Tiffany
We cut the vacation short after he could barely look at me in the eye.
We immediately flew back home and we went to see the doctors.
Turns out they really wanted to run some tests through him and when I sat down with the doctor in his office my heart felt heavy.
"Mrs. Kim, his condition is worsening." The doctor said, looking at me with his hands clasped in front of him. "It has been for a long time."
"How do we stop it?"
"Whatever it may be, it seems like it is not a negotiation." He said firmly, looking sorry for me but I didn't want any of his pity.
What was I supposed to say to that?
"Doctor, you don't understand. I almost lost him, many times and I just got him back. I-I can't lose him, not when we have a daughter who adores him to the utmost." My voice was trembling I heard it. My fingers kept twiddling and I couldn't help but dig my heel to the floor.
Oh how I wanted to cry.
"Mrs. Kim, I am trying my best. Rest assured we will do everything to keep him well."
I nodded and just got up, I didn't even say thank you. I was just so lost.
I went back into the room and Taeyeon was already asleep. I sat on the edge of the bed and just kissed his forehead.
I got up and grabbed my bag and shoulder it but before I left I wrote a small note and placed it on the nightstand beside him. I didn't want him to be worried when I was gone.
I walked to the exit and sighed, seeing
him curled up on the bed I shut the door to his room as quietly as possible.
My hand gripped the wheel as tight as possible, I saw how white my knuckles turned white.
I drove slowly and parked the car at the side of the road.
I grabbed an umbrella just in case and slipped out of the car.
I felt myself feel as if I've been dragging a lot of baggage with me these few months.
Especially these last few months.
Everything that I'm so concerned with and worried about was my family, especially my Taeyeon.
I really thought maybe after he won the case we would be okay. The day he told me I felt free, a lot of weight on my shoulder slid off.
I felt genuinely happy and now I fear the day I lose Taeyeon.
I walked quietly along the pavement and rounded off the tree, my feet was in front of the tombstone of the one my husband loved so much.
I sat down on the grass in front of her. I took a deep breath and sighed.
"I love him. I love him for all that I am."
"I fought so hard for him, and he fought hard for me too. Don't you think it's unfair if he has to leave so soon?"
"I promised I'll take care of him and to love him and make him happy like he does for me, will you tell him to stay? You're his mother, please yell at him and make him stay? He'll listen to you, he always does. He's a good little bear."
A good bear, my gentle bear.
"It's not his choice is it? Can you negotiate something with fate?"
"I don't want to let go of him just yet."
"I want him here just a little bit longer, I'll let him go when we're old, we'll see you together." I whispered.
I was practically just crying.
My phone rang and I dug into my purse and he was the one calling.
I declined the call and sent him to voice mail, I didn't want him to know where I was.
"He's my best friend, I love him. But I don't know how to help him."
I feel useless.
He called me many times and I ended up driving back to the hospital cutting my visitation to his mothers gravestone short.
I didn't want to go so soon.
I opened the door to his room and he sat up looking distressed.
"What's wrong baby?" I asked.
He looked at me cautiously and didn't say anything. I sat on the edge of his bed and went to fix the covers for him but he held my hand.
"Where did you go?"
"Oh, I went to drop off some clothes for Seohyun at dads."
"You're lying to me." He said seriously.
I didn't even deny it, I didn't even want to look at him. His angry stare always intimidated me.
He caresses my hand gently and sighed.
"Where did you go, Miyoungie?"
I glared at him and slapped his thigh, I ended up curling up next to him and burying my face into his shoulder.
"Iwenttovisityourmom." I said quickly, hoping he didn't hear it.
He rubbed my back and kissed the side of my head, he didn't sound impressed when he sighed.
"I hate you. Every time you call me by that name I just can't."
"You went to see mom?"
I nodded, hand clutching his ugly hospital shirt.
"What did you say to her?"
I shrugged, not wanting to tell him.
He kissed my forehead and his lips didn't move from my head. He stayed like this for a long time till he held my two fingers tightly.
"Fany, I want to go on a walk with you."
He squeezes my fingers and I know that meant now.
I pushed on the handles, taking care to go slow because I didn't want to scare his fragile self right now.
The wheels of the wheelchair turned, making a squeaky sound that kept going on and on.
I stopped midway on the bridge and turned him facing the ocean, my hand crept into his and I knelt down beside him just leaning my head against his cold hand.
"Honey, I want to see the ocean please."
I didn't want to grant his wish. I feared that within 10 seconds of moving him from the seat to the bench something will happen.
But of course not, the paranoia just keeps beating me up inside my head. Truthfully, I shouldn't be anxious.
I walked in front of him and pulled off the blue duck patterned blanket off him and draped it over the handles of the wheelchair, he lifted his arms up slightly and I wrapped my arms around his back and our fronts met.
He grunted and let all his weight on me.
Like a fragile glass glass vase I pulled him up and shuffled to the bench, placing him down as gently as I could.
How I carried him? Simple. He lost weight- a lot of weight.
By no means he was as light as a feather, but he was much more carriablr than he was months ago. I used to tease him that I could barely drag him up the stairs because he was made of 200% muscle, but now I can see his prominent jawline. He got slimmer, and his muscles were fading.
I fixed the blanket back on his lap and looked at his tired eyes.
"Thank you, darling."
I hummed.
I sat on the bench next to his wheelchair and kept touching his blanket, my hand made it's way inside and held his hand.
It was trembling, but I held it still and firm.
I scooted as close as I could to him. I wanted to rest my head on his shoulder.
"Fany, is it okay if I head to the cabin for a couple of days?"
"Hm, if you want. I just have to book a couple of days off."
"I want to go alone."
I held his hand a little tighter and shook my head meekly.
"I can't leave you alone."
"No, Fany it's nothing personal. I just want to be there for a couple of days."
"Why do you want to go?"
"I just want to be alone."
I sighed. That's his personality. He does prefer to be alone.
But my personality is different from his, I want to help him, I want to crowd his space I want to be there for him.
"What happened to dealing with it together?"
He leaned back into his chair and didn't do much but I wanted him to answer my question.
"It's not that Fany." He mumbled.
I didn't press further and muttered an okay.
"Who will take care of you. Taeyeon, you're ill. I'm scared you'll fall."
"Jonghyun will be over keeping an eye on me Fany, don't worry?"
"How long do you want to be gone for?
"Maybe 3-4 days?"
"You'll be back for Seohyun's birthday?"
"Of course, wouldn't miss it for the world." He said with a small smile.
I hummed and stroked his hair.
"What do I tell Seohyun?"
"Tell her that her fathers saving the world, slaying dragons and crushing creepy crawling bugs." He said with a smile.
I kissed his cheek and he looked at me with sincerity. "Promise me you'll be back." I whispered.
He silently hooked his pinky finger with mind promising me. He rested his head against the chair. The blanket on him shifted and I reached over to tuck it back into place.
He continued to look at the calm view, the night was already setting and the sky was that mixture of a dark purple blueish black hue.
The lamp post beside us emitted that familiar yellow orange dim light and I held his hand tighter when the night breeze was a little strong.
"Umma." I heard a faint whispered and opened my eyes.
The side of my bed felt cold and I should've expected it anyways. Taeyeon was gone to the cabin for a day now, but I didn't expect him to leave so early after he was cleared from the hospital.
I immediately stroked her head and hummed, pulling the covers up and watching her small self climb into bed with me.
She curled up to my chest and I felt her kiss my cheek.
"Why are you up so early today baby?"
"Miss you Mummy?"
I kissed the top of her head and fixed the covers on her, leaning up to see what time it was.
"Seohyun-ah, do you want to come to work with me?"
She didn't say much but play with my necklace.
I smoothed her hair out and sighed.
"Do you want a baby brother or a baby sister?" I asked carefully.
She sat up slightly and looked around for her stuffed animal. It was in my arms and I placed it on her lap and she laid back on the bed playing with the monkey.
"Seohyun?" I was afraid she didn't hear me. "Do you want a brother or sister?"
She paused and looked at me. Her innoncdnt face looked a bit confused and I laughed.
"Yes Mummy, I want!" She clapped.
"Brother? Sister?"
"Puppy." She said happily, smiling with her cute toothy grin.
I patted her little chest and pulled her closer to me.
She slept within a few gentle pats and I sighed.
I didn't press the question on further but I was just curious.
Would she want another sibling? I'd love to raise another mini-me or mini Tae.
Taeyeon wasn't here so I didn't have to wake up early to make breakfast for him so I took the liberty of asking Seohyun what she wanted for breakfast after she slept for another hour.
"Mummy, cake?" She mumbled, resting her chin on my shoulder acting cute.
"No. That's unhealthy in the morning."
"Mummy, Daddy give cake."
Oh Taeyeon, if I could strangle you I would.
I ended up just cooking for her some fried rice and gave her a small bun.
I placed a small spoon for her in her bowl and I was just quickly cleaning up some stuff when I saw her feed herself.
Usually she'd ask Taeyeon to, and be always just done it for her.
I smiled and let her eat.
Bear: Morning beautiful.
Miyoungie: Shut up, it's too early for you to flirt with me.
He sent me a sad face and told me he'd be going fishing with Jonghyun for an hour or so.
I sent him a picture of Seohyun and he filled our conversation with heart stickers, like it just wouldn't stop. It was spammed with pink hearts.
I glanced up from my phone and saw her nibbling on her rice. Half her bread was eaten and was neatly put beside her.
I frowned. I always want my baby to eat well, and that includes everything on their plate.
"Why aren't you eating your bun Seohyunie? Is it not good? Do you want me to heat it up for you again?"
I took her bun and she squealed, making grabby hands at me.
"Bun for Daddy. It Daddy favourite Mummy." She took a while sounding out the word favourite but I practically crumbled at how considerate she was.
I placed her bun back on her plate and she quietly ate her rice again.
I grabbed a tissue and gently held her hand. She took it away from me and whined, using her spoon again.
"Seohyunie, let me wipe your hand baby." I cooed. Her wide eyes looked st me for a split second before she broke out into a toothy giggle.
I sent a picture of it to Taeyeon and with it I said she missed him. I wanted him to come home.
I got the both of us ready to head to school today. I made sure she had her snacks in her bag and monkey George.
She went over and patted the the puppies and kissed them goodbye.
I patiently waited and cooed her to come to me and she when I opened the door she stood beside the door frame and looked at me.
She is quite small. I'm a bit worried. Who knows, maybe she'll grow taller than me and Taeyeon when she's older.
"What's wrong?"
"Daddy?" She said, the stuffed monkey dangling in her arms.
"He can't come remember, Daddy will be back soon."
She whined a bit and refused to step out the door, she always did this. Every time we went to the park or something she would wait for Taeyeon to finish and hold her hand, together they would always walk out together. There was a small ledge that she's always too small to walk off from and she would always terrifyingly hold Taeyeon's hand and ste down the ledge.
She always wanted Taeyeon to help her, she'd always make me carry her instead if he wasn't around.
"Seohyun." I said sternly. My hand was waiting to her to take it and she didn't even move.
"I miss Daddy."
I sighed and picked her up, closing the door and locking it while I made my way to the park.
"I miss him too." I whispered, she looked at me and smiled.
She squirmed and I placed her down letting her walk in front of me and mingle around.
She's growing up too fast, she was still so young. Still a little toddler I didn't want her to grow up that fast.
I'd like to always think she's going to be my baby.
"Hold my hand baby."
She came running to me and touched my fingers and I enveloped mine over hers.
We started walking together through the park and I walked early because I knew she'd stop and ask about everything and anything.
"Mummy, what that?"
I knelt down and touched the pretty flower, seeing her squat down beside me and look at it with such curiosity.
"It's a daisy, it's the flower your dad calls you all the time because you're as pretty as it."
She had her small fist wrapped around the stem of the flower before yanking it up from the dirt and I gasped.
Oh my god she killed it.
"Mummy, here."
"For me?"
She nodded. "Mummy you're pretty." I held the flower and watched her waddle away.
I smiled, I always loved compliments from her because they were always genuine.
Sometimes she'd call Taeyeon fat and she meant it. It was just so pure.
When we arrived she walked back to me and hid behind my legs, scared of the school.
I held her and said it was okay but she continued to stay quiet.
Today the students didn't have to come to school today but the teachers did, so we just had a meeting and stuff.
She sat on my lap while I did my work in my classroom after the meetings.
She was always a quiet little baby. She played on my lap, placing small toys on my desk and when she got bored she slipped out of my lap quietly and went around the classroom playing with other things.
She never bothered me, of course she didn't. If she had questions she'd pat my leg and wait patiently till I could answer her.
Every now and then I'd peek up from my desk and watch her, keeping an eye out on baby.
Yunho came knocking and I waved.
Although we only had met a few times after seeing him in Korea, he always came back to America to visit me and Taeyeon a couple of times.
And everytime we did meet up we'd talk for hours on end, he was just nice to talk to. He lives an interesting life anyways. He's always travelling and tells us stories.
Yunho crept quietly and saw Seo playing with wooden blocks and said hi to her.
It startled her and she got up and moved towards me, her hands full of wooden blocks wanting to move her play station to me but she never did stop looking at the man.
She quietly then made her way to me and held o to my leg, I laughed and picked her up.
"Is she afraid of me?" He said with a sad tone.
I shook my head. "She's always cautious now ever since I taught her about strangers. She's can be social just like her father once she warms up to you." I tucked the stray hairs from Seohyun's face and watched her wrap her arms around my neck still eyeing the stranger.
Yunho sat down in my chair and tilted his head, making funny faces at her and she cracked a smile.
"Uncle, Seohyunie. That's Daddy's good friend."
"Uncle?" She asked, still not sold. "I like Uncle Jongie." She mumbled. "I like Uncle Key."
"I will buy you chicken." He said sitting across from him with his legs crossed.
"Uncle, chicken?" She said excitedly. She always loved a good chicken.
He pulled her favourite chicken sandwich out of his bag and watched as she sat on his lap and ate it.
She only acted cute for more and I shrugged, I guess she takes after me.
Acting cute for things . .
"Good news, I'm moving here."
"Here, in L.A?" I asked, not looking up from my papers to contiue reading the newsletter we teachers received.
"Yeah, for awhile. I'd like to catch up with the crew before I head to India or something."
"Ooo, India."
He chuckled and sighed. "Where's Taeyeon?"
"Business trip. He won't be back for a couple of days."
Seohyun turned to Yunho and patted his chest. "Daddy. Taetae!" She said with wet eyes. She kept patting his hand as if he had the answer and means to summon Taeyeon back.
"Seohyun-ah, Taetae will come home tomorrow. Don't got Uncle."
"Uncle Yunnie." She pouted, pulling on his collar. "Taetae, please!"
"I'm sorry I cant spit out your dad. I don't even know where he is." He said, trying to persuade her but only got a pout from Seohyun.
I threw a pencil at Yunho.
" more we talk about Taeyeon the more she'll cry."
He got up and carried her in his arm, walking around the classroom trying to distract her from thinking about her father.
I gathered up all my things and picked up Seohyun's small backpack. I pulled at Yunho's arm to get his attention and he smiled, walking by me.
"Dinner? On me."
I nodded, looking at Seohyun to see if she would approve.
"Uncle Yunnie!"
I walked beside him and I naturally leaned against him, I felt myself so tired and exhausted and I didn't know from what.
I yearned for Taeyeon, I miss him.
"Are you okay?"
I nodded. "I miss him, I hope he's okay."
"I'll visit him for an hour tomorrow, if that helps ease your mind?"
I hummed. "If it doesn't bother you, yes?"
"No, it doesn't. I want to go fishing with them too."
"What's with you guys and fishing?"
"Childhood activity. I remember I hit Taeyeon with a fish by accident when I reeled it in. it went 'thump'"
I snorted. "Entertain Seohyunie for the night please, I'll bake you pie." I pulled on Seohyun's little dress and she turned around pouting.
"I like donuts better."
"Fine I'll make you donuts."
He smiled and immediately started to hop around with her in his arms, making her giggle when I didn't have the energy to.
I'm sorry my baby.
Just when it got to around dusk Yunho dropped us off home and immediately Seohyun ran to the door, trying to pull on the handles.
"Mummy! Open please!"
I hummed and slid the key in, turning it and just when I held it open for her she zipped in and ran around the living room.
"Seohyun! Come here, you need to take your shoes off!"
"Daddy? Daddy!" She yelled for him but I knew he wasn't home. Little by little her voice got smaller and smaller and it died down by the fourth and fifth call. "Daddy?" She whimpered, feeling upset.
"Seohyun. . "
"When Daddy come home?" She asked, her big for eyes made me want to give her an honest answer.
"I don't know, tomorrow maybe?" She shook her head at my answer and when I came over to pick her up she stepped away from me, playing with her hands and looking down.
"Baby. . " I called, picking her up and holding her close. I went up the stairs slowly while rubbing her back making sure she didn't start crying. She did hold it in, but I knew she was way too quiet and she was sad.
I filled the bath tub with warm water and poured some nice kid friendly soap into it and lathered it up.
She was walking around the bathtub butt naked digging in the drawer for toys to put in.
She grabbed Taeyeon's toy boat and plopped it in, watching it float on top of the water.
I placed her in the tub and watched her play with water. I leaned against the edge of the tub, resting my head on my arms.
I loved the way she just beamed innocence, she was just so pure. I loved her smile, it was genuine. She was happiness.
My baby, pelase don't be sad?
She was playing with a rubber ducky when Taeyeon texted me.
Bear: What are you two cuties doing?
Miyoungie: Giving Seohyun a bath.
Bear: Cool, cool :)
Miyoungie: What are you up to...
Bear: Nothing ^_^
Miyoungie: She misses you so much, I do think you are her favourite.
Bear: HAH! Told you so. When will you lovelies be sleeping?
Miyoungie: Why do you wanna know.
Bear: Please tell me wife :(
Miyoungie: Soon.
Bear: ...
Miyoungie: Love you.
I stopped texting him when Seo splashed water on my face
I carried her out of the tub and placed her down, quickly wrapping her up in her duck towel so she won't run away from me naked.
"No running this time baby."
'Mummy." She whined.
I laughed and pulled the towel's hood over her and made her look like a duck. I led her out of the bathroom and laid a small towel on the warm floor for her.
She sat on the towel in between her legs and I roughly dried her hair for her with the cloth. She sat patiently and I started to dry her hair with a hair dryer, my fingers combed through her pretty black hair.
I made sure it was pretty dry before dressing her and I asked her to go get her pajamas and she went into her room herself and came running back in with a silky blue one.
It was the same ones her father has, and I do too.
She came back sitting on my lap as I helped dress her and before I let her go I rubbed some lotion on her skin.
"Mummy!" She whined, wanting to squirm and run away.
"Almost done baby." I cupped her cheeks in my palm and she scrunched her face up from the lotion.
I let her zip by me and go play for a couple minutes before we were going to bed.
Just as I picked up the bottle of lotion my hand knocked over a photo frame.
I quickly picked it up and placed it back on the nightstand.
It was a portrait of me and Taeyeon on our wedding day, he looked so good all dressed up and smiley.
Maybe we should take some formal family photos, I think it'll be cute.
I folded back up some of Seo's clothes and glanced at the clock.
She should be able to sleep tonight, she didn't take a nap today.
I laughed to myself when I noticed what I do all day is just do chores, take care of Seohyun and Taeyeon
"Seohyun-ah?" I turned around, wanting to scoop her up and go to bed.
The baby gate was closed so I knew she didn't go downstairs, plus she never went unless she asked me. It was a rule I set, for safety precautions. She wasn't allowed to open it either.
I walked into her room and it was empty so I turned the light off and walked past Taeyeon's den. I heard quiet sounds coming from the room and I peeked in.
She was sitting at her fathers desk in his chair, she was so small I could only see her face.
She had wore his glasses and grabbed some of his pens and papers as she began to draw something.
My heart fluttered at the scene, she only went into Taeyeon's room when she missed him It happens at night too, every time Taeyeon wasn't here I'd allow her to sleep with me and she would always choose to sleep on his side.
"Hi. ."
"Hi Mummy."
"What are you doing?"
She shrugged and carefully placed his glasses back onto his desk.
She got off the chair carefully and ran up to me, asking me to carry her.
She started rubbing her eyes and rested her head on my shoulder.
"You miss Daddy?"
She nodded.
"Is Daddy your best friend?"
"Yes Mummy, Daddy is best friend."
I hummed. She suddenly lifted her head from my shoulder.
"What Daddy do Mummy?"
I patted her small back and sat on the bed.
"He's slaying monsters for you Seohyunie, he's saving the world." I said.
She had a small pout.
"Daddy no hurt, Mummy?"
"No, Daddy won't be hurt. He will come back to us and I will make it all better for him."
"Really Mummy?" She said, asking me if what I said was true.
I nodded and kissed her forehead, I was sure of it.
I set her on my bed and tucked her in, she was rolling around and I was trying to get her to sleep but she suddenly grabbed my phone and opened it.
She tapped the screen a couple of times and when I heard the phone dial I sat up freaking out because I didn't want her to call someone by accident.
I took it out of her hands and she started to whine but I didn't expect her to cry. That was out of character but when I saw the person on my lock screen I understood why.
She called her father. I signed, laying down and giving the phone back to her and redialling it.
I wiped her tears that happened to fall and watched her excitedly stare at the screen.
Suddenly a messy big bear of a man appeared on the screen still half asleep.
"Papa! Papa!"
"Hi, Seohyunie." He said with a hoarse chuckle.
"Daddy I miss you!"
"You say that a lot lately Seohyun."
She giggles and kisses the screen of the phone, she held it near and dear to her and I just watched with my head propped up on my hand.
"Hi Fany."
"Hey Baby, how are you?"
"Good, good."
"How was-"
"Daddy! Come home! Play with me Daddy!" Seo interrupted, it seems as if those are the only words Seohyun knows these days
I remember the days where she would just babble endlessly as a baby.
"Daddy will tell you a story, do you want to hear the story love?"
She nodded and tucked herself in my arms as I sat up leaning against the headboard. She held the phone and within the next couple of minutes Taeyeon the worlds greatest story teller went on and on.
Sound effects and all, it amused me but sent Seohyun into an endless fit of giggles and squeals.
He then calmed down and then a few moments later I found Seohyun slowly fall asleep in my arms when all her dad did was sing to her asleep.
Every time she fell too deep into her sleep she'd jolt awake and rub her eyes, struggling to stay awake just for Taeyeon.
His warm honey voice filled the quiet room and my hand was slipping from the phone, I almost fell asleep too.
I hummed and tucked her into my bed, patting her little tummy to sleep while I turned the light off to further coax her asleep.
The last thing I want her to do was to cry herself to sleep because Taeyeon wasn't here, and it happened last night. I didn't want a repeat.
She fell asleep pretty quickly and I laid beside her.
The phone was still in my hand as I did all that and when my screen was pitch black due to the light being shut off but Taeyeon was laying in bed looking as cute as ever.
"I'm sorry I woke you up. Seohyun really wanted to see you I guess."
"No that's okay." He said with a yawn, patting his own head.
"Are you okay now? How are you doing?"
"I'm doing fine babe. I'll come home tomorrow but it'll be just before dinner time."
"Seohyun's going to hate you for not spending the day with her."
"She never hates me for more than 10 minutes, it's okay." He said proudly, the video call was shaky and I knew he couldn't hold the phone still.
I went to turn on the small lamp beside me and on the dimmest setting. My fave appeared on the screen and he smiled.
"You're prettyyyyy." He dragged out the last syllable and I laughed.
"I'm glad you seem happy. You're cuter when you are."
He shrugged. "I just wanted some time to think, but all is well my dear. I will come back to my boss and little daughter."
I rolled my eyes at 'boss.' "I missed you." I whispered.
He had a tender look in his eyes and he laid down on the bed, tilting the phone screen along with him.
"I missed you too Fany." He whispered back.
I hummed, my thumb hovering above his face on the screen wanting to caress it.
"Did you cry too, Fany?"
"Hm? What do you mean."
"Seohyun cried because I wasn't home for a couple of days. Right?"
I nodded.
He furrowed his brows and even the shitty Kano in his room gave enough light to express his concern.
I shook my head. "No, I didn't cry because I knew you'd come back go me. I don't worry as much when you make promises to me." I said quietly, afraid I'd wake Seohyun up.
He smiled, he smiled like a fat cat. "Will you go on a date with me, Fany? When I get back?"
I smiled shyly in my pillow, sometimes I forget that we are married.
"Yes, I'll go on a date with you baby."
He grinned and we just looked a each other without speaking for a couple of minutes. I wish he was here, seeing him on a screen didn't satisfy me.
I wanted to touch him, I wanted to hold him.
"Will you stay video calling me till I fall asleep?" I asked. He'd do it in a heart beat, so I didn't even know why I asked.
"Of course." He nodded.
I placed the phone in between the pillows and propped it up so I could see him and he could see me.
Seohyun was sleeping soundly by now and I took an extra pillow and placed it beside her. I was just taking extra precautions. . mothers.
I settled back into bed and he made himself comfy.
I smiled at him and within a few moments he sighed.
"Sleep, my sunshine. I love you." He said huskily, nodding too.
I touched the screen gently, a single finger touching him.
Gentle bear.
It had to be around 10 in the morning when I woke up and started to watch Seo sleep.
She's the cutest when she's asleep, like a small puppy.
She rolled around bed slightly before trying to sit up looking for me.
"Happy birthday baby." I mumbled loud enough for her to hear. She turned around and grumpily slid into my arms.
I caressed her cheek and kissed her, she drowsily curled up into my arms and stayed quiet.
A lot like her father. .
"I love you my baby bear."
"Mummy I love you too." She hugged me.
She wanted to sleep more from the looks of it and I let her.
An hour later I was sitting at the desk doing some paperwork when I found her quietly sitting up, hair so unruly and she patted the empty spot.
At this point I was just killing time till Taeyeon came home.
"U-Umma." She whined.
I"I'm here baby."
She looked over and climbed out of our giant bed. Her legs could barely touch the floor but when it did she came toddling over to me.
"Mummy I miss you." She whined.
I patted her back and coaxed her awake, I brought her to the bathroom to get her ready and freshened her up.
I brought her downstairs and stopped when there was a white grand piano in the middle of the living room wrapped up in one gigantic ribbon.
Seohyun squealed and squirmed to be out down and I let her go. She quickly approached the piano and touches the side of it gently before trying to climb up the tall piano bench.
I smiled when there was Seohyun's full name etched on the side in small gold print.
I helped her up the bench and sat beside her, removing the covers and she immediately touched the keys.
Fucking Taeyeon emerged out of nowhere and scared the shit out of me.
I let out a blood curdling scream almost ready to kill the intruder.
I slapped the back of his head and frowned at him.
He only ever chuckled and bent down to see Seohyun jumping around him excitedly. "Happy birthday, my baby bear Seohyunie." He cooed.
"Papa!" She smiled and hugged him. She missed him so much.
"Taetae." I mumbled, kissing his cheek.
"Hey love, how are you?" He asked, looking as charming as ever as he held my waist.
I frowned and slapped his chest particularly hard.
"How did you even fit this without making sound?! How did you come home why didn't I hear you!
"Fany."
"I can't believe you, don't scare me like that I thought you were an intruder I would've killed you to protect Seohyun!"
"Fany."
"No, how dare you-"
"You saw the name on the piano, you had to know it was me." He whined, holding on to my hand.
The more I thought about it the more he was right, but I wasn't going to tell him he was right. I didn't want to be wrong.
I just glared at him and when Seohyun starts smashing the keys to get our attention we both tried to squeeze onto the same piano bench.
"Papa! I like!"
"You like it darling? I'm glad!"
She nodded and pulled onto his pants. He put her on his lap and I watched as those two fooled around.
I smiled at the thought of him coming home on her birthday. He always keeps his promises.
I didn't know how many gifts he bought her because for her first birthday he filled the entire living room with gifts. I yelled at him for an hour for spending so much on her.
Taeyeon got up announcing he had another gift. I sighed, not sure what I expected.
He shooed her to the balcony and she made sure she held his hand before stepping over the ledge. Tae made her sit on the small wooden stool he made for her and as soon as her tush touched the chair he zipped by me in the living room and picked up her small shoes.
He brought them back to her and helped her slip them on for her.
"I wouldn't want your little feetsies to get owie my love." He patted her leg and got up from squatting down.
"Papa, thank you!" Seo said so cheerfully.
He opened the outdoor small oven thing and popped in a couple of coals, he lit it up and Seohyun watched in amazement at fire.
"Fany-ah, would you pass me the black bag?"
I kicked it over to him and he frowned, I stood beside him just curious to what he was doing but he slapped my thigh playfully as punishment.
"Papa, potato!" She squealed, pointing at rhe black plastic bag full of her favourite snacks.
"Sweet potatoes my little darling, your favourite." He cooed. Tae started to loading the oven up wth the potatoes and covered them with coal.
In the meantime while we waited he brought her inside and let her play with her new piano that was so obnoxiously big.
He went all out on this, it must've cost a fortune.
Tae had Seo sitting on his lap as she played a couple of keys, imitating Taeyeon with whatever key he pressed.
I loved the praise he gave her, it was cute and it made her smile.
But I couldn't help but stare at the trembling hand that was resting on the side of the piano.
Oh my god.
"Fany? Fany? Are you okay?" I quickly snapped out of my face and nodded.
"Papa, potato please!"
He laughed and got off the piano, he carried her in one arm and bent down to open the oven. He started poking st the cooked potatoes with a metal rod and when one came out she stared at it.
"Papa it look like rock. Papa! It poo!" She whined.
"No! It's just . . baked. You'll love the taste, grandpa taught me how to do it baby!"
He grabbed one and started throwing it between his hands.
"Hot, hot, hot, hot. Ow."
When it cooked down He quickly peeled the skin off and revealed the marvellous orange creamy colour.
I think Seohyun fell in love, she's never seen her favourite snack like this before.
"Papa, give please!" She started making grabby hands and when Taeyeon stood up she followed him around, she started going around him in circles too marching quietly tugging at his shirt occasionally.
The whole time Taeyeon was blowing on the hot sweet potato to cool it down for her.
"Daddy."
"Taetae."
"Hold on I'm making sure it's safe so she won't burn her mouth or something."
He sat on the small stool and she's came running to him. She climbed onto his lap and he had an arm securing her to him.
I sat across from them and watched silently, seeing Taeyeon feed her small chunks of her favourite snack to her.
"Do you miss me or do you miss your potato more Seohyunie?"
She quietly munched and I too was curious with what she'd say. Obviously I thought she'd lean more towards the vegetable.
"Daddy, I miss you big much!" She said, widening her arms showing her how big is big much.
He laughed whole heartedly and kissed the top of her head.
I went over to them and kissed them both, squatting in front of Seohyun I placed a warm palm on her cheek.
"I love you Seohyunie. Happy birthday."
"Thank you Mummy!" She clapped with a toothy grin.
I glanced at Tae who couldn't stop adoring her and I patted his cheek too.
I gave him that look only long time lovers get and he smiled. With the cutest giggles they both made I started heading upstairs, knowing those two have some time to catch up on.
I haven't slept properly in a couple of days, but I can now.
He came into the room and laid beside me quietly.
His hand crept around my tummy.
He suddenly let go of me and I felt the bed shuffle. I had no idea what the hell he was doing but he lifted the covers up.
I turned around squinting at him. "What are you doing."
He kept staring st my chest and I slapped his arm.
"You have a really pretty back Fany."
"You woke me up to tell me that?"
He nodded and I turned around again, huffing in my pillow.
I felt him come closer to me and his lips were pressed against various places on my back, he kissed me here and there and I just let him.
"You're pretty." He said dreamily.
"Taeyeon it's 2 in the morning, I cant put up with your cheesy shit." I mumbled.
He kissed my shoulder and laughed.
"You're so blunt."
"Mm."
I held his hand gently and closed my eyes, loving the warmth he gave me that I missed.
"I missed you Taetae."
"I had a great time without you nagging me but I missed Seohyun so much- Ow."
"Say it again, say you missed me as much as I missed you."
"I'm not that desperate." He said with a shrug.
I gasped. I turned around and shoved his shoulder lightly.
"Oh, Mr. Not-That-Desperate. Why are you home then?"
"Because I missed Seohyun. . . and you." He has that smug smile and I slapped his ass, rolling over him and getting off the bed.
"Where are you going?"
I turned around and winked at him and he sat up leaning against the headboard. I went into the closet and put on my laciest panties and bra I could find. I picked up his white button up that was draped over the chair and wore it. I covered myself loosely with his favourite silk robe and I'm pretty sure I heard him gasp.
I came out, stepping gingerly and gracefully on the hard wood floor and he had his hand behind his head looking surprised.
"Whoa."
"Like what you see?"
"Uh, no not that desperate." He said, nodding to himself.
I took off my robe slowly, dropping it on the floor as I felt the bed dip from my weight. I slowly crawled him and he immediately sat up straighter, his brows hiking up.
He still had that gigantic smug smile on his face, probably happy that he's getting laid.
He had his hands trailing up the side of my thigh before resting it on my waist and I slapped them away.
"Mr. Not-That-Desperate, you don't get to touch." I purred, kissing the side of his jaw lightly.
He sighed and lowered his hands. I sat on his lap and rubbed his arm, smiling at him teasingly.
He didn't seem to budge so I shoved him roughly agaisnt the headboard and he hit his head. He frowned and rubbed his head but started to slip down from the headboard and I pressed him down to make him lay on the bed.
I had a hand propping myself up beside his head and I slapped the nightstand, my other hand pulling on drawers. I felt the tube of lipstick and took it out. I pulled the cap off and with one hand beside him and the other hand on the lipstick tube I started applying some on my lips. My teasing eyes met his and he licked his lips, he frown getting deeper.
"Say it."
He grunted and continued to look obsessed with me.
"Say it." I teased again, applying the last bit of it on my lips.
He didn't say jack shit so I hovered above him, right over his lips and he squirmed just a bit. He leaned up to try to kiss me but I had two fingers pressed agaisnt his lips with my fastest reflexes.
"I'm desperate, my stupid ass is so desperate for you." He mumbled in defeat against his fingers and I giggled.
I win.
He hovered above me and kissed me deeply, I felt his hands touch my shirt and tug at it.
"Don't." I paused, still nibbling on his lip. "Rip it."
"It's not even a nice shirt, it's my shirt." He retorted, hand squeezing my mound before I smacked it away for wrinkling my shirt.
"I bought it." I shot back. Well I bought it for him.
"You look better without it." He happened to say, hand sneaking its way back up my chest.
I pushed him back gently and he pulled away.
I felt him rub himself on my leg, his massive length was hard to miss when it was the only hard thing protruding out.
He buried his head into my neck and my hand trailed down from his back and circling to the front.
I teased him with gentle touches on his abs, going further down feeling that infamous V.
I heard his shaky breath and I pulled at the waist band of his boxer briefs, letting it go and leaving it to snap back at his waist.
I loved the feel of his grey sweatpants so much that I couldn't help but suddenly cup his clothed member.
I heard his first groan and bit my lip, squeezing his harshly before stroking its outline.
I felt him harden further in my hand and I bit on his ear.
"You like that baby?"
He nodded meekly.
"Would you like it if I did this?" I slid my hand in between his boxers and cupped his growing warmth.
I heard his breath hitch and he slightly squirmed.
I wrapped my fingers around him properly, my small hand always had trouble since he was so . . big.
The velvety smoothness of the skin was nice, but it felt like hard steel underneath.
I gripped his massive length and stroked it, the palm of my hand hitting the base of his excited member.
Slowly I went, just gliding my hand to it and every time I got to the tip I circled my thumb over his slit feeling that wetness that was there.
He had trouble keeping himself together as he tried to busy himself by kissing me.
But when I squeezed hard st the base of his member he groaned, his forehead pressed against mine and he had closed his eyes.
I moved lower and missed the middle of his neck, my free hand lingering on his nape and he really had trouble.
"F-Fany. . faster . . harder. ."
I felt him twitch and he bucked his hips into my hand and I wanted every part of him.
"Taeyeon. ."
"Fany I'm going to-"
"Hm." I hummed, speeding up my strokes.
His harsh breaths were easier to hear now and I didn't know what was hotter than me driving him crazy.
He shuddered as he pressed himself on my shoulder, he let out a satisfying moan and drilled as he shot his arousal in my hand, the wet sticky mess coating my palm.
I kept stroking him, letting him ride it out. I murmured sweet nothings into his ear every now and then I'd kiss behind his ear.
Baby bear was panting by then.
I pushed him to lay on his back, sitting on top of him I stroked his cock and when he was still laying on the bed looking at me panting he already grew harder by the second.
I hummed, leaning down to kiss his tip, but I felt a bit of wetness on my lips. I smirked, pulling away to see pre-cum dribble down the sides of his cock and onto my hand.
It got me so excited to know only I could turn him on like this.
"Tiff-" He gulped and I kissed the side of his cock, letting my tongue touch his hard member tasting that pre-cum.
"Mm." My tongue traveled up the trail of pre-cum, licking his leaking slit and swirling my tongue around his sensitive knob. I led sloppy kisses down his cock, hearing him hiss whenever I let my tongue lick him in the most sensitive of places.
When I reached his balls I gave it a teasing squeeze before teasing it with small licks of my tongue.
I soon felt his hand in my hair, pulling on it gently yet pressing my head down for me to take him further.
I slipped his balls in, it was so tender and it filled my mouth while I sucked on it harshly. My hand never stopped pumping his long hard length.
"F-Fuck, Fany." He groaned, thrusting his hips up desperate.
I giggled, letting go of his balls I swept my hair over my shoulder and held his cock, giving it a teasing kick before pressing my tongue flat up against the side of his precious member.
"You want me?" I asked teasingly.
He nodded slowly, closing his eyes when I blew on his sensitive cock.
I held him by the base squeezing it teasingly before taking the first few inches of his fat cock. I hummed at the feeling of my mouth being utterly full of his engorged member and he seemed to like it by the way he grabbed the sheets of the bed.
His hand still lost on my hair he encouraged me to take him further but I didn't let up. His soft low groans turned me on and I sucked slowly.
I felt so slick around his cock but he suddenly pushed my head down and I took him a further few inches. His thick cock reaching the back of my throat it made me gag just from the side, but I started to suck him harder, as punishment.
"Mmm, fuck." He hissed.
Taeyeon's cock was throbbing, as if it was ready to blow. His cock as a bright shade of red, and I knew he was going to. "I'm going to cum." He muttered as I bobbed my head up and down on him. But I held his base, letting my lips go from his member with a pop.
"No, you're not." I teased, licking his tip like a kitten.
"Fany." He groaned out, doing a mini sit up but my hand trailed up his body, pushing on his pec to lay down.
I sat on his cock, my pussy aligned right on top of it but I didn't take my now drenched panties off.
It felt so good, how his hot cock was so thick, so long, so fucking big and hot that was pressed up against my clothed clit.
I started to grind myself on him, biting my lip when it felt too good. I couldn't stop imagining him inside of me.
He placed his hand on my waist but I slapped them away, glaring at him. "What part of me being in charge don't you understand, Kim?"
"But Ms. Hwang-"
"That's Mrs. Kim to you, Mr. I'm-Not-That-Desperate." I teased and he nodded meekly.
I held onto shirt, my fists balled up with it as I kept grinding on him. I was already so wet, and the entire time Taeyeon but his lip trying not to blow his load.
"Fany-" I shook my head.
"Don't cum." I groaned, going faster and pressing myself harder against him till I couldn't anymore and came on top of him, halting my hips and laying still.
I let go of his shirt, climbing back down slowly I thought I'd reward him.
"Please-" I cut him off when I held his erection firmly.
I took his cock all the way in, engulfing his whole length and I stayed still, deep throating him for seconds but to him felt like an eternity.
He didn't expect that because he soon did a little sit up, pushing my head down further and he thrusted his hips hoping to fuck my mouth and make the deep throat last longer.
"Tiffany-" He growled, and he started to cum. Ropes of cum started to coat the back of my throat and I let go, letting his dick go with a pop he was still cumming and I held onto his base, stroking up and down as he blew his load onto my face.
Cum started to dribble out slowly from his dick and I licked him clean, sucking his cock lovingly I didn't want any of that cum to go to waste.
I let him bask in the image of his thick white arousal all over my face as I scooped every bit of it and swallowed it.
I held his softening member and he kissed my forehead gently.
I reached for a box of tissue and cleaned my hand, kissing him gently as I did.
"Baby. ."
"You win Fany, you win." He said out of breath. I had a victorious smile on his face but all he ever wanted to do was just sleep.
He laid on his back and pulled my close, kissing me deeply. His hand trailed up my leg and tugged at the waist and of my panties.
I smiled, knowing where this night was going.
My lipstick was already fading by then.
I was peeling vegetables when Seohyun came out of the room all drowsy looking from her nap. "Hi baby, woke up from your nap?" She nodded and looked around, spotting her beloved best friend and dashing to him like a little mouse.
"Daddy!" The little call startled him from his nap and I thought he was walking TV, but I guess he was tired.
"Hey little one." I watched as he picked her up gently and kissed her on the cheek, but when she pointed to the window I stopped peeling the carrot and leaned against the counter.
"Daddy, outside and play?"
"You wanna play outside?"
She nodded and anything she wanted Taeyeon would give it to her.
But I didn't have the heart to tell her that her father wasn't feeling well and should probabaly stay inside for the best.
I watched from the kitchens s those two played games in the backyard doing what they do best which is playing.
I noticed how Taeyeon had trouble keeping up with our toddler with the limo in his foot but other than that he seemed fine.
I dropped the pork into the soup and stirred it, checking on it every once in awhile taking care of it because I knew how much Taeyeon loved it.
Plus, it was good for him.
"Babies, time for dinner!" I called.
Seohyun raced back inside but Taeyeon was merely jogging and all he did was just straight up pant.
He walked back inside panting, and I wiped my hands on the kitchen towel.
"Taeyeon?"
"I feel so weak, and not energetic." He said, holding onto the edge of the table.
"Taeyeon . ." I came over to him and patted his chest, I got him to sit down at the dinning table and I wiped the sweat from his head.
I slid the glass of water to him and he downed it quickly, his hand was slightly trembling and I kissed him.
I tended to the pot of soup and when it was just ready I glanced up to see him just stare at his lap.
He didn't say much but when I placed dinner in front of him he asked if he could eat later.
I nodded, getting Seohyun into her high chair but when he didn't leave the table I was worried.
I fed Seohyun normally and let her play with her food but my mind couldn't stop thinking about Taeyeon.
What are you thinking about, my bear?
A couple of minutes later I let Seohyun go and play.
I heard Taeyeon pick up the spoon and it clinked against the glass bowl.
I glanced at the man seated at the table having trouble scooping rice into his mouth.
With every scoop full he lifted into his mouth, his hands shook and trembled, sending bits of his food flying back into the plate.
He tries again, and again, growing overly frustrated as he couldn't even eat.
When he did manage to get the spoon in his mouth, he ate 1 measly small pea that just was lucky enough to stay.
He dropped the spoon onto the table and stared at it, brows furrowing as he slowly looked down at his hands.
He looked so frustrated and I never want to see that look on him again. It didn't suit him, it made him look so small.
I walked over to him and placed a hand on his shoulder. He looked up at me with a sad smile.
I sat down on the chair beside him and picked up the wooden spoon, dipping it into his plate and bringing it to his mouth.
He looked at me confused but as our gazes lingered he caught on and opened his mouth and let me feed him.
Spoonfuls by spoonfuls the plate was scraped off clean. I reached over to grab a napkin before wiping his mouth clean.
He chuckled as I cleaned him up, my hands never stopped grooming my favourite man.
"My handsome Taetae."
"That's me." He said, he brushed off what just happened right now really well but my heart ached at the sight.
It's getting worse, he's defnitnely not well.
"I'll always take care of you Taetae."
"I know, I know." I patted his shoulder and went off to do dishes. He went back sitting on the couch, putting on my favourite show to watch when i was doen with chores.
He took a nap for an hour by the time I finished.
I was in the room shuffling through the hospital bills and papers, I had a hard time not understanding why there wasn't a diagnosis yet.
I wanted to move hospital but the one we were at was the best of the best, I wanted answers.
I don't know what the hell was wrong with him and it's just . . so overwhelming when we're billed for things that I don't even know what they mean or do.
"Dad, I cant lose him." I had said, stirring the cup of coffee with a spoon.
"Miyoung."
"It's not fair! I've fought so hard for him! We went through everything together and now he's going to leave!"
"It's not his choice to leave." My dad said firmly.
"You think I don't know that? I can't let him leave but there's nothing I can do and it's killing me!"
"Stop blaming yourself right now Miyoung."
I grabbed the tissue that was on the table and crumpled it up in my hand, I was more frustrated than sad.
"I don't want Seohyun to go through what I went through. When mom passed I could barely handle it."
"Of course, but there's nothing you can do but be hopeful Miyoung."
"It's worse because Seohyun adores him so much, she loves him a lot and there isn't a day where he isn't making her laugh or being the best father he could possibly be." I gulped and buried my face into my hands. "There isn't a day where he's loving me unconditonally. He fought so hard, it's not fair." I whispered.
He stood up and pulled me into a side hug, my head rested against his chest hearing his heartbeat. I felt the tender caressed only my father could produce to calm me down.
"Fany?"
I quickly shoved the papers into my drawer. "Hm?"
"It's bad isn't it?" He figured, walking over to me.
I gulped.
"I know, I'm just a time bomb waiting to just . . I don't have enough time." He said nonchalantly scratching the back of his head.
What made me upset was how he could easily say that. I didn't know how he could say that but it pissed me off.
"No! Don't say that Taeyeon!" I yelled, startling him.
"Fany. ."
"I don't want to hear it! Stop it!" I shouted, my voice was already breaking.
"I don't have much time to live Fany, I'm dy-"
"Stop!" I screamed at him, probably waking up Seohyun but I had so much on my mind already. Tears filled my vision and I grabbed a coat and my purse on the chair, running down the stairs and picking up a set of car keys.
"Fany!"
I ignored his call.
I was barefoot walking to one of the cars and I opened the door, throwing the things in my arms on the passenger seat before slamming the door shut.
"Kim Miyoung!" He slammed the car windshield and it startled me, how he got here so fast.
He yanked opened the car door that I forgot to lock and he unbuckled my seatbelt, grabbing onto my waist.
I was such a mess, I kept hitting him while sobbing and he just stood there like always taking each hit and patiently waiting for my outburst to settle down.
He wrapped his arms around me and I was so close to him, I felt his warmth and I gave up fighting back. "When it gets hard, you do not leave. I promised you this when I asked you to move in with me. I'd like to think it applies to you too."
I was pulled onto his lap and when I calmed down I heard his breathing, he was panting.
I glanced up to see him having trouble catching his breathe and I wanted to kick myself for making him run out after me like this knowing he can easily exhaust himself.
"I will run across the world for you, even if it kills me." He said breathlessly.
"No. . Taeyeon don't do that . . don't say that." I begged quietly. "Don't go, Taeyeon please don't go I'll miss you." I kissed his cheek and pulled on his collar. "I feel robbed, we haven't lived for a long time together yet and now it's like it's ending."
He hummed and held me tighter. We sat out in the open of our garage just in each others arms as I kept crying.
"Where were you planning to go?" He asked, hand still rubbing the side of my arm.
"Your mothers." Again.
"Mom?"
"I was going to tell her to yell at you for being a stupid punk bitch." I wiped the tears away from my face and shoved him. "I was going to tell her you made me cry too."
"Jesus Christ, she would've haunted my ass and made me trip over all of Seohyun's toys."
"Watch out Taeyeon, I won't hesitate." I warned, wrapping my arms around his neck. I wanted to breathe him in again, afraid I'd lose the scent of him.
"Don't worry about me, I will take care of myself and you and Seohyun, I will not go anywhere Fany."
"Promise? I feel lost if you're not here." I said, my fingers playing with his till I held onto his pinky.
"I promise, you won't be lost. I will guide you my sunshine."
2 Months Later
I lifted him up from his chair, staggering in my spot as he struggled to stand up right. He limply looped his arms around my shoulders to steady himself, his whole body was already trembling.
"Taetae, Baby steps."
He took the tiniest steps and I shuffled along him, his weight was almost fully on me and I got more upset the more steps he took.
It hurt him so much, he could walk only if I helped him.
There were days where he would refuse to get out of bed because it hurt so much, but some days he was fine. I never knew. Night time was the worst, sometimes he could sleep properly and other days he would lay there quietly trying to sleep through the pain but he never could.
I'd stay up with him, trying to soothe him.
He took a seat on the stool and sighed, not letting go of my dress he managed to clutch tightly in his trembling fist.
"Fany, I don't want to take the photo looking like this." He said with a frown, blowing the strand of hair that happened to fall.
I tucked the loose strand back up into his nicely groomed hair. "You're as handsome as can be honey." I pulled on his tie and loosened it just a bit, my fingers went to tuck the strays of hair sticking out of his slicked back hair.
"But I don't feel handsome, and I certainly don't act like it. I'm crippled . ."
"Don't say that baby, you always are to me." I kissed his cheek and patted down his suit jacket.
I heard tiny steps come to me.
"Seohyunie, come to Papa." he said, patting ih lap.
She walked over to him and he placed her on his lap, talking to her and giving her kisses to the point that it annoyed her and she started giggling.
"Are we ready Mrs. Kim?" The photographer asked.
I glanced at my two babies and smiled. "Yeah."
"Say 'kimchi!'" Taeyeon joked, smiling as handsome as can be. He made Seohyun smile brightly too.
A family photo worth framing, I couldn't want to see this on top of my dresser every morning.
I was holding Taeyeon's hand as he slowly walked me to our car. Seohyun was already there, tapping the car's door wanting to get in.
"Where are we going after this?"
"I don't know, is there somewhere you want to go?" I asked.
He shook his head. "You can pick, I can't say no anyways." Tae joked, bringing oru clasped hands to his lips and giving my hand a kiss.
I studied him a bit more, knowing he was exhausted from moving around so much. The limp in his foot was never going to help. "Let's go home?"
"Sure." He didn't question it and opened the door for Seohyun.
He strapped her in the cars eat and sat beside her.
I got into the driver's side and started the car.
A couple of minutes when I found it too quiet I glanced at the rear view mirror finding him asleep holding Seohyun's hand.
She snoozed quietly, leaning against the car seat's head rest.
I turned the music down lower, trying to be as quiet as I could and drive slowly too, not wanting to wake them up.
Just when I placed Seohyun in her bed upstairs to sleep I walked back downstairs about to prepare dinner.
Taeyeon was laying on the couch watching TV, but all I heard was is loud exasperated sighs.
"Why does Seohyun have to take a nap." He asked, turning around with a pout.
"Because she needs the sleep and it's better for her. I want her to sleep well at night too."
"But that means she doesn't get to play with me."
"Taeyeon! You're like old!"
"Fany . . games just don't cut it anymore you know. I wanna play with my little baby."
"Welp, since you have so much time can you pay the bills?"
"No that's boring adult stuff."
"That's life, suck it up loser."
He stuck his tongue out at me and shuffled to the kitchen, trying to get a spoon out of the drawer to taste my curry.
"No! It's not done yet!"
"Just a little taste wife, please!"
I swatted his hand away and blocked him from the pot.
"I will murder you."
He frowned and reached behind me, taking a big fat spoon of fried rice and shoveling it in his mouth as fast as he could. I just stood there with my mouth wide open wondering how he could shove so much in his mouth.
He threw the spoon in the sink and turned around looking like a chipmunk. He ran away from me but before he did he opened the fridge and took a can of beer out. He even reached into the freezer and took my tub of ice cream out.
"Taeyeon!"
"What."
"It's almost dinner, no ice cream!"
"Wife. Please."
I ran back to him on the couch and desperately reached for my ice cream. "It's mint, you don't even like mint chocolate chip!"
"I do now, please Fany!" He said, tucking it in his arm.
I laid on top of him and shoved his shoulder gently.
"Taetae." I whined.
"Taetae." He mimicked, mocking me.
Then I heard Seohyun's whimper and sat up on his lap. He looked at me confused and I pointed upstairs.
"Our baby woke up."
"How the hell do you hear that?"
"Mother's instinct." I said, grabbing the tub from his arm. "Go save your baby."
He nodded and quickly rolled away from me. "On it, boss."
I smiled to myself and got up, placing the tub on the counter as I cooked dinner.
My phone kept ringing and I kept looking at it, Yunho couldn't stop messaging me about how Taeyeon keeps leaving him on read.
I laughed and told him it was just a habit of Taeyeon, he never means to leave everyone on read. Not that I can relate, if he leaves me on read I'll kill him.
By the time I placed my phone down the oven was done with the lasagna I had baked. Those two weren't down here and I got annoyed.
"Taeyeon! Dinner! Where's my baby?!"
I took my dish out of the oven and placed it on the counter for it to cool but when I wasn't met with an answer I stopped and placed my towel on the counter.
"Taeyeon?" I called again, frowning when I heard silence.
I began to walk around the room and checked the bathroom downstairs. Even Seohyun wasn't making a sound so I got pretty concerned.
I couldn't find where he is but when I heard Seohyun call out 'Daddy' I turned my head to that direction and walked over to the stairs.
He was laying there struggling to reach for the gate but he couldn't pull himself up the stairs no more.
"Taeyeon!"
He heard me call him and he turned to me his arm still outreaching wanting to unlock the gate to see his daughter, he couldn't pull himself forward.
It was so heartbreakingly unfair.
"Miyoungie." He said with tremblings lips, his eyes were already glossy and he started to choke on his tears when I hugged him.
I propped him back up and he leaned against the wall shaking his head.
"I-I can't do it. F-Fany I can't even get to my daughter." He said shakily, wiping his tears away harshly.
"Shh." I cooed, rubbing the side of his head.
"Daddy?" I heard Seohyun say quietly and I glanced up at the stairs to see her holding the bars of the gate and crying quietly.
I quickly unlocked it and held her, walking back down and sitting on the floor beside Taeyeon.
"Papa, happy?"
He shook his head.
"No, darling I'm not happy." He mumbled, refusing to look at her.
Seohyun crawled into her father's lap and buried her head into his chest, wrapping her small arms around his neck.
I had a hand on his leg, rubbing it lightly
"Where is it hurting, Taeyeon?"
"My back, I feel like I have no physical strength." He said, sighing loudly. I heard the tremble in his lips.
"I-I. . one moment I'm okay and the next moment . . what the fuck is this. Fany, help me." He hugged Seohyun tight and kissed her, rubbing her back.
He sobbed, he choked on his tears and he had a shaky hand on top of mine.
"Daddy, no cry." Seohyun muttered, looking up at him.
I looked up trying to keep my tears at bay. I had to be strong.
"You'll be okay, Taeyeon."