Chapter 14

Finn POV

Finn felt like he stared at the ceiling for hours after storming out on Rachel. He looked over at the clock and saw that only 45 minutes had passed. He understood how upset Rachel was. She had worked very hard to make it to Broadway. But was a baby really going to ruin her career? People had babies all the time. He felt frustrated knowing that nothing he said to her seemed to be getting through. When he was positive that sleep was not going to find him, he grabbed some clothes out of the duffel in the hall that he had yet to unpack from his trip and headed out the door. Maybe some fresh air would do the trick.

Before he realized it, two hours had passed and he found himself sitting at a park bench in the middle of Central Park. He loved coming here to think. After the attack, he spent many hours just walking through the park enjoying the fresh smell of grass and the feeling of being away from the city. It wasn't that he didn't like New York. He loved it here. But he missed home sometimes when he was alone with his thoughts.

"Finn?" Startled he looked up to see Quinn standing on the path.

"Uh hey, what are you doing here?" he asked.

"I come here in the morning, to walk. Taking care of myself and the baby is a full time job. I have to stay in shape if I want to keep this figure later on."

Finn nodded, staring off behind her at the other early morning people who were out and about, most people running or doing that stupid fast walking thing that always just made them look ridiculous.

"Everything ok?" She asked concerned as she walked closer to him.

Finn looked Quinn up and down. She wasn't showing yet, but he knew a baby was growing in there. He and Quinn never really talked much after high school. He avoided her at most times after all the crazy crap she had put him through. But today, well maybe today she was the one person he needed to talk to.

"Hey, remember when I thought I knocked you up in that hot tub." He huffed, trying to break the ice.

Quinn wrinkled her eyebrow. "Ok I wasn't expecting that." She took a seat on the bench next to him.

"How did it feel when you found out you were pregnant? I mean I know you cried a whole hell of a lot, but did you hate the baby?"

Quinn looked confused. "What is going on?"

"I'm just curious. I mean. Would you have felt like your life was over if you had kept Beth?" Finn turned and faced her.

"Over?" She paused. "No. Just different I guess." She said quietly. "Finn, are you alright?"

Finn gulped. "Rachel thinks she's pregnant."

Quinn squealed. "That's great." She looked at his face and her frown grew. "Or it's not great?"

"Rachel thinks the baby is a dream stealer." Finn frowned and looked down at his shoes. "So I just wondered if that's like, a normal thing to think about your child and all."

Quinn laughed. "Well with Rachel, that doesn't surprise me. It's no secret that she and I are nothing alike. And God knows I love her, but I swear she does have a touch of the dramatics even after all these years."

Finn tried to laugh. She wasn't wrong. Rachel had dramatic flair in everything she did. It both annoyed him and made him love her even more. It made her who she was and he would never change that.

"How do you feel about it? It's happening to you too." She pressed.

"I don't know." He sighed. "How am I supposed to feel about it? I love Rachel. I love our life. I don't want to quit the band. I don't want Rachel to have to quit her job."

"You know that I know better than anyone about having a baby with her husband touring in a band. Puck and I have fought about it a lot. And yes, I would prefer to have him home, but I want him to choose to do what he loves and live his dreams also. It doesn't mean he doesn't love me and the baby any less. And it doesn't make him less of a father. And she will soon see that her talent will put her in high demand even after popping out a kid." She rolled her eyes, Quinn and Rachel were good friends, but there would always be a bit of competition there.

"Besides, You just learn to make your dreams work plus add a baby. I don't feel like my life is any less important or fulfilled having a new baby on the way. In fact, I feel blessed that I get to share myself and Puck with something beautiful that we made. We get a second chance to do it right this time. And Rachel will see that too. Eventually. "

"But, do you feel like you were robbed?"

"Finn, when I got pregnant in high school, I was young and selfish. I felt like everything was spinning around me and that life was unfair and I wanted someone else to suffer with me." She bowed her head and stirred beside him. "I made you suffer so that I wouldn't be alone. I never really apologized for that."

Finn touched her hand. "I know Quinn; we're past all of that."

Quinn pulled back, "But still, I was pretty awful. And not just with the baby stuff. You're a good guy Finn and I wanted you to be the father. Because I knew you'd be an amazing dad." She paused. "Rachel's a lucky girl. I love my husband, please don't misunderstand me, but a part of me will always love you."

She pulled his chin up to meet his eyes. "I'm glad we are past all of that." She smiled and then looked away. "Besides, Rachel will come around. I promise. How far along is she? I mean you may only have 7 months left of this." She laughed.

"Oh I don't know, she hasn't even gotten the test results yet. None of those 15 home tests she took gave the same result." He shrugged.

"Oh for goodness sake, it's definitely like Rachel to cause a fire when there aren't even flames yet."

Finn's phone buzzed with a text from Rachel. What time is my appointment?

"Crap, I have to call her in a doctor's appointment. I forgot."

Quinn smiled and then leaned over to hug him. "Let me know how it goes. And tell Rachel to stop by sometime this week. Maybe I can tell her all about how awesome it is being pregnant." She stood up and giggled. "I'll leave out the part about all the vomiting and swelling that happens."

"Thanks Quinn. And not just for the leaving out the shit parts. I mean it. Thanks." She flashed him one more smile and then took off jogging down the path, looking back once to wave goodbye.

He dialed the phone and waited for the operator to pick up. "New York Medical Clinic, how may I help you?"

"Hello, my name is Finn Hudson and I need to make an appointment for my wife, Rachel. She needs a blood test."

"Oh yes Rachel Hudson correct? And what kind of blood test does Rachel need?"

"The pregnant kind. I mean, she thinks she's pregnant." Finn suddenly wished he had tasked Rachel with calling in her own appointment.

"Oh well, she can just come down to the office to the lab for that anytime today. I can have the Doctor send in an order for it."

"Oh cool. Thanks, I'll let her know. See you later today."

"Good bye."

Finn hung up the phone and typed out a response to Rachel. Coming home to get you now to go to the lab.

Finn took a cab home and ran up the stairs to the apartment. Rachel and Kurt were sitting at the table. Kurt was making faces and complaining about having to drink out of a new coffee mug. They both stopped talking when he entered the apartment.

"Uh hey." Finn said solemnly.

"Hi." Rachel responded meekly.

"You ready?"

"Yes, let me get my coat." She got up from the kitchen table, hugged Kurt and grabbed her coat off the rack. She smiled at him weakly and opened the front door, looking back to wave at Kurt before she stepped out of the apartment.

"They said they put an order in at the office, you just need to go to the lab for the blood work."

She nodded and they walked the rest of the way down the block in silence.