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My heart is pounding a thousand times a minute, my chest is heaving up and down, and I have no idea what time it is or what's happening. Alex is crawling up my body from under the sheets, raking her nails on my skin. No words are coming out of my mouth and I don't think they will for a few minutes. She is peppering my body with small kisses, but it's hard to register through my mind. I swear this is like being high. Complete and utter euphoria. It's like ecstasy is coursing through my veins. My throat is dry from screaming and moaning so much, usually I could control how loud I was, but with Alex, I can't. It's impossible.

She's hovering my body, propped up on her elbows, and is running her lips on my neck. I feel them moving so I think she's talking, but I don't hear any of it. The things this woman just did to me is unbelievable. The way her tongue, lips, and hands work together in perfect harmony makes her like some type of sex goddess. Everything about her reeks sex appeal and I just experienced the full effect.

The sound of her voice registering in my head tore me away from my sex induced trance.

"You okay there, kid" she picks her head up from my neck and I feel her move a strand of my hair behind my ear. She's caressing my cheek and I lean into her warm, soft touch

"Mhm" is all I manage to get out. I open my eyes and I'm met with Alex looking down at me with a sincere smile full of adoration. This switch from downright dirty to sweet amazes me and it only makes me fall harder for her.

She laughs before planting a chaste kiss on my lips and I wrap my arms around her neck pulling her on me. Our bodies are pressed up against each other and it brings a smile to my face with how perfectly we fit together.

Alex groans against my lips when she falls on my body. She slides more to the side of me to get into a more comfortable position where she is still able to look at me.

"Pipes, are you sure you're okay?" she asks again with a more concern tone

I lift my head up and kiss her again. I pull down on the back of her neck making it clear that everything is more than okay. When we break apart after what feels like a minute I finally make words, "Alex, I just endured a 5 minute orgasm and it's taking me who knows how long to come completely down from that. You were…. I just need a moment to gather myself"

"You lasted a lot longer than I thought you would, but I'm glad you could keep up and enjoyed it as much as I did"

"Oh, I did more than enjoy it, Al"

"How are you feeling"

"I still can't move that much. I haven't regained that ability quite yet" I chuckle, "You're like a drug. The best kind even. I can't get enough of you even when my body is telling me I am. You make me feel like I'm high. So, I'm feeling very good" I ensure her

"Jeez, kid. I knew I was good, but I didn't realize I should be worshipped like a god"

"Goddess. But I'm just saying what I'm feeling. And you do look like a goddess, a very beautiful one in fact."

"Beautiful, huh? I don't really get called that"

"You are" I say simply

"Thanks, kid"

I stroke her cheek with the pad of my thumb, "What time is it?"

She shakes her head, "Way to dampen the mood"

"I have no sense of time anymore okay. I still don't think my legs work and if they did, they would probably ache. I have just now been able to speak and have coherent thoughts. This was from your own doing"

"Good, that was the plan" she smirks

I close my eyes and blush before placing my hand on her side, tracing up and down her body, "Seriously, what time is it"

She leans over me to check the time on the nightstand and I instinctively drop my gaze to her breasts and grab her waist pulling her back down on me so I can kiss her chest and neck

"Mmm, that feels good, pipes"

"Time"

"4am"

"Perfect" I push her hips to the side making her fall off me

"Ugh, why is that perfect?" she reaches out running her fingertips on my arm before rubbing the top of my hand

"I want to show you something"

"You want to show me something at four in the morning? You're joking right" she laughs

"Pleaseee" I make puppy eyes and squeeze her hand

She climbs over my body again and kisses my cheek, "Fine, but I'm not getting dressed. I prefer you in as little clothing as possible"

I giggle like a child, "thank you"

"Sure, princess"

I kiss her properly on the lips, "I'll let you role play with that later since you're doing this"

"Mmm, I like the sound of that" she swipes her tongue on my bottom lip before sliding it into my mouth

A few minutes of our tongues in each other's throats pass by until I remember what I wanted to show her

"Alex" I get out before her mouth covers mine again

"just a couple more minutes" she dips her head under my jaw and her mouth latches onto my neck causing me to release a low moan

"Al, please" I gasp as her lips suck on my neck, pulling the skin into her mouth with her teeth

"No, I'm not done with you"

"I will refuse to have sex with you"

She bites down again causing me to yelp and I know that it's going to leave a dark mark

"No you won't" she responds

I push her off me and straddle her hips, pinning her arms against the bed. I lean down and hover my lips over hers, barely any space between them, "Watch me" I whisper before I gracefully get off the bed.

I get to my dresser where I grab a white Smith pull over and grey Nike sweatpants. I find thick fuzzy socks and put them on my feet before looking back at Alex who is now leaning against the back board, nearly wincing as she watches me put on the clothes. I saunter over the edge of the bed and take her hand in mine

"You may want to reconsider the 'no clothes' thing, it's cold outside" a cheeky smile plastered on my face

"We're going outside?" her voice hoarse and laced with confusion

"Yes, but trust me, you'll like it"

Her eyes fall down over my body as she speaks "I was liking what we were doing before you put on clothes"

I tilt my head before climbing into her lap and resting my hands on her shoulders. I play with her dark hair, looking directly at her bright green eyes. Her arms are wrapped around my waist pulling me closer

"You're insatiable, you do know that right?"

"I've been told"

"Please come with me" I peck her lips hoping it will convince her

"Are those words open to interpretation because I'd prefe—" I cut off her smug remark with a searing kiss. My hands tangle in her hair while her grip tightens around me

I end the kiss and look at her again. I run my thumb over her lips and then along her cheek bone, "They aren't open to interpretation, but I would really love it if you joined me outside"

She breathes out and her head falls against the headboard, a small smile forming on her lips, "You're lucky you're hot"

I laugh lightly, "I know" I climb off her and make my way back to my dresser where I get out a black zip up jacket, a pair of black sweatpants that are too big for me, and a pair of fuzzy socks.

I throw the clothes at her, "Here, hurry up"

"So now I'm getting rushed?" she swings her legs over the side and stands up. She only has on underwear and it's incredibly hard not to stare at her body. I don't try very hard as my eyes wander along her body, memorizing every detail.

I watch as she steps into the pants and slowly brings them up her never-ending legs. She slowly zips up the jacket, by gaze following her hands as more of her milky white skin is covered

"My eyes are up here" she drawls out

I scan her now covered body over one last time, taken back by how incredibly good she looks in attire that is normally not considered flattering. I reach her face that is contrasting so perfectly with the darkness of her hair and the jacket.

I break out into a blinding smile, not fazed by being caught, "I'm aware"

The socks are now on her feet and she saunters over to me, sitting on the edge of the bed, "You mind telling me where exactly we're going"

I pull at her hand so she stands back to her feet, "The roof" is all I say before pulling her out the bedroom and down the hall to the staircase

"You have your own private rooftop?"

We reach the top of the stairs and I open the door revealing my cozy modern patio-like rooftop. When you walk through the door, the black railing on top of solid yellow-brown brick curb is surrounding you. The brick is low maybe two feet high. The black railing is gapped, not blocking the view. A couch with dark brown base and legs with a dark red bottom cushion is against the brick to the left. There is no back to the couch, but there are throw pillows lining the back. Another couch of the same design is next to the other but it's straight ahead, the back against the curb. Small square tables are set on the sides of the couches as well as a longer table in front of the couch on the left, matching the dark wood of the couches. To the right is a black fire pit surrounded by comfortable looking circular lounge chairs and love seats.

The deck is a dark red-brown wood. String lights drape across the whole area, coming from one pole in the back-left corner between the couches. The aesthetic of this place is relaxing and oozes rustic elegance. The view is the best; Living in the middle of Manhattan has its perks. The city brightly illuminates the sky and even though it's 4am, the city is buzzing with life. Because of the cool weather, no clouds obscure the stars and the moon in the sky. Truly breathtaking.

"I do" I walk over to one of the low tables by the couches and pick up a blanket. I wrap the blanket around my body and stand in front of the railing looking out at the city. Alex comes and stands behind me, gripping my waist firmly while delivering soft, sweet kisses on the side of my neck

"It's nice up here" she states as she rests her chin on my shoulder

"Better than you thought huh? I love the view of the city from up here"

She turns her head into my neck and I can feel her smile, "It is actually. As for the view, though it is stunning, I much prefer the disheveled little blonde wrapped in the blanket"

I spin around, "I do not look disheveled"

"Say that to your hair, babe" she moves a strand of my hair behind my ear

My bottom lip sticks out into a pout and I look at the ground, a smile fighting its way to break across my face from her use of 'babe'

"I can't look like a model ready to walk a runway all the time y'know"

She chuckles before lightly grabbing my jaw and picking my head up before kissing me tenderly

"I never said you didn't"

"You said I was disheveled" I deadpan

"You pull it off, I promise. Kind of hot if you ask me" a full smile makes it way on her face.

That kind of smile isn't on display often and I find myself wanting to always be the person making her break the smirk and reveal this nearly blinding grin

"Yea?" my lips curling into a confident smirk

"mhm, never thought a woman in sweatpants and a sweatshirt could be such a turn on" she grabs my hands through the blanket and opens my arms, lazily placing them on either side of her neck as she searches for my waist that is no longer hidden behind the blanket. Her hands snake beneath my top and I inhale sharply as the cool touch seems to light a fire within my core. She pulls me close by my waist, rubbing circles with her thumbs on my slightly protruding hip bones.

I cling tightly to her, burying my head in the crook of her neck and speak against her pulse point, "Don't forget the fuzzy socks"

"How could I forget the sexiest part of the outfit" She traces mindless patterns on my back as we relish in the closeness and warmth of one another. I'm the one who pulls back but take her hand and lead her to one of the love-seats facing the city. I unwrap the blanket and wait for her to sit down before I light the small fire pit, hearing it crackle to life by the match. I sit down next to her in the deep cushion that makes it feel like a comfy nest. I turn to the side and swing my legs over her lap, curling into her as I rest my head on her shoulder. She instantly starts running her hands along my legs in a soothing motion and I realized that there is nowhere else I would rather be. I want this. I want her.

"Hey, Al?" I twirl a lock of raven hair around my index finger, leaning back so I can look at her properly.

"Yea, pipes"

What I'm about to ask is probably not something I should ask now but it has been plaguing my mind ever since earlier today. I know I said I was perfectly fine with what we're doing and that it's okay where we're at, but after tonight, after these past few weeks, I can't think of her as just that. Timing has never been one of my strong suits, why change now?

"What is this" I ask softly

Her brows furrow and she stops moving her hands on my legs, "What do you mean?"

"What is," I move my hand between us, "this? Us?"

I can see the wheels turning in her head as she tries to figure out her answer and with every passing second the hope of her saying she wants more than just sex with me is quickly diminishing and everything I thought was happening between us was not real. I drop my gaze to the string of her hoodie and mess with it instead of her hair. I scoot back from her, suddenly wanting more distance between us. Finally, she speaks up and I raise my head to look at her

"I…I'm not sure" I sense all the light in my eyes disappear and I feel a knot in my stomach and a lump in my throat. She continues, "I know that I like you and that you're different"

I remove my legs from her lap and sit as far away from her as I can, which isn't much considering this chair only allows for maybe a foot between us.

"I'm not sure what you're looking for, pipes"

"I just—" my voice cracks and it takes a lot of me not to let the tears fall and walk away, "Is this going anywhere? I know that you don't do relationships and—"

"Who told you that" she interrupts

"Nicky, she told me about the last one, Sylvie, and how she went psycho because she wanted a relationship. She said you always get with all the models and anyone that knows you, knows that Alex Vause doesn't do relationships"

She doesn't say anything for a few minutes and I have grown increasingly more uncomfortable, "She's right, I don't do relationships. I never have" her voice soft but factual. I just nod my head, fighting back the tears. It's pathetic to cry over something that wasn't really a thing but what this woman in front of me makes me feel is something I can't possibly explain. She makes me feel drunk, yet completely sober, delirious, yet completely aware of everything around me. She makes me feel things I have never felt before and I've only known her for a few weeks. She makes me feel alive.

I stand up, crossing my arms around my body in a poor attempt to keep me warm. I feel lost without her warmth and I refuse to meet her gaze. She sits up but I take a step back, "I think you should go" my voice shaky and weak

She stands up and reaches out for me but I take another step back. I look up to her eyes and instantly regret that decision. I feel the tears pooling in my eyes and I see the pleading in hers, "Piper—"

"Don't, Alex" I hold my hand out signaling for her to stop, "I get it, I really do. You're not the commitment type, it's not who you are. You don't like being tied down and I know you say I'm different, but that doesn't change the fact that you are just going to move on to the next girl that comes through the agency's doors"

"That's not…it's not—"

"It's fine Alex, I know. It wouldn't be the first time I expected more from someone who isn't like that. I'm not blaming you, I get it. It's who you are and I'm not going to change that because it's what I want"

"Fuck, Piper! Just shut up and let me fucking talk" her body is tense and voice loud and stern. Her jaw is tight and I jump slightly. I turn my head hoping the tears won't fall

"I don't do relationships, I don't stay with one person, I don't have sex with one person, I don't commit to one person and yes I usually get with new models that walk through the doors and it's easy to do that. I'm confident and detached and enthralling or intriguing and they all believe they can change me or they're fine with being just a fuck buddy and they always want more and I never give them more, but that's not who you are!"

"Then what am I to you, Alex"

"Do you need a label for it because I wouldn't know what that would be"

"I'm not asking to be your girlfriend! I'm asking what the hell we're doing and where this is going because if it's not going past where we are now, I can't. I like you more than I can admit and it scares the shit out of me because I have never felt this way about someone so intensely in such a short amount of time. Like earlier, I don't think anyone has made me feel half the things you did in one night. And I'm not talking about sex. It's just you."

"I don't know what we're doing, I have no idea what one does in a relationship or how to be a part of one and I'm not sure if I would want to be in one, I don't know the rules"

I feel as if my chest has been ripped open. I'm standing in front of her in a thick layer of clothing, yet I have never felt so vulnerable and exposed.

I nod my head and drop it, feeling the tears stream down my face. I turn my body away from her and look up hoping they will stop pouring out of my eyes. They don't. I stay turned when I speak up and I have never heard myself this way. It's almost inaudible as I choke down the lump in my throat. It's weak and it waivers with every word, "There aren't any rules, Alex, but I just… I can't be with you this way. I can't be with anyone else if I'm … involved … with you."

"Jesus, it's not like I've been with anyone else. How many times do I have to say that I want you."

I don't say anything I walk over to the railing and grip the cold metal. It's so cold it stings my hands but I don't let go out of fear that if I do I will run back into her warm embrace. She's saying all the right things, she always says all the right things. She knows what to say to elicit the right response she wants from me. I know what she is saying is true, but I can't be with her knowing I want more and she doesn't

"Look at me" she demands

I shake my head no and tighten my grip on the railing feeling my tears hit the backs of my hands

She says it again, softer this time and she's closer. I can feel her eyes boring holes in the back of my head and I can sense the heat of her body behind mine.

"Please"

I shake my head again, "Leave, Alex, I-I can't"

"Look at me and say it"

I inhale and exhale deeply, slowly releasing my hold on the railing. I turn around but my eyes don't reach hers. I look at my socks that have snowflakes on them. I see her feet in front of mine, they are solid deep green and fuck me for picking them out because they match her eyes.

Her finger lifts my chin up, but my eyes refuse to lock with hers

"Look at me and say it so I actually believe you"

I shake my head knowing those words wouldn't escape my lips if I see her face, her unbearably gorgeous face.

"Piper…" her voice is so gentle and smooth like silk. I can't resist it. I can't resist her so I reluctantly raise my gaze to hers and what I see nearly wrecks me. Alex Vause is a strong person, but never would I imagine seeing her so…open. I see all the emotions swirling. It's almost like she's begging me to not tell her to leave.

"I haven't felt this way towards anyone ever and I don't know what it means, I don't know where I want this to go"

"Tell me how you feel about me"

"I don't know how I feel. I feel like there's this pull between us, when we are in a room, I'm instantly drawn to you. I can't describe it, Piper."

"So, all you do know is that you're attracted to me" I take a step back from her

"It's not just physical attraction, you know that"

"No, I don't know that because you won't tell me, Alex. I told you that you fuck with my whole being. I can't think when you're around, you make my head fuzzy, but I also see everything so much more clearly with you"

"Why can't we just continue what we're doing?" she asks nonchalantly as if everything we were just talking about went in one ear and out the other

"You're kidding, right? I literally just explained it to you. I don't want you with anyone else, I don't want you thinking of the next model to get your hands on, I don't want to be just a fuck buddy, Alex. I don't want to share you with anyone. I want you, only you. I'm not saying for us to label it, but I just want to know that we are at least somewhat headed in that direction"

"Piper… I-I don't… I don't think I can give you that"

I look at her in bewilderment. Did I fantasize everything that we have been doing? Everything that has been going on for these past few weeks?

"Why? Have I misjudged everything between us? This chemistry that I have only ever shared with you… That night when I saw you with that girl after waiting hours by your door, did anything you say to me outside the building and when you came to me here to apologize just come out of your ass?"

"No, but I can't give you a relationship, not right now"

"Why? Why are you so scared to commit? We were doing great and it seemed like earlier, that we were going somewhere. Please tell me you felt that too"

"I like being single, I like knowing that I don't have to listen to anyone or feel like I'm being trapped"

"That's not it because from what I know, you want to be with me, you hate when I'm with anyone else and you pull away from girls like fucking Emily who are basically throwing themselves at you so that you can be with me. So why, Alex?"

"I don't know why Piper. I don't have an answer"

The gears are turning in my head so rapidly as I try to understand why. She wants to be with me but doesn't want to be tied down. The hell does that mean? Then, it clicks. Of course that's why!

"Control"

"What?"

"You hate not having all the power. You relish in the fact that you possess this dominance over everyone. Women throw themselves at you and you like it. You don't want to give up that control to be with one person"

She doesn't reply. I notice the realization spread across her face

"It's okay, Alex. You don't want to give any bit of control to someone. Something happened to you and you're scared to give someone else any bit of power over you. It makes sense now, so please…" I look her in the eyes as tears stain my cheeks, "leave because you really don't want to stay with one person."

Her body slumps and it breaks me watching her nods her head before turning around and leaving. The emptiness and finality of it all is crushing and it hurts to breathe. I drop down to the ground and bring my knees to my chest. I can't stop crying and it takes every cell in my body not to run after her. The door shuts and I'm left sitting here on the rooftop. Alone.

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