(ashleys pov)
It has been a week since i found out about Andy's condition , i felt so numb , i didn't sleep ,barely ate anything , hardly drank, i felt lost without Andy , he was my everything. He only just agreed to marry me i cant lose him now.
"Andy,please wake up, you promised forever , remember? You can't leave me.i sobbed, grabbing his hand tightly "i promise to never let go Andy, please, please wake up "my words cracked as i sobbed louder.
"Ashley you have to get out of here, even if its only for five minutes , this is doing you no good" i recognised jakes voice, but didn't look at him , not wanting to look away from my batman.
"i won't leave him , i tell you the same thing every time you come jake , i can't leave him" i whispered.
I heard him sigh and leave, he has been doing this all week , coming and telling me it would be best to leave Andy for awhile , doesn't he understand that i cant , i cant get up and leave him, its not possible, he is my fiancé and i want to spend every living moment with and cc would also come to see Andy , but unlike jake they would just sit next to me , not saying anything, just respecting the silence.
"andy baby , can you hear me , you can make it through this , i know you can , i believe in you , your batman remember , my batman , and im your outlaw, forever and always, nothing can ever change that" my words cracked again and i cried , the tears rushing down my face "i..i love you"
"i wrote you a song batman" i pulled out the tear stained paper.
Now you're adrift in the sea of lies I'll never walk away We carry forward into the night I will not walk away Woah Woahh We will not walk away Tear down! the walls that will surround
A foolish villain in an endless chapter
The demons running behind your eyes
A simple shadow
We can fight together
Tear down! the walls that will surround
Cry out! Above the burning sound
Show me! How bleeding hearts still pound
If we stand together, we will be unbroken!
The strength of innocence like children's laughter
An army standing for what is right
We'll fall like angels if we lose what matters
Tear down! the walls that will surround
Cry out! Above the burning sound
Show me! How bleeding hearts still pound
If we stand together, we will be unbroken!
Tear down! the walls that will surround
Cry out! above the burning sound
Show me! how bleeding hearts still pound
If we stand together, we will be unbroken!
Cry out! above the burning sound
Show me! how bleeding hearts still pound
If we stand together, we will be unbroken!
I sobbed violently throughout the entire song, i need Andy, im nothing without him.
"that was really good Ashley , we should use it in the new album" i looked away from andy for the first time in awhile , not realizing jake, jinxx and cc were stood in the room.
"what new album , how can we have a new album without him"i spat the words out , releasing the anger i didn't realise i had. before too long i felt i hand press on my back "shh Ashley it's going to be okay , you'll see" i felt tears spring to my eyes again at jinxxs words , they had so much hope and faith , "your right , he will make it , he is Andrew biersack for hell sake" i smiled kissing his cheek quickly.
"ash will you please go and get something proper to eat please" i look down at andy before looking over at my fellow members , then my eyes caught the mirror on the wall , i look like crap , bags under my empty eyes , pale skin and it looked like had lost allot of weight.
"fine , but all three of you are staying here with him, i will go down to the cafeteria, please , if anything happens , get me right away" they all nodded in agreement as i left the room, im only doing this to shut them up.
I took a seat in the cafeteria, losing my appetite instantly, i ordered a black coffee , sighing to myself as the burning liquid made its way down my throat, i felt some of the stress leave my body as my shoulders slumped, its going to be okay, andy will pull through i know he the words ran through my mind, i knew i was kidding myself, something is wrong, something doesn't feel right.I calmed myself down , the guys said they would come and get me if something was wrong they promised. I drank the rest of my coffee, placing the cup down on the table, sighing once again , as i went to stand up to get another one , cc burst through the doors. "Ashley"he screamed "Ashley quick , its andy" i dropped my cup on the ground , smashing it everywhere , i knew i shouldn't have left ! , i ran out of the cafeteria, leaving everyone staring at me.
I felt my sides burn as i ran though the corridors , rushing to Andy's room, as i burst through the room i felt my heart break in two, doctors surrounded him, as the heart monitor, was now just a single beep.
All the doctors left, avoiding eye contact as they did."i sorry" the final doctor whispered as i rushed to andys side grabbing his hand tightly "noooo" i screamed "andy you promised , you promised me forever" my words cracked as tears filled me eyes "you cant andy , you cant leave me"
"Ashley" i looked over at jake , jinxx and cc all three of them was crying. The said it would be okay "its no use Ashley"
I refused to listen to them , he cant be gone , he is my batman , i kissed his lips softly as the tears fell from my eyes and dripped onto andy , making it look like he was crying with i was about to let go of his hand , i heard the heart monitor start beeping again , my eyes widened as i felt his hand tighten against mine. I looked up at jinxx , jake and cc , all their eyes mirrored mine , shock.
"Andy" i whispered , crying even more as his eyes opened , revealing those ocean blue eyes ive missed so much.