A/N: Haha here it is... but please don't kill me! It gets better don't give up on them!

Chapter 14
"Where did Jacob go?" I went and sat down next to Uncle Jasper and Grandma Renee on the couch.
"He went to bring Uncle Billy over." My grandma hugged me.
"Hi Honey, haven't seen much of you." she winked. I blushed and looked down from her. Maybe sitting down here wasn't the best idea. I heard my dad chuckle a bit. I groaned.
Get out of my head! I thought. He didn't say anything after that, so I figured he stopped being nosey. I missed Jake already. I looked at the bracelet he gave me, but apparently my grandma noticed too.
"That's the most beautiful bracelet I have ever seen!" She gushed. My dad looked over at it. I could tell he wasn't the happiest person it the world.
"Where did you get that?" My grandmother asked. I didn't want her to go on and on so I simply said.
"My friend." I knew she wouldn't leave it as that.
"Yeah, a friend that call's you his angel?" I shut my eyes waiting for my dad to explode. Luckily I was saved by my mom coming in. She put her hand on my Dad's shoulder and he relaxed a little. He was still fuming, I could tell. I played with the charm on the bracelet, running my fingers over it. I wondered how long he would be. Probably not that long; he was only going to La Push, right? But something was bothering him. The way he tensed went I went close to him…. Did I do something wrong?
My Dad made a huge sighing noise, a lot louder than it needed to be, well it didn't need to be at all, he didn't actually need to breath. I looked up at him. He twitched his head to the side sort of shaking his head, but trying to be inconspicuous about it. It took me a second to realize that he was answering me. He heard me thinking that it was my fault so he shook his head. But I didn't believe him.
I sighed waiting for him to come back. My dad laughed and everyone turned to look at him. I looked at him confused, I didn't think anything? Before he could explain himself someone moved at an inhumanly speed and picked me up, and took me upstairs. Kacey. No, she was going to bug me more than anyone, and I hope someone can explain to grandma why I had just disappeared because I know they couldn't see Kacey.
"What were you thinking? In case you haven't noticed there's humans down there!" I shrieked. She just laughed at me.
"I don't know, I was bored and the reaction on your face was priceless." she laughed. I rolled my eyes.
"What do you want?" I asked sarcastically, I knew exactly what she wanted. She eyed my bracelet. I pulled the arm of my jacket over it and hid my arm behind my back. She just stared at me.
"And who gave you that?" I tried to pretend it was just from someone like my Grandparents or Aunts. But I couldn't and I blushed. I knew I blew it then. She grabbed my wrist and read what it said on the charm.
"My Angel," she chimed. "So you guys going out now?" That question caught me by surprise. Honestly I wasn't sure if we were or not. I mean, I knew he imprinted on me. I still wasn't completely sure what imprinting meant… I had a sudden thought. Maybe he didn't like me like he said he did. Maybe he made it all up… or changed his mind. It would explain why he didn't hug me back. Kacey waved her hands in front of my face.
"Hello, Earth to Ness." She said, pulling me out of my thought.
"Are you going to answer my question?" My smile faded.
"Ness?" She asked. I just shook my head slowly and looked at her.
"I-I uh don't know." I said slowly. I looked at the charm bracelet and messed around with the charm. If he didn't then what? Then he was only pretending to make me feel better. Well it wasn't working. I felt like crap.
"Are you okay?" Kacey asked. No. I wasn't. I needed to find out what was going on. If he liked me, what imprinting meant, and what we were going to do about it. I just had to find out so he could stop pretending. Now that I thought about it, I couldn't actually believe that he would love me. It all made so much sense, no matter how much it hurt. Tears started to form in my eyes, and once again they wouldn't listen; they started coming out.
"Ness what's wrong?" Kacey asked. I couldn't talk, I just cried. I sat on the bed and she came over to me and hugged me. I sat like this for a while, crying and rethinking things in my mind.
I'm surprised my dad didn't come up. He probably took my first warning when I told him to stay out of my head. I didn't want him to see me like this anyway, I didn't even want Kacey to see me this way, but she refused to leave me alone. She rubbed my back. I sniffed and pulled away to grab a tissue. I blew my nose.
"You don't think he means it," she whispered. How did she know? I didn't actually say anything out loud. "Every girl feels that way. It's just a girl thing." That didn't make me feel any better.
"You feel it?" I croaked. She thought for a moment and nodded.
"With Logan? Yeah of course. There's always that doubt." I thought about that for a second. I wondered if everyone felt it. I looked at the bracelet and sighed. Downstairs, I heard the door open and Billy's wheelchair come inside. The familiar scent came up from downstairs. Kacey watched me.
"I'm going to go talk to him." I had so many questions. She smiled and nodded. We walked downstairs together. My eyes met his when I stepped on the last step. I almost tripped stepping down but Kacey caught me.
"Okay?" She asked, quietly. I nodded. I walked over to Billy.
"Hey there Renesmee," he smiled. I smiled back. I walked next to Jake, but I was facing the other way then he was.
"Can we talk?" My heart beat against my chest. This could make things better or make my world crash. I took a few steps forward, towards the door and Jacob followed me. I made sure we were out of hearing range from the house and continued to walk with Jacob by my side.
"What's wrong?" He asked, with concern in his voice. I looked down and stopped in my tracks.
"I .. Jake.. What's- what's imprinting?" I asked still looking at the ground.
"It's kind of hard to explain..." He said. I looked up at him.
"Well, you said it was kind of like love at first site?" I asked unsure
"I did. That's the short definition. Really it's like we have a connection with someone who we love at first sight but not in the in-love type of thing. That comes later…. It's like this… when you were young, I was more of a protector, an older brother. But now that you're older… it's different." He trailed off.
"What do you mean different?" I asked. We were still walking but he took two large steps and turned in front of me, blocking me from walking forward. I looked up at him. Our eyes met. Seeing his dark brown eyes made my hear melt in my chest. He reached his right hand up and brushed a strand of hair out of my face. I could hear my heart beat in my ears. I swallowed.
"I'll explain it down at the beach. There's gonna be a bonfire tonight. Come with me." I couldn't disagree with him when he was this close. I just nodded.
"I'm going to go help Sam set it up. Come down around 7 okay?" I nodded again. He leaned down and kissed my forehead. I wondered why he would never actually kiss me, but I guess my Dad liked it that way. I stumbled my way inside. When I got inside, it must have looked like I had my head up in the clouds all happy and stuff, because everyone was looking at me like I had just gone insane. I haven't gotten a real answer, but that was good enough... for now. I didn't even explain myself I just walked right upstairs to my room. Sure enough, Kacey was there.
"How long have you been here?" I asked in disbelief, she was laying on my bed flicking through channels. She shrugged.
"Ever since you left." She simply said. I rolled my eyes and sat down next to her. She put the TV on mute.
"So… how'd it go?" I shrugged.
"Didn't really say much." I told her what he had said and that he invited to me to the bonfire tonight. I left out the part where he was so close to me and moved a piece of hair out of my face, I decided that she didn't need to know the whole story.
"Umm Ness? Do you know the time?" I looked over to the clock. 6:30.
"So? Oh crap! Help me get ready!" We ran into my closet and Kacey shoved through my clothes to find something decent to wear.
"How about this?" She asked holding up a white mini skirt with black leggings, and a blck tank top. I sighed
"Do I have a choice?" She shook her head.
"Nope!"
"Then I'll be happy to wear it!" I laughed. She threw it at me and I ran to the bathroom to get ready. I came out and twirled.
"Great! Let me do your hair!" She said. I looked at her.
"Are you sure you're not related to my Aunt Alice?" I mumbled. She just laughed. When she was done my hair it was curled and some of it in the back was pinned up. It looked really good! By the time we were done it was 6:45.
"Crap!" I yelled. Kacey just rolled her eyes and did my makeup.
"We agreed on make up?" I asked. Just then my Aunt Alice jumped in.
"You would have given in." She said in her matter-of-fact voice. I rolled my eyes.
"Aunt Alice, can you drive me?" She frowned.
"I would but your Dad wouldn't let me. He insists on driving you." Oh great! The thing was, I didn't have time to worry. I ran downstairs. My Dad was by the door of the garage. In some ways it was cool to have a Dad who can read your mind, you don't have to talk as much. For instance, now he knew that I needed to get to La Push beach in 10 minutes without me saying a word about it. I ran and jumped into the passenger seat of his Volvo. He took his time walking over to the driver's side.
"Come on Dad!" he laughed and started the engine. The ride to the beach was quiet.. I think. I was drowning in my thoughts, so if my dad had said anything, I didn't notice. We parked and I jumped out of the car.
"Bye Ness, be careful." He said. I noticed he was glaring at someone. I turned at Jacob was right next to me.
"Yeah, okay dad, bye!" I said. He rolled his eyes and drove away. I looked up at Jake, who was staring at me. I blushed and looked down. Before I could even turn around, I heard:
"NESSIE!" and I was tackled to the ground.
"Ouch I might be half vampire but damn Embry that hurt!" I yelled. He laughed and jumped up. Jacob put his hand out to help me up. I took it and he pulled me to my feet.
Jake took me down to the beach with everyone for a bonfire. I sat down on the log next to Jake. We were all talking around the fire; Jake, Emily, Sam, Seth, Quil, Rachel, Paul, Kim, Jared, and I. I smiled noticing Jakes arm around my shoulder.
"Right Ness?" Rachel asked snapping me out of my thoughts. She grinned at me, probably knowing I was day dreaming. I smiled back at her.
"Sorry.. I was.. Thinking. What did you say?" Jacob chuckled and I felt his arm slightly vibrate against my back.
"I said, I bet you would love to come to my house one day, with Kim and Emily to have a girls night, right?" She asked. I nodded.
"That sounds great Rach thanks." She laughed.
"Foods done!" Billy called. Jake got up and let go of my shoulders.
"Do you want anything?" He murmured. I shook my head.
"G-Go ahead" He smiled.
Up there with him was a pretty blond, with blue eyes. I knew her from around here her name was Nicole. She was related to someone in the pack somehow. I wasn't completely sure. She had come to la Push to visit but I could tell she had a fancy for Jake. As soon as Jacob went up there she approached him. They were talking for a minute, Jacob barely paying her any mind, but I knew she was trying to flirt. Every minute she would giggle, or touch his arm, and play with her hair. My blood began to boil. The only reason I came here was for Jake to tell me more about imprinting. Not to watch him flirt with another girl. Just when I thought things couldn't get any worse, they did.
I heard her comment on his eyes and he looked at her, probably to tell her to back off. Then she slipped in and kissed him. That was enough to make me explode. He pushed her away and instantly turned to face me. I guess he could see the pain written across my face because he ran straight towards me. I had tears coming down my face. I quickly got up and he wrapped his arms around me.
I pushed him away and stared at him in the eyes hurt. I quickly ran off into the woods somewhere far, and slumped against a tree, crying my heart out. Why would he do this to me? What did I do? He probably never liked me! He probably just played with my emotions. I knew he was there, I smelt him.
"Go away Jacob Black!" I screamed. I got up to run but he was right in front of me stopping me.
"Get. Out. Of. My. Way." I said my teeth clenched together.
"Ness-" I cut him off.
"You can't call me that!" I spat. He looked at me.
"Please, let me-" I cut him off again.
"Explain? Yeah, right! You took me down here to explain! If that's how you explain things, playing with my emotions, I'm done!" I yelled. I had tears streaming down my face uncontrollably, and Jacob looked as if I just hit him with a ton of bricks.
"Now I know why you were so hesitant! Whatever." I yelled once again. I was screaming so loud I'm pretty sure everyone from my house heard it. He tried to grab my hand but I pulled back.
"Don't touch me." I said. "Go away Jake, I don't want to talk to you! Leave! I mean it GO AWAY!" I screamed. He stood frozen for a moment so I turned and started to walk away. I heard footsteps behind me again. I spun around. Why wouldn't he just go? He was making it even harder.
"You just don't get it do you?" He put his hand on my arm but I shoved it off.
"Renesmee, you have to listen to me!"
"So what? So you can lie? So you can tell me you love me again? Well I. Don't. Want. To. Hear. It. I hate you Jacob."
"Renesmee! I didn't-"
"You DIDN'T? You didn't what? Kiss her? I saw it with my own eyes Jake! Don't lie to me just STOP LIEING! You DID kiss her…. But you didn't kiss me." My vice faltered at the look on his face. He looked as if someone had burned his entire insides. His eyes were wide and full of ears as well. He was shaking violently. And looked like he'd made the biggest mistake of his life…. Thing was, he had.
"Just stop trying to make things better. Because I don't want them to be."
"What do you want?" His voice sounded hollow.
"I want you to get the hell out of my life and never come back." After that, I ran. I ran as fast as my legs could carry me. I wouldn't let myself think about anything but running.
I sat in the woods not caring where I was; I just wanted to be alone. I heard someone approach me and I thought it was Jacob. I spun around about to scream at him, but it was Kacey. She looked at me horrified.
"What happened?" She asked. My eyes were red and swollen from crying, and I had tears streaming down my cheek. She came over to me and I collapsed, and started to break down.
"Ness, tell me what happened?" She asked softly. I put my hand on her cheek and showed her the whole thing; it was a billion times worse than replaying what happened with Jason. She stiffened.
"Why the hell.. " She started and looked down at me. I was still bawling my eyes out. It hurt so bad, I just wanted it to stop. I couldn't handle it, the last thing I remember before blacking out, was the wind passing me, as Kacey carried me home.