[Hero]
The one thing that rebuilding something that took over a century to originally build took from you when you tried to accomplish the task in months instead of years and decades was a lack of personal time. It seemed the last few months since the Cabal's attacks had flew by, thanks to John and Nikola the group was nowhere near as large a threat as they were before and she was grateful for that because honestly she had needed a little breathing room to focus and process so much. Finally now though a few months' later things were well on track and she had a few months to just sit quietly alone in her office with her tea and update a few mounds of paperwork. She'd done that for a few hours and not needed to focus her thoughts.
Ethical dilemmas are no stranger to someone in the medical or healthcare profession as it is called today and why most people only have to live with their decisions for one lifetime I have been forced to live with mine for two. Many times since obtaining my degree(s) over the years I've been faced with what people call hard choices but I must confess I felt the pull particularly strongly with our superhero Walter and the abnormal 'suit' he was wearing. Why the mission of the Sanctuary is always to find a brilliant way to save both human and abnormal there are too many times that it comes down to a choice when one must choose and right or wrong that was the position I found myself in with our 'superhero/flying man'.
Given enough time I am confidant 'we' would have come up with a way to save both Walter and the creature suit he was wearing that was giving him his abnormal abilities I was presented with the choice I had to make it. If not for his desire to not see the creatures destroyed the truth is they would be dead by my hand, the host would have been safe but millions/billions of those tiny creatures that were interacting on such a microscopic level that I could barely measure it would in fact cease to exist. When I informed my patient that we had come up with a way to save his life and what it would do to the creatures he was adamant that they not be killed, why I understood and as a scientist agreed with his resolve the truth was that a choice had to be made and it was in my hands to make it.
Perhaps it was Walter's simply statement in response to my belief that he was allowing the excitement to sway his decisions but he was right, I and my staff risk our lives everyday and like it or not; agree with it or not it was his life to do with as he pleased. I found myself wavering in my belief about what was right and wrong, did I have the right to make the decision of whose life was more important and yet that is precisely what I do every single day as head of the Sanctuary network and as a physician to both humans and abnormals? As I said originally ethical dilemmas are no stranger to physicians…myself most of all. Fortunately in the end Walter made the decision for me, but I was not going to let him die particularly after risking his life to save my team and I.
In addition to the 'superhero' situation my team and I also found ourselves dealing with the hatching of an abnormal my father encountered many decades ago but only in passing and stories. Fortunately despite it's aggressive nature we were able to capture it after a search but it resulted in many injuries to my personnel and the loss of at least one civilian who had the unfortunate luck to stumble upon the recently hatched egg when a new building site was being excavated. Why I was busy at the Sanctuary Will and the interim head of the London facility, Declan McCrae who volunteered to come over and help us out why the repairs to his facility were being done made a rather impressive pair though I fear they are still a bit upset that Walter managed to get the upper hand in their few encounters…still it all worked out in the end I suppose as the saying goes.
On another matter though I did not 'approach' this directly when I found out about it appears I may have misjudged on some level the former renegade operative for the Cabal that we came across several months ago; Kate Freelander. Why I admit that our initial meeting did not go as well as I had hoped the truth is she is much more morally challenging and has a deeper history than I originally thought. Though I am disturbed that she was able to gain complete access to the Sanctuary systems and had 'strangers' in my home and in my work, particularly the likes of Mr. Constantine and his associates as well as her brother, I admit I am impressed with her level of knowledge in only a short time plus her abilities and the ultimate decision she came to regarding protecting her family. Why of course I am upset that she fed someone to one of my patients without authorization, they are not here for that, it does perhaps give me a deeper understanding of how she got involved with the Cabal in the first place and why she may have stayed with them as long as she did…abnormal or human, we protect our own as best we can and I can hardly fault Kate for doing the same; though I must discuss proper protocol with her at length VERY soon!!! For now I have asked Henry to move her things to more permanent quarters and though she has valuable skills at this point she also requires extensive training on the Sanctuary and the 'way' we do things but I am confidant she will become a valuable ally and perhaps…someday a dear friend.
Closing the journal for the moment and placing her pen back in the holder, a gift from James when she graduated Oxford finally…it was a beautiful set and she only used it in the journal writing and for private correspondence. No one really wrote anything anymore and as Helen took a small sip of her tea a smile pulled at her lips, writing like manners and proper use of the Queen's English was an almost forgotten art but it was skills that she relief on in order to preserve her own sanity and her soul in ways that likely no one but someone form her time would understand.