Why hello! Thanks to everyone who reviewed! I have now made and effort to repy to everyone! this chap was original really short but it kinda grew, so please enjoy and review!

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BPOV

I woke up from the perfect dream. I was on Edward's bed, and we were kissing, properly for once, for hours and hours and hours. I opened my eyes. My lashes brushed against a cool object and I looked up into my beautiful Edward's face.

"Hey gorgeous." He smiled his crooked smile at me and his eyes bored into mine.

"You look tired." He ran a finger beneath my eyes. Well I felt tired.

"I am." He smirked at me.

"You hungry?" I nodded quickly. "Alice has made you some food downstairs." I got out of the bed and went down the stairs, completely forgetting about the outfit I was wearing. A wolf whistle came from in front of me as I walked into the kitchen.

"Who's turned all sexy on us!" I froze and went beet red. Edward came up behind me and handed me a silk robe. I grabbed it from him and wrapped it round me quickly while Emmett laughed.

"So Bella, give us all the gossip, is our brother good in bed?" Edward reached out and smacked Emmett over the head, growling.

"Leave her alone. We didn't even do anything, as you know."

"You're just worried she'll say you were a rubbish kisser." I smiled at that one, as if that would ever happen. Alice plonked a bowl of cereal down in front of me and folded her arms pouting. I raised my eyebrows, unaware to what I've done.

"What?" Edward chuckled while Alice just glared at me. I looked at him expectantly.

"She's seen you disagreeing to the lovely prospect of going shopping."

"Alice I need to see Jacob! I was really mean when I last saw him." I flinched slightly when I remembered what I said. Tanya walked in, glaring at me before going to stand next to Edward.

"Does that mean I'll have Edward to myself all day?" She ran a couple of fingers down Edward's arm. He grimaced and moved away to sit next to me. He put his arm on my leg and rubbed it soothingly, even though it wasn't necessary. Tanya was pathetic; even I could see that now.

"No he won't be able to Tanya. He's going shopping with me." I laughed at Edward's shocked expression as he stared at Alice in complete horror. Alice groaned.

"For goodness sake Edward! It's for a good cause." Edward's face took a complete change of direction. His eyes lit up and he smiled brightly at me. This could not be good. I picked up the spoon with my good hand and took a mouthful. I looked up to find everyone, including Carlisle, staring at my food in disgust. I rolled my eyes at them and continued eating, though I blushed slightly. It was weird having like 10 people staring at you as you eat. I finished quickly, to find them all still staring at me in disgust.

"Geez, you'd think I was eating crap," I murmured. Edward chuckled besides me and helped me up.

"Let's go get you dressed." He held my hand and pulled me out the room.

"How about you help me undress as well?" He smirked and leant down to kiss his forehead.

"Bella stop it." I pouted at him, my trick I'd learnt from Alice.

"Bella, don't." I sighed and admitted defeat. Edward Cullen was just as stubborn as I was, more so in fact. I walked into our room and just grabbed some jeans and a t-shirt before going into the bathroom. It was after I'd undressed that I realised I'd forgotten to bring in clean underwear with me. Shit. Okay think calmly Bella. I couldn't just go out there naked. I looked around the room and saw what I needed. I slipped the silk robe back on and peeked my head out the door. Edward was sitting on the bed.

"Eh, Edward?" His head jolted to mine, his eyes blazing. I blinked and he was in front of me. He pressed his lips to mine and my hands let go of holding the robe and reached into his hair, pulling him closer. He gasped and I opened my eyes. He was staring at me. Me, with my robe open.

"SHIT!" I jumped away from him, pulling the robe back around me and slamming the bathroom door shut. I groaned and slid down the door. I could feel my cheeks burning red and I slammed my head against the door. What. An. Idiot. And I hadn't even gotten my underwear.

"Bella!" Alice's voice came from the other side. I stood up and wrapped the robe around me tightly. I opened the door to her.

"What?" I wailed.

"Here." She tossed me some underwear and I smiled gratefully.

"Thanks." I looked round my room to find it empty except for her. "Where's Edward?" Alice giggled slightly.

"He, eh, had to, uh, calm down. You just get dressed now Bella." I blushed again.

"Right." I walked uncertainly back to the bathroom and changed. I brushed my teeth and checked my face. Great, I was still red. I walked out cautiously but no one was there so I walked down the stairs. I felt my face going red and I wasn't even surrounded by people. They were in the kitchen. I walked in slowly, my hands sliding to my pockets, while I looked at the ground, moving my hair forward till it covered my face. I couldn't face everyone. I felt rather than saw Edward come in front of me. I didn't feel his arms wrap around me and move us out of the room.

"Bella, don't ever hide your face from me." He lifted my chin up and pushed my blanket of hair behind my ear.

"I'm so sorry," I managed to whisper.

"Bella love, you don't need to be sorry."

"I do. Alice said you had to calm down, you were angry at me." Edward started laughing and I glared up at him.

"Why the hell are you laughing at me Edward Cullen?" My embarrassment was making me angry at him. He was laughing at my humiliation. He stopped immediately and looked at me, his eyes sparkling.

"Bella I wasn't angry at you. I could never be angry at you. I just needed to calm down." I looked at him in confusion. "Bella, seeing you like that, it, well I got a bit carried away." It was Edward's turn to look sheepishly at the ground.

"How do you mean?" He looked at me again.

"Seeing you like that, it brought very...extreme feelings to me." I looked into his eyes.

"Oh. OH! Ohhhhh!" I blushed again and he cupped my face with both his hands.

"Bella, you adorable little creature, I love you so much." He pressed his lips to mine and I smiled against them.

"Come on, Carlisle is going to take you in. Alice wants me to go in a separate car."

"What are you shopping for?" He looked away from me as he answered.

"Clothes." This could not be good at all. Edward passed me my coat and led me out to the garage, and Carlisle's Mercedes. He was already there waiting.

"Have fun with Alice," I muttered to Edward as he hugged me goodbye.

"Oh I will Bella." He kissed me once more.

I climbed into Carlisle's Mercedes and there was a bit of an awkward silence.

"Bella, I'd like to explain to you more about HIV. Is that okay?" I nodded.

"Once you have contracted the HIV virus, almost all sufferers will eventually get acquired immunodeficiency syndrome, more commonly known as AIDS. This occurs once their CD4+T cells fall below a certain level. However the virus also affects other cells in the immune system, macrophages and microglial cells. You get me?" I nodded and he continued. "So once AIDS has been contracted officially there are 4 stages to it. The incubation period, acute infection, latency stage and then AIDS. The first stage, the incubation period is usually asymptomatic." I looked at him blankly. "As in no symptoms appear. The second stage is where I would estimate Jacob to be. This can include a variety of symptoms as you have witnessed." I nodded. "This stage usually lasts an average of 28 days. The third stage lasts anything between a couple of weeks to 20 odd years. This stage, similar to the first shows few or little symptoms. As Jacob has had a slightly increased rate of the disease showing up in his system, I would guess that he would last about 4-6 weeks in this stage. The fourth stage is when infection is likely to happen. People do not usually die of AIDs per se; they die of an infection like pneumonia that preys on the weak immune system."

"And how long does that stage last?"

"It depends."

"On?" I asked impatiently.

"On how bad the infection he is likely to catch will be."

"How long do you think that will last? Out of personal experience? How long? Tell me, please." He sighed and looked over at me, his expression cutting through my heart.

"I'd estimate 2-3 weeks."

"B...But that's not right! You said he had 6 months left! Now you think he only has 6 weeks!"

"Bella, that was before I got a proper chance to study Jacob. Now that I have seen how active this disease is, his lifespan will be much shorter. I'm sorry."

"Why? How? How can you tell me that? This can't be happening. He should have months left! You said! You said!" I threw my head against the headrest in tears, my body shaking. I felt the car shudder to a stop and Carlisle brought me into his arms. His touch didn't have the same calming effect as Edward did, but the coolness had a reminder of it.

"I'm so sorry Bella. I wish there was something I could do." As with Alice, my sobs gradually quietened.

"Sorry Bella," Carlisle said once more as he restarted the car.

We were almost at the hospital when it came to me. Carlisle could do something. He could, Edward could. They could save Jacob. And by saving Jacob, they would save me. This was brilliant! It was perfect. It would work without a doubt, and Jacob would still be alive! I could stop his death. We pulled up at the hospital and I shook my head. I needed to get those thoughts out of my head for the moment. I would need to work out a way to ask, yet how could I ask them to do this? It would disrupt everything. It would ruin their life here. Yet I knew that if asked, Edward would most likely do it for me. Because he loved me, and Jacob dying would hurt me more than he would want. But now that the thought was in my mind, I couldn't back down. It was the one chance for Jacob to live and I couldn't just turn away from it.

The tears started again as soon as I saw Jacob. He looked awful, worse than he had two days earlier. I ran to his bedside and took his hand.

"Jake you look awful." He smiled weakly.

"Thanks Bella, you sure know how to build a guy's confidence." I laughed through my tears.

"At least you're still joking."

"Of course Bella, I could never not tease you." I half-smiled at him. Carlisle walked in with a clipboard.

"So Jacob, pain scale?"

"About an 8."

"An 8! Isn't that really bad?" I had jumped up in alarm.

"Bella calm down. We'll give him some morphine," Carlisle told me.

"Right. Sorry." I sat back down, my cheeks once again red.

"And your symptoms?" Carlisle addressed Jacob.

"A bit of a headache, and my legs really hurt. And it's really cold." Carlisle nodded.

"That will be the fever. I'll get a nurse in to give you the morphine and get you some water. Bella, would you be so kind as to find Jacob some of the more edible food in the canteen downstairs? Believe me the food for visitors there is miles better than the stuff they bring up for patients." I stood up nodding my head violently. Carlisle walked out of the room and seconds later a young nurse bustled in.

"You fancy anything in particular?" He shook his head.

"Just some cereal or something is fine." I nodded and left the room. Trying to follow the directions to the canteen, about an hour later it seemed I finally reached it, after getting lost 3 times. I got a tray and chucked on some food. I wasn't really looking at what I was getting him. During the walk down my mind had gone back to my plan. If I could just get them to agree to it, everything would be perfect. I would be able to live with my best friend and my boyfriend. Forever.

"Oh my God, sorry!" I had bumped into someone when I turned around.

"Oh its okay, I wasn't looking where I was going." I smiled nervously.

"Sorry again though." They guy opposite me laughed. He had short blonde hair, and looked remarkably like Mike. Though he did seem much nicer and less inclined to date me than Mike. Once again using distraction techniques.

"I'm Jonathon." He held out his hand and I shook it. It was warm and nothing like what I wanted.

"Bella."

"Who are you here for?"

"Um my friend. He um, he has HIV." I looked down at the ground, using my hair as a shield again.

"I'm sorry. I know the feeling too." I looked up in surprise. I recognised the tone in his voice. Pain, and utter defeat. It was how I sounded. Until this morning.

"My mum is dying of cancer. She's not got long left."

"I'm sorry too."

"Yeh well maybe I'll see you around here sometime. We can talk."

"I'd like that." He said bye and walked away. Talking would be good. He was someone who understood. He was like me. I quickly returned to Jacob's room to find him drugged up and half out of it. I handed him the food.

"Here." He sat up as I sat down awkwardly on the chair beside him.

"Thanks." We were silent for a couple of moments.

"Jacob I'm so sorry. About the day before yesterday. I didn't mean what I said, I'm sorry." He grinned at me.

"Bella, it doesn't matter. I knew you didn't mean it. And besides, I deserved it."

"Are you sure you're okay? You know with us?" I blushed and looked at the ground.

"Bella, I'm happy because you're happy." I searched his eyes, looking for some bitterness. And I found it. It just made me feel even guiltier. I had dropped him at a second's notice and gone off with some guy, I had been so obsessed with Edward being here I had completely left behind my dying friend. I closed my eyes and stifled a groan. I was a horrible person. I opened them and Jacob was staring at me intently. I waved him off.

"So how is life in hospital?" He looked at me with his eyebrows raised.

"Crap. I'm just glad I have a TV." I smiled. I looked around the room. There were flowers on a stand. I nodded at them.

"Who bought you the flowers?" Jacob had the decency to look embarrassed.

"One of the nurses." My eyes barrowed. Okay why was I getting all uptight about this? Jacob was a free man, and he had every right after what I had done.

"Bella we're just friends!"

"Yeh I know that."

"Someone getting jealous?"

"No, of course I'm not." I wasn't jealous. Just...overprotective. At least that's what I told myself. The tension in the room started building as I looked at Jacob. Every time I saw his eyes I heard Carlisle's voice telling me he had 6 weeks left. 6 weeks. He only had 6 weeks left. Unless my plan worked. I had to stifle another groan and I ran my hands through my hair.

"Jacob I have to phone Charlie. And Billy. I have to tell them...stuff." How was I supposed to tell them that he would die in 6 weeks?

"What? Have you found out something else? What has Dr Cullen told you?" My eyes filled with tears, though they didn't fall yet. My mouth opened to speak but nothing came out. How could I tell Jacob he would die in 6 weeks? I shut my mouth with an audible snap and hurried from the room to a pay phone. I phoned Charlie first.

"Hello."

"Hey Dad, it's me."

"Bella, how are you? How is Jacob?" My throat constricted and no sound could come out.

"Bella? Bella are you there? Are you okay?"

"Dad you need to get down here immediately. Jacob's going to die in 6 weeks." Then the tears fell.

"What?"

"Jacob has about 6 weeks left. You have to get here," I sobbed.

"Of, of course Bella. We'll get a flight down next Monday."

"D...dad?"

"Yes?" He sounded like he was in shock.

"C...could you please tell Billy."

"Of course Bella, anything."

"Thank you. Bye."

"Bye Bella." I put the phone back up and sank to the floor, sobbing my heart out. I clutched my knees to my chest and let the tears come.

"Bella it's going to be okay." Carlisle came and sat down beside me. He wrapped an arm around my shoulder and I leant into him.

"It won't be. You know that as well as I do." Any thoughts of any plan had flown straight out of mind after the phone call.

"Shhhh." He rubbed my back soothingly. "I'll tell Jacob. You shouldn't have to deal with this Bella." I nodded, sniffing and trying to stop my tears but I couldn't. They just ran constantly. Carlisle helped me up and walk along to Jacob's room.

"Bella! Bella! What's wrong with her?" I sank into a chair, my eyes on the floor while the tears continued flowing. I was sinking deeper and deeper into a numb empty shell. I needed Edward, I needed him to bring me back to the world. I was too deep for anyone else to save me now.

"Jacob I have bad news for you. I have a timescale for your illness. I'm afraid that by my calculations you have between 6 and 8 weeks left."

"That's it?" he gasped. My mind registered this and I looked up at Jacob. He was looking at Carlisle in complete and utter terror. It broke my heart to see him look so vulnerable.

"I'm afraid so Jacob. You seem to have a very high accelerated version of the disease. I'm so sorry." He left the room. I walked over numbly to his bed and sat on the edge. I took his hand and he pulled me to him, a loud rasping sound coming from the centre of his chest. I laid my head on his chest and he wrapped his arms around me. We stayed like that, both of us sobbing in our different ways for what seemed like hours. We didn't eat lunch. We didn't even think about lunch. We just sat there and cried.

I don't know what time it was when Carlisle came in again. He looked at us and for a moment his charade seemed to slip and his eyes were full of pain as he registered ours. But he put it back in place almost immediately.

"Pain scale?"

"6.5," Jacob whispered, his voice hoarse.

"I'll get you some more morphine."

"Carlisle?" I spoke up suddenly, the hole in my chest seeming larger than usual.

"Yes Bella?"

"I want to go home. Could you phone Alice?"

"Sure Bella." He left the room. No doubt Alice would be coming up the stairs now.

Just as I thought this she came in. Edward as well.

"Edward." As soon as I saw him I ran to him and collapsed into his arms, my legs giving way beneath me. I started sobbing uncontrollably again.

"Edward, oh Edward." I wrapped my arms round him tighter, breathing him in, his scent calming me slightly. I felt myself being picked up into his arms, bridal style.

"Bella, please please stop crying love." He stroked my cheek gently, wiping away my tears. But I couldn't stop.

"Take me home Edward. Please." I felt myself being carried out the room, but I couldn't concentrate. I vaguely recall Alice saying bye to Jacob but Edward was striding off, barely walking at a human pace, his desperation showing. He continued to rub soothing circles down my arm and leant down to kiss me every so often. We got to Alice's Porsche and Edward didn't bother to put me in another seat. He just held me on his lap and pulled me close to him. I continued to sob, my tears soaking his shirt.

"Bella." His voice cracked with pain as he looked down at me. More to add to my guilt.

"I'm so sorry Edward." That was all I could get out before sobbing again. I clutched at Edward, continually breathing him in, wanting him to be closer, but finding it was impossible. I didn't notice when Alice screeched her car to a stop in the garage, or when Edward took me inside. I could hear Esme's horrified gasp when she saw my state and I could feel Jasper's calmness push at the outside of my mind, but like I said, I was too deep for anyone but Edward to save me now.

"Bella?" I looked up when I heard Alice's voice. "Tomorrow we need to talk." And with that Edward whisked me upstairs and laid me on the bed, still cradling me. I put my face in the crook of his neck, his hands constantly soothing me.

Alice's words came back to me and for the first time I realised the look that was on her eyes. And it all came back to me. My plan, how I was going to save Jacob. Alice would have seen it. She knew everything. Absolutely everything. And she would tell them all, and they wouldnt agree. Jacob would die. And part of me would die with him. I just hoped that I would still have Edward to make me whole again.

another chapter done. so who knows what Bella's plan is??? I hope you enjoyed, please review!