A/N: *Peaks out from dark hole in ground*

I know, I know, I know I suck.

I have kept all you wonderful readers waiting long enough. However, there was good reason. I rewrote this chapter about three times trying to figure out how I wanted all of this to play out and regardless I am still not sure how I feel about this…yet.

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PAST: BPOV CHapter 13

I shouldn't have let him drive. It was my entire fault. There were a lot of things I should have done and now I can't even think.

I opened my eyes to the sound of monitors going off and I felt something around my stomach. Freaking out I clutched around my sides and over my belly to see what was going on.

"You have been out for a week." I look over to see no other than Carlisle standing next to me holding a file open and adjusting something on my monitor. "This…" he said pointing to the thing attached to my stomach. "Is to monitor the babies heart beat."

"Is he?" I could barely talk.

"Right now I can only worry about the things I can fix, and right now that means I am in here with you."

I nod my head. I didn't want to question. I would wait for now. I know he doesn't want to talk about his son right now.

"So what's going on Mr. Cullen. Is my baby—is it alright?" I croaked out.

He sat down next to me and smiled.

"Your baby is perfectly healthy I can assure you of that. The semi that hit the vehicle had hit Edwards's side of the car. He used himself to protect you. However, you did suffer a concussion and you did sustain some injuries from the broken glass. I put you to sleep because some of them needed stitches and it helped with the healing. Nothing harmful to the baby I promise."

I let out a breath I was holding but the worry did not leave.

"What about Edward?" I whispered.

"I need to know something first."

I knew what he was going to ask but I waited anyway.

"You were the reason he left the house after Alice came over isn't it, and missed school right?"

I nodded my head.

"And the baby—?"

"Yes." I didn't hesitate.

He sighed.

"Alright, well obviously we are going to have to talk about all of this. But for now we need to work on getting you two better."

It was silent for a few minutes.

"He's in pretty bad shape."

I looked up at him then and I could feel the tears well up in my eyes.

"Tell me, and please don't sugar coat it."

He pursed his lips and put his elbows on his knees and looked at me.

"He could be worse off but because he leaned on to your side of the car to protect you he was able to miss loosing his life however, he's going to be here for a while…"

I closed my eyes.

"Carlisle—"

"The left side of his body sustained three broken ribs; his tibia is fractured right below his knee. And he sustained a very bad head fracture. He had to go in for immediate surgery to relieve some of the pressure built up in his head and he sustained some memory loss…before he slipped into a coma."

Tears fell from my eyes as I heard about the man, yes the man I loved.

"We were not able to get to the blood clot in time…at this point we don't know how long this could last."

"When did he…?"

"About three days a go."

I broke into a sob and Carlisle held me as I did. I knew he was silently crying too because some of his tears rolled off his face and fell onto my arm. We both stayed like that for what seemed like hours. Until I could hear foot steps coming into the room one by one.

I looked around to find Edwards and my family, Esme, Alice, Jasper and Emmett, Rosalie, and Charlie.

Tears rolled off Esme's face and she nodded to Carlisle in a silent conversation I am sure confirmed to her that I was indeed carrying Edwards child.

This is not the way I wanted them to find out. However I didn't have a choice in the matter.

Carlisle cleared his throat.

"Well I will let you have your chance to talk to everyone. However Bella I would like to keep you here for another couple of days just to monitor you and the baby if that's alright."

I nodded my head in agreement and wiped my tears from my face.

"Yes—yes of course Dr. Cullen."

"Please Bella call me Carlisle."

I nodded my head and tried to smile.

He glanced at my monitors one last time and then left after kissing his boys and his wife and saying hello to Alice and Rosalie.

Of course those two were the first to make room on my hospital bed for themselves as Rose played with my hair and Alice held my bandaged hand.

Esme took Carlisle's chair and Jasper and Emmett sat in chairs by the end of the bed.

"Bells, how are you feeling?" Rose asked quietly.

"To tell you the truth I am not sure yet."

"Oh Oh Oh I know what you need!" Alice chimed in and got off the bed and ran to her purse. Then came back to her spot next to me.

"These are for you!"

She pulled out my favorite books some of my Jane Austin collection. I smiled.

"Thank-you, Alice." I said grabbing the books and holding them close to me.

"Well I thought you might want this. Cause you know it's been a week since you haven't been able to use one."

In Rose's hand she held a tooth brush and tooth paste.

"Oh yes, thank you for this."

It was silent again and Alice began talking about how the business was going and how Bree my right hand when it came to my business was doing a very good job and explained to my scheduled clients that I was attending to family matters.

"Anyway she told me to tell you she has everything under control. However she also asked me to insinuate maybe giving her a raise." Alice rolled her eyes.

"Well if she is doing as good a job as you say then maybe a raise is in order." I replied.

I stroked my stomach quietly, and thought about Edward. I know I needed to talk to Esme but I wasn't sure how to talk to her about this.

I glanced over at her and she had a gentle look about her face as if she was contemplating the same thing.

"Do you think you can give Bella and me a few minutes by our selves?" Esme spoke quietly.

Rose and Alice both gave me reassuring looks and Emmett and Jasper silently left with them.

Esme brought her chair close to me and took one of my hands and breathed in deeply before speaking.

"I know…I know about you and Edward…Rose and Alice were more than eager to tell me everything. Probably a little too detailed for a mother to hear about her youngest child."

I cringed. Oh god what did they say?

My heart beat started to race and I gulped down some air to help calm me.

"Esme…"

"Hold on dear let me finish." She patted my hand. "First of all Bella honey, you are a horrible actor. I knew something was going on especially since the way you acted towards him when you came to the house to take the pictures. I didn't know the extent but I knew you too were involved…" She paused.

"I am not mad. I was in shock. I am sure later on Alice and Rose will be only to happy to tell you about seeing me faint in front of the entire hospital when Alice slipped on the little piece of information I felt I should of heard from you…"

I was going to have to talk to Alice about her big mouth. Soon.

"Regardless I am not mad. In fact I have seen a lot of changes in Edward. Because of that I am glad you two met. However I don't agree with my son going to a party and drinking and 'hooking up' as you young people say these days. I am still happy because I know you are a very respectable young lady and you have a wonderful business following your dreams and I knew from the first time I met you some how we were connected."

I was about to ask her why but then she spoke again.

"You know Carlisle's mother was the one to tell me I was pregnant the first time too. She told me she could tell because she was connected to her children and that the pull she felt for Carlisle she felt for me. That's how she knew. That part of Carlisle was inside me growing to create something. When I guessed you were pregnant I felt that connection. However I didn't know at that time you two even knew each other."

She paused again. It was silent for a while.

"Do you hate me for ruining Edwards's life with this?" I said gesturing towards my stomach.

"Of course not honey. Though I wish I was a little older to be a grandmother and I wish my son wouldn't have to be a father at sixteen. I know that some things happen for a reason. I know he smoked pot and cigarettes and drank. Even though he had perfect grades he wasn't happy. He has smiled more recently than I could have ever known him possible to do. Especially when Alice came over and he had been down in the slumps when you two were apart… that spark was there when he rushed out of the house."

"Alice…" I muttered.

"Oh yes Alice. My goodness that girl likes to talk." Esme chuckled.

It reminded me of Edward and my breath caught. My heart ached to touch him but I knew I must be patient.

"My son and you were together before the accident weren't you?"

I nodded my head. "He came to me and told me wanted to be here for me and the baby. That he was sorry he lied about his age but that he would find a way for us to be together. He knew you and Carlisle would be accepting and that I had no reason to worry."

Her eyes welled with tears.

"You are not alone Bella. We all have each other, and I know that my son is a fighter. He always has been and always will pull through things that happen in his life."

She wiped her eyes.

"Do you know how far along you are yet?"

"No not yet, I just went to the store to get pre natal vitamins. I was going to ask Edward if he wanted to go with me but I never got the chance."

She gripped my hand harder. "I am sure Carlisle knows would you like me to go ask?"

I nodded my head. She leaned forward and kissed my forehead before leaving the room leaving me in the quiet. In the stark white room that was littered with Cards, Balloons, and flowers that lined the available shelves, and a few teddy bears stuck between them.

A few moments later Esme was back and she had a smile on her face.

She came to me again and helped me sit up on the edge of my bed.

"Bella Swan you are two months pregnant." I smiled despite everything to know that I could do the one thing I knew I was meant to do and that was to carry Edwards baby and protect him or her.

"Carlisle also wanted me to tell you that he has a primary doctor who will take care of you and the baby from here on out. I have all the information and if you want I can help you set it all up for you to go in."

I reached out for her and brought her in for a hug.

"Thank you Esme for everything. I would hope that if my mother was still alive that she would be just like you."

I smiled a genuine smile at her when she finally pulled back. She touched my cheek with her palm. "Any time Bella. I have a feeling we are going to get to know each other very well."

I took her hand and she helped me stand up. After the nurse came in and brought in a wheelchair. They kept me hooked up to the I.V. The nurse said it was to help keep me from being dehydrated and another one that was giving me some vitamins I needed for the baby, the other was for small doses to keep my pain at ease at a level that wouldn't hurt the baby. Then finally—finally they wheeled me in to see Edward.

I know what Carlisle had said but it looked so much worse. Besides his leg being in a cast and propped up and his chest visible to where I could see the thick band of bandages that encased around his chest and stomach. Edward had bruising on about seventy percent of his body. His face especially had cuts due to the glass I am sure because it looked like my injuries and the bruising had his one eye swollen. The rest of his body that I could see looked like the left side of his body had absorbed the impact. There was a large red mark that went across his chest the line of the seat belt marking him. He had an oxygen mask on. My heart felt like it was breaking into a million pieces.

Esme wheeled me up to his right side and I reached out for his hand. I wasn't going anywhere…not when he was in this bad of shape. I knew that if it was me I knew he would not be able to leave my side either.

So I was not leaving him.

It was quiet for a long time and Esme rubbed my shoulders while I silently cried for the love of my life to get better.

Something pulled at the edges of my mind that Carlisle had said something that I needed to ask about.

"Esme?"

"Yes dear?" She said pulling up a chair on Edwards other side and mimicked me by holding his right hand.

"Carlisle mentioned that Edward had suffered memory loss?"

She let out a shuttering breath and nodded her head in silent agreement.

I was afraid to ask the next question that came out of my mouth but I knew I had to. From the looks of it she knew what I was going to ask.

"Does he remember me?" I whispered.

She was quiet and didn't say anything for a few moments.

"Carlisle said that after the Dr. had worked on his head that he came to before going into a coma. He doesn't remember the accident; he thought he was taking his driving test to get his license."

I closed my eyes.

"How long ago was that?"

"About a year and half ago."

I kept my eyes shut to keep my tears from spilling over.

"He doesn't remember me. He doesn't know who I am, or that he loved me, or that I am carrying his child?"

I opened my eyes in time to see her let a tear fall from her left cheek.

You could let him go. Let him wake up and not tell him of your past. He could still have all his dreams come true. Of writing, of going to college. With no responsibility of being a father before he truly got to live.

I couldn't do that. Even as my mind told me that, my heart refused to even think about living in a world that didn't have Edward in it.

"Is he going to pull through this?"

"Carlisle mentioned that his mind probably shut itself down for the healing process because of the extent of his injuries. He could be out for another, day, week or even a month. That means when he wakes up he could remember everything." She said. "Or not."

I blew out a puff of air.

"Okay." I said releasing his hand and sitting back in my wheel chair.

"Your not going to leave him are you and take away his chance at having to meet his baby are you?"

I looked at her and she had a saddened look in her eyes.

"I made a promise to him that I would never do that, and that I would love him forever. I am not going to break that promise to him. I would never allow it."

Consequences be damned I told my self. I will make him fall in love with me again if I had to but either way I wasn't leaving, he and I would be together and that is all that mattered.

"Good. I am glad." We smiled at each other then. I knew that Esme and I had just created a bond that would never break. I knew where Edward got his loving side from and I knew it had to be from this woman sitting across from me with tired eyes.

I could hear the door opening and found Charlie peaking his head in. He didn't say anything but walked over to me and leaned down to hug me.

"Whatever you need Bella I am here for you—and for Edward."

I pulled away and thanked him. Taking his hand with my free hand and giving it a little squeeze. Alice and Rose followed in with Jasper, Emmett and Carlisle coming in last who closed the door. Alice took Charlie and Jaspers hand while Jasper grabbed Rose's. The line continued with Emmett, Carlisle and finally Esme. We were all joined. We were all a family and I knew regardless of the outcome. Edward had givin' me not only his love but his whole family. We weren't two separate families any more. We were all one. I smiled knowing that I had gained so much.

We all stared at the person who lay in this bed next to me. Waiting for something to happen. However all I heard was his breathing an even in and out pattern.

I stood from my wheelchair not breaking my hold on Charlie or on Edward and leaned forward. I used Charlie to support my weight considering I hadn't stood at all in over a week I still very shaky in standing, and I don't think I could try to even walk right now.

"Come back to me Edward. I love you. We love you. We aren't going anywhere."

I leaned down and hesitated before closing the distance and kissing the love of my life on his forehead. I leaned down next to his ear again.

"I promised you forever. I am keeping that promise." I kissed him one more time. I closed my eyes savoring his smell. Not even paying attention to the eyes that I am sure were watching Edward and I closely. I kissed him for the first time in a week on his soft perfect lips.

I heard it before I saw who it was. But I heard several intakes of breath and I opened my eyes to see Edwards chest pick up its breathing pattern and felt his hand twitch in mine. I sat back down in the chair quickly. Keeping my hands connected to the circle.

Seconds, minutes, moments passed I am sure until finally the thing I most wanted to see occurred. Edward opened his eyes and blinked rapidly at the people around the room starting with Esme. His green eyes blazed the brightest I had ever seen his eyes that I am sure was shock at the people just starring at him.

As he finally turned his head to look at me he stared for a long time. I watched the emotion dance across his face until he finally landed on confusion. Glancing down with his piercing green eyes at his hand wrapped in one of mine and then finally at me. He spoke for the first time to me since the accident.

"Who—who are you?"

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