Chapter 14

Rin watched Yukio. Something was different, not his denial, the denial was there, whenever they kissed or shared a touch, it was something else. Yukio stood, his posture perfect as he talked to some girl. Dyed blue bangs prevented him from seeing her face clearly. She laughed and Yukio flinched, his eyes darting around. Why was it taking so long? Yukio never talked to girls tthat long. He tried shaking of the uncomfortable feeling, she wasn't his type, she couldn't be.

"You're being jealous." He whispered forcing his eyes away. Out of the corner of his eye he saw it. It made his blood run cold. The girl leaned forward kissing Yukio on the cheek right there. In front of everyone. That action having the desired effect, no one noticed the bag changing hands.

~I won't cry. Rin thought, swallowing the initial chok. Red hot anger filled his mind, his fire barely contained as he barged into the suddenly crowded space around his brother. Girls crying, demanding explanations. None were given.

"Yukioo" Rin whined. The girls withdrew sensing Rins barely contained anger, and something else, just out of sight. Yukio turned towards Rin, his glasses effectively disguising any thought or emotion.

"Yes nii-san?" Yukio asked, his voice annoyingly relaxed. Rin wanted to punch that pretty mouth, that deceiving lying mouth, that had moaned his name last night while the owner had slept. He should have kissed him instead of leaving. He growled.

"Who's this?" He trew himself in his brothers arms, feeling Yukios surprised squeeze at the contact.

"Rin, meet.. Naya.. She's my.." Yukios words died out a telling red tinted the otherwise pale cheekbones.

"Girlfriend" Naya finished waving at them.

"Silly." She laughed lightly kissing Yukios now burning cheek again. Yukio nodded speachless. A pit opened in Rins stomach. How could that be, and when? Yukio hadn't had anyone before, and he had tried to save him from judgement. Didn't he know that this felt worse, than any death could?

"Nice to meet you." she said winking at Rin. He nodded smiling a charming toothy grin, even though he felt like his insides had been turned out.

"Rin." Yukio said, his voice no more than a whisper. Rin tore away, and started to walk a hurried walk towards their shared dorm.

Rin felt the first drop fall as he stepped inside the dorm. He let them fall as he neared his room, his bed. A bed they had shared just this night. He removed the bedsheets removing everything that had proved their sleeping together.

"Rin" Yukio sad, closing the door behind him. He didn't answer, didn't look. He didn't want to be confronted with pain or the rejection, rejection he had taken time and time again, and that he had written of as fear, not a lack of want. God he was such a fool.

"You don't understand." Yukio said, his slender fingers wrapping around Rins bicep. He tore away his arm, or he wanted to, he tried. He looked at Yukio beneath tearsoked eyelashes, wondering just when Yukio had become so strong. He wasn't supposed to be the strong one.

"Let me go." Rin cried out. Yukio frowned, looking at his hand. Did he find it as strange?

"You don't understand" Yukio said, squeezing Rins arm painfully hard. He groaned and sat on the bed, his arm still in Yukios grasp.

"I won't let you go. ever." Yukio growled licking his lips. He pulled out the bag and ate a cookie. Rin wanted to scream, from pain, from hopelessness, from want.

"You are acting strange." Rin pushed the words out from dry lips, as he tried to sit without pain shooting from his arm.

"I'm being practical, since you won't ever be." Yukio licked the crumbs from his lips. His eyes glimmering beneath the glasses. Rin let out a relieved sigh, as Yukio loosened his grip, blood rushing to his fingers once again.

"What are you talking about?" Rin licked his lips trying to ignore the drumming of want in his blood. Yukio sighed, turned towards Rin and held his gaze.

"Us, this, we have to stop. That's what I'm doing" his voice was hoarse as he played with another cookie. Only two a day,he reminded himself.

"Why? We've only just begun." Rin tried to free himself from Yukios gaze, but nothing happened. Something was lurking in Yukios eyes, something frightfully well-known and yet uncontrollable.

"Stop." Yukio said, something hard and cold in his voice. Rin froze mid lip-lick.

"Stop what?" He blinked, focused on Yukios green eyes. Their focus had moved downwards, he felt it like a physical touch on his lips.

"You know." Yukios voice was nothing more than a feral growl, as he frantically ate another cookie, and another, and another. His voice pained as Rin watched completely mesmerized.

"I don't think I've ever seen you eat anything like this, is that why you love her?" Rin smiled sadly. but before he could turn away he was pushed on the matress.

"Nnhg.. Yuuki." He wheezed. He wanted to ask, what was happening, but Yukio pushed him down forcefully.

"Stop talking." Yukio pushed Rin further down, making it impossible to say anything, instead he let out a small whimper, it sounded like pleasure mixed with pain. Something rin felt very conflicted about. He wanted to struggle, but sensed the strength emanating from his younger twin, as well as the high strung control.

"You make me like this. Can't you see, I'm being sensible?" He whisperede the words close to Rins ears, making him shimmer from sheer undeniable pleasure. Yukio growled placing a wet kiss right beneath ear, and Rin breathed a soft sigh.

"What is 'like this'?" He asked, gaining more wiggleroom, as Yukio leaned back, watching his brother closely. Rin saw the red globes that had replaced his brothers soft green eyes, in the sad smile a tooth more pointed than before, and -like Rin- pointed ears. He was turning allright. Turning to a demon. Rin shivered, their similarities even more evident now.

"This." Yukio ate another cookie releasing his hold. Rin took the opportunity and pushed Yukio down. He didn't seem surprised at all, instead his eyes shone, as he watched Rin almost lazily, knowing full well, that he could turn the table without much show of force.

"What's with these cookies?" he growled taking one. Yukios smile was dangerous, his eyes sharp.

"Have one to find out." Rin took a bite, felt the force run through his veins. His heart started to race and Yukio seemed to fill him inside out without even touching him. Euphoria plain and simple. Yukio was kinda beautiful like this. He thought hazily, running a hand down Yukios shirt.

"They are supposed to help me get rid if these.. feelings" Yukio stated flatly, his hand searching and find Rins as he guided it beneath the fabric of his shirt.

"Get.. rid?" Rin whispered licking his suddenly dry lips. The words didn't really register, this feeling he had wasn't a lack of want. It was a tidal wave like nothing he had ever experienced before, taking over his every thought.

"They worked in the beginning." Yukio whispered. In a second Rin was back on the bed, and Yukio buried his tongue in the warm cave of Rins mouth. The pleasure became too much, as it started burning in his veins. They were too close to the breaking point.

"Nii-san"