14

SAKURA

My mother and father are out for their dinner date and my cousin is downstairs again with her boyfriend. I wonder if they had sex. Probably. I bet it's the gentle, loving kind—the good kind. I can tell by the way the love each other. When they're together they don't even know they are touching. It's as though their bodies are each other's and their own at the same time.

I wish I could feel something that good.

I pull up my shirt and touch my stomach where the baby used to be. I push on it with my finger hoping that it would reach back out to me telling me that they didn't take it away. That I didn't hurt it. I push again and a knock sends me out of my trance.

"Sakura? You have a guest here!" my cousin called from the other side of my door. I pulled down my shirt and unlocked my door opening to find Sasuke Uchiha standing there with his eyes filled with a hurt that I couldn't place.

"Well I'll be downstairs, if you guys want snacks I can bring some up later!" my cousin said before hurrying downstairs to her boyfriend. My breathing was suddenly faster and my heart beat was pounding its way out of my chest.

"Hi." Sasuke said. He stood outside of my room waiting for me to let him in.

"…Hi," I moved aside and let him in.

He looked around my pink room and crinkled his nose, "This is your room?" he asked making conversation. I nodded slowly.

He turned back towards me from my dresser and gave me the same hurt look, "Is it true?" he asked.

"What is?" I asked hesitantly, I knew only a few kids found out I was pregnant but thankfully it didn't spread around. Except I never understood why it didn't, but did Sasuke find out?

"…you know…" he nodded towards my stomach and I sighed. He knew.

I nodded slowly. He closed his eyes and shook his head.

"…Why?" he was choking up. I felt guilty, but there wasn't anything I could do to give that baby a better life than my fucked-up one.

"Because…I had no choice." I stated sitting down on my bed. He avoided my stare and shook his head again.

"…if you needed help…I-I would've…" he stopped, Sasuke hasn't spoken so many words to me before, but I sighed, "It had to…there wasn't anything you could've done…I didn't want to bother you…"

"Why? Why not bother me? You could've…was it because…" he stopped and shook his head again, "Was it because I left you that night?" he asked meeting my eyes with his dark ones.