CH 14 – Fallen
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Kenzi hesitantly opened the door to Bo's flat. She entered and found Bo laying on the couch with a bowl of nasty looking cereal in her hands. Kenzi's eyebrow rose.
"What the hell is going on?"
Bo put down the bowl and picked up a pillow. "Hey," she muttered pressing the pillow over her face.
"Hey," Kenzi snorted in disbelief. "You texted me - please come we need to talk."
"Yeah."
"Well, I wasn't expecting this," Kenzi pointed at ragged looking Bo. "Finding you here crying in your cereal.. Those are not good by the way. Buy some fruit loops for god's sake. Didn't Lauren give you any baked goods for me?" She asked looking around.
"No."
"Why are you like this?"
Bo glanced at Kenzi trying to look offended.
"Don't give me that look," Kenzi huffed. "You look like crap and you know it."
"I don't follow what you are yapping about."
Kenzi rolled her eyes. "Okay, so I have to pull it out of you. 'We need to talk', right." Another huff. "You obviously stayed the night. Had sex with the hot blond. And we both know, it has been a while since the last time you.."
"And?"
"What's happening here? The sex was bad?" Kenzi asked surprised. "I was sure the girl knew her stuff. She looks like that."
"Like what?"
"Capable."
Bo huffed narrowing her eyes. "Sex was great. Lauren was great. Best ever."
"What's the problem then? The date sucked?"
"No," Bo let out a small smile. "The date was great. Had dinner. She threw her mother out and invited me in."
"Go Hotpants."
"We then.. you know.."
"I know. No icky details, thanks," Kenzi nodded resolutely. "And in the morning?"
"The kid pounced in," Bo exclaimed. "While I was naked in bed with his mother!"
"Was he horrendously traumatized?"
Bo rolled her eyes at her friend. "No. He wanted breakfast."
Kenzi paused running her fingers through her hair. Then she let out a little sigh. "I feel I keep repeating myself here, but what is the problem?"
"I don't know! Bo screeched. "Maybe it's the fact that the boys dad wasn't a test tube."
"Huh?"
"Lauren had a one night stand with some guy and poof – a baby."
"And you are, what, angry that Lauren did such a thing? Had a one night stand. Or that she had it with a man?"
Bo looked at Kenzi with her head cast down. "I guess I'm a bit dissappointed. And I don't know why."
"You thought she was Saint Lauren, but she's just human.." Kenzi said. "What did she say?"
"She said it was a mistake. "
Kenzi smiled encouragingly, she hoped. "There you go."
"I've never been with a man."
"I know. So?"
"I sort of assumed that she hadn't either."
"Ah!" Kenzi realized Bo's twitching. "And now you are feeling insecure and full of doubts."
"Am not," Bo denied, but groaned after. "I am. Shit."
"You should never assume! Anything. Even if you are a nun, doesn't mean all of us are. You're being stupid."
"I know!"
Kenzi sighed. "Did she say the guy was great?"
Bo didn't meet Kenzi's eyes. "No."
"But?"
"But nothing. She said the whole thing was a mistake and.. that it had been terrible."
"So she just tried it and didn't enjoy it. That's her right isn't it?"
"Yeah, I guess."
"Did she know what she was doing in bed?"
"Absolutely."
"Did she treat you with respect and admiration?"
"Yes."
"So shut up with this shit and call.."
Bo let out a little squeal. "I can't call her."
"Why the hell not?"
"I just.. really can't."
"And I repeat - Why?"
"Because there's more."
"What?"
"Me.. I messed up. I kinda.. just flew the scene and said something stupid.."
"What? What did you say?"
"Thanks for everything," Bo groaned in shame and buried her face in her hands.
Kenzi's jaw slacked. "No.. You seriously said that?"
Bo groaned. "I did."
"Thanks for everything?"
"Well, it.. Sounds bad when you say it."
"So, how did you say it then?"
"Oh this is.. Bad." Bo whispered looking at Kenzi like a deer in headlights. "Oh my god.."
"You didn't leave cash on her nightstand, did you?"
"What?"
Kenzi just smirked.
"No! Kenzi, quit being an asshole."
"If you want to see an asshole, look in the mirror," Kenzi shrugged.
"Oh hell, I know.."
"Go fix it," Kenzi ushered. "Just go and tell her, you're not really a morning person. And that you think too much! That you find it hard to trust people!"
"Yeah."
Kenzi watched her friend with a keen eye for a while. "Did the kid scare you?"
"No," Bo shook her head. "He seemed sweet. Though I do wish that I wouldn't have met him like.. that for the first time."
"You just panicked about the whole thing. You were naked!"
"But I just grabbed my stuff and.."
"And then you ran out."
"I did," Bo grunted unhappy with herself. "Shit."
Bo hovered at the door of Lauren's house. She had already counted the grooves on the door. Twice. Soon someone would call the cops on her. Kenzi had ushered Bo out telling her to go fix everything so that Kenzi would get some goodies. As a result after a quick shower here she stood, hand in mid-air ready to knock. Heart hammering in her chest. She hoped she wouldn't pass out.
"Oh my god just do it!" Bo hissed nervously.
'knock knock'
Bo waited unmoving, but nothing happened. The longer the wait stretched the more it was getting on Bo's nerves. She heard nothing from inside. After a while she knocked again wondering, if Lauren and Ethan were even home.
"Maybe I should have called first instead of rushing here," Bo muttered defeated. "To an empty house."
Just as Bo was about to turn on her heels, she heard the floor boards creek inside. And only a few moments later the door opened. The blond looked surprised to see her there.
Bo stood there feeling sheepish and unsure. The stretching silence was hurting her ears. Say something, she snarled at herself. Do it.
"I'm sorry," the women said in unison.
Bo looked at her feet, before meeting Lauren's eyes again. "What are you sorry for? I'm the one, who.. messed up."
"You didn't mess up anything," Lauren whispered with a small smile. "I know all this.." she gestured vaguely inside her house. "Is a lot."
"I just.. I'm sorry."
"Come in."
"Thanks," Bo said stepping in. She glanced around. "Where's Ethan?"
"Napping."
"I was going to call you now that I got him to sleep," Lauren led Bo to the kitchen. "Do you want something?"
You, Bo wanted to say.
"Tea, coffee, nibles?" Lauren continued, while she began to twirl around gathering supplies. "Please sit," she gestured to the table.
"Thanks, tea and.."
"Cookies?"
"Yes, cookies would be nice, thanks."
Lauren quickly set the table and sat down next to the brunette. The blond was nervous. She knew, she hadn't handled the whole thing good. At all. And she desperately wanted to make it okay. Bo was such a special woman and Lauren didn't want to lose her.
"So, um.. I guess, we should.. Talk?" Lauren ventured looking at Bo over her steaming cup of tea.
For a moment Bo's eyes were wide like saucers. She's nervous too. How adorable can she get, Lauren thought looking at her.
Bo cleared her throat. "I just came here to say.. I'm so sorry about this morning. I kinda panicked. I was, um, feeling overwhelmed. New situation for me. But.."
"But?" Lauren tried not to sound too worried. Was Bo shoving her over? Shit.
"I like you so much."
"Oh!" Lauren breathed and a smile took over her face, before fading out. She knew she had to make amends. Explain.
"I'm sorry I blurted the whole Rainer situation. I just.. I didn't know what to say. At that point and then I just kept digging myself deeper."
"I'm glad you told me."
"Well, still I should have not told you like that," Lauren apologized sighing. "I just kinda threw it all out at you. I do that sometimes, when I get nervous. I blab unnecessarily."
"I guess it was.. a lot of information at once," Bo said.
"Right. It was. I could have handled everything better. Dyson actually pointed that out."
"He did?" Bo couldn't hide the surprised tint from her voice.
"He has his moments," Lauren let out a little laugh. She remembered Dyson's words and decided to continue. "And um.. While we're sort of on the subject.."
"Yeah?"
Lauren fiddled with her spoon, before locking eyes with Bo. "I.. I just want you to know, that.. um.. I don't sleep with men, if that is something that you were, you know, worried about."
"Uh," Bo didn't want to admit to thinking something so petty.
"And also you were the first, um, partner for me in years anyway so.." Lauren trailed off.
Bo bit her lip. "You were great."
"Thanks," Lauren let out a small laugh. "You too. Awesome. But... Like, um, I said before," Lauren tried to find the words to ease Bo's possible qualms. "With Rainer.. It just happened and I didn't enjoy it. So that was the first and last time with any man."
"Well, uh, I don't mind really," Bo started hesitantly. "But it is good to know."
"Dyson told me to tell you, so there would be no.. misunderstandings."
"That lump of beef does really have his moments then, I guess."
Lauren snorted at that, making Bo grin happily.
"He does. Sometimes."
"Ethan's probably waking up in less than an hour, so.."
"I'd like to get to know him."
"Oh?"
"This morning went, you know.. badly," Bo sighed shaking her head. "I wasn't at my.. best. I was tired 'cause I didn't get much sleep last night and I.."
Bo noticed Lauren's shy, but mischeavous smile.
"Wonder why?" The blond smirked.
Bo just huffed in mock offence. "You are the culprit."
"I know."
"It was great. I'd lose sleep over you anytime."
Lauren went to stand between Bo's legs. She pressed a small kiss on the brunette's lips.
Bo smiled. "We're okay?"
"Yes, at full speed ahead."
Bo nodded grinning. "I want to get to know you both. You and Ethan. And of course meet your family."
"You've already met my mother."
"Ouch."
"Well, you also have parents I have to meet. You know, someday." Lauren shrugged.
"And 3 brothers."
Lauren's eyes widened in shock. "Did I know about this? Brothers.. 3? Protective?"
Bo smirked. "Very."
"Oh," Lauren seemed to ponder for a while. "I guess I have some serious making up to do," she cooed suggestively.
"You mean for making me hide in the bushes, your mother finding me in those bushes and.. You getting me all horny in the morning only to be interrupted.." Bo teased, before Lauren put a finger on her lips.
"I promise to do my best to make amends," the blond husked and then captured Bo's lips in a passionate liplock.
After a heavenly battle of tongues Bo came up for air. She kept her arms around the other woman and pulled Lauren to sit on her lap. "I'm really sorry I left so abruptly."
Lauren smiled. "You came back, that's what counts."
"Good." Bo laid her head on Lauren's shoulder. "I think I could fall in love with you Lauren."
"Oh?"
Bo met Lauren's eyes smiling sheepishly. "Kenzi told me not to say anything.. like that, if I didn't want you to think I'm desperate."
"Are you?"
Bo let out a little laugh. "Yes."
"That makes two of us then," Lauren husked. "I.. I am falling for you Bo."
"Want to hear a secret?"
"Huh?"
"I've already fallen. For you."
Thanks for reading :)
A/N And you've talked me into an epilogue. Just a short one.