Night of reflection

Summary: Fuji knows that he should be happy right now, but why doesn't he?

Note: Written in first person PoV. Fuji here is a little OOC.

Disclaimer: Prince of Tennis is absolutely not mine

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When people see the people they have been longing to see, they should feel happy, right? If so then why do I feel close to being almost miserable right now?

I know that I wasn't really expecting to see Kunimitsu today, or even this week. That was why when he had offered that we meet up for breakfast today I immediately took the opportunity and agreed.

It has just been a few hours since the two of us went separate ways. I had class and he had something to attend to in his university.

I mean, I know that I shouldn't really bear a grudge against our limited time together. At least we still manage to see each other every now and then. But let's face it, even someone like me can feel lonely when I don't see the person I love as much as I want to. I've been missing him since Tuesday, the day after his birthday celebration and the mere fact that I'm facing a Kunimitsu-less weekend isn't really helping the case.

Eiji had asked me in class today about how I cope with the distance and limited time with my boyfriend. I simply answered them that I just did..which was the truth in a way. They didn't seem satisfied and asked me another question:

"Fuji....what is it that you want to do with Tezuka if you were given a whole day with him?"

That question honestly got me thinking. I looked at Eiji for a while before smiling at him, using that certain smile that hid whatever emotion I was feeling inside.

"I just want to be with him. Nothing more, nothing less." was what I said.

Eiji pouted and said that I wasn't being specific. I simply chuckled in response.

It was the truth anyway. Since right now it would seem that it was all that I wanted to ask from Kunimitsu. Just a whole day with him, with no one interrupting us and no time limit as to how long we had left to be with one another.

Yes, it was a simple wish....but it's close to impossible due to the things in the way like school and such.

Saa....

Maybe that's what I felt was missing here...simplicity...Or maybe not....but let's face it, not everything can be attained in this world now, right?

Of course.

Thinking is very tedious sometimes....all this reminiscing and musing has given me a headache...

Well. Point is, I can't just demand for his time now, could I? After all, I know that he has certain responsibilities to attend to and we really shouldn't be distracted from the things that we should be doing. I don't want to be a burden to him after all.....

But one thing is for sure...I am ready to do anything for him at this point. Absolutely anything.

Call me a hopeless romantic if you will but it's just the way things are in my perspective...especially since I've been the one causing the problems since day one. No really, I have...and no matter what Kunimitsu tells me, you can't deny that it's the truth..

...and they call me a tensai of all things. I can't even solve a problem as simple as this, it's frustrating.

Oh well, I should really start calming down, Yumiko-neesan called me down to dinner about ten minutes ago and I'm still here. Well....I better go down before she comes in here.

TBC