Pony's POV
I can't believe that those three creeps did all of this stuff to her. I mean I knew that they did a lot of horrible stuff to her but I had no idea just how much about what they did she's been hiding from us.
"Hey Pone, what are you doing?" Soda asks from behind me which makes me jump a mile and slam the notebook shut.
"Oh, nothing. How was work?" I ask him trying to play off the fact that I was just reading my sister's diary.
"Nothing, huh? What were you reading before I came in here?" he asks raising an eyebrow at me.
"I was just reading over my notes." I lie.
"If you were just reading over your notes then why were you so startled by me catching you?" he asks with his arms folded in front of his chest.
"I just wasn't expecting you to be home yet that's all." I lie again.
"Pone, just show me what you were reading." he tells me while holding his hand out for the notebook.
"It's nothing, really." I tell him trying to get him to leave it alone.
"Is it something bad that you don't want me to see?" he asks still holding his hand out for it.
"No." I tell him.
"Then let me see it, don't make me take it from you Pony." he tells me somewhat sternly while tapping his foot impatiently.
"Fine, but the notebook isn't mine." I sigh while picking it up off the desk and handing it to him.
"Well whose is it?" he asks not yet opening it.
"It's Sky's diary." I tell him while scratching the back of my neck nervously, worried that he's going to yell at me for reading it.
"Sky has a diary? Since when?" he asks shocked.
"According to her first entry she's had one since the beginning of her freshman year." I tell him.
"Pony you shouldn't have read this, that's invading her privacy. Where did you find it anyways?" he somewhat scolds me.
"I wasn't looking for it. I just came in here to do my homework and it was sitting on the desk." I tell him.
"Is there anything bad in here? Has she written anything that I or Darry should know about?" he asks.
"Oh, everything she's written in there is bad. I think that the only good entry she wrote was on her first day of high school but after that everything is just horrible." I tell him.
"I take it she wrote about what happened to her?" he asks knowingly.
"Yeah, but there's so much more to it that we don't know. She hasn't told us everything that happened to her. I mean she wrote an entry every single day. She's written down every single horrible and unspeakable thing they did to her for that whole year." I tell him getting angry all over again just thinking about what I've read so far.
"I know I shouldn't invade her privacy like this but I can't go on without knowing what else happened to her. Maybe what she wrote in here will help us understand her nightmares better and we might be able to help her through them more." he says while sitting on the bed and opening her diary.
"Pony, go get Darry but make sure that Sky's still out in the backyard with Steve before you bring him in here." he tells me after he's read through a few pages.
"Okay." I say before heading out of the room to find Darry.
Soda's POV
I can't believe what I'm reading, well I can believe it but I just don't want to believe that it all happened to her. I mean I was shocked and angry about everything that she did tell us but now that I know there is so much more that she didn't my anger level has increased ten folds.
January 5th
Before mom died I asked her what it meant to be loved by someone that wasn't family. She spent almost the whole afternoon explaining all the different ways that people who aren't family like a boyfriend showed how they loved you. The way he would look at you with so much adoration in his eyes, how he would always want to spend time with you, how he would take care of you even when you didn't need it, the way he would hug you, the way he would hold your hand, the way he would want to protect you from everything bad in the world, and especially in the way he would kiss you. I shuddered at the thought of kissing a boy. I mean I was still young at the time when I had this talk with mom. I asked her if dad did all of those things for her throughout their relationship. She told me that he not only did but he still does all of those things and more.
February 3rd
The beatings are getting worse and worse everyday. It's becoming harder and harder for me to hide them from my brothers and the gang. I know that their all starting to suspect something since their starting to ask me everyday how school was and if I got hurt or if anything bad happened. I just tell them that everything is fine and nothing unusual happened. I don't want to worry them anymore than they already do worry about me. Anyways enough about that, let's move on to what those three creeps did to me today. I was walking down the hallway to my locker and Carter came up behind me and shoved me as hard as he could into it. I ended up falling to the ground and cut myself just above my eye on the lock. I'm just glad that's all they did to me today. The hardest part of it all was when I got home and Darry noticed the cut and freaked out about it. Luckily I was able to lie my way out of it but I know that I'm only going to be able to lie to them for only so much longer before they all corner me and confront me about it. For now I'll just take it one day at a time and pray that I'll be able to come home everyday in one piece and that they won't eventually kill me.
February 20th
Today is absolutely the worst day of my life. I always thought that you were supposed to have sex when you're ready to, when you're dating someone and most likely in love with that person. I thought that it was supposed to be my decision when I was ready and no one else's. I knew that it was wrong for someone to pressure you to have sex when you're not ready for that. I especially knew that no one should ever force me into having sex, ever. I know that it's happened to people before, that people have been forced to have sex or do things like that when they don't want to. I just thought that something like that would ever happen to me. But it did because three creeps came into my life. Tonight my choice about all of this was taken away and I'll never be able to go back in time and change what happened to me, what those creeps did to me. Thirteen years old is way too young for someone to lose their virginity. I guess if it's your choice then that's a different story but that's still too young for anyone to do that. I would've never thought that I would lose my virginity at the young age of thirteen, but I did. It wasn't my choice, if it was I wouldn't have lost it until I was older and I was ready to. But I was forced into it, I didn't have a choice. I couldn't fight back even though I tried so hard to. But a tiny thirteen year old girl is no match in strength to three older guys. I told them no, heck I screamed it at the top of my lungs but they never listened. Instead they stuffed one of their ties into my mouth so I couldn't scream anymore. After that everything is kind of a blur. I still will never forget that excruciating pain I felt in between my legs when Carter entered me in one powerful thrust. No warning, no nothing. After he was settled inside me I got punched because there was blood everywhere since it was my first time. He just started pushing in and out of me at a frenzied pace which made the pain ten times worse. I could barely breathe because of the tie in my mouth and how bad I was crying from the pain. After he finished he looked at me with a satisfied smirk on his face before switching places with Cole, allowing him to have his turn with me. Like Carter he was just as rough with me. Finally Seth had his turn with me and it hurt so much, I was in so much pain. When they were finished they just left me there in the middle of the street in a pile of my own blood. That was the worst pain I have ever felt in my life. I hoped after that night I would never experience anything like that ever again but I know that's just hopeful thinking because if they had the nerve to do that to me once then they won't even think twice about doing it to me again.
March 30th
Well today was another bad day just like everyday of my life has been since the beginning of the year. Today I was walking home from school and decided to take the long way and walk through the park to clear my head. As I came around the fountain in the middle of the park Carter, Seth, and Cole all came up and surrounded me. I tried to push my way past them but it was useless because they just over powered me like they always do. Carter smirked at me as Seth and Cole grabbed me by my arms and he pushed me back until I fell into the fountain. I tried to get up but all three of them held me underwater. I kept kicking against them, trying to get them to let me go so that I could get the air they were depriving me of but nothing I did worked. My lungs hurt so bad because of the lack of oxygen. I started to feel weaker and slowly stopped fighting back as I felt myself floating away. Just seconds before I thought I was going to pass out and never wake up they yanked me out of the water. I coughed up mouthfuls of water before frantically trying to get as much air as I could into my burning lungs. It seemed right as I got enough oxygen to breathe normally again they pushed me back into the water and repeated the whole process all over again. I don't know how many times they did that to me but eventually they pulled me out for the last time and threw me to the ground. I just laid there coughing up water and trying to breathe again while the three of them stalked away from me but I could hear their laughter because they were so happy that they hurt me. I know this sounds crazy and if anybody ever read this diary they would think I was but I'd rather have them rape me then do this to me ever again. At least when their raping me I can still breathe.
"Soda what is it? What do you need to tell me?" Darry asks coming into the room with Pony following behind him.
"Shut the door first." I tell him.
"Okay, what's so important that Sky can't hear what you need to tell me?" he asks again with his arms folded in front of his chest.
"Pony found Sky's diary." I tell him.
"She has a diary?" he asks surprised just like Pony and I were.
"Yeah." I tell him.
"I didn't find it either, it was just sitting on the desk when I came in here." Pony says.
"Okay, so what has she written in it?" he asks.
"She's written all about what they did to her and by everything I mean everything, in complete detail." I tell him.
"Okay, but why is that so important? I mean she told us everything that they did to her." he asks confused by the importance of her diary.
"No, she hasn't." I tell him.
"Okay, what hasn't she told us?" he asks.
"Ready the entries on February 3rd and 20th, and the one on March 30th." I tell him while handing him the diary. I'm so angry at those three for what they did to her. I'm also somewhat angry with Sky for keeping all of this information of what they did to her from us. She promised us that there would be no more secrets and lying after the rumble and yet she continues to lie and hide stuff from us.
"I'm going to kill them. So that's why she always wakes up from her nightmares not being able to breathe." he says after reading the entries that I told him to.
"Yeah, and that's why she absolutely hates taking baths now because it reminds her of all the times they did that to her." I tell him referring to her entry on March 30th.
"Is that all she hasn't told us or is there more?" he asks.
"No, that's the only main thing she didn't tell us about. The rest of what she's written in here is just about everything they did to her each day in complete detail. It makes me sick just reading one of her entries about what they did to her. The entry she wrote about the first time they raped her makes me so angry and feel so sick at the same time." I tell him shivering at just the thought of what they did to her and how deep in detail she wrote about it.
"If that creep has the nerve to come back to this town he is never going to get in a ten foot radius of her. I will never let him lay even a finger on her ever again." he growls while slamming the book shut.
"I just wish that there was someway that I could've known that they were doing all of that stuff to her. So that I could've stopped it before they progressed to the point of raping her." I sigh, beating myself up on the inside for not being able to protect her like I should've been able to.
"Soda, don't beat yourself up about this." he tells me while clapping me on the shoulder. I just nod my head at him although I can't help but continue to do so.
"Darry, what are we having for dinner?" Sky asks coming into the room.
"How about spaghetti?" he asks her.
"Darry, what do you have in your hands?" she asks him as her facial expression contorts into one of anger.
"It's Pony's science notebook, I was helping him with his homework." he lies to her, hoping she'll believe his lie.
"No it's not. What are you guys doing with my diary?" she growls coming over to him and ripping the notebook out of his hands.
"You left it on the desk." Pony tells her.
"So you thought that gave you the right to read it?" she hisses.
"Sky, we were curious about what you wrote in there and we let our curiosity get the better of us." I tell her.
"That gives you no right to invade my privacy." she hisses.
"I thought you weren't going to lie to us anymore? Why didn't you tell us all of what they did to you?" I ask her, crossing my arms firmly in front of my chest.
"I have a right to my secrets just like everyone does. How can I trust you now that you all betrayed me by invading my privacy like this?" she asks holding the diary tightly to her chest.
"Sky-"
"Shut up, I don't want to hear another fucking excuse come from your mouth. I'm out of here." she growls while running out of the room and out the door.
"Sky wait!" Darry hollers after her but it's too late because she's already halfway down the street.
"Guys what's going on? I heard Sky yelling." Steve asks coming into the house.
"Guys, why did I just see Sky running as fast as she can down the street with a baseball bat in her hands?" Dally asks coming in through the front door.
"We read her diary and she found out. She got so mad at us that she couldn't stand to be in the same room as us so she left." I tell them.
"You guys read her diary?" Dally asks shocked and clearly angry that we did.
"We didn't even know that she had one. But when Pony found it left on their desk he couldn't help but read it." Darry says.
"What did she write in it?" Steve asks.
I then proceed to tell them everything that I just told Darry about what they did to her that she's been hiding from us.
"If that ass hole comes back to this town I'm going to kill him." Dally growls.
"I know, we all want to. But we can't think about that right now. We have to go find Sky before she runs into some socs again because she's not paying attention to where she's going." I say while heading out the door with everyone else following behind me.
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