14

I looked at Mark and Glen as the stood around me as we waited to go down to the ring. Neither of them will talk to me. I guess I deserve that. I thought Mark understood but of course it looks like I had been wrong about that just like I have been about everything else. I felt the tears behind my eyes. But I wouldn't let them see them. I wouldn't let them see that they are hurting me that is what they want to do. Just like always I fucked up and it's coming back to bite me on the ass. Marks' music hit and I watched as he walked out behind the curtain and sighed. When Kane's music hit i took his arm with mine and we walked through the black curtain neither one of us had a smile on our face. When Kane went to go up the stairs I let go of him and went to take my place next to his corner. I wasn't even getting n the ring with those two right now. They were tag teaming but of course they didnt like it.

They were up against none other the the Hardy Boyz and it was pissing me off Shane was pissing me off. Hell everything that has happened today is pissing me off. But I didn't let it show as I stood there and watched the two brothers come down to the ring. Jeff looked over at me and shook his head. I knew that he had heard about Dave and that was the finally straw. I turned around and walked back up the ramp. "Get your butt back down here Angel."

I turned around and looked at him showing him and everyone there and watching as tears slid down my cheeks. I motioned for a mike and a stagehand rushed one out to me. "I hope you all are happy now. I really do because I know now that you never loved me. I tell you what happened in the past and you act like I'm her but I'm not and I will never be. So walk yourself to your matches Kane because why should I when you don't feel for me the way I feel for you?"

I dropped the mike and walked backstage and rushed back to the locker room. Amy was there with open arms and I rushed into them. She closed the door behind me and we sat down on the bench as I cried my eyes out. "They all hate me now."

"Then they aren't good enough for you." She said as she rocked m gently and rubbed my back.

"How can they think that I would do that to them? If I haven't given into all the feelings I have for them what makes them think that I will sleep with a man that I don't even know?" I asked her after a sob escaped.

"I don't no babygirl I really don't know." She said to me before she sighed.

Glen

I wanted to hurt someone. I wanted to make them feel the way I felt at the moment. I couldn't believe that she turned that against us. She was the one tht agreed to the date not us. I watched as Mark and Matt locked up. I knew that he was fighting the feeling just like me. Now he is using Matt as a punching bag in the corner between me and Jeff. I knew by the look on Jeff's face that he was about to get in there and do something so I got into the ring and met him in the middle. By time it was all over the bell was rung superstars and refs were standing between all four of us making sure we couldn't get to anyone. I saw that Jeff was bleeding and felt blood running down my face and chest. But I didn't feel it. I felt nothing. After seeing what we did to casper nothing could hurt me more then that.

"What the hell is going on with you three?" Shane growled after he stormed into the office we were in.

"What? You didn't like the show that we put on?" Mark asked him.

"I should suspend you three right now. Every since you guys got back you haven't been right. I don't know what it is but you need to clear it up before I clean it up for you. I will fire her if I have to guys. I don't like it she brings in great ratings and everything but if she is going to do nothing but cause drama back stage the she will be gone." Shane said as he looked as us.

"You can't do that to her it isn't her fault. She didn't do anything. We are the ones being assholes." Jeff said to him.

I looked at the youngest Hardy and realized he was right we were being assholes. "Casper isn't to blame at all."

Shane looked at us for a long moment and then nodded. "Fine but I swear boys you need to do something about it or I will."

We all three nodded and stood up. "Shane I think that it would be best if I left the WWE."

We all three spun around to see Casper standing there in her street clothes with a sad smile and dull eyes. "What? No!"

"We all know that it isn't working. I thought I could handle this but I can't I shouldn't be here." She said as she looked at us.

"If that is really what you want Casper I will get you out of your contract." Shane said to her.

"It doesn't matter what I want Shane only the WWE matters." She said before she turned around and walked out of the room.

"You fix this because if I do have to cut her loose we are going to lose a lot of money and a great wrestler. I know that I don't want that to happen so you have a month to fix this or it is on. You three will forever be heels if we lose her." Shane said to us before we walked out in search of Casper.

Casper

I watched as the world zipped by as Dave drove us to the resturant for dinner. I haven't said a word and he hasn't tried to say anything to me. "Casper are you ok?"

I turned and looked at him with a fake smile on my face. "I'm just fine Dave don't worry about me sweetie. So where are we going for dinner?"

"I love this all night diner that makes the best burgers in the country. It's a mom and pops place but well worth the little drive to get there." He said with a sexy smile.

Honestly he is a very good looking man and he would of been one that I was attracted to if I didn't know what Paul had told me. "Are you doing this just to try to pop my cherry?"

The look on his face said it all and I knew then that I was so fucking stupid. I should have known that a freak like me couldn't have been asked out just to have a nice dinner and talk. No it had to be about getting between my legs first. "Why don't you pull over and let me out because it isn't going to happen."

"I don't fucking thinking so. Paul would kill me." He said to me.

"Then take me back to the hotel because I'm not having sex with you." I told him.

"That's what you think baby." He said as he put his hand on my leg.

I tried to move away from his hand but it didn't work out so well because let's face it people I'm a big girl. So I dug out my cell and said. "Call Paul."

I put the phone to my ear and listened as it rang. When he picked up I was happy. "Hey Paul you know the mom and pops place you took me last night will you meet us there becasue Dave doesn't seem to know how to take no."

"He didn't did he?" He asked me.

"No but I believe that he will try to." I said to him.

"I'm actually heading there now I will be there in ten." He said to me.

"Good I'll just keep you on the phone just in case he trieds to turn around or something." I said as I looked over at Dave. I saw the rage behind his eyes and knew that I had to get away from him really soon.

"I heard that you quit." He said to me.

"I'm not good enough to handle the pressure Paul." I said softly.

"Don't fucking bullshit me Casper you were made to do this and we both know that. It's because of them isn't it?" He asked me.

"They don't love me." I said to him.

"How do you know?" He asked me.

"Because all they do is hurt me Paul. All they do is shatter my heart like it doesn't matter and I tired of feeling like that. I can go home if I wanted to feel like that." I said to him.

"Look Casper I know that things are hard but that's life and if it isn't hard then it isn't worth having. You of all people should know that to have what you want you have to fight for it. You aren't fighting for what you want Casper and that isn't you. I want the girl back that caused every head to turn and all mouths to drool when she walked by. I want the girl back that knows how to get the job done and doesn't have to be asked to do it. I want my bestfriend back damn it becasue you aren't her." He said to me.

"I want to be able to have friends that don't want to pop my cherry. I want to know that I have friends that are there fo me when I need them like you. I want to be able to look at myself in the mirror and not see the freak that everyone my whole life has called me. I want to know what it's like to have someone to love me for me. But I'm shit out of luck so I guess you are too." I said to him.

"Oh hell no I am not. you think that you are the only one that feels like that? Well you aren't so get over yourself and stop pitying yourself and realize that you aren't alone in everything you do anymore." He hissed inot my ear.

"Dave stop this car now." I growled and he pulled over to the sidewalk and I got out. "How about this Paul? How about I just stop talking to everyone and hold everything inside again? How about I make sure that no one ever wants anything to do with me again? How would you like that?" I screamed before I slammed my phone shut and started to walk down the street. I didn't care where I was going I just had to get away. I had to get away from all of it.

"Casper!" Dave yelled for me.

I just kept on walking. I don't need any of this shit anymore. I have more then enough money in my accounts to find a nice place and not have to worry about anything or anyone ever again and that was what I was going to do. He wanted me to stop with the shit then I will stop with all of it.