Ch 14: "Don't tell him"
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Warning: This is kinda heart wrenching, from here the story kinda gets sad. Ok, so it gets really sad. Stay with me okay?
This will alter from Sasori to Deidara's POV. Ill write either name in Italics when its Sasori's or Deidara's turn. Kay?
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Sasori
To say Sasori felt Guilty was an understatement.
So why, why on earth, was he walking hand in hand with one of the not many people who trusted him? Who would look up at him with such love that Sasori wanted to scream.
Honestly he felt really bad, and that wasn't like the redhead, normally he would blow it off, Going through life without really giving a fuck what he did, he had slept with countless people, taking countless drugs, gotten drunk countless times, and every time he was faced with something bad in the morning, maybe the police, or whatever-her-name's-was father yelling at her in the morning, he would shrug and leave casually. Its not that he was going to see her again.
"Danna? Un"
That voice, music, music.
He looked down at the Blackett, aware that he must have been spacing out, he gave Deidara his casual smirk and watched him blush faintly.
"Yeah Deidara?" Sasori answered, looking up again as they walked through the black wrought iron gate, noticing how exceptionally sad all the blocks looked today, matching the weather. As to remind him of that the wind suddenly picked up, making Sasori shiver slightly and wrap his scarf around his neck more tightly, looking up the sky he noticed again how black and forbidding it looked, maybe it was going to rain?
"Are you alright? You've said nothing since this morning"
Looking down Sasori saw that little pout, it made him feel even worse. What would happen if Deidara found out what he had done, that would be so troublesome, and Sasori found himself hoping that he wouldn't see Kitsu today, if she spilt the theoretical beans then it'd all be over.
"Deidara!"
Speak of the Devil and she shalt appear.
Deidara turned around to see who had called his name, and seeing as Sasori was holding onto his hand he was forced to turn around too.
Today Kitsu looked like her normal self, well apart from her hair. She had put in extensions, making her hair long wit ringlets, a simple azure tee-shirt hugged her curved body, Her skinny black Jeans hugged at her hips. Sasori wondered why he was suddenly noticing all of this stuff, further down she was wearing simple azure Converses.
She continued to run towards them, her book bag banging against her back, she was waving at them as he ran, a large smile on her face. Sasori didn't know how she could smile, didn't this make her feel bad too.
"Hey Kitsu, un" Deidara greeted her easily when she finally caught up to them, she still had that stupid smile on her face, honestly, how on earth could she smile.
Unfortunately that went away fast
"Hey Deidara, do you reckon I could talk to you?" Her eyes shifted towards Sasori before adding "Alone" the smile went away and she suddenly looked really serious, Sasori just knew what she was going to say, and he couldn't allow that.
"Actually, Kitsu. I need to talk to you, so maybe you could talk to Deidara later?" Sasori gave her a warning glare which thankfully Deidara didn't see, he also didn't see the look of anger that crossed Kitsu's face, which she quickly replaced with a happy smile.
"Sure Sasori, ill talk to you. See you later Deidara, Kay?" Kitsu smiled at the oblivious Blackett who shyly smiled back.
"Yeah, ill see you later Deidara" Sasori replied, leaning down and gently kissing Deidara on an Ivory cheek, before quickly standing up and walking to his left, towards D block.
They continued to walk in silence, Sasori knew a lot of private spots around the back of the buildings, so he lead Kitsu there, standing in one of the blind spots where no one could see them. At all.
"Sasori, what did you want to say?" Damn kitsu and her loud mouth, itd been close back then, sighing he ran a hand through his vibrant red locks, glaring down at the annoying little girl who took a step back in surprise, a confused expression crossed her face as she stared back.
"I don't want you telling Deidara what we did" Sasori demanded, continuing to glare down at the smaller girl, watching her face, shock, surprise, anger, rage.
"And why not!" She ground back, stepping forward and stamping her foot down as she did, she now glared back at the redhead, equally matching his gaze, they continued to glare back and forward at each other, anger filling the air, too soon he sighed, rubbing his brow before grounding out his answer.
"Because, it would ruin Deidara and I"
Sasori watched as Kitsu's jaw went slack, her eyes glazing over as she stared up at the redhead in shock, Sasori sighed and stared back, They stood there for ages actually, Just staring at each other, and Sasori could almost see the wheels working inside her head.
Suddenly something clicked, and she hopped back, drawing a long breath in which made a hissing noise, Sasori winced but stayed still, He was going to get an earful now.
Instead, Kitsu seemed pretty calm when she spoke next.
"You know, that's kind of selfish, Sasori" her deep blue eyes tried to meet Sasori's browns, but that wouldn't happen, because Sasori was now staring down at the ground.
"I know" Sasori muttered, biting his lips and breathing in deeply, he didn't want to do this to Deidara, to Lie, and cheat. But he also didn't want to be alone without his little Blackett, so this was the only choice right now. In his opinion though.
"Then wh-"Kitsu started, but Sasori roughly cut her off "No! Don't you dare ask me why, Kitsu! What would you do if you where placed in this same situation, you'd want what's best for them, and right now, telling Deidara is what's best for him. I know that sounds selfish, but right now I don't really give a fuck. Because you know what? I love Deidara, I love him so much it hurts, and I don't want to see him suffer" Sasori ranted, pausing quickly for a quick breath before continuing "Lie for me Kitsu, let me figure this out, Just back off and let what happens happen, Ok?"
He finished, panting slightly from his rant, he felt Kitsu looking him over, and looking up confirmed that, her eyes ran over his face, dark blue's meeting with browns, and with a small, almost jerky movement. She nodded.
Sasori sighed and ran a hand through his hair, looking down at the smaller girl he found himself liking her more, as s friend of course.
"Thank you" Sasori muttered, turning and stomping through the tree's and bushes and random plants, once he was standing on the grey concrete he realised that it had started raining, small spots landing on his cheeks, noses, forehead, lips as he looked up.
Sighing again to himself he began walking towards the main building, he had English. With Deidara.
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Too soon he was outside his English class, a large breath and he opened the door, keeping his eyes to his classmates as he walked in, he didn't want to perceive him as weak, Not that it mattered anyway. No one would even Dare to think about the Great and Wonderful Sasori Akasuna. Those made him feel kind of sick.
A slight movement had him looking to his right, his eyes locking instantly with Deidara's azures. He smiled and nodded at the redhead, a tentative smile, like he was afraid that Sasori would snap, honestly that made him feel bad. He smiled back and nodded before turning his gaze onto the teacher, Kurenai. He hated how she looked today, more then normal.
"Akasuna, would you please be kind enough to explain why your late?" Kurenai asked, her cold eyes narrowed as she watched the redhead, and Sasori realised just how quiet the classroom was right now, he words seemed to ring with known authority, but Sasori had to act like his normal self, so he wouldn't take any shit. Just like normal.
"None of your business Sensei, Im here now. That's all that matters, right?" He gave her his normal smirk, turning and walking up the middle isle, right up the top. He realised too late that he normally sat next to the Blackett, sliding his eyes forward he saw with some mare surprise that Pein had taken his seat, Itachi sitting behind him with Konan, how many eyes where on him? Raven black, Orange, Smokey grey purple eyes, And then azure, those one's seemed to pierce him the most as he sat down in the desks in front.
"Detention, Mr Akasuna" Shit, Sasori had forgotten about Kurenai, the awkward atmosphere was almost tangible when he breathed in, sure she sounded strong and teacher like, Not like it fazed Sasori either.
"Not like I'll go" Sasori replied, looking back at Kurenai, her lips where pursed and she screamed angry, Sasori smirked to himself and turned to look out the large window, watching the grey clouds move across the sky. It was pouring now, absolutely pouring.
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:Deidara's POV:
'Honestly, what was with Sasori today? He wouldn't look at me at all in English, Just continued to stare out the window, was he depressed? Sure he held my hand to the cafeteria, and let me kiss his cheek and such, but there's no Jokes, no flirting. Is Sasori OK?'
Deidara sighed as he internally ranted with himself, ignoring all the noise and chaos around him. At the table was his normal friends, Kitsu check, Pein check, Konan check, Itachi check, Sasuke check, Sasori. . . Sasori! Looking around Deidara suddenly noticed his redhead was missing, when had he left? And why hadn't Deidara noticed.
"Hey, Kitsu? Un" Deidara called over the noise of the cafeteria, rainy days made it louder then normal in here, In one way it was better, it meant that no one could listen to their conversations, like a rare few tried. And on the other hand it was annoying; he had to partly yell to be heard.
Thankfully she heard him, she had been idly picking at his food but quickly looked up "Yeah?" she called back, picking up some lettuce with her fingers and delicately eating it, her deep blues always keeping gaze with Deidara's azures.
"Where's Sasori? Un" he yelled, watching Kitsu as she turned her body around, also seeming to notice for the first time that the redhead was indeed missing.
"I don't know" She called back "Try calling him when schools finished" She added, before going back to eating her lettuce, 'like this conversation had never happened' he thought. Deidara continued to watch Kitsu for a while, she looked really deep in thought, but her eyes kept flicking from side to side, like she was nervous about something. Deidara shook that off, it was probly nothing.
Just then Hidan decided to walk by, followed closely by Kakuzu. Deidara expected him to call out something rude, something mean. But he didn't, in fact he kept his eyes straight forward. Soon he had completely walked past their table, turning while trying to make it look conspicuous he quickly spied Hidan sitting down at a secluded table, Hidan looked up his light purples meeting Deidara's azures. But unfortunately Deidara blinked, in that split second Hidan was looking down again, muttering something to Kakuzu who looked his way.
Deidara shivered and quickly turned around, trying to ignore the little voice in the back of his head who had noticed that Hidan looked at him with Guilt, Guilt.
And that left Deidara completely confused.
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