Hey guys! Here's the epilogue to The Positive Feedback Loop! Hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it. The song for this chapter is You're The Reason I Come Home, by Ron Pope. Also, at the end of the chapter I'm going to post the entire playlist for the story in case you missed a song or two or just want to go back and listen. Thanks!
Today was quite possibly the worst day of Aiden's career so far. He'd gone to Rockland University per request of Rick Payne, to help counsel some students who had lost their friend to suicide. A young girl had taken her own life, and her boyfriend was having a very hard time dealing with it. Aiden ended up having to call someone in from the hospital to have him sedated. It was so hard to watch.
He thought maybe it was so hard for him because he kept remembering when he'd almost lost Megan. That was the hardest day of his life, and he was thankful that she came back to him. That was such a long time ago, it was hard to remember all the details, but the grief and panic were still very real feelings.
He pushed open the door. He heard sounds coming from the kitchen, and tracked down the source of the noise. There were two blondes in his kitchen. One of them was making a large mess, and the other was trailing behind, trying to contain it.
"Daddy's home!" The little blonde squealed. She ran up to him, and his heart soared. He gathered her in his arm and threw her into the air, her giggles filling the kitchen.
"Hanna Banana! How was your day?" She wrapped her arms around his neck and held on as he leaned down to kiss Megan. "Hi, love." She smiled up to him.
"Mommy stayed home with me and we made cu…cup…" The two-year-old looked troubled, looking to her mother. Megan leaned in to whisper to Hanna. Aiden pretended not to hear her. "Cupcakes. We made cupcakes for you, Daddy."
"Thank you, baby. It was a tough day today." He was talking to his wife now. He set Hanna down so she could go back to slathering frosting and sprinkles haphazardly all over the cupcakes.
Megan wrapped herself in Aiden's arms. "Do you want to talk about it?"
"Not right now. I think I have some cupcakes to eat!" He said, snatching away the cupcake that Hanna was about to sneak into her mouth.
"Only one, for each of you. Dinner will be ready soon." Megan insists. Aiden and Hanna nod, but when Megan walks away, Hanna reveals her fingers that were crossed behind her back. Aiden smiles down at his daughter, revealing his own crossed fingers. Like father, like daughter. He places a finger to his lip and scoots a cupcake toward his wife's miniature, her tiny giggles music to Aiden's ears.
Later, after dinner, Hanna had fallen asleep laying across their laps on the couch. Megan was stroking her hair as she talked to Aiden about his day.
"Was her ghost there? The girl that killed herself?"
Hanna hadn't mentioned anything about seeing ghosts yet, but it was something they were slowly preparing themselves for. Aiden would be able to help her more than Megan would, her only being able to hear them, but they would work as a team. They always did. Partners in crime.
"Yes. She was hurting so much seeing her boyfriend in so much pain. It reminded me of your accident." Megan found Aiden's face with her hand in the flickering light of the abandoned TV show. "I'm just so thankful for the life I have. You're the reason I come home. You and Hanna are my world."
Megan smiles, and gives Aiden a look. He decides to call it apprehension. "Do you think you have room in your world for one more?" Her words were loaded, and Aiden recognized it immediately.
"Are you pregnant?"
Even though it was dark, Aiden could see the blonde blush. "Maybe. I don't know. I haven't taken a test yet. But would it be so bad? Hanna's almost three now."
Aiden tried his hardest not to wake Hanna as he leans over to kiss Megan. "I could make room for 7 more little girls that look like you. How late are you?"
"5 weeks."
"Why did you wait so long to tell me?" He's not mad, just worried. Usually, Megan tells him every little thing going on in her life.
"I thought it was stress at first. Mel's been talking about retiring and making me partner and cutting back hours and expanding all at once and it's hard to juggle all the possibilities. And then I woke up this morning sick to my stomach, and I started to put the pieces together. Plus, I promised Hanna we'd make cupcakes, but as soon as I smelled the batter I regretted my decision."
Two hours later, after Aiden finally convinced Megan to run to the store for a test, they're standing in their bathroom, staring at each other, waiting for the timer to go off.
Finally, the timer goes off, and it makes them both jump. Aiden reaches for the test. "Wait." Megan says quietly, wringing her hands. "If it's negative, I want to start trying. I want another baby, Aiden. I didn't realize how bad until just now when I realized that a negative would kill me."
Aiden pulled Megan into his arms, kissing the top of her head. "Of course."
Megan is fighting tears, which is why she stays in Aiden's arms for longer than usual. He doesn't mention anything, though. He never does. Just gives her time. She finally pulls back, and smiles at him. "Ready?"
"On three."
Megan smiles, reaching a hand to the test. "One."
Aiden grips Megan's other hand in his two larger ones. "Two."
"Three."
The Positive Feedback Loop - Playlist
1. All About You- Birdy
2. Unsteady- X Ambassadors
3. Can't Help Falling In Love- Ingrid Michaelson
4. Tenerife Sea- Ed Sheeran
5. Wherever You Will Go- Charlene Soraia
6. Smash Into You- Beyoncé
7. 18- OneDirection
8. Stealing Cinderella- Chuck Wicks
9. Wake Up With Me- Gabrielle Aplin
10. Standing in the Way of the Light- Birdy
11. This is What it Feels Like- Jasmine Thompson
12. You're The Reason I Come Home- Ron Pope
