A/N: DRAMMAAAAAAAA!
CH.14-The things I can't change
This twitch in my fingers
Love/Hate it lingers
Sent it direct, but the point must have missed her
Gave up and lost, 'cause of timing and pressure
And now I'm gone
There was music playing loudly in the room as I lie down next to my girlfriend. My name is Heather and I'm cheating on my fiancée. It was never intended to happen. One day, everything slowly started to fade. I met Janet at a coffee shop one day, we spilled our drinks on each other when we bumped into one another. After, I got her number and everything just escalated from there. I fell in love with the wrong girl. I did the wrong thing, but I can't help it. I love Janet.
I love Spencer as well. She used to be the love of my life until I let it all fade. I still love Spencer very much, but in all honesty, I'm a bitch. Spencer will never forgive once she finds out I'm still only with her to move up on the hospital hierarchy. Janet has a fiancée whose name is Ashley. I don't know what she looks like or what her last name is but I don't care. All I care about is just this moment, and how it's going to break her and i.
"My fiancée is going to start a family." I said, staring up at the ceiling.
"So is Ashley." Janet replies, moving to cuddle into my side.
"I was so ready for everything with Spencer… Then you showed up." I reply, looking over to my girlfriend.
"This is wrong." She says, looking into my eyes. "We're going to mothers Heather."
"Yes Janet, I know!" I yell. I regret it the second it happens, "I'm sorry." I apologize.
"We can't be together anymore Heather." I close my eyes tight, listening as my girlfriends voice cracks with my heart.
"I know, I know ok?" I respond, refusing to look at her. "I'm sorry, but I still love Spencer. I love her enough to stay." I respond, trying to hide the pain lacing my words.
"I don't want to let you go. I want to be with you, I'm in love with you." She says.
"I know. Janet, I'm in love with you, but we shouldn't ever have done this and we can't anymore." I say, looking over to see tears falling down her cheeks.
"Can we just savor this moment before it ends?" She asks me.
"Yes baby." I move to hover my girlfriend as I kiss her passionately, making sure to bring up the sheets to cover our naked bodies.
Lie alone; it's all you can do now
And hear me drone
About the things I can't change
Lie alone; it's all you can do now
And hear me; hear me drone on my own
Ashley and I could hear music playing from downstairs and trust me when I say, I have a BIG house.
"Upstairs?" Ashley asks from behind me.
"Clearly" I reply, walking to the stairs.
"Geez, attitude check."
"Sorry, just I know what's to come. I'm scared to face it." I sigh, my voice cracking a bit.
"Hey, I'm doing the same exact thing right now. I'm here with you alright?" Ashley reassures me, grabbing my arm and turning me to face her.
"Thank you." I say, hugging her tight.
"No need." She replies, hugging me with just as much force. We finally let go, and slowly start making our way up the staircase.
What has this come to?
I know you don't see me as much as you ought to
And both wounds are bleeding out
Grace me with nothing but patience
I'll admit that I hate this if there's no other way out
If there's no other way out
Ashley and I are now standing in front of the room door. I reach above the door and grab the room key. I check to see if the door is locked. It is, so I put the key in and unlock the door. Before I turn it, I look over to Ashley and see her staring at the door.
"Hey, I'm right beside you." It's my turn to reassure her.
"I know." She says, I slowly twist the doorknob.
"Here goes nothing." I say, pushing the door open.
Lie alone; it's all you can do now
And hear me drone
About the things I can't change
Lie alone; it's all you can do now
And hear me, hear me drone on my own
I didn't realize tears were already streaming down my cheeks as both Ashley and I see our significant others in bed together. Faintly, I hear Heathers name being called out. I watch my fiancée on top of Ashley's fiancée, making love the way we do. My heart shatters even more as each second passes. I try to move but I can't. My feet are plastered to the ground.
On the outs with everything
The calm and talk you seldom bring
On the outs with everything
The calm and talk you seldom bring
On the outs with everything
The calm and talk you seldom bring
Anger inside me was boiling. My tears were falling. My heart was breaking more and more. I nor Spencer could move towards our fiancées. We just stood there, watching as everything we've ever felt for them started to fade. We watched as we slowly became numb.
Lie alone; it's all you can do now
And hear me drone
About the things I can't change
Lie alone; it's all you can do now
And hear; hear me drone on my own
Finally, my feet gained a mind of their own as I stormed over and grabbed the sheets and pulled them off of the two naked bodies only to throw the sheets back at them. I push Heather off of Janet I think is her name.
"Fuck you!" I yell, tears falling faster down my cheeks. I feel arms wrap around me and pull me back.
"Spencer relax." I hear Ashley's broken heart in her words as she speaks. I remember that tone apart from anyone's because I heard the last time I saw her until now.
"Spencer!" I hear Heather shout to me.
"Ashley!" Janet shouts to Ash. We look to each other, I nod to let her know I'll be calm enough to not hit either of them.
"I want you out of my house!" I shout at Heather, "The both of you!" We watch as our exes get up and try to get dressed.
"Don't you dare think about showing up at my house Janet! You are no longer welcome there!" I hear Ashley yell besides me.
"Give me a chance to explain!" The two lovers shout in unison.
"Not now!" Ashley and I shout back.
"Get the fuck out!" I yell once more.
"Spence it isn't like that!" Heather yells.
"Seriously?! Oh so what we just saw wasn't you fucking Ashley's fiancée?!" I yell then scoff.
"We're in love." I hear Heather faintly respond. My heart feels like it's been ripped out and stomped on.
"I don't care! Get out!" I yell, grabbing the rest of their clothes. I hand them to Ashley, she looks at me confused and I nod towards the window. I walk over and open it, only watch Ashley throws their clothes out of it and onto the lawn.
"What the hell Ash?!" Janet shouts, the two run towards the window.
"You can no longer call me that." Ashley responds, I grab her hand and pull her downstairs quickly. I run outside and look at her.
"Flip that one, that one and that one." I say. I stare at the lawn as Ashley does what was told. Seconds later, the sprinkles come on and our exes clothes become very wet and muddy.
"Oops" I smirk, leaning back against the wall as Heather and Janet run out the front door and start gathering their clothes.
"I'm going home once I'm done here. You can get your stuff tomorrow Janet. If I find out you went to my house, I'll call the cops for trespassing." Ashley says.
"Same goes for you Heather." I say, I walk in and slam the door shut, locking it behind us.
"Wow." Ashley says.
"Tell me about it." I respond before running upstairs. When I get to my room, I grab the sheets and covers off the bed. I walk over and grab my pictures of Heather and me. I walk down downstairs and grab Ashley's hand, dragging her with me to the backyard. I grab the matches and lighter fluid.
Minus well have some fun of this insanely shitty night and burn crap. I toss the sheets on a free area of cement, away from everything flammable.
"Here," I say, handing Ashley a match. I grab the BBQ lighter fluid and squeeze some all over the sheets. I strike my match then Ashley's. "On three, one, two, three." I say. Both us toss our matches onto the sheets and watch as they engulf into flames. I pull the pictures out of my pockets. I go thru them, tossing the now meaningless ones into the fire then rip Heather out of the meaningful ones.
"I'm sorry." I say to Ashley, turning and falling into her.
"It wasn't our fault." She responds, holding me to her tight as we stand there and cry.
Song used is: The story so far- the things I can't change
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