Alternate Ending 1

Stef

I was sitting on the floor watching as Conner ran in circles driving everyone crazy.

"Hes never going to run out of energy is he?" Lena asked.

"No they don't at that age" I said and she nodded seeming upset.

"Whats wrong" I asked.

"Never had a kid that age" she said and I never thought about that. She never had a baby.

"Why didn't you and whats her name have another kid?" I asked cant helping that I sound jealous.

"Five was enough... I never loved her like I loved you" she said honestly.

"Its ok" I said.

"No I really didn't. I could never love like I loved you." she said and I kissed her knowing she is telling the truth.

Diane

Tears immediately came to my eyes at the sight of Lena. I knew logically that she was on her deathbed and she wouldn't be with us much longer but that doesn't mean I actually thought it would happen. I wasn't in here with her when she dead, she died alone. Her kids were about to come in after me but I stopped them.

"Don't" I said shaking my head and I watched tears fill all of their eyes.

"Nurse" I said getting the attention of the nearest nurse. She didn't even ask she could tell from the looks on all of our faces.

"I'm so sorry" she said too all of us before going in the room.

"She was suppose too make it" Mariana said tears in her eyes her hand going over her stomach. Jesus instinctively put his arm around her shoulder since her husband's couldn't be here for her.

"I miss her already" Jude said and Nathan put his arm around his husbands waist.

"She's with your mom" I heard Nathan whisper too Jude in an attempt to make it so I didn't hear it but I still did. I shook my head knowing he's right. She never really loved me, not like she loved her, I know that I wasn't blind. I know I could never come close to live up too Stef in her eyes and that's what kills me. I know she loved me but not like that and she tried she really did but it's not something that can be forced. I told myself the longer we were together that it would fade but it never did.

Lena

This death thing is a hard concept to grasp. It's a whole new way of 'life' than life is and it's just odd. Stef has been dead for two decades and they all talk like they just met her a few days ago, her included. I know there isn't a sense of time but really. Most of them look like they have been dead since the early 1900s including Conner who is dressed in the stereotypical twentieth century clothes. It's weird to think that he's only one but have been around longer than we have been alive. So technically he's older than us?

I watched as Conner sat in Stefs lap playing with his teddy the only toy he owns. I smiled she seems so relaxed with him. She is definitely a natural mother. I went over and sat next to her.

"Well isn't that a cute sight" I said and she smiled at me.

"Yeah he's adorable" she said.

"You both are, honestly he looks like he could be your son" I said noticing the similarities in looks. He had short blonde hair, it would be cuter longer but i'm sure it would be weird back then for him too have long hair, and the prettiest blue eyes.

"Really?" she asked looking down at the boy.

"Are you kidding me he looks a lot like you. How are we going to find this what's it called?" I asked.

"Cycle?" she said and I nodded.

"Well we believe if we go back to our house it will be the cycle." she said and I gave her a weird look.

"If it's that easy why haven't you done it already?" I asked confused.

"I was worried I wouldn't work and you would see me and it will cause a lot of drama. Opening an old wound" she said. She stayed in these living conditions because she was afraid she would open an old wound? She had to keep herself away from her family for twenty years. Resist the urge to check on her wife and kids because it was what was best for them. Talk about sacrificing everything.

"What are we waiting for?" I asked and she shrugged.

"Hey buddy you ready to get a home?" she asked and he looked at me confused.

"Home?" he asked not knowing what 'home' was and it broke my heart and I can tell it broke hers too.

"Yeah you're love it" she said and picked him up. He laughed and went to whisper something to her.

"Sure" she said and handed Conner too me. So far he has clung too Stef so it meant a lot to me that he wants me to hold him.

"Good luck" Jacob said and everyone exchanged goodbyes, it was really awkward. Considering the fact that Stef has been with them for twenty years they still all ask like she was a guest that no one expected. They act like they barely know her and didn't even seem that fazed that Conner was leaving. If Conner has lived with them for this long wouldn't they be a little emotional? Conner on the other hand sensing that we were really leaving them started bawling and was squirming to get back to Stef and I handed him back. Well it was nice while it lasted. Hopefully he warms up too me, I don't want him to be just Stef's kid.

"It's ok honey." she said kissing his head.

"Lets go find a home?" she asked and he nodded. Even though he's lived with them for that long and got upset leaving them he got over it pretty quickly. I don't think any of them really spent time with him.

"So how do you know about these cycle things?" I asked trying to figure out what street we were on too figure out which way is home.

"I was in my dad's for who knows how long, it was weird" she said.

"How?" I asked playing peek a boo with Conner who giggled happily. Stef shrugged in response.

"I don't know he couldn't see me. He was stuck in 1978." she said finding the direction of home and grabbing my hand poofed us too in front of our house. Well that's easier than walking 4 miles. I still haven't learned how to teleport myself but i think you don't have to think much for it work. The first time Stef did it she did it accidentally because she was worried about Mariana.

"1978?" I asked and she nodded.

"Ok I don't know what's going to happen. This could be either of our cycles or both hopefully but we will still be separated. It's all mental, if it's yours remember it's not real and hopefully we can outsmart it" she said and I nodded not sure how hard this will be.

Stef

I turned around and kissed her not sure what is going to happen. This is could be bad. My worry is about Conner through. There's no way this is his loop and what if we can't outsmart it. He will be by himself.

"I love you" I said and she smiled at me.

"I love you too, now lets do this." She said grabbing my hand. We walked through the door and everything was how it used to be.

"Hey babe" Lena said in the kitchen like she always used to do. Conner wasn't in my arms anymore, Lena wasn't holding my hand.

'It's not real' I told myself. 'Lenas holding my hand and Conner is in my arms' I said and repeated it over and over again.

"Babe what's wrong? Bad day at work?" the illusion of Lena asked and I closed my eyes hoping it will be easier to shut out if my eyes are closed.

Lena

I step into the house and saw the kids sitting at the table eating supper with me and Stef. They were teasing each other like they normally do and it was so hard to remind myself it was fake.

Stef grabbed my hand under the table and it felt so real.

'It's an illusion' i told myself trying to focus on Stef and Conner but the longer I sit there the harder it was too picture what Conner even looked like.

Stef

"Conner" I screamed out running through the house begging myself too see the little boy.

"Stef what's going on?" Lena asked and I tried to ignore her.

"Connor I want too see Conner" I screamed and still nothing happened.

"Connor is my son! You guys are not real" I shouted and closed my eyes shut. The scene disappeared and Conner was back in my arms like he was never out of them.

"Mommy what's wrong" he said as I sat on the floor and started crying. I felt a hand on my back and I jumped and turned around real quickly. Lena stood their tears in her eyes too.

"It's ok" she said hugging me and the original scene came back. The kids all sat on the couch watching a movie.

"I love you" I said kissing her.

"I love you too" she said and I got up picking Conner up with me.

Lena

I sat at the table with everyone eating and joking around me and couldn't shake the feeling that their is something I should be doing. It felt like a dream but I just shook my head and choose to ignore it. Maybe it's just something for work I will deal with it tomorrow, i told myself as I enjoyed being around my family.

Ok i'm proud of myself actually. This appears to be a happy ending but it's actually really sad if you really get what happened. Message me if you don't and i will explain how this is actually a really depressing chapter. Also I decided I will give you an alternate ending since you tolerated my writer brain going crazy. That will the next chapter, so only one chapter left.