Lexa went to Shalimar's door and knocked.
"Come in Lexa."
"How'd you know it was me?"
"I'm a feral remember? You shouldn't be all that amazed that I knew it was you."
Lexa jumped back a bit shocked by Shalimar's sarcasm.
"Look Lexa, I'm sorry and I didn't mean to snap at you. It's just that I hate when people think they can read me. Brennan apparently thinks I'm very readable. He thinks that I am angry with him for not preventing this tragedy from happening to Jess. And do you want to know something Lexa he was right. I do blame him. I have no right to blame him but deep down I do blame him! What the hell is wrong with me? All the signs point to him not being able to stop it. If it could have been stopped then Jesse would have surely fazed to prevent himself from getting injured. Right? Why didn't he faze Lexa?"
"Because it happened to quickly that's why Shal. You said it yourself. If Jess could have fazed he would have and if Brennan could have prevented it he would have."
"You know what really hurts is that Brennan was right about me. I should be ashamed at myself for not only betraying his heart but for thinking he could have saved me from all this torment by stopping James from shooting him. I hate myself for feeling this way. My emotions are so screwed up right not. I've hurt Brennan. I want to go and find this James person and kill him myself but of course neither you nor Brennan will tell me his name!"
"And in your state of mind which you admitted yourself is totally screwed up right now, do you honestly believe telling you his last name is an option worth exploring right now? Believe me Shal it's not the road I'm willing to take with you right now. Especially when the outcome could possibly be your death."
"Help me then Lexa. I feel so lost right now. I don't know who to turn to for help especially when the list of people that I could turn to is so limited. I don't have my family to fall back on. Adam and Emma are gone and I've probably lost Brennan too. I'm so sure he hates me right now. I don't blame him if he does. And even though I can talk to Jesse it's not the same when he can't answer me back. Lexa you and I have never been all that close but if you ever stop talking to me...."
Shal burst into tears unable to finish. Lexa sat down by her and tried comforting her.
"It's going to be okay Shal. I promise that I will talk to you as long as you like. I mean like you said we haven't really been all that close but, lately we have talked more than in the past. Brennan is upset right now but, I know he will never stop being your friend. And in time you will be able to sit and talk alone again without so much tension in the air. He's always going to be there for you. And Shal look at me and have faith when I tell you Jesse will be okay. Your love for him alone will help pull him through this. It will give him the strength to overcome any outcome from his injury."
With a reassuring smile she rose off the bed.
"I'm going to the kitchen to make something to eat and you ma'am are coming with me. Do you honestly feel all Jesse wants to see when he wakes up is a skeleton in the place of the woman he loves?"
"No, I think he'd be pretty upset with me for not taking proper care of myself."
"All right then lets go get something to eat." With that said Lexa grabbed her arm and led her to the kitchen. They found Brennan there already. Soon all three were sitting around eating and talking about a whole lot of nothing. The only exception was that there were three and there should be four. Just then the phone rang. Shal jumped up eager to answer it but was pulled back down by Lexa.
"Shalimar let the machine get it."
"What if it's the doctor calling us about Jesse?"
"It's not."
"And how do you know this Brennan?"
"Because I gave him my cell number and told him to call that with news first. That way we'd know it was definitely news about Jesse as opposed to calling the regular phone because we screen the calls to that number."
"Okay then, there you have it Shal. Now let's finish eating."
"Fine, mother," she said with a smirk on her face and a gleam in her eyes. It was a reassuring sight to Lexa to see that on her again.
Meanwhile at the clinic:
"Where did I put that number? I can't believe I misplaced it. Brennan told me to put it somewhere safe so I could call it right away when there was a change in Jesse's condition." Although he knew he was the only one in the clinic and talking out loud to the air was foolish he couldn't stop himself.
"I might just as well continue trying the regular phone at sanctuary."
While he continued to try calling Jesse in the other room had opened his eyes trying to take in his unfamiliar surroundings. All he could think was where was he, why did he have a fuzzy feeling going on in his head right now and why couldn't he feel his legs. He decided to see if he was truthfully alone by calling out a weak but audible hello.
The doctor who was only in the next room cam rushing in.
"Well, well look who finally woke up. Tell me Jesse how do you feel?"
"I can feel some pain but nothing unbearable," which he was sure the medication dripping from the I.V. was helping with the pain issues at the moment. I can't feel my legs though."
The doctor could see the fear in the young mans eyes and tried to reassure him that it was only temporary.
"You've been unconscious for a few days and that is probably just a temporary reaction of your body to help it heal. I'm betting even though you've been unconscious for a while you're feeling a bit sleepy. So I want you to rest and when you wake up Shalimar will have returned."
Jesse smiled when he heard her name. He did feel sleepy and soon had drifted back into an unconscious slumber. This was a good thing because he might not have liked the doctors' next statement.
"She'll be here even if I have to go to sanctuary and bring her back myself."
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"Come in Lexa."
"How'd you know it was me?"
"I'm a feral remember? You shouldn't be all that amazed that I knew it was you."
Lexa jumped back a bit shocked by Shalimar's sarcasm.
"Look Lexa, I'm sorry and I didn't mean to snap at you. It's just that I hate when people think they can read me. Brennan apparently thinks I'm very readable. He thinks that I am angry with him for not preventing this tragedy from happening to Jess. And do you want to know something Lexa he was right. I do blame him. I have no right to blame him but deep down I do blame him! What the hell is wrong with me? All the signs point to him not being able to stop it. If it could have been stopped then Jesse would have surely fazed to prevent himself from getting injured. Right? Why didn't he faze Lexa?"
"Because it happened to quickly that's why Shal. You said it yourself. If Jess could have fazed he would have and if Brennan could have prevented it he would have."
"You know what really hurts is that Brennan was right about me. I should be ashamed at myself for not only betraying his heart but for thinking he could have saved me from all this torment by stopping James from shooting him. I hate myself for feeling this way. My emotions are so screwed up right not. I've hurt Brennan. I want to go and find this James person and kill him myself but of course neither you nor Brennan will tell me his name!"
"And in your state of mind which you admitted yourself is totally screwed up right now, do you honestly believe telling you his last name is an option worth exploring right now? Believe me Shal it's not the road I'm willing to take with you right now. Especially when the outcome could possibly be your death."
"Help me then Lexa. I feel so lost right now. I don't know who to turn to for help especially when the list of people that I could turn to is so limited. I don't have my family to fall back on. Adam and Emma are gone and I've probably lost Brennan too. I'm so sure he hates me right now. I don't blame him if he does. And even though I can talk to Jesse it's not the same when he can't answer me back. Lexa you and I have never been all that close but if you ever stop talking to me...."
Shal burst into tears unable to finish. Lexa sat down by her and tried comforting her.
"It's going to be okay Shal. I promise that I will talk to you as long as you like. I mean like you said we haven't really been all that close but, lately we have talked more than in the past. Brennan is upset right now but, I know he will never stop being your friend. And in time you will be able to sit and talk alone again without so much tension in the air. He's always going to be there for you. And Shal look at me and have faith when I tell you Jesse will be okay. Your love for him alone will help pull him through this. It will give him the strength to overcome any outcome from his injury."
With a reassuring smile she rose off the bed.
"I'm going to the kitchen to make something to eat and you ma'am are coming with me. Do you honestly feel all Jesse wants to see when he wakes up is a skeleton in the place of the woman he loves?"
"No, I think he'd be pretty upset with me for not taking proper care of myself."
"All right then lets go get something to eat." With that said Lexa grabbed her arm and led her to the kitchen. They found Brennan there already. Soon all three were sitting around eating and talking about a whole lot of nothing. The only exception was that there were three and there should be four. Just then the phone rang. Shal jumped up eager to answer it but was pulled back down by Lexa.
"Shalimar let the machine get it."
"What if it's the doctor calling us about Jesse?"
"It's not."
"And how do you know this Brennan?"
"Because I gave him my cell number and told him to call that with news first. That way we'd know it was definitely news about Jesse as opposed to calling the regular phone because we screen the calls to that number."
"Okay then, there you have it Shal. Now let's finish eating."
"Fine, mother," she said with a smirk on her face and a gleam in her eyes. It was a reassuring sight to Lexa to see that on her again.
Meanwhile at the clinic:
"Where did I put that number? I can't believe I misplaced it. Brennan told me to put it somewhere safe so I could call it right away when there was a change in Jesse's condition." Although he knew he was the only one in the clinic and talking out loud to the air was foolish he couldn't stop himself.
"I might just as well continue trying the regular phone at sanctuary."
While he continued to try calling Jesse in the other room had opened his eyes trying to take in his unfamiliar surroundings. All he could think was where was he, why did he have a fuzzy feeling going on in his head right now and why couldn't he feel his legs. He decided to see if he was truthfully alone by calling out a weak but audible hello.
The doctor who was only in the next room cam rushing in.
"Well, well look who finally woke up. Tell me Jesse how do you feel?"
"I can feel some pain but nothing unbearable," which he was sure the medication dripping from the I.V. was helping with the pain issues at the moment. I can't feel my legs though."
The doctor could see the fear in the young mans eyes and tried to reassure him that it was only temporary.
"You've been unconscious for a few days and that is probably just a temporary reaction of your body to help it heal. I'm betting even though you've been unconscious for a while you're feeling a bit sleepy. So I want you to rest and when you wake up Shalimar will have returned."
Jesse smiled when he heard her name. He did feel sleepy and soon had drifted back into an unconscious slumber. This was a good thing because he might not have liked the doctors' next statement.
"She'll be here even if I have to go to sanctuary and bring her back myself."
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