Good grief! This was supposed to be the twelfth chapter, I completely forgot to put it in! THIS is the ANGSTY chapter. Oi...Where is my head?? There probably won't be any updates for a few days...Wednesday or Thursday at least. :) Love you guys, thanks for being so patient with me.

Mistakes I've Made

I can't begin to describe how deep the hole in me is. Most of it I did, but that's my father's fault. He killed a part of me, and I let the virus continue to eat away at my soul. If I even have one.

One of my mistakes was what turned me into what I am today. My disrespect to my monster of a father. But it got bigger, because I let him plant the seeds of hope of retribution. Well, I'll tell you one thing. With Fire Lord Ozai, there is no retribution, only a surface forgiveness.

Want to know something strange? All of the people he's held a grudge with have ended up dead in mysterious ways. Whether that's Azula or Ozai remains to be seen. My father's one success, if you care to call it that, is siring Azula. I was his failure.

But now I'm done. I've cut my family ties. Azula and Ozai are not my family. Maybe by blood, but if I stay in that sore excuse of a family, all that'll be left of me is a blood stain on the wall. Iroh and my mother were my parents. My true parents. They were the only ones who ever cared about me. Except for . . . but that's another mistake.

Katara. She's cared for me, and I for her. We're of like mind. The fire nation took our mothers. And she is the most temperamental water bender I've ever met. She should've been a fire bender, with all the passion, all the fury, that she puts into her element.

But I made a mistake in loving her. This can never be. Even now, my sister's spies are searching for her, longing to kill her, and in doing so, hurt me. But they won't be able to. Because I told Katara, and she told me to kill her. Her exact words were "I'd rather be killed by someone I love for an unselfish reason, then be killed by Azula and my body left to rot."

So I did, and that's another mistake. It was painless for her, very easy, and yet, the hardest thing I've ever done. I know that my father would laugh to hear that I killed her to keep her from him. He's probably laughing anyway. He's probably thinking "I've finally succeeded in breaking him."

Well, I hate to break it to you, but it won't matter if it's broken me or not. Because I'm going to turn myself in to Azula, and tell herIkilled Katara. And then I'll die with a grin on my face, because I did the one thing she never could.

I've made mistakes, but I'm not repenting of them, just acknowledging them. I am proud of who I am, and who I'll die as. After all I've been through, death is welcome.

Death will be a blissful release, and I look forward to it with anticipation. I'll see Katara again, and she's waiting to welcome me. My only sorrow is my uncle. Uncle, I hope you know I did this in your best interests. Maybe, you can bluff your way back into Ozai's favor. I wish you luck.

I have a date with death, and I don't want to be late.

Zuko