So, I know I promised a jealousy fic, but after last nights episode, I needed to write this. I just wanted to know what was going through Killian's head when Emma was hurting. So here is a very short drabble about that. The promised jealousy story will be up soon.

Breath

Killian's thoughts when Nimue is hurting Emma

Nimue is strong, but Emma is stronger. There is no way Nimue can kill Emma, but she can sure hurt her. With one flick of her magic, she is restraining Emma, who is now choking.

It should not affect him. It didn't until until he saw her face. She was in pain, hurting, because of him and his plan. Sure, he was not the direct one choking her, but it was a result of him.

Visions of Emma and him played back in his head.

When they first met. She held the knife to his throat, making breathing a little harder.

Now it was the other way around.

He thought of their first kiss in Neverland where he was left breathless, hungry for more. Where he felt his heart open up again to the possibility of love.

He remembered her on their first date, when the image of her in that beautiful pink dress took his breath away.

There was the time where he held his breath, waiting for her to say it. Those three little words that she was holding in. He finally exhaled when she did say it, but it was too late. She was gone. She sacrificed herself for everyone. Just like she always had, just like she always would.

He remembered when he gave her the ring and her breath stopped. She was nervous, her walls shot up. Neither one of them was ready for that step, but they were ready for the future.

He let himself for a split second, while looking at Emma's pained face, relive the thoughts of the future he had. All the hopes he had for them, all the dreams he thought may one day come true.

Moving into the house he and Henry had picked out.

Lazy morning and late nights.

Dinner at Granny's and breakfasts at home.

Maybe, just maybe, one day marrying her. Starting a family with her. Having the thing neither of them ever had but both of them so desperately wanted.

He felt time stop as he saw Emma look up at him, desperate. She could not stop this, only he could. Only he could stop all of this. He needed to save her.

But his revenge. He had worked his entire life for this one moment. He could never give it up. Not for anyone.

He made eye contact with Emma again and he knew that that was a lie. He loved her more than anything. More than his life, more than his revenge. He would gladly die for her and gladly give up this consuming revenge for her to have a chance at a future.

He knew there was only one was for her to get a future. He had to save her.

Killian took a deep breath, knowing it would be one of his last. He turned his head slightly, just enough to see Nimue, but keep an eye on Emma. He would never let her out of his sight again, even if his time left was short. She was the reason his life was worth living, the reason he took his next breath.

"That's enough."

Up next: The jealousy fic promised from the last chapter