings for each other? Are you telling me this or yourself?" "Me....uh FUCK...I mean us.....No, YOU! I'm telling you that," she stumbles frustrated. "Why can't you just say that you love me as more than a friend?" "Because we can't be! We tried, or at least I did, and we're not meant to be, so leave it that way Ashley," she commands. "No, I won't! You're letting your head get to you instead of your heart," I say.
We're screaming and arguing with each other. We're both pissed, both hurt, then Chase and Kyla comes inside. Spence and I are staring each other down, "Um..is everything okay," they ask. "Yep, just fine," Spencer lies. "You know what? Forget this, just fuck it," I yell out. Going to my room, I grab my leather jacket, slipping it on, and I boom out the house. With a loud SLAM of the door, I go to the garage and getting myself on my motorcycle, adjusting my helmet. The voices of Chase and Kyla screaming for me to stop and just stay so Spence and I can work it out. Not listening, I ignore them and skid off into the streets.
I had to get out of there, I hate fighting with her like that. I wish that I knew exactly why she won't let us be more. Some of you guys are probably thinking, ''Why did you have to bring that up Ashley? Things were going good." Yes, they were, but in order for us to be a couple we have to talk this out. We have to talk about everything. Discussing it will allow us to move on and be in a stronger relationship.
These types of subjects are twisting through my head as I continue riding my motorcycle. Surprisingly, a car hits me. It is sudden, so forceful. My body flies in the air, landing smack down on the concrete. Blood is dripping, bruises are forming... not sure where, but I'm dizzy. Once again I feel my life flash before eyes, images of Spencer shining, glowing through more than anything else. Her name is what I called out before my eyes went shut.