A/N: I will get back to the Cecilia and Simon storyline soon. I promise! I really love this chapter. But of course I had to make it dramatic.. What fun would it be to leave it fluffy? No fun at all. So don't hate me for this.. Please.

Song featured in this chapter:

Brighter Than Sunshine by Aqualung

Martin's POV

"I cannot believe you talked me into doing this!" Ruthie shouted. Her eyes flickered with fear and anxiousness.

I just laughed. Ruthie was so hilarious and adorable when she was afraid. "Just calm down." I said holding her hand. I knew she was afraid of rollercoaster's but I wanted to help her get over her fear. It's the last week of November. And exactly a month since the shooting. The fair is in town. Since living in Glenn Oak it is definitely my absolute favorite part. The smell of popcorn and hotdogs and the screams of people on roller coasters.. It was awesome.

But the reason why I love the fair so much is because of my mother. When I was younger, although we moved around a lot, my mom always promised me to take me to each and every fair that we came across. She kept that promise. We would eat cotton candy until we couldn't eat anymore and ride the rollercoaster's until we hurled. My mother was fearless and strong willed.. In many ways Ruthie reminds me of her. I know it sounds corny and maybe even a little silly.. But by going to the fair every last week in November. .I feel closer to my mom. I just hope Ruthie gets over her fear and shares this with me.

"Martin, if I fall off this roller coaster, you will have that on you're conscious." Ruthie pouted. She grabbed my hand so tightly I thought she was going to break it.

"Ruth, for somebody so tiny you sure do have a man's grip." I teased.

She gave me a deadly glare. "First you want to get me on this trap and then you want to make fun of me." She said in annoyance, letting go of my hand. She turned away from me as if trying to make a point and teach me a lesson.

I laughed again. I didn't mean to but Ruthie just looked so incredibly sexy when she was mad. She gave me another glare, and this time I stopped laughing. Licking my lips I said, "I'm sorry Ruthie. But you just look so -"

"Save it." She said cutting me off. "Let's just get this stupid ride over with. What is taking it so long to start anyway?" Ruthie asked. "This Lapbar is cutting of my circulation." She whined.

I sighed knowing that there was nothing I could do. Once Ruthie got into one of her moods there was no pulling her out of it. She was stubborn and uncompromising. I attempted to take her hand once more but she refused.

"I wouldn't want to break you're hand with my man grip." She spat, emphasizing man grip.

"I was just joking!" I pleaded. I hated when she was angry with me. It was the worst. She would completely freeze me out. "We can get off the rollercoaster if you want." But before she had a chance to answer it was already too late. The rollercoaster was starting. It creaked loudly as it slowly went up the very top of the ramp.

Ruthie took a deep breath." This isn't so bad." She said attempting to smile.

I didn't want to tell somebody who had never been on a rollercoaster in her life and who was afraid of them that the worst was yet to come. I just smiled back at her and hoped that she wouldn't bury me alive for this. The rollercoaster suddenly dropped down the ramp and made a sharp turn.

She screamed. "Martin, get me off this thing RIGHT NOW!"

I bit my lip hard, "I'm sorry Ruthie, but I can't!"

She screamed again and reluctantly grabbed my hand. "I hate you!" She said grabbing onto me for dear life.

"I love you too." I said with a chuckle. If only I had a camera. The expression on Ruthie's face was too good for words. I looked over at Ruthie fully expecting for her to be panicking. But then something unexpected happened.. Ruthie was actually enjoying herself?

"This is awesome!" She squealed and threw her hands in the air.

"Really?" I asked in shock. Ruthie never failed to surprise me.

"Yeah, I mean once I got over the initial fear and actually started to embrace the adrenalin rush.. It feels pretty good." She said clearly pleased with herself.

"I told you so!" I said in between gusts of wind. "I knew you would get over you're fear."

She laughed." Now you have to get over yours."

"I don't have any fears." I lied. "I am fearless. Well, my only fear is losing you." I said trying to be smooth.

"That is really sweet Martin. But you aren't fooling anybody!" She said." Shall I remind you of Savannah's first birthday party?"

My face turned bright red." I don't know what your talking about."

"Oh so you aren't the one who ran away from the clown that Lucy and Kevin ordered?" She asked as the rollercoaster came to a stop.

If it was even possible, my face turned even redder. "That clown was evil." I said lifting up the Lapbar and stepping onto the platform.

Ruthie was next to me laughing so hard I thought she was going to fall of the platform. "Let's go!" She shouted, jumping on my back. It was something she always used to do when we hung out just as friends. She would jump on my back and I would give her a piggy back ride all around the promenade.

"Go where?" I asked, trying to catch my breath.

"To the clown show!" She stated giving me a kiss on the cheek. "Let's go, let's go, let's go!"

"No way!" I said. "There is NO way I am going to the clown show."

"Oh but I thought Martin Brewer was fearless!" She mocked me.

"Fine. Let's go." I said, giving up. I put her down on the ground and said "Lead the way."

"Race you there!" She shouted and before I could catch up with her she was running to the other side of the fair. Her curly brown hair blowing in the wind.

"Step right up and experience a clown show like no other!" A announcer with a cheesy voice said.

I rolled my eyes and paid for two tickets. I'm not exactly sure when my fear of clowns first began to manifest.. But I know that I hate clowns and just the mere thought of them creeps me out. And yet here I am.. At a clown show.. With Ruthie. She is insane.

"Finally you catched up!" Ruthie said standing on her tippy toes to give me a kiss. She is even shorter than usual today.. Or at least it seems that way. She is wearing flip flops,

"I thought about running in the opposite direction. But I'm your ride home and I couldn't leave you stranded here."

"Ha-ha very funny." She said slipping her hands into mine. We took a seat in the front row. I could feel the sweat forming on my forehead.

"Why are you so nervous?" She asked. "Don't worry, I will protect you from the big bad clowns!" She said holding back laughter.

I sunk deeper into my seat. "Your suppose to be helping me get over my fear.. Not making fun of me."

"Now you know how it feels!" She said, referring to the fact that I teased her about her rollercoaster fear for the longest.

"I promise I'll stop teasing you if and only if…" She began leaning closer to my face. "You spend the night with me in the garage apartment." She whispered in my ear.

"What about you're parents?" I asked. Were we really going to go there? Again?

"Well, I just got a call from my mom. They are going up to visit the Colonel and Ruth. And Sam and David are spending the weekend at a friends house.. Sandy has Aaron this weekend.. So it's totally okay." She said in a seductive tone.

"I think this day just got a whole lot more interesting." I said. I could hear cheesy circus music playing and 2 clowns dressed in colorful costumes approach the stage. Looking around I noticed Ruthie and I were the only adults in the audience. "Ruthie.. We are surrounded by kids." I whispered.

"I know. Because clowns are for kids.. And You shouldn't be afraid of them." She said, unable to contain her laughter.

"Okay, it was a ridiculous thing to be afraid of. I've learned my lesson. Can we go? Please?" I begged.

"Yeah, C'mon." She said.

We made our way to the parking lot and I opened the passenger door for Ruthie. "My lady.." I said in with a fake British accent.

"Your kind sir." She said playing along.

I laughed. "So that was the fair. What did you think?"

"I think we are too old to go to fairs!" She said truthfully. "Especially without Aaron." She added.

"Nonsense. You are never too old to go to the fair." I said Suddenly my phone rang. Checking the caller I.D I wondered who it could possibly be. Private number? "I have to take this." I told Ruthie opening the car door.

She looked suspicious." Sure." She said. "Just don't take too long."

Ruthie's POV

"I have to cherish the rare occasions that my house is completely deserted." I said unlocking the door to the garage apartment.

"Well you do have plenty of privacy up here." Martin said sitting down on my bed.

"You would think so.. But somebody is always coming up here to be nosey. They all think I am like having boys here and having wild parties." I said throwing myself on my bed. Martin looked worried. Like something's bothering him.

Martin leaned back on the bed. "But isn't that what your doing?"

I laughed, "Yeah, but they don't need to know that."

"What? You have other boys up here?" Martin asked putting his hand to his heart for dramatic effect.

"No. You misunderstood.. I meant… never mind." I said not bothering to explain myself.

"I don't want to share you." Martin said with a huff.

I ran my fingers through his hair and moved closer towards his muscular body. "You don't. I never have guys up here. You're the only guy that is ever up here." I said in a reassuring tone.

"Pinky promise?" He asked lifting up his pinky.

"Pinky promise." I repeated , locking my pinky with his.

I never understood before

I never knew what love was for

My heart was broke, my head was sore

What a feeling

Tied up in ancient history

I didn't believe in destiny

I look up you're standing next to me

What a feeling

He looked into my eyes, and I looked into his. Realizing that at this very moment our relationship would change for the better. I could hear the soft sounds of the radio playing in the background. I always forgot to shut off my radio when I left. A song was playing that I could not distinguish but it was setting the mood. Martin leaned in and gently, but passionately kissed me. I could feel the room spin and the butterflies in my stomach fluttering overtime. Slowly his hands moved down to my chest and he began unbuttoning my polo shirt. He hesitated for a moment but continued when I gave him a nod of approval. I knew I wanted to do this. I knew that I wanted to wipe the slate clean with Martin. I needed him now more than ever. I desperately wanted to put my past in Scotland and with T-bone behind me.

What a feeling in my soul

Love burns brighter than sunshine

Brighter than sunshine

Let the rain fall, i don't care

I'm yours and suddenly you're mine

Suddenly you're mine

And it's brighter than sunshine

There was no candles lit. And no rose pedals scattered around the room. I wasn't wearing any fancy lingerie and Martin wasn't trying to propose to me or tell me that he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. But never the less, the moment was just right. We were in intertwined and for the first time in a month everything seemed to be perfectly imperfect. It was just about two people who loved each other. And that was enough.

I never saw it happening

I'd given up and given in

I just couldn't take the hurt again

What a feeling

I didn't have the strength to fight

Suddenly you seemed so right

Me and you

What a feeling

We made love. And it was truly the best night of my life. "I can't believe it." I said, closing my eyes and nuzzling my head against his chest .It was short.. But it was memorable.

What a feeling in my soul

Love burns brighter than sunshine

It's brighter than sunshine

Let the rain fall, I don't care

I'm yours and suddenly you're mine

Suddenly you're mine

"Can't believe what?" Martin asked running kisses along my neck.

"We just made love.. And the sky didn't fall." I said, not exactly sure what I meant by it. It was just the way I was feeling.

"Do you remember when I told you I was in love with you last summer.. And you chose T-bone over me?" Martin asked quickly. He sounded scared and nervous.

I nodded, dreading the memory. The song on the radio ended.. As if just in time..

"Well I was upset and lost without you.. And I screwed up.. I did a lot of bad things while you were gone Ruthie..Things I'm not proud of. "

I sat up quickly and looked at him seriously. "What kind of things?"

"I slept around.. A lot." Martin said. "Remember that red head that was over at my apartment the day you came over to apologize to me?"

I nodded once more, expecting the worst.

"She's pregnant." Martin said with a exasperated tone.

I gasped louder than I intended.

"She called.. Earlier.. While we were leaving the fair." He continued.

I was disgusted. I couldn't even look at him. "You slept with me.. Knowing that -- that you got another girl pregnant?" I shouted. "How could you be so stupid?!" I yelled getting up from the bed.

"Ruthie.. She tricked me.. You have to believe me.. She told me she was on the pill.."

"Oh yeah, and I'm sure you believe every sleazy hooker you pick up from a bar!" I yelled.

"Actually.. She goes to my school. Not that it matters." Martin said, cradling his head in his hands.

"GET OUT Martin!" I shouted. "God knows what kind of STD I have now." I spat, purposely trying to hurt him.

"I don't have any STD's Ruthie!" He said trying to calm me down.

"How can I possibly believe anything you say? Just leave.. Please." I said softly.

He grabbed his pants, and his shirt and quickly exited the garage apartment.

I could feel the tears welling up in my eyes. It was all too good too be true. Martin and I made love.. And the sky did fall.