Chapter 14
Joey was standing there in shock, had he really just said that. Was she hearing correctly. After six years of dought, wanting to know more. He is telling me he wanted it to be me that night in the ruins.
"Dawson are you saying you and Anna never did anything together because you wanted it to be me?" Joey asks.
"Yes." Dawson says simply.
"Why did you leave, and not at least tell me this?" Joey asks.
"It was hard enough to leave as it was, but telling you would have made it impossible." Dawson says.
"So what do you want from me Dawson? I mean you walked out of my life six years ago. Now you want what?" Joey asks.
"I'm not sure Jo, i guess what ever you are willing to allow me to have. I mean i really want to reestablish our friendship." Dawson says.
"Do you really think that is possible?" Joey asks.
"I would like to believe that it is." Dawson says.
"I'm not sure i want to." Joey says.
"I understand your feelings on this." Dawson says.
"I'm not sure that you can Dawson." Joey says.
"You're feeling like i abandonded you, left you to fend for yourself. I guess in a way i kinda did, but i did it for the right reason. Maybe i did it the wrong way, but with the best intentions." Dawson says.
"Is that your way of trying to make yourself feel better?" Joey asks.
"No not at all. Look Joey, i know what i did hurt you, it hurt me as well. I realized that night in the ruins that it was you i wanted to be with. Then when i was coming to tell you how i felt, i saw you and Pacey kissing. Now i know that it was just a friendly gesture on the both of your parts. It got me too thinking, and i realized that it wasn't healthy for the two of us to be that dependent on one another. So i did the one thing i thought was in my power to allow us a chance. I left, allowing you to turn into this most amazing beautiful woman, who is independent, self assured and confident. You see My bestfriend in the whole world, well she turned into the person i always knew she could be. And i am so proud of you." Dawson says.
"And you don't think i could have done the same with you here in my life?" Joey asks him.
"No Jo i don't, honestly i don't think either one of us would be the person we are today, if i would have stayed. What's worst is i think we would have gotten together and then broken up. I honestly believe that we needed this time apart to truely understand just what we had as teenagers. What we really meant to the other." Dawson says.
"So let me get this strait, you did this to give us a chance? A chance at what Dawson?" Joey asks.
"Right now i am not sure, then when i did it. Well a chance to end up together and live happily ever after." Dawson tells her.
"So you thought by doing this, leaveing and coming back, that you were giving us a chance at ending up together? Tell me Dawson do you still think we have a chance at ending up together?" Joey inquires.
"Honestly i am not sure. It seems i hurt you more than i expected to." Dawson says.
"I see. You thought that leaving wouldn't hurt me that much. Dawson i had been in love with you for a long time before you left. When you did leave it was like a part of me died that day. A part that has stayed dead, it wasn't until we talked in the store that, that part of me stired again. I'm sacred Dawson." Joey says, she starts strong, only to end in a whisper.
"What are you scared of?" Dawson asks her.
"Of opening up to you only to have you leave me alone again. Ripping my heart out again." Joey says.
"I understand your concern. I can only say that i will not be doing that again. I remember the pain all to much. Besides i think we have developed into quite a pair. Look Joey all i want is to try to be friends again, i've missed having you there to talk to. To confide in, and to get your oppinoin on things. Joey we aren't the same as when we were teenagers. As adults don't you think we can allow the past to be just that, the past. What i am proposing is we start new with a new found friendship and move on into the future." Dawson says.
"How do you think we can do that Dawson? You leave in three weeks for L.A., and i move to New York." Joey says.
"Not true Joey. See i took a job with an up and coming prodution company, in New York." Dawson says.
"So you are going to be in New York? The same city as me?" Joey asks.
"It looks that way. So what do you say Joey? Can we try to become friends again?" Dawson asks.
Leaving Joey standing there wondering if her dreams could come true. Or was this just another way fate was going to try to destroy her.
A/N: Sorry this one is short the next will be longer i promise.