It's Still Complicated

by Yaoilover2873

A sequel to It's Complicated, Alec is back in uptown and is trying to get his life together by Magnus's side. He wants a job. he wants to be able to be with Magnus without judgmental stares and he wants to adopt a baby. With such a dark past will Alec be able to have all the things he wants? Or will his past drag him down?

14. Complicated Truth's

It's Still Complicated Chapter fourteen- Complicated Truth's.

Magnus Pov- Max watched in aw as the first snow of the season fell from the sky. He was sitting by the window watching it fall onto the street and cars going by.

I sat next to him and he looked at me with wide eyes. "Papa, white. White."

I nodded pulling him on my lap and wrapping my arms around him. "That's right Max. It's called snow. Christmas is coming up fast."

This will be our first Christmas with Max but it's also Alec's and my first Christmas together. First real Christmas anyway. Last year Alec was in rehab because of the drugs Valentine injected him with, so we didn't get to really celebrate.

Max didn't know what Christmas was so he wasn't too excited about it. That's to be expected though. Kids don't get excited for holidays at least until they're three.

I'm still stuck on what Christmas tradition we should have. When I decided I would give adopting Max a try, I told myself that we would have a family tradition for Christmas since my family never had any.

The thought of it sprouted an idea. "Alec what are you doing;" I called out to the kicthen. He was sitting at the kitchen table going through the list of people we had to get presents for this year.

"Just going over the list. I thought there would only be one or two people to send gifts too but we actually have a lot of friends. I also want to get Aline and Helen a present. Feel kind of bad for not keeping in touch with them as much as I should."

I nodded picking up Max and walking to the kitchen. "Go grab your coat. We're going out on the town."

Alec frowned at this. "What could we possibly have to do in town? You know I don't like going out more than necessary."

"We need to go out and find a family tradition that the three of us can have together. I want us to be like the families in the movies who always have fun things to do for Christmas."

Alec nodded "I know how important Christmas is to you since you never really got to celebrate it as a kid." He put his finger to his lip thinking before smiling.

"What if we had a tradition that involved staying inside?"

"Like what? There's nothing fun to do inside."

This made Alec roll his eyes as he stood up and took Max from me. "Let's go out and buy a tree. We will decorate it, put on pajamas, and then watch Christmas movies while drinking hot chocolate. Sound good?"

I didn't even have to think about it. That sounded absolutely perfect.

"I love it. Let's go get a tree right now!"

"Remember Magnus, we live in a flat so the tree can't be too big. Knowing you, you'll want the largest tree in the lot. We can't do that though so get the thought out of your brain."

Damn, Alec knew me too well. As he was saying that, I was trying to figure out how to put a skyline in the ceiling so we could fit the tree.

"Fine but don't expect me to get a wimpy Charlie Brown tree."

"How about we let Max pick out the tree as long as it's a reasonable size."

That excited me. Our son picking out the tree. It could be another yearly tradition!

"I love that idea Alexander. Let's get Max ready and head out."

Getting Max ready to go out was always Alec's job. That's not by my choice of course. I for one wouldn't mind getting my son ready to go out for a night on the town. Alec however, doesn't like the clothes I try to put him in.

I bought the cutest clothes for him that were all either fuzzy or full of sparkle. Alec says it's too flashy though and we don't want our son sticking out. That's just part of Alec's hate for having attention drawn to him. The less he has the better.

The fact that he even suggested we go out and get a tree was surprising. As he pointed out, he hates going into town and could have easily won me over with just the pajama's and movies. He's Alec though and likes to meet me half way. That's why he made the offer about the tree.

Once we were all ready I picked up Max and we left the flat in search for a Christmas tree. There was a lot in town that sold them at a pretty decent price. They were real but also had artificial ones as well. We don't know if Max is allergic to pine so we will have to make sure he's okay around it.

We got on the subway and I handed Max to Alec, letting him have a seat while I stood next to him, leaning on a window. There weren't enough seats for the three of us and Max gets antsy in the subway so it helps if he's sitting.

"We probably should have measured how high the ceiling is before leaving" Alec pointed out, thinking. I shrugged reaching down and grabbing one of Max's small hands. "I think Max will pick out the perfect tree. Won't you Max?"

Max looked up at me smiling saying "yeah papa."

My stomach fluttered with joy every time he called me that. It was still hard to believe that I was this boys dad. A few months ago I rejected him kicking and screaming. Now I can't imagine my life without him.

"Do you guys see that," a disgusted voice whispered from a across the way. I glanced back seeing a group of people our age staring at Alec and Max.

"Can you believe they actually gave that slut a baby? What is the world coming to these days," the voice from earlier asked.

The girl sitting next to him nodded, flinging her long blonde hair over her shoulder in a snooty fashion.

"That poor child would be better off anywhere else. He will be surrounded by drugs and sex all his life. Not the proper way for a child to grow up."

Another girl shrugged. "I doubt Magnus Bane would ever let that happen. Still, he can't babysit Alec all the time. I'm sure there are things he does behind Magnus's back. Can't trust anyone from downtown."

I clenched my fists not wanting to listen to their ridiculous words anymore. Why do people think it's okay to bring Alec down like that? It happens every time we go out, which is why it's so hard to convince Alec to go anywhere.

Glancing down at Alec, I could see he was holding Max close to his chest, shaking. Alec is always getting hurt and there's nothing I can do to stop it. I would curse everyone out but that's not what Alec wants. He just wants to be allowed to live his life.

Frowning, I got down on one knee and grabbed his hand, ignoring the fact that this subway floor was disgusting. Alec looked up at me, seeming surprised that I would risk getting my pants dirty.

"Don't listen to them Alexander. I know it's hard. They may be whispering but I know that to you, it feels like they are shouting. Nothing they said it true. You are a great guy and more than worthy to be with Max. Don't let anyone tell you you're not."

Alec looked into my eyes before looking down at Max who was looking up at him with wide, wondering eyes. Alec couldn't help but smile at our son and he placed a kiss on his cheek making Max giggle. I smiled happy that Alec was quick to recover and when our stop was announced I stood up. "let's go."

He nodded standing up and I put my arm around him, glaring at the gossipers as we walked by. They avoided eye contact with me, seeming embarrassed that I over heard them.

Once we were off the subway we climbed the stairs and we're immediately hit with the lights of time square. Max gasped looking around at all the bright colors before his attention was pulled to a huge tree all lit up in the middle of the square.

Alec seemed amazed as well. He hasn't seen New York all lit up in a few years. I'm pretty sure downtown never celebrated Christmas or any other holiday.

"What did you used to do for Christmas Alec" I asked, realizing that I've never asked him before.

He shrugged taking my hand while holding Max in his other arm. "It depends on what year it was. The first year I was working. You would be surprised how many customers come on Christmas… no pun intended."

I laughed at his horrible joke, pushing him slightly. "What was your second year like?"

He smiled slightly as he thought about it. "The second year I had enough money to at least have a small Christmas. I chose a tiny tree from a lot and decorated it with lights. Most of the lights didn't work but it was still perfect to me. I forced Sebastian to spend time with me that year but he was kicking and screaming while doing it. We attempted to make eggnog which turned out horrible since we were both pretty high. Most likely would have sucked even if we were sober. Anyway, we even exchanged gifts. Well, I gave him a gift. He gave me a really cool pocket watch but till the day he died, he refused to admit that he got it for me. Said he doesn't do gift giving and someone must have just left it under the tree. Totally believable I know" he said sarcastically.

When I first met Alec I would have never guessed that Sebastian Morgenstern was such an essential part of his life. He just seemed like the douchebag drug addict who was pushing Alec off the edge with him. He tried to get him to do meth for crying out loud!

All of Alec's stories of Downtown always evolve Sebastian somehow. He was important to Alec and I'm sure he wouldn't be alive today if it wasn't for him.

Alec has seen some messed up shit while Downtown but something tells me Sebastian shielded him away from the really bad stuff.

"That Christmas sounds amazing… besides the being high part. You couldn't have taken the holiday off?"

He shrugged "addicts don't really take days off from that kind of thing."

We got to the tree lot and Max's eyes widened as he took it all in. There were trees of every shape and size but to him, I'm sure they were all just huge.

"You ready to pick out a tree blueberry?"

Blueberry was a nickname I came up with after I walked in on Max having blueberry sauce smeared all over his face. It took hours to clean since it dyed his skin blue.

He didn't answer me. He was too busy looking around at everything. Alec smiled, kissing the top of his head before walking onto the lot. I followed looking around at the trees as well.

Already I spotted many trees that would be perfect for our home. They were really big though and most likely wouldn't fit in the flat.

Max reached out for a tree as Alec walked passed it. Noticing this, Alec backed up and stopped by the tree smiling at Max. It was a little bit taller than me but to Max I'm sure it was enormous.

"This one seems to be in good shape. It's not too tall and the limbs seem to be strong. The bristles don't seem to fall off too bad either" Alec observed, walking around the tree. I followed him looking over the tree closely. It was hard to believe we found the perfect one so quickly but this really was it.

I looked at Max smiling. "What do you say blueberry? Is this our first family tree?"

Max clapped his hands excitedly saying "yeah, yeah!"

"You made a good choice" a salesman complimented when he walked up to us. He had to be in his early sixties and it was shocking that he worked here at all. "This tree is perfect for small spaces. You seem like a couple who live in an apartment."

I couldn't tell if that was an insult or just an observation. "We live in a flat but it's still pretty small. This tree is the perfect size for it. How much?"

He shook his head smiling at us. "For you it's free."

Alec and I both looked at each other shocked before looking back at him. "That's not necessary sir. We can pay" Alec tried to reason but the old man just shook his head.

"No it's alright. Consider it a thank you for before."

We both were beyond confused now. It must have been all over our faces because the old man started to laugh at us.

Once his laughing was out of the way he smiled sweetly at Alec. I noticed it made Alec blush slightly. Not that I blame him. It's not every day Alec gets looked at like that. It's usually looks of disgust around here.

"You don't remember me do you," he asked looking directly at Alec. He shook his head no. "No… I'm sorry, I can't say I do."

I could see the wheels in Alec's head turning, going through all his older customers to see if he was one of them.

"I'm old" the man stated bluntly, catching our attention once again. "I'm old and I tend to wonder without realizing it. One day I stumbled downtown and got completely lost. I was terrified and didn't know what to do. I couldn't even ask for directions in fear of getting mugged."

That was understandable especially for an old man.

"I was about to give up hope when I was found by a nice young man with black hair and blue eyes. He asked me if I was okay and took me to a small food place down the road. It was clear that he had almost no money but he spent what little he did have to get me something warm to eat. Once I was calmed down he helped me find my way back uptown. I offered for him to walk home with me and I'd pay him for the help but he just brushed it off and went on his way. That guy was you Alec."

Alec seemed shocked but I wasn't. That sounded exactly like something he would do. I have no doubt that it was him.

The shock was replaced with clarity as Alec smiled. "Oh yes, I do remember that. I'm happy to see you are doing well."

"Not as happy I am to see you doing so well. This tree doesn't make up for all you did for me but I'm hoping it will be a good start."

Alec put up his hands shaking his head no. "please, the tree is plenty. You don't need to do anything else for me. I just did what any normal person would do."

He smiled at us before calling over a much younger man to come help with the tree. He was gorgeous with tan dark skin like mine, green eyes and a husky build. He wore plaid which made him look like a lumberjack.

A very sexy lumberjack.

Alec must have thought the same thing because he used his hand to fan his hot face, even though it was freezing outside.

I smirked at him teasingly making him roll his eyes and shove me slightly.

"This is my son Grant. Grant, this is Alec Lightwood, the boy who helped me when I was lost downtown."

Grant smiled and it was so white it was almost blinding. Both Alec and I squinted a little from it.

"It's a pleasure to finally meet you. My father and I went back downtown to find you in order to pay you back. We couldn't find you though so we had to give up. I'm so glad I finally get to say thank you."

He grabbed Alec's hand giving it a kiss and the speed Alec's face turned red was comical. It took everything I had not to laugh.

He let go of Alec's hand and smiled seeing Max. "Who is this little guy?"

"This is our son Max. We just adopted him a few months ago."

This excited Grant. "My husband and I are trying to adopt as well. May I hold him?"

The word husband made me feel disappointed. Alec felt the same way as his blush died down. It's not like either of us wanted to get together with him. It's just disappointing that someone managed to snatch such a fine man up.

Alec hesitated on letting him hold Max but to my surprise, he handed him over. Grant smiled happily at Max, cooing at him and tossing him gently up in the air making Max laugh.

We weren't the only ones fascinated by this man. Max seemed to like him as well. He clung onto his muscled arm and sadly, I felt a little jealous.

He was a natural with kids. If his husband was anything like him, they would make the perfect parents.

He handed Max back to us and the kid almost looked disappointed. I don't blame him. I wouldn't want to get out of his arms either.

"So you want this tree? I'll cut it down and strap it to my truck. It'll be at your place in less than an hour. Sound good?"

We both nodded and he flashed us one last smile before going to get the supplies he needs.

"Thank you for letting him hold your son. He and his husband have been having a lot of problems with the adoption process. Their case worker went missing and it's sent them far behind."

Alec stiffened at that and I frowned. "Sebastian Valrec was their case worker?"

He nodded "Did you know him?"

I nodded "yes he was our case worker as well. I'm surprised they are behind. We didn't fall behind when Sebastian went missing. In fact, the process went faster."

"Maybe they were in the beginning stages" Alec mumbled frowning.

The old man shook his head no. "They have been doing this for two years."

This shocked me. They have been trying to adopt for two years and they still haven't had a child? Alec and I got Max after a year. How could that be if people who have waited for two years haven't gotten through?

Maybe it was easier for us because of Max. Maybe because we had a child in mind, we skipped a bunch of steps?

"Well I hope it works out for them," I said grabbing Max from Alec. "We should get the flat ready for the tree."

The old man nodded and smiled, patting Alec on top of the head like he was a toddler. Compared to him, Alec pretty much was.

"It was great getting to see you again Alec. I never believed any of that stuff I read about you. Even if it is true, no one with a heart as big as yours could be bad."

Alec stared at him in silence not knowing what to say. I'm sure he was shocked by the compliment. No uptowners have shown him a shred of kindness since he got here. This must have been like a breath of fresh air for him.

I grabbed Alec's hand and thanked the old man once again before leading him out of the tree lot. He entwined our fingers as he stared off into space. I smiled slightly at him before losing the smile, thinking about grants adoption again.

When I think about it I get this tight feeling in my chest. Like if I dig too much into it, my whole world will come crashing down around me. I don't want the life Alec and I have made together to be taken away.

Not wanting to face the ignorant people of the subways again, I decided to get a taxi to drive us home. Alec complained about unnecessary expanses but when you're rich, who cares.

Then again, who knows how much longer I'll be rich. Portman pretty much trashed my fashion career. My store was gone and Fashion Week was out of the question. I'm going to have to find another job before I run out of money.

I rather be poor than sit by and watch someone harass the man I love.

To our surprise the moment we got home, Grant pulled up in his truck with the tree strapped on the back. He had a couple people with him to help him bring it inside.

It fit perfect by the window and he even gave us a box of lights to put on it. Alec tried to pay for them but of course, they were once again given to us for free.

"Come by the lot sometime you two. My husband and I would love to have dinner with you sometime."

I nodded loving the invitation. I have been dying to go out and have dinner with someone for forever but Alec never liked it. He seemed to like Grant though so maybe I could convince him to do it.

"Thanks for everything you've done tonight Grant" I said walking him and his friends to the door. He smiled at me, "no need to thank me. It's the least I can do for the guy who helped my father. I honestly can't repay you enough Alec."

Alec just waved his hand in a dismissive manner. "It's in the past. We are all even now. No more talk of debt."

Grant smiled one last time before leaving with the others. We watched him leave before Alec broke away from me and started untangling the lights in the box.

I smirked at him, thinking it would be fun to tease him a little bit.

"So… Grant was handsome."

"Was he," Alec asked dismissingly.

"Oh yes definitely. I'm pretty sure you were blushing over him" I teased, picking Max up off the floor.

He scoffed at my accusation but was blushing dark red. "I was not. Why would I be interested in someone like him? Muscles and a firm body? Ew gross."

That made me laugh and shake my head at him. "Well as long as you don't leave me to go running off with him."

Alec looked at me smiling slightly. "I will never leave you for anyone. Though if you asked me if I wanted to have a three-way with him I wouldn't have objected."

Now I was busting out laughing. "There's the downtown Alec I fell in love with. I never knew you were into that kind of thing."

Alec shoved the box of lights into my arms before taking Max. "Stop laughing and help me put these lights on the tree. I checked the TV guide and there is a Christmas special marathon on in an hour."

"Oh perfect. That gives us just enough time to decorate our tree. Do you want to see the tree all lit up Max?"

Max nodded excitedly, clapping his hands in delight. I kissed his cheek before getting started putting the lights on the tree. It was surprisingly hard to do by myself. Alec ended up having to put Max down and help me.

Once they were all on the tree I plugged them in and Max cried out in delight, standing up and walking up to the tree. He clapped his hands and bounced on his chubby legs smiling up at Alec and I.

"I take it you like them" I asked looking over the alternating colors. Max giggled in response and Alec grabbed the remote, turning on to TV.

"You go get Max in his pajamas. I'll get the hot chocolate ready."

Alec may have been a horrible cook but he made amazing hot chocolate.

"Sounds like a plan" I agreed, leaning in giving him a sweet kiss before picking up our son and taking him to his room to change.

I changed his diaper before picking out a pair of fuzzy pajamas that had a husky printed on it. He really liked wolfish dogs.

"Make sure to grab woofy so he can watch the movies with us" I said as I changed him into his PJ's. After I was finished, he ran over to his toddler bed and grabbed woofy by the paw, dragging him on the floor as he ran back over to me to grab my hand.

I grabbed his tiny hand before making our way back to the living room. Alec was still in the kitchen making the drinks so I scooped up Max and sat on the couch with him.

The beginning jingle of Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer started and Max's eyes widened almost more than they did with the tree.

I always wanted to watch these kind of shows with my parents but they were always too busy. Instead, I would watch them in my room, in the dark and all curled up in my blanket.

Rudolph was suddenly cut off making Max whine slightly. I rubbed his head glaring at the breaking news report that showed up on the screen.

"Seriously? This is New York. What could have possibly happened that was important enough to cut off Christmas?"

A anchor woman held up some papers to read over. I had to roll my eyes at this. If they aren't even going to bother to put it on a teleprompter then why report it?

"Breaking news in a recent case here in New York City. A body was found deep in the woods."

Footage of police surrounding a deep hole appeared on screen and they were using a drape to pull a body out of it.

"The body has been evaluated and the police believe it could possibly belong to a missing person by the name of Sebastian Valrec."

That name made me stiffen in terror. Sebastian Valrec? No that can't be true. Sure, he went missing but he can't have been killed.

A small voice in the back of my head whispered "you knew all along he was dead. You know who killed him."

I shook my head of those thoughts, not wanting to except it. That voice was wrong. There was no way Alec would… he had no reason to.

The sound of crashing pulled me out of my head and I quickly turned around. Alec stood there with wide eyes, three mugs of hot chocolate now spilled and broken at his feet.

His entire body shook as he looked at the TV screen. The footage of a body being pulled out of a hole with Sebastian's picture next to it were showing.

I looked back at the TV before looking at Alec once again. The guilt was plain on his face.

That body belonged to Sebastian Valrec.

A worst thought came to mind but it couldn't be ignored any longer. I could see the truth in his terrified eyes.

Sebastian Valrec was murdered.

Alec was the one who killed him.

Alec Pov- My entire world was spinning. Everything was going so good a few moments ago but came crashing down in seconds.

Sebastian was found. The police found his body and I'm sure my DNA is all over him. They were going to find out I killed him. My happy life with Magnus and Max was over.

The thought of Magnus made me snap out of my shock and look at him. He was now standing in front of me, a serious look on his face.

I opened my mouth to speak but nothing came out. What was I going to say? What could I say? I'm sure it's written all over my face that I'm guilty. He will put the puzzle pieces together and will take Max away.

Magnus was going to leave me and there was nothing I could do about it. I couldn't even bring myself to beg him not to go.

This was supposed to be a fun night where we make a family tradition. Now it's going to be my last happy memory with my family.

Magnus moved away from me, grabbing my cellphone off the coffee table. I watched confused as he went into our bedroom, closing the door behind him.

Max started to cry and I quickly ran up to him scooping him in my arms and rocking him gently.

"It's okay Max. Everything is going to be okay."

Max kept crying, not trusting my words. Hell, I didn't even trust my own words. I had no guarantee that everything was going to be okay. For all I knew, Magnus's could be calling the police to come take me away and this could be the last time I ever hold my son.

With that horrifying thought in mind, I held Max as tight as possible without hurting him.

This is just crazy. Magnus would never call the police on me. At least, I would like to think he wouldn't. What if he does? What if this was the last straw and I ruined my life for good this time?

Max eventually stopped crying but Magnus wasn't coming out of the room. An hour passed and he was still locked up in there with my cellphone.

I wanted to knock on the door and ask him to talk to me but couldn't find the words. What do you say when you murder your case worker in cold blood and then hide it for months.

Damn it! I promised Magnus that there weren't anymore secrets between us. Why didn't I tell him when I had the chance?

The bedroom door opened and Magnus came out carrying packed suitcases. Panicking I ran up to him and flung my arms around his neck, hiding my face in his chest.

"Magnus I'm sorry! Please don't leave me! I know I did something unforgivable but it was for a good reason! We would have never been able to be happy as long as he lived! I can explain everything if you just give me the chance!"

Magnus silently untangled my arms from around his neck before handing me the suitcases.

"I packed all your stuff but you might want to make sure I didn't forget anything. I couldn't pack all my stuff at short notice so it took me a while to figure out what I wanted to take. Can you see if there is anything else we need while I go pack Max's stuff."

I looked down at the suitcases before looking up at him confused. "Magnus I don't understand. Aren't you leaving me?"

"We have ten minutes before the car gets here" was all he said before going to Max's room.

I was beyond confused now. What car was coming? Where were we going?

Max looked up at me from the floor, also seeming confused. I picked him up before searching the house for things we might want to take with us.

Magnus got all of Max's things ready and picked them up along with our bags.

"Does Max have woofy?"

I nodded finishing putting Max's coat on him before handing him his stuffed wolf.

Magnus got one last look at the Christmas tree, frowning at it before pulling out the plug and turning off the lights. He walked out of the flat and I followed him, not knowing what else to do.

We got outside and sure enough, a black car was waiting for us. It was one of Raphael's cars.

I looked up at Magnus shocked. "You called Raphael?"

He nodded handing our bags to the driver before opening the back door for me. "I don't have the power to protect you from this Alec. Raphael does. He says he's going to help us."

"Magnus I don't understand. Why aren't you yelling at me? Why aren't you demanding an explanation?"

He frowned at my question. "I'm still processing all this Alec. Please just get in the car. The faster we get Raphael's help, the better."

I frowned but nodded, handing Max to him before getting in the car. Magnus put him in a car seat that was inside before getting in the car as well.

The drive to downtown was deadly silent. I wanted to ask Magnus questions but he said he needed time to process everything. The least I can do is stay quiet and let him do that.

"Why did you do it" he finally asked, his face turned away from me. He was looking out the window and I could see his sad expression in his reflection. It makes my heart break knowing I hurt him.

I looked down at my hands in my lap, clenching and unclenching them nervously.

"I remembered that Sebastian Valrec was the man who raped me."

Magnus's head turned toward me so fast, it would have been funny in any other situation. There was nothing humorous about this.

"What do you mean? When did you find this out?"

I rubbed my arm frowning. "It was the day we had our playdate with Max. You left to take a call and he said something similar to what the guy who raped me said. I confronted him about it and he admitted to it. He said that I didn't deserve to be happy and that as long as he was around we would never get Max."

Magnus stared at me for a moment before asking "So you killed him to get Max?"

"No! Well… it didn't start out that way. I didn't know what to do so I asked Raphael for help. I know you told me to stay away from him but I was desperate. We arranged a dinner with Sebastian and I drugged him, took him to the woods, and tried to scare him into giving me what I wanted. It all got out of control and I ended up shooting him."

"Why didn't you come to me? Why am I always the last person to know when something is hurting you? You didn't tell me about Portman, you didn't tell me right away that the drugs I found in your jeans were Jems, and now this stuff with Sebastian is going on. I know I've done a lot to make you not trust me but… but I thought I gained your trust back."

"Magnus I do trust you. I trust you more than anyone else in the world. I was just trying to keep you from all my drama."

Magnus frowned at me before looking ahead at Max, who fell asleep in the car seat.

"Your drama is my drama Alec. We are supposed to carry each other's weight. If this relationship is going to work then we need to rely on each other. I love you. Don't you love me?"

"Of course I love you!"

"Then act like it. Swear to me that from this moment onward there will be no secrets between us. Swear that we will always go to each other for help before anyone else. Promise me Alec."

I grabbed his hand clenching it tight. "I swear it on my life Magnus. It's you, me and Max. We are a team and always will be."

The car stopped and the driver announced we were at Raphael's. Magnus closed his eyes, taking a deep breath before leaning over and kissing me on the cheek.

"Let's go" he said before getting out of the car. I took a couple breaths as well before getting Max out of the car seat and getting out of the car too.

Magnus and I held hands as we made our way down the hallway. People glanced at us as we walked by but they didn't talk to us or bow to me like before. Raphael must have informed them to leave us alone.

"I've never been here before. I'm not going to see any dead bodies am I?"

This made me roll my eyes but felt relieved that he was already making jokes. Even if they were bad ones.

"No Magnus, you won't find any dead bodies here… I think."

"Don't even joke like that Alec" he groaned, making me smile slightly.

We walked in Raphael's office and he was sitting on his desk with a briefcase lying next to him.

"I was surprised to get a call from you Magnus. Especially from Alec's phone."

I walked up to his desk frowning. "I'm sure you've seen the news by now. They found Sebastian's body. I'm sure they found the gun too. It has my finger prints all over it."

Raphael nodded getting off his desk and pulling the suitcase closer. "It's alright though because I've been preparing for this day just incase. You have nothing to worry about Alec."

He pulled out a couple cards and held them out to us. Magnus and I each took one and I was shocked to see my picture on it but not my name. Instead it had the name 'Alan Fox.'

I looked over at the one Magnus was holding, seeing it said 'Miguel Fox.'

"What are these" I asked confused.

Raphael smiled pulling out some paper work and birth certificates. "These are going to be your new personas. Consider it to be like the witness protection program. You're going to leave New York and start new lives somewhere else."

I was shocked but Magnus didn't seemed surprised. He and Raphael had this conversation over the phone.

I looked over the ID's again before turning to Magnus. "Do you really want to do this? Our whole lives are here."

He nodded. "Alec you aren't happy here in New York. No one will know who we are outside of this city. Our parents names don't reach out that far. We can go somewhere new and start over again. You can get a job and make new friends. You can have a real life."

"Can we really do this? Police are going to be looking for me. We will have to keep running away when even a little bit of suspicion comes our way. Can you live like that? Can we really let Max live like that?"

Magnus put his hands on my shoulders looking deep in my eyes. His face was completely serious as he said "I swore that I would be with you no matter what. We will keep Max safe and give him as much of a normal life as possible. We can do this Alec. I can't live a life without you."

I smiled slightly "I can't live my life without you either."

He smiled and held up a piece of paper "this here is the marriage certificate of Alan and Miguel. In our new lives we will technically be married."

I took the certificate smiling slightly. The thought of being married to Magnus was amazing. That's the thing though. I wanted to be married to Magnus.

As if reading my mind Magnus held up another paper. "We are going to give up our lives in a few minutes. I'm okay with doing that. However, I want the last thing I do as Magnus Bane, to be marrying the man of my dreams. That's you Alexander Lightwood."

His words made tears form in my eyes. I thought Magnus was going to leave me but instead he was standing here wanting to marry me.

"Really? You really want to marry me? Even with all the problems we have together?"

He shrugged smiling. "Those problems are what makes us, us. We have both made mistakes but I think they will make us stronger going forward. I want to say that I'm married to Alec Lightwood. Even if we are the only ones who know it."

I smiled putting down the paper and grabbing both of his hands. "I want that too. I want to be married to you Magnus."

Raphael smiled looking between us. "I'm actually qualified to perform the ceremony. We can do it right now if you want. It would have to be soon. The quicker you leave New York, the better."

Magnus nodded looking over at Max who was in Simons arms. "Let's become a real family."

A/N: I feel like this chapter was all over the place but I always think that so it's nothing new. I said there were two more chapters left but I might have to add one more. I don't know for sure.

I got started writing the new story that will take the place of this one and I have to say I'm really excited about it. It's happy for once! (There will be drama of course though because, well come on. You all know me by now. I can't help myself)

Details of the next story will be announced in the final chapter before the eqilogue.