I wonder if anyone is still reading this thing? Hmmmm I really hope so. REALLY REALLY hope so. :/ granted it's not of the best of terms but will you forgive me?

Tuesday: 12:30pm

Darkness filled the entire auditorium. Silence. That's all I want right now after practicing my heart out in the practice room. I stretch myself comfortably into my seat at the back of the large room. Rows and rows of empty chairs lined themselves up. It's crazy. Everything is working out just the way I had planned. We won nationals. I even received Valedictorian for our class. Things couldn't be any better! Now all that's left is my auditions for NYADA. Once I ace that audition everything will be set. I will be one step closer to fulfilling my lifelong dream of becoming a Broadway actress. Next week is my audition. And I've been practicing like a mad woman. Day in and day out that's all I can think about.

A wave of pride flushed through me at the thought. What happens when you get everything that you've ever wanted? I have no idea… but at this moment its perfection. It's my senior year of high school. I've got two of the most popular guys fighting over me. I've become an important and popular figure in the school. Hell I've even befriended the feisty and bitchy Santana Lopez. I ran a hand through my long hair and chuckled out loud. My head dipped back as I kicked my feet up.

Just then the curtains to the stage were pulled open. I glanced up at the stage with curiosity. Who's there? The stage lit up with a bright light. From my seat I could see a guitar sitting up there along with a tall dark stool. I slowly sat up in my seat. Someone was walking on stage. Santana. I keep running into this girl everywhere! What's the deal with that? The Latina wore a short black dress as she picked up the guitar. Her hair was pinned up neatly revealing her beautiful tanned shoulders. She looked gorgeous as ever which made me check myself before looking back at her. The brunette took a seat on the stool. Her brown eyes scanned around the room, making sure no one was in the room.

A small cheeky grin spread across my face. Santana had taken my advice to sing about her feelings. Once the other girl seemed satisfied that no one was in the room she strummed the guitar to check the tuning. I bit my lip and watched eagerly. I feel like I just snuck into a place I wasn't supposed to be in. The Latina once again checked the room. I bent down low in my seat just to make sure she couldn't see me. It's dark in the audience section so I think I'm good.

Santana cleared her throat before lightly humming a note. I nodded my head and mentally checked her tuning. She was off a little bit but now was not the time for that. This is about her, it doesn't matter if she's – Okay stop. Small and soft words slowly escaped from the Latina. No guitar yet. Just her voice.

I could lose my heart tonight
If you don't turn and walk away
'Cause the way I feel I might
Lose control and let you stay

I closed my eyes and let her words envelope me. Her voice sounded so different than the other times I've heard her. This time it seemed real, honest, and pure. It was like hearing the real Santana Lopez, the one that no one ever gets to see. The Latina began to play the guitar with a slow beat.

'Cause I could take you in my arms
And never let go

I could feel my heart dancing wildly in my chest. The entire room filled with her strong voice. It made me want to leap across a building by how powerful she was. My arms started shaking. She looked sooo beautiful that it was hard not to look away. Deep down I couldn't believe that this was the same girl that ruled the school.

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

My heart began to soar. This song…. A part of me was being swept away. A small tear escaped from the side of my eye as I continued watching the other girl.

I can only wonder, how
Touching you would make me feel
But if I take that chance right now
Tomorrow will you want me still

The Latina had her eyes closed as she belted out the words of the song. Her ruby red lips formed the words that needed to expressed, she needed to let out. Everything about this moment was almost perfect. I have never seen anyone's soul before but at this moment I was. I was seeing this girl's very being. It was like this overwhelming light washing over me and flooding me with all these emotions. The same ones she was feeling.

So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

I couldn't look away from her. I was entranced by her. All I wanted to do was get closer to her but I knew that if I did that she would go away. I didn't want that. I needed to hear this. Everything happens for a reason. And by golly I'm so happy that I got the chance to see this.

And I know it's not right
And I guess I should try, to do what I should do

But I could fall in love, fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

My thoughts stopped as she sang out loudly. I think my heart stopped too. All the air in the room was being sucked out and I couldn't breathe. I no longer had control of myself.

Siempre estoy sonando en ti
Besando mis labios, acariciando mi piel
Abrazandome con ansias locas
Imaginando que me amas
Como yo podia amar a ti

She seemed to be getting closer in my view of vision but I couldn't understand how. It didn't matter because now I could actually see her face up close. Tears were falling down her face as she lightly strummed the guitar. Her eyes were still closed as her words came out.

So I should keep this to myself
And never let you know

I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

I could fall in love
I could fall in love with you
I could fall in love with you

By the end of her performance I was practically in tears. My heart felt so heavy that I didn't know what to do. There were only a few performances in my entire life that have ever rendered me speechless like this. I looked down at myself and realized I was standing. Immediately I realized that I was standing only a few feet away from the stage. Brown eyes finally opened. Oh shit…..

Santana looked at me with confusion. It took her a while before she realized what was going on. She looked away from me quickly, trying to hide her face. I felt embarrassed. Warm heat filtered onto my cheeks as I quietly nodded to myself and walked up to her. She wouldn't look at me. To be honest I completely understand how she was feeling. She was in the middle of her own private little world, one where no one could touch her. I'll bet she feels a little bit violated.

"You were amazing." I whispered in complete awe.

The other glanced at me with suspicion but she didn't respond. After a few more seconds she slowly stood up from her seat and set the guitar down on the floor.

"I think you should tell Brittany." I spoke with a soft voice.

Immediately that got a reaction from the other girl. Her face launched itself before me. Her nose was practically an inch away from me. Those brown eyes that were filled with love were now replaced with anger. She scrunched up her nose and backed away from me.

"There is nothing to tell." She growled.

I shook my head and looked at her incredibly. "Are you kidding me? Nothing to tell? Santana you're still in LOVE with her!"

"Back off Rachel. You don't know anything!" the other girl retorted.

"I saw it for myself! When you were on stage….. gosh I've never seen anything like that! There was just soo much love! It was so powerful. I mean I'm probably not even explaining it right."

"Just stop! Alright! It…. Doesn't matter. None of this matters." She replied with a weak tone.

A small sigh escaped from my lips. This just doesn't make any sense. She's still in love with Brittany. Why doesn't she want to get back together with her? Brittany loves her. This doesn't make sense and quite frankly it's starting to piss me off. They belong together! Santana is just being stubborn.

"You are so stupid." I threw out with long sigh. "You don't see it don't you? Gosh I just want to slap you across your face until you get it! A love like yours doesn't come around but once in a lifetime. ONCE in a lifetime. And you're throwing it away! What is wrong with you? I know for fact that she was the BEST thing that's ever happened in your life. I know it. The whole world knows it!" I expressed with a bit of frustration.

Santana paused her movements. She looked at me as if she were about to tell me something. It was something big. I knew it because I had that gut feeling. I bit down on my lower lip as I waited for her to say something. She shook her head. "You don't know anything Berry." With that she packed up her things and left. I really wanted to hit something right now.

"Seriously?" I sighed as I stared after the girl. What is this world coming to?

Thursday: 1:34pm

My 5th period class had just ended when all the commotion started happening. At first I had no idea what was going on, I was just sort of following the crowd. Everyone was gathered in the hall watching something that was going down. Being small, I was able to pass through easily. Once I finally got to the front I stopped in place.

Finn and Puck were standing in the middle of the hall, facing each other. Large and angry scowls filled their faces as they circled around each other. Finn's overly large body was slumping forward as he tried to make a hit at the Mohawk boy. Puck easily dodged the hit.

"Just face it dude! She doesn't love you like she loves me!" Finn shouted out loud.

Puck began chuckling as he missed another sloppy hit from the larger boy. "You're kidding right? You actually believe that she's still in love with you? You must be even more deluded than I thought you were. SHE DOESN'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE YOU FUCKING IDIOT!"

"Oh what, and she loves you? Please…. No one could ever love you. You will always be the bad boy that will never amount to anything. You have nothing…. You're going to be a Lima Loser for the rest of your life. Hell even Quinn thought so. She didn't even want you to be a part of her kids life!"

Puck's face contorted into a bitter scowl. His large hands shoved the other boy into a locker. Before anyone could do anything Finn grabbed Puck by his shirt and tossed him down to the ground. Fists slammed into his face. Is anyone going to stop this? Where the hell are all the teacher?

"GUYS STOP IT!" I shouted out loud.

Neither of them was listening. No one was listening to me. Everyone seemed enticed by the fight. I looked around helplessly. Finally I caught sight of Sue, she was quickly making her way through the crowd. In a matter of seconds she ended the fight. Blood was running down Finn's nose and onto his shirt. Puck's left eye was cut open, shirt ripped and torn.

Puck looked over at me with wide eyes. Finn was staring over at me with bitterness. All eyes ended up on me once people began to figure things out. Small whispers broke out through the hall. People started pointing at me then to the boys. I shook my head as disappointment filled me. With nothing else said I walked away from the scene.

Monday: 4:46pm

"I know that some of you hate me for all the pain I've caused and what I've done. Words cannot express how sorry I am, especially to you Kurt. You have every reason to hate me, and I don't blame you. I hate myself for hurting you like that." Blaine paused as tears filled his eyes. "I'm… sooo sorry Kurt. I am so sorry. I know you probably don't want to hear this but I still love you! I am so in love with you that it's killing me not to be with you. You told me once that no matter what happens we would always find a way to work things out. But…. That was a lie. You said you wouldn't leave me. But you did. And now…. I'm dying-

I eyed Kurt from my seat. He was sitting beside me with his eyes averted to the ground. Small tears were running down his face as he pretended not to care. I grabbed his hand from his lap and held it. His hand was shaky. It was only a matter of time before he lost it. Before I knew what was happening music began playing in a slow beat.

'Don't leave me in all this pain

Don't leave me out in the rain

Come back and bring back my smile

Come and take these tears away'

'I need your arms to hold me now

The nights are so unkind

Bring back those nights when I held you beside me'

Unbreak my heart

Say you love me again

'Undo this hurt you caused

When you walked out the door

And walked out of my life '

Finally he just couldn't take it anymore. Not even halfway through the song Kurt rose from his seat and collected his things. Without so much as a word he calmly left the room. Blaine stopped singing as soon as the door slammed shut. The boy stared at the door with huge brown eyes. It looked like he couldn't breathe. After a few more seconds he raced out of the door. Silence filled the room as everyone avoided looking at one another. Even Mr. Schue was speechless.

"You guys are so overdramatic." Nicky stated from her seat at the back of the risers.

"New girl, you best keep your mouth shut or Imma do it for you." Mercedes shot back.

Thursday 9:07pm

A big smile was plastered onto my face as I sat at my large desk. My laptop was opened to Facebook. For background music I put on a little Barbra Streisand to calm my nerves. I bit my lip and eyed my computer. Sucking in a big breath my fingers touched the keyboard.

Facebook Status: NYADA audition tomorrow! I can't believe this is it, the moment has finally come. I'm one step closer to my dream! Thanks to all who've supported me. Especially Kurt Hummel. Love you Kurt and Good luck on your audition tomorrow. I know you will be amazing! Pretty soon it will be NYC for us both!

Post. I sat back in my seat and stared happily at my screen. Thirty seconds later a new notification came in. Kurt Hummel likes your status. Another second later he commented on the post.

Kurt: Love you too Berry! And good luck! Tomorrow is the start of our brand new lives.

I laughed out loud and ran a hand through my hair. "The start of our new lives!" I stated with a gleeful tone. TOMORROW!

Friday 2:25pm

I couldn't breathe. All the air from my lungs had been sucked out. Tears blurred my line of vision. I can't see. Air. I need air. Why can't I breathe? My whole body is shaking uncontrollably. I can't stand anymore. Weak. Why do I feel so weak? A powerful and violent ache rips through my chest with excruciating pain. What just happened? Pain. Unbearable pain. Time is nonexistent. My legs give out. I think…. I'm dying. The lights on the stage dim down and I can barely make out a voice. A voice of reason. But I don't want that. There's an awful pain my gut. It hurts so much. My heart is breaking. My entire world is shattering.

Soft hands wrap around me. All I can do is cry and hold on for dear life. I blew it. My whole entire life is ruined. Done for. I never even got a real chance.

"Rachel, breathe!" the voice says.

A rush of cool air enters my system lighting my entire body on fire. I've worked so hard….. I worked so hard! I did everything right. And I messed it up.

"Everything is going to be okay Rachel." The voice whispers.

I shake my head. "No! I-it's n-not." I blew it. My heart drops down to the pit of my stomach. It hits hard. I can practically feel the cracking and shattering taking place within myself. No I don't want to be here.

Flash. I'm running down the hallway of the school. I can't tell what's happening. I don't know what I'm doing. Flash. Clothes are thrown all over my room. I'm shaking. The tears have not gone away. They won't stop. The pain is getting overwhelming. I grab two large bags from my closet. What am I doing? Clothes are being shoved into the bags. Flash. A note has been written and left on my desk. It's addressed to my fathers. What does it say?

Flash. I'm on the road. Numbness that's all I can feel. Through the tips of my fingers down to the tips of my toes I feel nothing. I still can't shake the coldness. Flash. I'm in the middle of a parking lot. The sun has gone down and the tears have started back up again. My phone has been ringing for the past few hours. I want it to go away. All of it. But it doesn't. Silence fills the car. My phone has finally died.

Breathe…..

Breathe…..

I wipe the tears off my face. Breathe….. Breathe…..

Flash. I'm on the road again. A new feeling has hit me. I don't know where I'm going but it feels right. I feel like I'm being drawn somewhere, like some invisible force is pulling me to where I need to go. Lights pass by me. I'm following this feeling. Flash. This can't be right. I shake my head and look around at the destination. This can't be right. No. I drive away from the place. I must have taken a wrong turn somewhere. Again I'm following the weird feeling. But somehow I end up getting the same result. This can't be right.

I sit in my car and stare out the window. Over an hour has gone by and I still haven't moved. Flash. I'm outside the door with my bags in hand. What the hell am I doing? An unnerving feeling settles into the pit of my stomach. I should leave. My body doesn't move. The door finally opens.

A mess of short blonde hair comes out. This can't be right. Hazel eyes stare at me with confusion. This can't be right but strangely enough, it feels exactly where I'm supposed to be at.

Le plot thickens….. stay tuned peeps! LOTSSS more of Rachel and Quinn.

Songs: I could fall in love- Selena (Sung by Santana)

Unbreak my heart- Toni Braxton (Sung by Blaine)