I know you probably hate me by now for dangling you for so long. And I apologize from the bottom of my heart. But at long last I'm back and I shall be writing like mad this summer. In addition to this series I shall be writing two other stories. What are these amazing stories about? You decide. THERE'S A POLL on my main page so you should vote and tell me what to write. Again I'm so sorry about the wait but I promise to make it up to you with lots of yummies in this story and whatever you choose.

Find Your Wings

Chapter 14: What I Do Best

Zero met Kaname in the Student Council office Thursday after school. "Can you wait here for a few minutes. I've got to clear so things up." Kaname said as he grabbed a thick folder.

"Sure things." Zero took a seat in Kaname's vacated seat.

Kaname smiled to himself as he left his office. He was a little angry he had to attend to this business now. Takuma and the others were sitting in the meeting room when Kaname arrived. His aura was slightly dark as he just wanted to go home with Zero.

Zero sat in Kaname's office spinning in the chair. He was a little nervous about going home with Kaname. The hadn't spoken much since Zero had given him a blowjob and he was nervous. But if everything went down hill from here he could at least be happy that he had had a chance with Kaname. As Zero stared at the ceiling he felt his throat tingle it felt as if he'd swallowed a mouth full of hot sauce. Sitting up Zero tried to keep his heart from racing, he wasn't too sure what was wrong with him… he hoped Kaname would come back soon so he could ask.

A half hour later Kaname stormed in. "Sorry to keep you waiting." Kaname looked at Zero. His lilac eyes were tinged red.

"Kaname something's wrong with me." Zero said with wide eyes.

"You're thirsty that's all." Kaname smiled.

"No, I'm… my throat." Zero's face was painted with fear as he rubbed his throat.

"Yes you're hungry Zero. I'll feed you when we get to my house."

"Are you sure… I think I might be dying."

Kaname chuckled. "No Zero you're not dying. Come on. My car is waiting." Kaname grabbed Zero's wrist and tugged him out of the school. Zero was going down hill fast. He was being tugged like a rag doll and his mind was going hazy he smelled Kaname and he wanted to touch the Pureblood he wanted the Pureblood now.

They got into the back of the black car and Zero stared at Kaname. "Are you alright?"

"You smell really good." Zero said in a velvety voice. "I want to taste you." Zero moved closer to Kaname on the back seat.

"You're just really hungry."

"No… it's not your blood… it's you Kaname." Zero leaned in and licked Kaname's neck. "You taste as good as you smell." Zero purred. Kaname bit his lip to try and keep himself in control.

"Zero quit it."

"But Kaname… " Zero looked the Pureblood in the eye. "I really like you. Can I please lick you again?"

"Don't ask such a stupid question." Kaname swallowed hard.

Zero leaned in and licked Kaname again. The Pureblood flinched away. Zero frowned and looked at Kaname. "Do I disgust you?"

"Why would you ask that?"

"Because of what I am… does it disgust you that I've been with so many men?" Zero cocked his head to the side.

"Zero don't be ridicules." Kaname huffed. He knew it wasn't really an answer but he was unsure if Zero was himself right now and if he would remember this once he had fed.

"That didn't answer my question."

"Can we discus this later?"

"Fine." Zero crossed his arms and moved away from Kaname so he could look out the window.

Kaname looked at Zero. The ex-human stared out the window, ignoring Kaname. The Pureblood sigh to himself as he watched Zero. He knew he had offended Zero but he didn't want to talk about it right now he wanted Zero to be himself completely when he told Zero he didn't care.

They pulled up to the Kuran mansion a few minutes later. Kaname got out of the car first and tugged Zero after him. Zero was still like a rag doll in Kaname's hands. He lead the silverette up to his room and sat Zero on the bed. "Let me change first. Then you can feed." Kaname walked into his closet and changed into comfy house clothes.

When he walked back out Zero was laying shirtless on the bed grabbing at his chest. "Zero… what's wrong?" Kaname knelt next to the boy.

"My chest burns to… Kaname help me please." he whimpered.

"Sit up so you can drink." Kaname positioned himself so that Zero would be able to feed easily.

"Thank you." Zero kissed up and down Kaname's neck before he found the most sensitive spot. His fangs were already extended and he sank them slowly in. Kaname's eyes fluttered shut and he bit back a moan. Zero moved closer and pressed himself against Kaname. He drank slowly and moved his fangs slowly in and out of the wound. Kaname moaned.

Zero's eyes shot open as Kaname wrapped his arms around Zero and pulled him into his lap. Zero relaxed slowly and clung to Kaname as he felt himself being aroused by the taste of the pure vampire blood. Kaname was breathing hard and his cheeks were flushed. He had rarely shared blood and he wasn't sure what Zero was doing to him but it was turning him on he wanted to pin Zero to the bed and ravage him.

The thought seeped into Zero through blood and the Hunter closed his eyes. I knew there would be a price. At least I get what I've always wanted. Zero thought as he let his hands start to wander over Kaname. The Pureblood was still focusing on Zero's fangs moving in and out of him that he didn't realize that Zero was moving till a cool hand wrapped around his throbbing erection. Kaname's eyes shot open as Zero pulled his fangs out and licked the wound until it closed.

"Zero what are you doing?"

"You want it… blood doesn't lie." Zero said as he pulled Kaname's shirt off. The Pureblood blushed deeply. He had forgotten that thoughts could move through blood. And he knew he couldn't lie to Zero so he decided to let Zero do as he pleased.

Zero felt Kaname relax under him and he looked up into Kaname's glazed eyes. A small pang of pain shot through his heart. It was always sex. Every time he thought he had something more they were simply using him for sex. I can deal with this for now… as long as I'm close to Kaname I really don't care how he wants to use me. Zero leaned in and brushed his lips across Kaname's before he pushed the Pureblood down so he could take off the loose linen pants. "Lift your hips." Zero said. Kaname complied.

Zero finished stripping himself and climbed on the bed with Kaname. The ex- human straddled Kaname's hips. The Pureblood stared hazily up at Zero. He snapped into a moment of clarity when Zero readied himself to slide unprepared onto Kaname's dick. "Wait! Zero! You shouldn't do this!"

"But Kaname… it's what I do best. Besides… you want this." Zero didn't give Kaname a chance to object, it would just hurt more if Kaname backed out now, so Zero slid slowly onto Kaname's erection. He was unprepared but it wasn't an uncomfortable feeling. Zero's body thrilled at the mixture of pain and pleasure.

Kaname threw his head back and moaned loudly. Taking this as a good sign Zero started riding Kaname. He wanted to go slow but he was close to coming and Zero was unsure if Kaname wanted that or not so Zero controlled himself as best he could and made every attempt to make Kaname come first.

The Pureblood was in a fit of lust and bliss. He was slightly light headed from having his blood drank and Zero felt so amazing that he could barely contain himself. Kaname looked up at Zero and the look on the silverette face was so Sexy that Kaname gripped Zero's hips and thrust up as Zero sank down. A gasp of pleasure slipped from Zero's lips along with Kaname's name. The Pureblood couldn't contain himself any longer and he released inside of Zero. As his body was wracked with shivers of pleasure his mind blacked out from lack of blood and pleasure.

Zero felt Kaname release and he didn't care if Kaname wanted him to come or not. He released all over Kaname's chest and stomach. Zero leaned over Kaname and caught his breath. That was when he realized the Pureblood was limp under him. "Uh… Kaname?" there was no answer.

Feeling awkward and ashamed Zero got off Kaname and pulled his clothes on before walking to the bathroom where he got a wash cloth and cleaned Kaname off before he tucked him in. Zero stood by the bed for a few minutes and watched Kaname's still face. "I guess I did something wrong… " Zero leaned close to Kaname. "I'm sorry." He kissed Kaname lightly before leaving.

As he was about to walk out the front door a servant asked if Zero needed a ride home. He politely declined since he didn't want to annoy anyone. The evening air was chill as Zero walked toward his apartment which was on the other side of town. He didn't mind the exercise it helped clear his mind.

And right now he wanted a clear mind since all he could think about was how Kaname was just going to use him. He clearly had no interest in Zero except sex and his bargaining tool was blood. Zero sigh and looked up at the darkening sky. "For once I wish it was different."

When the ex-human finally made it back to his flat the sky was dark and he still had homework to do. Sitting down Zero opened his phone and was about to call Isaya but thought better of it. He didn't want to burden him what was going through his head right now. So he sat in his silent flat and let dark thoughts consume him.

Kaname woke up to a room that was growing dark. He sat bolt upright and looked around. There was no sign or smell of Zero. "I guess he left… " Kaname let his head sink into his hands. "Fuck. Now he must really think I'm a flake. I fucking passed out!" Kaname shook his head.

He hadn't wanted his first time with Zero to be like that. He had always imagined something more… loving. A night spent together after a date. He had run the scene through his mind a thousand and one times. He had also planned how he would confess to Zero. But now all those ideas fell away as none of them would work. He had shared his blood and body with Zero. An innocent, touching confession would never be enough.

Kaname's heart was torn. It wasn't that he hadn't wanted it, he had craved it so much that he'd let himself slip and Zero took it at face value and followed through. Kaname had loved every second of it but he wasn't sure if Zero had… he wasn't even sure if Zero had came. For the first time in many years Kaname's head was spinning with questions he couldn't answer. "Zero… what do you really think of me?"

Zero left ate for school and timed it so that he would arrive to class just as the bell rang. He didn't want to see Kaname and he didn't want Shiki to talk to him. He simply wanted to get through the day and get on with life. He was sure that Kaname wouldn't talk to him till next week when he would have to feed again. Although it was depressing Zero looked forward to it. He would be close to Kaname. He would be able to be with Kaname. Even if the Pureblood only wanted his body Zero would give it willingly, he loved Kaname with all his heart and if he could spend a few short hours with him each week he would.

When the final bell rang Shiki tried to corner Zero but he dodged the vampire and practically ran off school grounds. He wasn't sure if Ichiru was still angry with him or not but he headed toward the café anyway.

Walking through the door he was greeted by a smiling Ichiru. "Mind giving me a hand with this?" he asked holding up a tray of muffins.

Zero sigh. This was how it always was. Ichiru would never apologize after a fight. He would simply move on as if nothing had happened. Zero walked over and started putting the muffins on display.

The day was growing dark when the door opened and Kaname came in. Zero blushed and was about to go into the back when Kaname called his name. Stopping he turned to face the Pureblood and kept his face neutral. "Hi Kaname. What can I get you?"

"Nothing. I came to see you." Kaname leaned on the counter and looked at Zero. "We still haven't talked."

"What's there to talk about? You gave me blood I gave you sex." Zero looked at the counter.

"Zero… I,"

"Oh your friend's here!" Ichiru butted into the conversation as he walked out of the kitchen. Kaname stood straight and felt a little awkward as he was about to confess and ask Zero out.

"Yeah. What do you want Ich?"

"I'm going to close up… so if you want to head home that's cool." Ichiru beamed at Kaname. "You could walk Zero home."

"I think I will." Kaname smiled.

"Alright then. Off you go Zero. I'll see you tomorrow."

"Fine." He was unsure if he really wanted Kaname following him home. "See you tomorrow Ichiru."

"Bye! Oh and by the way you should come over for dinner soon. We all miss you!"

"Yeah… right." Zero stormed out of the café with Kaname in tow.

"Do you dislike your aunt and uncle?" Kaname had easily picked up on the hostility.

"It doesn't matter." Zero sigh. He really didn't want Kaname to know.

"You can talk me Zero… I'd like to know more about you." Kaname choose his words carefully.

"You don't want to know this though." Zero looked sideways at the brunette.

"Alright… well if you ever want to talk I'll be here."

"Thanks." Zero was touched. No one had ever offered to listen to his problems but he didn't know how to take it from Kaname. After all they had had sex yesterday and Zero still wasn't 100% on where they stood.

The two walked in silence till they reached Zero's door. He pulled out the key and unlocked the door. He turned to Kaname. "Thanks for walking with me. Would you like to come in for a coffee?"

"Sure." Kaname walked inside. "Zero, I actually," He was cut off by the ringing of his phone. He picked it up and was dismayed to hear Rido demanding he come home as there was urgent business that need to be taken care of. Kaname hung up. "I'm sorry. I actually have to get home right now. There's business I need to attend to."

"Oh. I understand." Zero blushed slightly. He wanted to know what Kaname had been about to say. "I guess I'll see you tomorrow then."

"Yeah… Good night Zero" And Kaname left. When he arrived home he was in a bad mood. He had once again been about to ask Zero out and was interrupted. And he had lost his nerve. He burst into Rido's study. "Damn you Rido! Could you not have waited another five minutes."

"What would five minutes have done?" He asked innocently.

"I would have had a boyfriend!" Kaname fumed.

"So you were with Zero. I apologize then."

"You don't give a damn." Kaname's aura was murderous and Rido feared he would be injured.

"If you let me know when you're with Zero I won't interrupt."

"Great. That's totally helpful right now." Kaname said sarcastically.

"Well I thought that you'd want to attend to this instead of your boy toy." Rido said.

"He is not a toy to me!" Kaname shouted. "Give me the papers. I'll work on them in my office." he snatched the offered papers and went to his office. He planned on locking himself away for the night,

After Kaname left Zero stood in his entry way for a few minutes before moving off to change. His mood had been crushed with Kaname's departure so he thought he might as well get some money out of the night. Homework could wait a few hours. As he walked toward the fountain he put up the walls he would need to get through the night.

Zero arrived home after midnight. He showered and finished homework before crawling into bed. He lay there staring at the ceiling feeling utterly used. "I wish you'd love me Kaname… I want you to love me. I've looked for you for so many years… " Tears streamed down Zero's cheeks. "Please Kaname… just love me."