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Morgan looked down at Reid as he carried him down the steps of the apartment building. Reid was asleep against his chest and looked so small in his arms. JJ walked in front of him and held open the door for him. Garcia opened the passenger door of the SUV. Morgan gently put him in the front seat with back lowered so he could lay down. They all looked to Reid as he let out a small moan. Garcia rushed over with a blanket. "Go to sleep," she hushed before bringing a pink pillow out from the front seat and putting it under his head. Reid fell back to sleep swiftly as he got secured in the seat.

Morgan looked up at Rossi who was in the driver's seat. "You're all set. We'll see you at the house once we've got his stuff."

"Hotch is at the house getting his room ready. We'll see you later."

Morgan closed the door. He stepped back and watched Rossi pull away from the sidewalk. Garcia came over and slipped her hand into his hand. "This is a step in the right direction."

"I know," Morgan nodded. "I just wish I had been able to get through to him like Rossi did."

"You're still his best friend," Garcia said. "I think Rossi has a fatherly connection to him. Especially after Maeve. Come on, we have to get some more of Reid's stuff packed and we have to make a few stops on the way to Rossi's house."

"What stops?"

Garcia grinned. "I'm going to surround Reid with nothing but goodness which means we need to make a few stops to grab a lot of goodies. He's been surrounded by darkness since being attacked. It's time he got surrounded with just about every colour you can think of."

Reid opened his eyes to find himself surrounded with colorful objects. He smiled as he took in the Tardis model on his bedside table and the Doctor figurines in front of it. Get well balloons were tied next to his bed. As he looked down at his bed, he noticed small plush toys and bears filled it. Sunlight poured through his window illuminating all the colorful decorations around the room.

"It's nice," Rossi smiled as he came to the door with a tray of food. He placed the tray on the bedside table and helped Reid sit up. "How are you feeling?"

"Tired," Reid admitted. "I don't really remember coming here."

"We moved you while you were asleep. Now, it's about time you had something proper to eat. I made you noodles with some Italian flare. Your stomach should handle them just fine."

Rossi put the noodles on Reid's lap and handed him a glass of water along with a few pills. "You need to take your antibiotics."

Reid put the pills in his mouth and swallowed them with a few gulps of water. Rossi took the glass and placed it down on the tray. Reid looked down at the bowl. "I'm not that hungry."

"We both know that's a lie," Rossi said. "You have to eat something. I have an idea."

Rossi opened a draw next to the bed and pulled out a magazine. He opened it to a page that Reid couldn't see. "I'm going to question you with this movie and TV quiz while you eat. After every question, you eat a good helping of those noodles. Agreed."

"Okay," Reid nodded.

"What is the top earning film of all time?"

Reid answered immediately. "It was Titanic but Avatar recently became the highest earning film."

Rossi watched happily as Reid brought a helping of noodles on his fork and put it in his mouth. Reid smiled at the taste of the food and licked his lips. "This is really good."

"You can't beat Italian cooking," Rossi chuckled.

Reid looked up from his crossword when he felt a presence by the door. He pushed his glasses up his nose as Morgan walked into the room. "Hey, kid. What happened to your contact lenses?"

"I need to get some new ones. I'm fine using my glasses for now. What are you doing here?"

"I came to check up on you and talk to you. We haven't really talked since the bedroom at your apartment. You seem calmer."

"Appearances can be deceiving but I feel better after getting out of the apartment," Reid shrugged. "I see Garcia has added her flare to the bedroom."

"She wants to surround you with all the good things in life. Look, we're going to take this slow. I realize now that back at the apartment we may have pressured you into talking. Rossi seems to have gotten through to you."

"He answered some questions," Reid said. "I know that I should be able to talk to you like I did before but something has changed. I saw the look on your face when you saw my arms."

"I'm not angry," Morgan sighed.

"Yes, you are," Reid argued gently.

"Fine, I am. I'm angry that I let this happen."

"You didn't let this happen. I did this to myself. It's understandable that I got an infection."

"What did you use?" Morgan asked.

"The razor that I tried to use to end everything. I didn't really bother to clean it."

"That's not like you," Morgan pointed out. He knew that Reid was a clean freak. The genius knew all about bacteria and infections.

Reid rubbed his hand over his face. He laid back against the wall of pillows behind him and took a few deep breaths. "I know that I should have cleaned it. All the dirt and disgust is inside me. When I was trying to cut it out, I didn't care about how dirty the razor was because I didn't think I could get any dirtier inside. Norton ruined my life. I could handle being shot and I've handled everything else that has happened in my life. Norton took away everything that I am. He wanted to make me feel like nothing and that's exactly what he did."

"You're not nothing. You're still you."

"You may see something inside me but I'm struggling to. Look, I'm tired. I'm going to get some sleep."

"I'll be here when you wake up. I'm going to help you through this. We all are."

His eyes fluttered as he tried to push through the fog that was pressing down his mind. His entire body felt as if lead had replaced his blood. His eyes opened a small fraction to see someone above him. He felt a wet material in his intimate area. A small moan escaped his lips.

"That's a surprise," Norton smiled above him. "Don't worry, I can make you sleep again."

Norton disappeared. A sharp scratch hit his arm. His mind succumbed to the darkness. A darkness that didn't frighten him this time. The real world was the frightening place this time.

A gasp tore its way out of his mouth. He clutched his chest as he struggled to calm himself down. He quickly checked his trousers for any sign of blood. He wiped his cheeks and gripped the bed sheet as he took deep breaths to calm down. As he focused, he heard voices coming from downstairs. He pushed the covers aside and made his way out of his room.

He listened as the team spoke about him.

"We went about trying to help him all wrong before. We can't demand when he talks. He'll open up himself," Rossi's voice said.

"I know he's opening up but he's still hiding behind layers of pain," Morgan argued gently.

Reid walked down the steps silently as the team continued to talk. He waited by the wall and listened.

"Henry wants to see him but I'm not sure that's a good idea. Reid isn't in a good place and I don't want Henry to see him if he loses control."

"I can control myself around Henry," Reid spoke up before appearing around the corner to look at JJ. "I would never let Henry know. I care about him."

Garcia spoke before JJ got a chance. "Are you okay? You look frightened."

Reid brought his sleeves over his hands. "I had a nightmare."

Garcia rushed over and put her hands on his shoulders. "What happened? You can tell us. It might help to let it out."

"I think I woke up when he was-" Reid hesitated before closing his eyes. "When he was cleaning me. I felt him doing things to me. I think my past drug use gave me a slightly higher resistance to the drug he gave me. He sent me back to sleep with another injection. I don't know why I couldn't remember till now."

He tensed as Garcia wrapped her arms around him. When he inhaled her perfume, he relaxed and let himself be comforted by her. "It's okay, Reid," she said quietly. "He can't hurt you anymore."

Reid came away from the hug and stared at JJ. "Why would you think I would lose control in front of Henry? Don't lie to me."

"I don't know what to expect from you," JJ said in frustration. "Henry wants to come and see you. He wants to watch movies with you and eat ice cream. You swing from one extreme to another. You want our help and then you try to kill yourself."

"JJ, ease up," Rossi warned.

"I can't," JJ angrily snapped. "I want to help you and be here for you but I'm afraid that we'll get close to you and you'll do something stupid again. I know that Norton hurt you but that was no excuse for you to almost hurt Henry like you did."

Reid stared at her before retreating back. "I wasn't thinking straight," he almost whispered.

"I made you his godfather because I want you to be there and look after him if anything ever happened to Will and me. The day he was born, I knew that only one person could be his godfather. I only ever thought of you. I've kept this inside and I can't do it anymore. I cried for weeks because I couldn't see you. I couldn't help you. How can I trust you after you almost left us? After you almost left Henry."

"Then don't trust me anymore," Reid cried angrily. "You're right. Henry deserves a godfather who can be strong for him. If you think I would ever hurt or frighten Henry than you are wrong. Get him a new godfather though. I ruined my chance and I won't ruin Henry's life with how weak and disgusting I am."

Reid rushed back up the stairs and into his room. He slid against the door and felt his chest burn with guilt and pain.

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