Chapter 13

The next morning I woke up with confidence in my heart. I was going to do this; I had to. I swung my legs over the side of the bed and climbed out of bed. I saw the sun shining behind a few clouds; you could only see a little bit of blue sky. But it was enough to make my mood lift. I knew today was going to go perfectly; I just knew it. Making my way over to my closet I decided to wear my baby blue, short-sleeved dress. It had a thin blue ribbon around my waist and the hem was right below my knee.

I picked it out of the closet and brought it over to my bed. I changed into the dress and my matching ballet flats. Grabbing my bag I headed downstairs to get some breakfast. To match my good mood I decided to make my favorite breakfast; Egg white omelet with cheese and green onions, and whole-wheat toast with butter and cherry jam.

Once I had finished my food, I rinsed off my plate and put it in the dishwasher. I looked at the clock and saw that I still had 20 minutes before I had to leave. My piano, I had been kind of neglecting it lately, with the snow and all of the sleepovers. My day just kept on getting better and better.

I sat down on the bench and flipped up the cover. My grin grew wider as I placed my fingers on the keys. My fingers danced merrily across the keys, filling the room with the song I was now playing. It made me feel like I had won a game, or drawn the best drawing in art, or gotten an A in all my classes. It made me fill up with joy and happiness, triumph and victory, even though I hadn't won yet, I had that feeling inside where I knew something good was going to happen today.

Once I had finished the song I smiled and placed the cover back over the keys. Grabbing my backpack I headed out to my car. I stared driving to school with all the happiness making me go faster. But once I parked and saw Edward and Kristen walking merrily together, all of my confidence vanished, now completely gone. I knew they were happy together; they loved each other, but why? That's what your going to find out today, I reminded myself.

I got out of the car and locked it. Phil was already at the school doors, waiting for me. I sighed and walked over to him and said hello. He was very talkative today, I didn't know why though. He also seemed happier. Since he was talking most of the time I only had to give him a couple "Yeah." or "Uh huh." s. Once I saw Kristen and Edward walk by me, I glared at their hands that were intertwined together, but Edward glared back at me and I looked down at my feet.

Classes seemed to pass; yet I didn't remember what happened in any of them. I was too preoccupied about what was going to happen after school today. Phil noticed how nervous I was and tried to ask why, but I just told him it was nothing.

School was almost over by now, and I tried to recall what had happened in the last few minutes of class. I knew we were still studying something, but I couldn't remember what. I hoped we didn't have homework, or I would have to copy off someone.

The school bell rang, like a reminder of what would happen in the next 10 minutes. I told Phil that I had something to do and went to search for Edward.

I finally saw him and walked over to him, you can do this I encouraged myself.

"Hey, can I ask you something?" I asked him when I got to where he was.

"Yeah, but make it quick, I have to go meet Kristen."

"Um, well, I kind of wanted to do it in private?" It came out more of a question then a demand.

"I guess so…" He said as he ran his hand through his perfect hair.

"Follow me." I said as I turned around and headed back out the door. I lead him past the portables and past the fence, onto the sidewalk behind the school. It was next to a road, so there were streetlights illuminating the ground.

I can't do this. I mentally slapped myself, Of course you can! Come on! At least try!

I turned back around to face Edward. He was looking around trying to figure out where we were. I felt a few raindrops and heard some thunder, but I prayed that they would hold off until I had finished.

"Okay…" Just spit it out! "I was just wondering. Why are you with Kristen? And why don't you talk to me? All you do is ignore me." I looked up into his eyes. There goes the easiest part…

"Well, because," he sighed. "I've known her, for a very long time." He paused, "I love her, I mean really love her. There are no words that can describe it. It's too hard to explain." No, that's not what I wanted to hear! Ugh! I'm such an idiot! I thought before I said,

"But can you explain why you always ignore me?" I asked, my voice breaking at the end. "Because first of all, I don't even remotely like you! And second if I were to like you it would be a problem! A huge problem!" He shouted it. The words digging into my mind I don't even like you… they echoed throughout my head. I almost didn't hear him say, "So please, just leave me and Kristen alone." He growled and then turned on his heel and walked away. The rain started coming down faster, like the sky above me was crying for me.

Tears started streaming down my face and I weakly yelled "No…" as I reached my arms out towards where Edward had been standing a couple seconds ago. My hands retracted and I hugged myself. My hair was now soaked and everything I'd done for him, every minute I wasted my time for him, came crashing down on me.

All those times I tried to get his attention. All the times I came over to his house just to see him. All the pretty dresses I wore for him. All the little things I'd made for him. All the things I'd seen him do. Him, laughing at someone's joke. Him, running his hands through his hands. Him, running in PE. Him, picking his food apart, but never eating it. Him, cocking his head to the side whenever he got confused. Him, grabbing Emmett a couple days ago. And him just now rejecting me.

I was sobbing now, and clutching my chest. It felt like something was gone, like my heart had been ripped right out of my chest. And I stood there, dripping wet from the pouring rain, sobbing for what seemed like hours on end. I know it must have been a couple minutes, but it felt like so long to me. The cold rain pelting me all over my body as I collapsed to the ground. I sat on my knees and put my hands on my head in surrender.

"I get it! No one loves me! No one cares!!" I screamed at the sky. Then I heard someone say.

"Jenny?"

SORRY!! this is a really short chapter!! ^^;;;

but isn't that SAD!!!! He totally rejected her!!! :(

but now she has… I CANT TELL You YET!!! AHHHHH