Disclaimer: I do not own the amazing characters or marvelous places from Stephanie Meyer's the Twilight Saga however I do own my characters and plot line of this story such as Zoe, Liam, their mom, and what other character you peoples don't recognize.
Chapter 14
I drove all the way to La Push with no intentions of going home until I found out what the 'fight' was. As soon as I started to get closer to Forks and La Push, I got an eerie feeling. Part of me wanted to turn around and go home but the stronger part of me shut that part up and made me drive even faster. If my phone hadn't rung, I would have probably accelerated even more. I didn't know the number but I answered anyway.
"Hello?" I asked.
"Where do you think you are going?" I smiled.
"How do you know I'm not home? Are you stalking me again Jacob Black?" I said.
"You're car's a piece of crap. I can hear the engine in the background." He lied.
"Sure…" I said turning onto his street.
"Zo, can't you just listen to me, just this once?"
"I'm sorry Jake, but I stopped listening to you a long time ago." I pressed the end button and parked in his driveway. I got my things and went inside.
"Honey, I'm home!" I yelled half expecting for Jake to stomp out of his room and drag me back to my sister's car by my toes but there was nothing. Plain, old nothing.
"Padoodles, well that's no fun." I sighed flopping onto the couch. I reached over to the tiny end table and picked up the phone and called Charlie's.
"Hello?"
"Hey Charlie."
"Oh…hi." He said madly. Shit. Curse Bella and her big ass mouth.
"Is Billy there?" I asked.
"No, he's at Sue's. Why?"
"Because I'm at his house and I was just wondering where he was. Thanks anyway Charlie."
"Mhm." He hung up. I rolled my eyes and leapt off to the couch.
"Ow!" I yelled. I almost forgot about it. I've been overworking so much lately that I forgot the incident even happened. When I do remember, the medication the doctor gave me takes away the pain but seeing as I forgot to take it this morning, it's slowly coming back. Maybe if I just forget all about it, it'll go away. I turned on the radio and tried to keep busy by cleaning up the living room a little. Turns out that was a stupid idea because a good song came on and I had to dance along with it. Damn Ke$ha and her dancey songs.
Maybe I need some rehab
Or maybe just need some sleep
I got a sick obsession
I'm seeing it in my dreams
I'm looking down every alley
I'm makin' those desperate calls
I'm staying up all night hoping
Hittin' my head against the wall
What you got, boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
I'm all strung out, my heart is fried
I just can't get you off my mind
Because your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
Won't listen to any advice
Momma's telling me I should think twice
Better left to my own devices
I'm addicted, it's a crisis
My friends think I've gone crazy
My judgment's getting kinda hazy
My steeze is gonna be affected
If I keep it up like a lovesick crackhead
What you got, boy, is hard to find
I think about it all the time
I'm all strung out, my heart is fried
I just can't get you off my mind
Because your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I don't care what people say
The rush is worth the price I pay
I get so high when you're with me
But crash and crave you when you leave
Hey, so I gotta question
Do you wanna have a slumber party in my basement?
Do I make your heart beat like an 808 drum?
Is my love with your drug? Your drug, your drug
Your drug, is my love your drug?
My phone started to ring but if someone really needed me, they'd call again.
Because your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
Because your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
I said your love, your love, your love is my drug
Your love, your love, your love
Hey, hey, so
Your love, your love, your love, your love is my drug
I like your beard
I gripped my side. So maybe dancing wasn't the smartest idea but what the hell? It's not like I'm known for smart stuff anyway. I reached into my bag and mentally slapped myself. I forgot to bring my meds. I knew I was forgetting something. Ugh, I really didn't need this now. Don't they have any Advil or something to tide me over until the pain goes away? I ransacked their medicine cabinet but found nothing. Fudge. I'll just go to the store in the morning. In the meantime, I'm going to try to move as little as possible since moving was obviously the bad idea, which means…MOVIE MARATHON!
I dug through their small pile of movies and picked out a bunch of Disney movies but before then, I decided to take a bath first. I soaked in the tub for a good half an hour until I got pruney and got out. I stepped out of the tub and check my phone. I got a message from my sister. Turns out that I had also forgotten to leave my sister a note and she thought that someone stole her car. I called her back immediately and told her I had it. She was pissed at first, used some pretty colorful words and then told me to have it back by morning so she could drive to Mom's house. I unhappily agreed and told her that I'd have it back by ten.
Following my little chat with my sis, I popped myself some popcorn and began watching Lady and the Tramp. I only got through forty minutes of the movie before I couldn't take it anymore. The pain was absolutely horrendous. I paused the movie and crawled up into a tight ball. I reached behind me and pulled the pillow to my face to muffle my screams. I was so wrapped up in my little ball of pain that I didn't hear the door open.
"Zoe? What's wrong?" Billy asked being pushed in by Sue Clearwater with Charlie in tow. Oh how I wanted to just wipe away my tears and say 'nothing's wrong' but so much is.
"It hurts. It hurts. It hurts." I repeated over and over again.
"What d…Sue…" He started then realizing where the pain was coming from. The woman nodded and immediately ran to the kitchen. When she returned, she had an old leather satchel in one hand and a bowl in the other. Five minutes later, she had a mixture of herbs smashed together.
"You need to lie flat on your back sweetie." She said helping me lean back. Stretching my torso only made it worse. I swear by the end of the day, the couch will have claw marks on the arm rests.
"I need to pull your shirt back." I nodded and she did so, revealing my disgusting scar that for some reason was still surrounded by purple bruising and swelling. She applied the mixture on it using on her bare hands and massaged it in gently. At first it was burning, but then cooled off. Sue left it on for about ten minutes and then washed it off. The scar was no longer puffy and only had slight bruising but the best part was that I could barely feel the pain anymore.
"How did you do that?" I asked wearily.
"Magic." She smiled standing up.
"That seems to be the answer to a lot of my questions nowadays…" I mumbled to myself.
"What did you say dear?" Sue asked.
"Nothing. Thanks for everything Sue, really."
"You're welcome. Get some rest and don't move around much." She kissed my forehead and covered me with a blanket. I've been sleeping a lot lately so I kind of don't want to but my body thought otherwise.
I woke up the next morning no longer on the couch, but rather in Jake's bed, wrapped tightly in his sheets. I actually dreamt of him again last night but this time he was…different. We were in the woods like before but it was just us and no one else. This time, he looked an absolute mess. His short hair was sticking in every which way, held by dried mud and his eyes dark with sorrow. He walked over to me and held me close to him.
"I don't have much time but I just wanted to say that I'm so sorry. I never meant to hurt you. I really didn't." Jake said with tears forming in his eyes, confirming this was just a dream.
"Oh Jake, it's okay." I said soothingly. He backed up and turned away from me.
"No it's not. I hurt you and all because I'm rejecting you as my imprint."
"Imprint?"
And with that my dream just seemed to wash away. I slowly sat up out of bed and shuffled my feet into the living room, finding Billy of course.
"Good morning Zoe." He said in an abnormal gloomy tone.
"Morning Bill. You feeling better?" I said yawning.
"Loads. What about you?"
"I'm better. I had the weirdest dream about Jake last night."
"Care to explain?" I told him all about it. After I was finished, he took a deep breath and looked down at the floor.
"What the hell is an imprint?" I asked. His head rose and he folded his hands.
"I really shouldn't be telling you this but you need to find out somehow. It is a supernatural force that draws you two to each other. As your imprinter, they will always be there for you, to protect you and comfort you. You are the center of their world no matter what. The bond between you two is so strong that your spirits are intertwined and always will be." I know I should be feeling different about this or something but my stomach is doing back flips. This whole supernatural thing is too much for me. I don't know how I got stuck in the middle of it but I want out. I got up and went over to the end table for my keys.
"I-I have to go Billy. I have to bring my sister's car back." I said getting up, shaking so much I thought I was going to collapse.
"Will you be back later?" He asked as I opened the front door. I paused.
"Sure, sure." I said leaving. I quickly got in my car but didn't start it. I just sat and sat and sat. Maybe I'm not his imprint. Maybe I just want to be. Yeah, that's it. It was my head playing tricks on me...
I drove home and got there just in time for my sister to leave on schedule. She invited me to go with her but the last time I saw my mother, she told me that she wanted me out of her house and that she never wanted to see me again. I swear that woman's overdramatic. I said no thanks and proceeded to the bathroom. I then took a shower and saw the disaster that was my room. I had been in and out of here so many times, just throwing clothes around and then flopping onto my bed without cleaning it up so I put all my clothes in the hamper and did my wash.
By the time I was done, my sister was already back and bitching to herself about my mother. I shook my head and packed a new bag, including my painkillers. I then said goodbye and got back on the road. About half way there I remembered that I had to go to the store. I picked up some dinner, food that could be cooked later and the Advil that I promised myself that I would get. While on my way back to my car with the groceries, I got a sharp, but quick pain surge through my chest. I brushed it off and continued to my car, until it happened again but this time it lasted a little longer. I put the bags in the truck of the car and got in. Something's wrong. I don't know if it's with me or with something else, but something is definitely wrong.
As I arrived at Billy's I noticed that everyone was standing outside of his house. There was Sam, Paul, Embry, Quil, Jared, Seth, Collin and Brady accompanied by an angry Leah. Billy was sitting close by in his wheelchair, holding Sue's hand with tears in his eyes. Charlie was also there but I couldn't figure out why. They all looked sad and anxious. I kept watching them as I went to the back of my car to get the bags.
"What's going…" I was cut off by a deafening agony filled scream causing the bags to slip out of my hands and onto the dirt below me. My heart immediately sunk and my body froze.
"Jake!" I yelled as I got enough feeling back into my legs to charge for the door but I was held back by Embry.
"Let me go!" I sobbed.
"You can't go in there yet." He said sadly.
"What happened to him? Why is he screaming?" I sobbed burying my face into his chest.
"Motorcycle accident." Charlie spoke. Everyone glanced down at their feet. There was no damn motorcycle accident. He screamed repeatedly and each time my heart broke with him. My legs buckled underneath me as he yelled.
"ZOE!" His voice echoed as he writhed.
"Please let me go in there." I begged Embry.
"I can't until the doc says so."
"Embry, if you ever cared about me you would let me go." I said looking him in the eyes. He closed his eyes as his arms dropped back to his sides. I immediately sprinted for the door and threw it open, not caring if it closed behind me. Skillfully, I leapt over the coffee table and into the hallway, halting at his door.
"Come in." A voice said from inside before I my hand could reach the doorknob. I slowly opened the door to find Dr. Cullen standing over Jake's bed. When he moved away, I could no longer hold back. I cupped my hand over my mouth as I sobbed. Jake's russet skin was drenched in sweat and his body barely covered by a sheet but that didn't faze me. The look on his face could make even the most uncaring person in the world shed a tear. The way he cringed tore me to pieces. I cried walking over and sitting the side of his sweat ridden bed.
"H-Hey." He said with a raspy voice. I caressed his cheek until he reached up with his left hand and held mine to his cheek.
"Oh Jake, what have you gotten yourself into?" I asked scanning his body. He smiled a faint smile.
"I apologize but I must continue." Carlisle said. Jake nodded slightly and gazed back at me.
"Don't leave me, okay?" I nodded. Carlisle knelt down at the end of the bed and placed his hands on Jake's right leg. A snapping noise filled the room and Jake screamed.
"What the hell are you doing?" I yelled at Carlisle.
"I have to re-break his bones. I'm sure he will explain it to you at a later time." He said before continuing down to his foot. He snapped again and Jake's teeth clenched but this time, his focus never left mine. I stayed by his side even after Carlisle was done and didn't intend on moving.
"All done." Carlisle said wrapping the last of his ankle.
"How ya feeling?" I asked dabbing Jake's tired face with a damp washcloth.
"I've been better." He said coarsely.
"Can you take care of him until I return?" Carlisle said after sticking a needle into Jake's arm, pumping him with Morphine to curb the pain.
"Of course."
"Thank you." He nodded before leaving the room. About half a second later, he was in the doorway.
"Bella's here. Do you want me to tell her to come back later?" He asked. Jake looked at me, then Carlisle and then back to me.
"Can you give me a minute?" He said, breaking my heart to pieces.
"S-Sure." I reluctantly got up and shuffled my feet to the living room, only to be face to face with Bella once more.
"Look, I'm not looking for any trouble, I just want to see J…" She started but I put my hand up cutting her off.
"Go ahead." She nodded and brushed past me as we walked in different directions, I back outside, her to the room holding my…her broken Jacob.
"How's our little humpty-dumpty?" Paul asked trying to lighten the mood. I glared daggers at him before taking a seat on the front steps.
"He's that bad, huh?" Seth said. I nodded grimly and buried my face in my hands. Gravel crackled and crunched as someone walked over and took a seat beside me.
"He's going to be okay. I promise." Embry said wrapping an arm around my shoulders reassuringly. But that doesn't mean I will be.
"How do you know that E? How do you know that for sure?" I spat looking up from my palms and into his brown orbs.
"He just will, okay?" He said obviously hiding the real reason.
We all waited outside for minutes that felt like hours until Bella finally emerged from the house, teary-eyed.
"I'm going home. Will someone call me later and tell me how he is?" She asked.
"Sure Bells. Goodnight." Billy said as she got into her rusty red pickup truck then speeding away to probably run home to her freak of a boyfriend. I stood up and brushed myself off and returned to Jacob's room. He too was teary eyed and saddened. He tried to wipe the tears away but failed so I acted like I didn't even notice that they were there.
"Are you hungry?" I said shakily but he didn't respond. Instead, he turned his head and looked out the window like he was too guilty about something to even look at me.
"O...kay. If you need anything, I'll be in the living room." I added as I started walk out.
"What aren't you telling me Jake?" I asked turning to him but once again, no response. I shook my head and began to walk again.
"I kissed Bella. Twice." He said bluntly, stopping me dead in my tracks.
"You did what?" I questioned still facing away from him.
"I kissed her and she told me that she loved me." He added.
"Well…isn't that nice." I swallowed back my tears.
"I'm sorry. Please don't be mad at me." He pleaded with sadness emitting from his whole being. Too late buddy.
"You have nothing to be sorry about. Y-You love her." I said closing the door behind me. Silently I slid against his door to the ground and sobbed to myself as what was left of my thoroughly abused heart disintegrated into millions of pieces. That's it. She won. Whatever little hope I had for Jake and I completely vanished as if it was never there in the first place.
"Zoe?" He said my name from the other side of the door. I opened my mouth to respond but all that came out was a high pitched squeak. I tried to hide my hurt and got back up onto my feet. I half stomped half stumbled out the door.
"I-I can't. I just can't. He just…ugh!" I whined wiping my tear-stricken face as my emotions varied from depressed to fuming back and forth.
"What did he do?"
"He just said it like it was no big deal, like it wouldn't kill me inside when he knew it would. He's not that stupid. He knows that I'm in love with him and yet he does this shit!" I ranted on and on stomping away from the house.
"That no good piece of shit just blurted it out like that…" Embry mumbled storming to the door.
"Embry no." I sobbed running up to him, pushing against his muscular chest to keep him from plowing in there to kill him. I ended up being a terrible obstacle seeing as I collapsed in his arms.
"Why does he do this to me? Why can't I just get over his dumbass?" I sobbed.
"It's not in your nature just to 'forget' someone, especially someone like him, no matter how much they hurt you."
"Yeah, well. My nature freaking sucks because all it does is get me hurt." I pouted.
"But it's one of the best things about you. You're also very sweet, kind…" He said listing my 'good' qualities.
"Stop trying to make me feel better!" I whined pushing him away and going back inside to get away from the cold. I angrily changed into a pair of sweats and an over-sized shirt. I don't care about what he thinks of me anymore plus, he likes average and that's exactly what he's going to get. I put my hair up in a bun tight enough to give me a headache but I didn't care.
"Zoe!" Jake yelled from the other room, killing my 'I don't care' and replacing it with 'I care too much'.
"What?" I responded wiping away newly fallen tears. He didn't call back so I got up and stomped into his room.
"What do you want?" I asked placing a hand on my hip and the other on the door frame as I leant up against it.
"Can you get me a glass of water?" He pleaded.
"Has playing tonsil-hockey with a life sucking bitch made you thirsty?" I mumbled too low for him to hear.
"Huh?"
"Nothing. I'll be right back." I said closing the door and going into the kitchen to grab a bottle of cold water. I returned with the bottle in my hand while the other subconsciously held me together. I turned the cap and opened it up for him. He reached for it with his non-bandaged hand and attempted to sit up on his own but failed epically, causing me to take pity on him. I sighed and gently sat him up. I then sat behind him and held him against me.
"You're not going to want to do that. I'm all sweaty and gross." Jacob said.
"I don't care. Just drink your water."
"Pushy…" He mumbled before doing as he was told.
I sat in his room with him all night long, not leaving unless it was completely necessary. I laid on his cold tile floor with only a pillow and a few blankets underneath me as a mattress. Thankfully I had brought my iPod to keep myself occupied whilst he slept because god knows I won't be sleeping for awhile. I unlocked my deep purple mechanical object full of awesome music that kept me going through the day and flipped through my large array of songs until I came across one that caught my eye. I pressed play and stared at the ceiling as it filled my headphones and blasted through to my ears. (White Horse- Taylor Swift)
Say you're sorry, that face of an angel
Comes out just when you need it to
As I paced back and forth all this time
Cause I honestly believed in you
Holding on, the days drag on
Stupid girl, I should have known
I should have known
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
Baby I was naive, got lost in your eyes
And never really had a chance
I had so many dreams about you and me
Happy endings, now I know
I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairy tale
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
Lead her up the stairwell
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you went and let me down
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to come around
And there you are on your knees
Begging for forgiveness, begging for me
Just like I always wanted but I'm so sorry
Cause I'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
This is a big world, that was a small town
There in my rearview mirror disappearing now
And it's too late for you and your white horse
Now it's too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now
Oh, whoa, whoa, whoa
Try and catch me now
Oh, it's too late to catch me now
As soon as the song ended, I heard someone's voice. I took out my headphones and listened.
"Zoe." Jake groaned in a weird groggy tone as if he was sleeping. I sat up and studied his serene face, noting that he was indeed sleeping.
"Don't you mean Bella?" I grumbled laying back down on my makeshift bed.
"Zoe." He groaned again.
"Please just shut up already." I whimpered turning over facing the opposite direction as him. I closed my eyes tightly and listened to him repeat my name over and over, praying that I would fall asleep and thankfully, I did.